You can’t make me believe something stupid

It’s definitely that stupid thing where they tried to make you go do something through pain so they can see it if you want it badly I honestly don’t care no more annoyed to the point where I’ll just start again next time and make sure I start it right this time, but not having things get fuc*ed up and I’ll just keep restarting never actually starting the program until I get to do it properly without people being stupid towards me

No because they stop me hoping they can create an opportunity instead of focussing on creating an opportunity they’re only focussed on stopping me stupid so you stop me and then you’re just stuck there doing nothing until I start again and I can keep doing this because of what I know it leads up to

I don’t have to prove anything I can just continue to live the way that I am I don’t fuc*ing care

I already fixed my phone but then I realized why it’s fuc*ed up in the first place and the reason is why it’s so funny that I fix it and don’t do anything other than Call people. Stupid and lame. Lame is as lame does. I’m acting lame because of with someone lame actions towards me I’ll just reschedule it’s not a big deal not for later in the day but for later a different day. Yeah because they could just do this to make me miss a deadline but if I forcefully missed the deadline, we get to start back at the beginning again and I’ll have more time than I have now, so I’m just preparing it for the following term not this one that’s fine I’ll just continue on my self-employment and my user experience projects because the paperwork and research you do can be entered into contests, which is why this outfit and project that’s associated with it is so cool

I’ve already proved they can’t give me problems big enough to cause me issues and the fact that they try is why I let them stop me because they know it’s not anything that should do anything to me, so what was the point of it happening to me right we both know meaningless but let me entertain the reality it was trying to cause to see what happens but if I let you win, what happens

Replacing tendons that consistently and often is how they damage and tear. I’m not taking anything lightly. I’m just using it to the most.

Okay then what

OK you win and my time was wasted. I missed my appointment. I’ll re-scheduled for next term. I don’t care just make things worse for yourself. I just enjoy avoiding for the same reason that you do things to me unnecessarily. For fun you don’t like to do anything but you want to hear me say some thing about it as well as Xpress difficulties getting to somewhere you knew I had to be so you just want me to have difficulty in my life which means I need to get rid of whatever the fuc you think you are And I can do that bye fuc*ing up my life what did you get to see now? Nothing other than the fact I’m preparing for the next term and I’ll have more time to watch you fuc up bit*h want to see me have a difficult time and it doesn’t make sense when you’re supposed to be helping people become better, this is a stupid inconvenience that isn’t inconveniencing enough to stop me. I’m just letting it to see what would happen look. Nothing happened was I supposed to be frustrated or angry at the pain or something? I’m upset because I couldn’t make my appointment. No you’re wrong I never cared because of how much they’ve harassed me. I really want to just die at the next opportunity you fuc up with, one of these opportunities will cause me to die and that’s what’s so funny it’ll be in one of those weird ways where you could’ve just missed your life if you had just tied your shoelaces and you missed the speeding train that’s how I’m gonna let you manipulate my time Because you like people to feel emotions but I have an actual mood disorder you can’t fix this you’re just causing confusion and delays for no reason and it’s better for me because court yeah I’ve been attempting to go to school for like six years and I still haven’t been able to What was the reason I don’t know blame it on mental illness who cares all that matters is I keep trying, and I still can’t seem to do it for some strange reason. Yeah I couldn’t make it to the appointment. I don’t know only the people who know what do they say? God only knows right and the devil of course that’s it. So funny, knowing somebody has potential that you can’t actual eyes and being the reason it doesn’t blossom it would’ve happened naturally, but somebody wants to have a part in the role of the story so I’m not letting them by force back to the drawing board I had built up such a good momentum. Oh well, throw it all away started back from the beginning brand new mandala, do you need me to think I can’t keep up I’m just gonna use your excuses to save myself the problem of having to show and prove anything I’ve already accomplished taking money from people I don’t need to prove anything else no damages that’s right always bigger things to think about when you think I should be focussed on some thing else Trying to puppeteer and control somebody smarter than you isn’t working. I’m sorry you should just leave me the fuc alone it happens again I’m just here calling somebody stupid for fuc*ing with me again that’s what you wanted you just wanted to be around for me to call you stupid thinking I care about something I don’t, oh you’re not gonna you’re gonna be late to your appointment what do you mean you don’t care and you’re not going oh wasting your own life as much as I’m wasting mine. The only difference is I get to laugh either way I don’t know what’s going on? I just wake up to bullshit every day. Don’t fuc with me Play around acting stupid yeah prolonging something you know that’s going to happen means it happens worse than it was supposed to have happened do you know this is gonna happen anyway and you’re just gonna make it worse than if it would’ve happened naturally that’s how things work you’re going to cause of the future you’re trying to avoid no because they want to think I’m always in an episode. They don’t want to entertain the channel idea because I need to be tunnel vision or some bullshit. I’m so tired if you don’t understand it’s not that the slightest inconvenience will cause an explosion it’s that I am leading, which ever inconvenience do whatever a cat to cause the most damage, do you think you’re giving me a plot device to make my story more interesting I don’t care. Turn this into a nature documentary and just sit in the fields looking at plants all day I don’t give a fuc fuc these people on my SiS shit no right trying to claim some Christopher Columbus bullshit

Well, if I’m gonna be in pain, I’m gonna sit here and enjoy it. Was I supposed to get flustered about the timing I really don’t want to go. I really just want to court beef

It’s a good thing I took a picture of the appointment I missed what reason would I have to have a missed? The appointment should be a good one not being able to walk seems pretty legit who knew that you could sustain so much damage from just keeping your feet up. Yeah, it’s a learning experience for me to bodies having things naturally happen till you’re when you don’t move when you’re unconscious they have to make excuses for themselves. Yeah it happens when you when you move in your sleep. Wow I’ve never moved in my sleep in my entire life. I’ve always been a dead sleep or did I just start moving in my sleep now how did that happen? What caused me to suddenly start moving in my sleep for the first time in 30 years

Swollen feet from walking too much that’s the first time I’ve ever experienced that and I’ve walked across town and spent multiple days walking 20 km back to back that’s the first time my feet have ever experienced this weird bullshit I just woke up to it how can I wake up to problems? I’ve never had before and expect people to make me believe that it’s a common thing. If it’s so common why is it an uncommon experience for me, how come I know how to make it go back to normal by force as opposed to letting it naturally go back to normal how come I know what needs to be done to put my foot back to normal so that it doesn’t swell up how come it swells up now for the first time ever Already documented everything it’s just weird that they have to tell me the reason that doesn’t make sense for something I’m already educated and you don’t wake up with feet problems from walking people give you walking problems to stop you from going places so they don’t have to chase you were whatever who cares the fact of the matter remains they let me document too much already

Yeah, just gonna end up getting more comfortable yeah think less about everything else around me and more about how I can use it to benefit my situation

I don’t care what difference does it make? If I’ve already found out I have to stay here stay here indefinitely so I can finish my five year or six year program like this different breed do you not move your legs and they cramp up because I was taught to stretch it out farther into the pain trying to curate who I end up with without even being able to recognize who deserves me it’s better off just being single file


No, they’re expecting me to respond emotionally without understanding the diagnosis of my mood disorder, so I just ruined my life instead of getting frustrated. It’s better for me that way and worse and more long-term impactful than just acting out angrily funny enough because I have a fuc*ing mood disorder. I wouldn’t know any better. Fuc*ing idiots. Ruined my life. I don’t care. I was trying to live my life now someone else can be responsible for the problems I have I don’t care. I don’t know how to do is be authentic. Anything else is not my problem to deal with, and I don’t have to deal with it. I can let it ruin my life, I can literally just let people make me homeless because they won’t be able to do anything else. After that people will have to acknowledge that I’m homeless and that’s it because of the actions taken making the reality for court happen by force not gonna do anything other than let you make whatever happen happen