xBloodyStrangex: Hey hun
SihayaHelldius: *shes takesa  deep breath, her chest tight with stress as she nods* Hello
xBloodyStrangex: Harley said it's fine to speak with you alone, though she did say to tell you if this gets stressful she's coming in. Just to relay the message.
SihayaHelldius: if shes brought in sadly i will walk...i want just us to talk no middle person im tired of being put under the lgith with others around
SihayaHelldius: light*
xBloodyStrangex: Well I'm just relaying the message. I been doing good today with stress levels being low and she knows this and just doesn't want them to go back up again.
SihayaHelldius: then maybe its not best to talk ever cause i will only raise thoes levels
xBloodyStrangex: Why do you say that?
SihayaHelldius: *rubs bridge of nose*
SihayaHelldius: because im goin tor bring up the last few days today that i have had a chance to ponder on without being under pressure
xBloodyStrangex: Why not calm yourself and just talk. It doesn't have to be stressful
SihayaHelldius: I respect your need to break...but honestly in my opinion why run away from something like this why not hit it head on and try while being with someone..instead of it seeming like your running away like a child just cause others tell you too or other suggest you too
SihayaHelldius: i will willing to stay with you and give my issues some work while being with you
SihayaHelldius: why where you not able to do the same on your end
xBloodyStrangex: I wasn't running away, I was stepping back from a stressful situation.
SihayaHelldius: and my side of it wasnt stresful...i was willing to try while still being with you rl
SihayaHelldius: i dont understand why i was the only one willing tot ry
SihayaHelldius: with youwalkin away
xBloodyStrangex: And calling me childish for looking out for my wellbeing, says you don't truly care about my feelings right now. And saying you're gonna walk out by bringing in my real owner is childish as well.. Harley never once downed you she was trying to help you..
SihayaHelldius: im not calling you fuckin childish im sayin the actions are telling me it is...i wasnt the one wanting to walk away from it...i was willign to stay and help myself and help you and hope yow ould help me...instead of saying goodbye
xBloodyStrangex: And I didn't run anyways. Stating we can be friends isn't running away
xBloodyStrangex: You flat out said I was being a child for "running away"
SihayaHelldius: sure your considering your wellbeing but what about MINE
SihayaHelldius: since this issue past 2 days have been hell on me and raths relationship now cause we are arguing and crying over this
xBloodyStrangex: Why is your relationship with Rath affected by me?
SihayaHelldius: because hes seen how upset and hurt i am and the tension is making he and I fight...as im being told to leave imvu and this whole thing with want another..cause hes tired of me getting hurt over and over again by people
xBloodyStrangex: He shouldn't be fighting you over this he should be your MAN and comforting you
xBloodyStrangex: I am still here as a friend while I sort my shit out Kitty I haven't run away from anything
SihayaHelldius: and his way is telling me to leave all this being
xBloodyStrangex: All I asked for was time
SihayaHelldius: behind
SihayaHelldius: do you understand that there is achance i wont get to have you even if you want it.....numbe one its with rayne..and harley told me flat out that she had say over every relationship you had
SihayaHelldius: right htere tells me cause of all this last few days i may not ever have anythign withyou
xBloodyStrangex: Harley wouldn't take someone away from me that made me happy
SihayaHelldius: look im sorry if oday stressews you out again but now that ihave a chance to truly speak my mind without 2 others being there to question every little word i say i feel more at ease with it
xBloodyStrangex: The only reason I gave Harley say in my relationships is in case they get toxic and I don't see it.
SihayaHelldius: sent you the message from harley
SihayaHelldius: on skype
xBloodyStrangex: That message is true though. I love Harley as an owner BECAUSE of how well she looks out for my well being
xBloodyStrangex: And there is nothing wrong with that
SihayaHelldius: whats upsetting is she said even if yuou wanted it cause it made you happy she would stop it and tell you no
xBloodyStrangex: Becaue it's way too soon and it's for my mental wellbeing. It's in my contract.
SihayaHelldius: how the hell was i supse to know if iw as told i wouldn have put together funds to get a promise ring for us all
xBloodyStrangex: It's common sense I think. Harley being my real owner has the power to do what she deems necessary for my wellbeing.
xBloodyStrangex: And you can't tell me you wouldn't do the same if it was your sub
SihayaHelldius: then thats where I differ from her asn an Owner..IF my sub is happy and wanting something i would let them try it...
SihayaHelldius: not automatically tell them no
xBloodyStrangex: Harley didn't tell me flat out no
xBloodyStrangex: She gave me advice
xBloodyStrangex: What I do with that is on me
xBloodyStrangex: You don't get to throw Harley under the bus, all she did was try to help everyone in the situation
SihayaHelldius: im not throwing her under the bus
SihayaHelldius: im speaking my mind on how i feel about all this
SihayaHelldius: that was given to me
SihayaHelldius: thats all
xBloodyStrangex: What exactly did Harley do to you that was so bad? I mean you just called her a bad Owner.
SihayaHelldius: i did not
xBloodyStrangex: SihayaHelldius: then thats where I differ from her asn an Owner..IF my sub is happy and wanting something i would let them try it..
SihayaHelldius: see everyone is twisting my damn words
SihayaHelldius: i just told you how i would work things i never called her bad just we have different cviews
xBloodyStrangex: There is no way to twist what you've stated. By saying what you would do vs another Owner it automatically makes you seem like you believe you're better than they are. You've insulted my Owner and I am not happy about this.
SihayaHelldius: no i dont think im better then she is
xBloodyStrangex: >.>
SihayaHelldius: we work differently as owners im just sayin how i would work things..
xBloodyStrangex: /me Turns and punches a hole in the fucking wall
SihayaHelldius: oh getting off tract btw
xBloodyStrangex: So what you getting at?
SihayaHelldius: if no one told you steph is making you out to be shitty and tryin to get fb to contact the owner of ur husky to get him back
xBloodyStrangex: Basically what you're saying is your issue is my Owner, who ain't going anywhere.
SihayaHelldius: figured you should know
SihayaHelldius: no i have no issu with harley
SihayaHelldius: if i did i would flat out say it
xBloodyStrangex: I know Steph was contacting his owner because I keep in contact with said owner. I appreciate the eyes but that has nothing to do with us
SihayaHelldius: i like harley i just didnt like how she worded things in her message...yes i have a habbit of wording things differentl too just upset me thats all
xBloodyStrangex: You're using irrelevant situations to curve my emotions right now.
SihayaHelldius: i have no ill will against her
xBloodyStrangex: You're using situations that hit my emotions to break me down into being with you which I CANNOT DO RIGHT NOW.
xBloodyStrangex: You want me as your lady but you don't respect my wishes for space to sort things out
SihayaHelldius: im not..see your twusing words
xBloodyStrangex: How the fuck am I twisting your words?
xBloodyStrangex: There was no need to bring up Steph or the Husky
SihayaHelldius: i do respct wishes i just felt that why couldnt you try and work threw it qwhile being with me
SihayaHelldius: believe me take al then time you want
xBloodyStrangex: Stop
xBloodyStrangex: I'm trying to explain shit to you and you're not listening
SihayaHelldius: i brought up the husky shit cause with how i am i tend to forget things so i fgured i would say it now before i forgot once i left the pc
xBloodyStrangex: Ok but the Husky has NOTHING to do with you and I
xBloodyStrangex: and neither does Steph
xBloodyStrangex: They only hit my emotions and I believe you know this
xBloodyStrangex: So, right now, I'm going to ask you to leave. If you are not ok with being friends until I am at LEAST mentally stable then that is on you lovely.
xBloodyStrangex: are you there?
SihayaHelldius: no i didnt know that..nice to see your assuming
SihayaHelldius: and why say im not wanting friendship i do
SihayaHelldius: told you i would wait
xBloodyStrangex: Then respect what I need. Don't bring up Steph and the Husky unless it's absolutely necessary
SihayaHelldius: and i will but only for a time...
xBloodyStrangex: Well I hate to tell you lovely, but I don't know how much time I will need. I've never been this mentally fucked up before and I have a feeling it's gonna take a while to get my head back on straight after all that's happened.
SihayaHelldius: longest i will wait is a year after that im sorry i know people dont know how long issues stay that wy im merely telling you after a year im goon to move on
SihayaHelldius: *gets up* and i will leave sine you told me to leave right now
xBloodyStrangex: If you're giving me a dead line then you might as well move on now
SihayaHelldius: no dead line im just sayin longest ive waitesd is a year for someone
xBloodyStrangex: And I said if you can't handle being friends then I'm asking you to leave
SihayaHelldius: ok
xBloodyStrangex: Now who's twisting who's words
xBloodyStrangex: If I wanted to fully leave I would have but I said we could be friends until my shit is sorted out and my head is ok again
SihayaHelldius: ok
xBloodyStrangex: Now, if you really love me and want me to be ok, allow me to bring in my Owner.
SihayaHelldius: i do love you but i wanted this talk to be just you and I i work better when im not under inspection every second by someone else..but if you feel the need fine i will stay while she comes in
SihayaHelldius: i cant promise that i will beable to stay cause of my son
SihayaHelldius: hes acting up today and not able to focus on him and this
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: But you was able to focus on it until now?
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: If he's acting up why didnt you just wait
SihayaHelldius: no im just sayin hes been asleep but hes been tryin to wake up [ast 10 mins hence why i went silent not to long ago when youa sked if i was still there
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Alright
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Look
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Whether you agree that I am against you or with you
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: And you trying to show Strange a message that I sent you about what I've said, real cute because I already showed Strange the same night not to mention even read it to her and to Rayne so Rayne understands as well before she gets the same idea
xBloodyStrangex: /me Walks over and crawls into Harley's lap
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I am upfront and honest
SihayaHelldius: as am I
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I never hide anything
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Yeah that's why you wanted a private chat with Amy?
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: When it had to do with you I made sure you were there.
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: But my name came out of your mouth very often
SihayaHelldius: no i just was fuckin tired of being under a damn spot light with others...i felt this was something myuself and AMy should talk about in private
xBloodyStrangex: You realize though
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I dont try to put you under the spot light
xBloodyStrangex: That every decission you make affects them too
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I try to help you and Strange
xBloodyStrangex: Not just me anymore
xBloodyStrangex: Because Harley owns me
xBloodyStrangex: Angie is my Mother
xBloodyStrangex: And Rayne is my other love
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: DO you know Strange was gonna dump you and just ignore you all together until I said hold up now, give her a chance to explain herself and work through it
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: But shit I guess me being nice and butting in like that is a waste
xBloodyStrangex: But yeh less all blame Harley for keeping me from Marrying you
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I really do like you Aya, I think you're cool
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: But this right here is like a slap in the face man
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: When I told you my point of view from things, that was my schooling to be a therapist talking
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I'm totally fucking ghetto
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: You want my real unprofessional opinion
SihayaHelldius: so even thogh i was willing to work in my shit and try YOu where just wanting to walk away..and you had ot be told by Halrye to stay.wow..jut wow
xBloodyStrangex: You don't understand
SihayaHelldius: can i even trust right now that even witht his break i may have a chance at all if youw here acutally willin to walk away right then and there
xBloodyStrangex: Yes.
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: You just twisted my words?
SihayaHelldius: no you siad amy was just wanting to walk away but you told her no
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: She was being emotional
xBloodyStrangex: I was beyond emotional
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I brought her back to reality
xBloodyStrangex: My brain was shutting down
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: But anyways, if you really love Amy, let's test that
SihayaHelldius: and *bites her tongue* nvm if i say more ima look out to be the bad guy
SihayaHelldius: ok no i was ok with harley not this
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: No
xBloodyStrangex: I didn't invite Angie
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Angie is my trainer to be a Domme
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I got something you can bite
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I'm still in training with her
xBloodyStrangex: She's my trainer for slave retraining
xBloodyStrangex: o. o
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Oh so your not ok with me?
xBloodyStrangex: /me Curls into Miss Harley in her lap
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: As I said...
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: She has an issue with me
SihayaHelldius: no
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: This is me being unproffesional btw
SihayaHelldius: i do not><
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: My sister
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Really
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Cuz you just sat here and said
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: My REAL blood sister, I always go to her when things go bad so here ya go
SihayaHelldius: ]all i wanted was a damn privae convo with am to talk jus her and i.... thats all
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: So you know… The message that Harley sent you was worded more nicer then I would have. As her Owner, you have NO SAY in what Harley says or does with Strange. If I were her Owner, you would have been blocked and banned on ALL sites. I don’t fucking care how fucking long you known her. My sister was kind enough to sit here and allow your little tirades to continue to effect Strange. I wouldn’t have. Since you want to hit Strange below the belt I’m going smack you in the face with some TRUTH.  You think that Strange was alone in that PC? Non mon cher…. And I’m about as pissed off at you as all get out. So. Issue one…. Strange is my FAMILY. No matter that your little dalliance didn’t go your way, she is and will remain family. Relationships come and go but family remains…. Next issue… Acting as if your a better Domme then my sister, yet again…. I don’t care how you word it… A fucking pig is a pig even in a wig. So saying how your “different” is judging her…
SihayaHelldius: I NEVER FUCKIN SAI DI WAS BETTER
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: z
xBloodyStrangex: O_O
xBloodyStrangex: z
SihayaHelldius: i just said halrey and I work differently and i told amy how i would have done things if it was my sub
SihayaHelldius: i never
SihayaHelldius: never
SihayaHelldius: once
SihayaHelldius: sdaid
SihayaHelldius: i was
SihayaHelldius: beter
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Watch who you yelling at
SihayaHelldius: then
SihayaHelldius: her
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I'm not Strange and I am not Harley
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I will fucking ban Strange from contact with you
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Don't fucking test me
SihayaHelldius: im not testing anyone
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Now sit the fuck down
xBloodyStrangex: Thing is, Angie was my owner.
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: And shut the fuck up
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: /me pets Strange in the corner
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: You want to hash out issues let's hash em out
xBloodyStrangex: /me Snuggles into Miss sweetly with a deep sigh
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: But you made Strange cry today
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I ought to fucking whoop your ass
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: You think you was in here alone?
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I have Strange on call
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Have an issue with it
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: To fucking bad
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: SHE is not ready to be married irl to ANYONE
xBloodyStrangex: /me plays with the ends of Miss's hair.
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I don't care if it were the Pope asking
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: /me shrugs and sucks on Strange's forehead
xBloodyStrangex: O: wait... I can't marry da pope????
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Mentally Strange is NOT ready fro that
xBloodyStrangex: damn..
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: You want ot be buthurt behind her asking for time
xBloodyStrangex: that was like...
xBloodyStrangex: my dream right dere
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Then want to set a deadline?
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Shhh you aint catholic enough to marry the pope
xBloodyStrangex: wait... o.O why you sucking on my forehead???
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Habit
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: Like legit
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: If someone I was with wanted fucking time to fucking heal I would give it
xBloodyStrangex: O.o
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I HAVE GAVE IT
xBloodyHarleyMayhemx: I use to suck on Maxy's forehead
xBloodyStrangex: I pet faces..
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: I have been waiting over 5 months for my love to get over his issue
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: AND I'M NOT GOING TO STOP
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Are you here?
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: Or should  I throat punch you?
xBloodyAngelMayhemx: If I get to 5 Imma throat punch your ass so hard it'll kick you out the room