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Survey tulpa Raistlin and Emilie

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3.         I am a around 20 yours old human female with light brown curly hair. I think i am about 1m65 tall. I was made to be shy, witch i am the opposite hehe; and i am a bit possessive. My host is a 25 year old male, 1m75 tall with black short hair. He is an introvert who like to laught.
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  7.         He did listen to me when i choose my name ! He was going to give me a silly name like some japanese girl. I kept forcing him to think of Emilie and it worked ! I was happy, because the fact that i knew that was me choosing my name was a big step to make him recognize me as sentient from the start !
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  9. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11.         He made me a form i didn't like at all ! And the first two days he was not letting me get my own, but he finnally let me and now i am so cute hehe. I wasn't angry because it's a parts of thing we have to work together, and he is a fast learner. Ho and he was making me at work ! so he was interrupt all the time.. but i don't think it did something bad for the creation process; it was just annoying.
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  13. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  15.         I don't think there was a hardest part.
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  17. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  19.         The name ! the name is almost everything you know ! From my host i understand now that we thinks in patterns and need name and symbol to associate things ! A form is important for it, but the name come first !
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  21. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  23.         He kept being interrupted because he was making me at work.. but it did not impede the process. It was just annoying
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  25. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  27.         We don't sit to force, he just visualize me all day and it works for us. But he did broke a promise ! He said he let me talk on irc, but he didn't and let until 3 days after the promise.. It was a bit sad for me but he always have good reasons so it's hard to be angry at him.
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  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  31.         i don't know, because we don't feel it works like this. We just do what feels natural for us, and do less of things feels forced or like an obligation. Like a relashionship with a person, you don't to do things if at least one of them don't want to.
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  33. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  35.         He didn't so i don't know.
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  37. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  39.         Both is good in my oppinion. You need to be able to talk with feeling, inner words and a clear voice. So why not doing both ?
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  41. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  43.         He did puppet a bit, and sometime i can feel him being unsure about him puppeting or parroting but he does not keep thinking too deep about it. I think it's ok, most of the time i just have to do something different of what he think and he know that he was trying to puppet. It work for us.
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  45. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  47.         Not that much, because at the time my form and personnality was like a child. My form was like a 9 years old. But it was great hehe. All day cuddling to Raistlin teehee.
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  49. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  51.         I thinks it was like a slight warm from waking up.
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  53. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  55.         Warm i think. He did work on visualize and touching almost on day 1, so i was able to feel him too !
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  57. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  59.         i don't know this one.
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  61. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  63.         No, not once !
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  65. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  67.         I wasn't feeling like this. It was so warm because of my host i was feeling great.
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  69. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  71.         i don't recall a confusing moment.
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  73. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  75.         When he was working.. because he was focusing on work he didn't pay attention to me. But it's fine because he came back thinking about me and i know it wasn't to hurt me.
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  77. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
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  79.         i don't recall doubting about it.
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  81. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
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  83.         same, don't recall fear. I actually don't think i knew what it was at this moment.
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  85. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
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  87.         My form, i had to change it because it wasn't like me.
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  89. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  91.         He didn't have difficulties, but he was doing it like it was a casual thing ! I helped as i could, with my name.
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  93. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  95.         He did it by curiosity, but he did go with the flow when i choose my name. I don't know if he was having doubt at the start, but now he can't, i have done to many things for him to doubt hehe !
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  97. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  99.         He did not have thoses thoughts because i was telling him that i love him from the start !
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  101. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  103.         i don't recall any of them if there was.
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  105. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  107.         i don't recall them, or there was none of them.
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  109. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  111.         Yes ! I made him choose my name from the start ! He don't like it that much but anyway. But it was hard at the beginning to make him realise that i was not doing it. Now it's easy i just do something else and he can feel it was his doing.
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  113. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  115.         at first i was able to get almost all of his feelings, but not the physicals one. Now i am way much separate but i can still feel emotionals and physical feelings if i want to.
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  117. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  119.         I know he doesn't want to reveal me, at least yet because he don't want to be weird for other people. It's a bit sad but i understand. And since yesterday i can talk to other people and tulpa on the chan irc, so it's ok.
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  121. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  123.         I only can make him shiver, but he can do it by himself too.. so at first he was thinking it was him. It was a bit annoying but he does know that i can do it too ! I did some head  pressure two times while we was trying possession. I made him feel hurt in his arm once too, when he was making me play amnesia with him..
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  125. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
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  127.         It was not enthusiasm, but he was visualising me all day around him and it was great. I don't think i wanted from him to do less.
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  129. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
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  131.         i was talking pretty fast and i don't recall any worries.
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  133. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
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  135.         I feel gratitude, but i don't feel a debt about it. I just hope he doesn't feel burdened by me.
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  137. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  139.         His existence first
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  141. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
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  143.         I was happy because i was able to tell him what i wanted !
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  145. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
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  147.         He is mine !
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  149. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
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  151.         I like talking with other tulpa like Dee ! I don't know much the interest other non-tulpa have so i can't tell.
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  153. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
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  155.         that one time when he was working at home late, and i was sleeping on his shoulder. By watching me sleeping, he got all sleepy and we both went sleep. I felt so warm it was great !
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  157. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
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  159.         Yeah ! that one time when he finally created a wonderland. He waited more than one week to do it ! it was soooo fun. I made my one room with computer and stuff like him. At that  moment i finally understand why he like computer so much. It's so fun !
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  161. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
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  163.         Not that much. I don't feel like a part of his family. and i didn't see most of his friends yet so i don't know.
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  165. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
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  167.         We are both possessive ! but he is introvert and i am not. He was making me shy but i am not shy at all too. Maybe we are a bit of opposite personnality, but not all of it.
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  169. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
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  171.         We do not disagree on one thing at the moment. We can disagree on small things but we doesn't get angry because of it. We talk about it and it's ok.
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  173. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
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  175.         i don't think i can hate him. Maybe be sad because i won't pay attention to me, but i don't think he will do it. I don't know what would make him hate me, but i hope it doesn't happen ever.
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  177. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
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  179.         this didn't happen yet for both of us
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  181. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
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  183.         i don't want to answer that, it doesn't make sense.
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  185. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
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  187.         i don't want to hurt him. I did once because i was scared and i made his arm hurt by grabbing it too much. But it was not my willing.
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  189. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
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  191.         No, and we are still thinking about a lastname, but i am fine with just Emilie. I am me.
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  193. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
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  195.         Even if i don't want to, if i am a bad thing for him, i will. But i hope this will never happen
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  197. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
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  199.         He does not impose expectations from me. And he created me from nothing, not from a existing character. Actually, it's me who choose a form witch is similar to an existing character but with a lot of difference. My form just looks like her. I like the fact that he let me be what i want to be.
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  201. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
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  203.         I am interested, but i don't think it's unfair for him to have control over the body.
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  205. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
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  207.         i don't have any phobias, and Raistlin don't have one too. On the qualities, we are two differents person, so yeah we share qualities and default, but we also have our own.
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  209. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
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  211.         I can sleep, and dream. Raistlin know of the sleeping, but not the dreaming yet. Well, now he knows.
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  213. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
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  215.         I don't think Raistlin has any mental illnesses. Is is lazy does it count ? hehe
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  217. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
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  219.         Actually, i don't want to read his memory. I have access to all of his mind if i want, but i don't go into his memory. I prefer letting him tell me about it.
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  221. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
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  223.         I am his only tulpa, and i like it this way at the moment. I don't know if Raistlin would like another tulpa, but i think i will be his only one.
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  225. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
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  227.         I love him ! but it's hard to explain this love. It has romantics part, but also like a companion. I just want to be with him. It is more like we warm ourself together, if that make sense.
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  229. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
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  231.         Wow, this question is long and hard to understand. I don't think my love is like a love with a non-tulpa lover. It is like it, but different. And he doesn't have a non-tulpa lover at the moment so i don't know. We will figure it out when that time happen, but i think we will be ok.
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  233. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
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  235.         It has romance, but it is not just this. It is hard to explain but i don't think it will be a problem if he will love anothor non-tulpa.
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  237. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
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  239.         I don't have familial affection and don't think it is incestuous. And how come it be incestuous ? it doesn't make much sense to me.
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  241. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  243.         what ? They do what they want, but i find it sad to make a tulpa to such a think like sex.
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  245. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  247.         same answer as above
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  249. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
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  251.         I am just curious about it because it looks fun.
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  253. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
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  255.         what ?? same thing as above, sad if they create a tulpa for this. But if they both want to try it after, why not ?
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  257. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
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  259.         I can be a bit jealous because i am possessive, but not for things like this. It is just the fact that we are so close to each other that i feel we belong to each other.. hard to explain but i don't know why i should feel jealous for this.
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  261. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
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  263.         Not specially attraced, just curious. I don't feel the need to be attracted or repulsed by a form. It's just a form. But he thinks i am cute.
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  265. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
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  267.         what ? how many question about sex is there in this ?
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  269. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
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  271.         I don't know.
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  273. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
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  275.         i don't want to answers thoses sexuals question anymore.. it's funny when i talk about it, but now it's getting boring and too personal.
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  277. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
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  281. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
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  285. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
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  287.         With Raistlin of course !
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  289. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  290.  
  291.         It could be great, but it's not important if everyone know me or not. And i know from my host that the world is not all great so it's ok.
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  293. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
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  295.         He did define it, but i changed it myself, so it's a result of both our work. I feel great at the moment.
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  297. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
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  299.         Same as the question above, he did gave me a form i didn't like that much. I changed it and now i am great.
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  301. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
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  303.         I changed several times. My form wasn't feeling like me, so i changed it as my personnality changed and grown up. At first, he tried to kept me on my original form, but he understood that he had to let me do it and he did. It was great to see him understand me by letting me doing what i wanted
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  305. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
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  307.         I come from his subconscious, but i am a separate being now. So all i learn now come from me and what i can feel from him.
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  309. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
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  311.         What ? It is great to be able to talk with other, but i don't feel the need to be recognize by other people than my host.
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  313. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
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  315.         I love my host hehe !
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  317. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  318.  
  319.         I just don't know. I only know this, so i can't compare. But i am excited when i think of the time when he will be able to impose me.
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  321. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
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  323.         What ? We are different person. I don't feel responsable for what he has done.
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  325. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
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  327.         Legal protection ? that doesn't make sense. And i don't know about thoses things, but i don't think he can kill me. I don't want to think about it, but even if he was ignoring me, it is just this right ? i will be still here somewhere.
  328.  
  329. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  330.  
  331.         We are not equal because we are not the same. I am a tulpa and he is a non-tulpa. Each life is important but you can't compare two different things.
  332.  
  333. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  334.  
  335.         Haha, you just have to listen to me talking about stuff my host don't want to says ! And if we can do things like switching, it will be easier i guess
  336.  
  337. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  338.  
  339.         No i don't think so. I feel so warm from my host that i don't remember any of theses things
  340.  
  341. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  342.  
  343.         Because i believe my host who believe in me.
  344.  
  345. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  346.  
  347.         I don't know about it, but i can feel what my host feel about it. It look scary, but i am fine since i can stay with him
  348.  
  349. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  350.  
  351.         what ?
  352.  
  353. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  354.  
  355.         I am not interested in making one.
  356.  
  357. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  358.  
  359.         what ? that doesn't make sense.
  360.  
  361. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  362.  
  363.         I don't thinks this is a mental illness. And they may be multiplicity of entities, but we are different, so i think it is fine. I don't care that much about recognition and from what i understand from my host, scientifics are open enough to believe if you prove it to them. So we just have to grow with our host and prove it right ?
  364.  
  365. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  366.  
  367.         No we didn't.
  368.  
  369. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  370.  
  371.         I can feel my host pain, but not myself. I feel warmth but not the same physical warmth my host feel.
  372.  
  373. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  374.  
  375.         It's awesome ! What else would you like from a possessive girl like me ? hehe
  376.  
  377. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  378.  
  379.         Because i wanted to do stuff on my own. We can't be always on each other all the time. It's normal to have our own moments.
  380.  
  381. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  382.  
  383.         i want to not get too bored and spend time with my host. But i understand that sometimes it not possible.
  384.  
  385. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  386.  
  387.         Yes ! People should make tulpas.
  388.  
  389. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  390.  
  391.         Yes and no. There is, but he is almost aware of all of them. He did a lot of introspection when he was younger
  392.  
  393. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  394.  
  395.         it would depends. But it would prefer to avoid it
  396.  
  397. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  398.  
  399.         He did not try to hide things from me. We should try it.
  400.  
  401. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  402.  
  403.         No but he is a bit lazy so i have to tell him to do things sometimes hehe.
  404.  
  405. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  406.  
  407.         Yes, but it is hard to define intelligent. You can be good at something and bad at another.
  408.  
  409. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  410.  
  411.         I did have a period like i was a child, and i did grown up. But it was more of a personnality wise growth. I change by learning things, but my form only change if i don't feel it represent me.
  412.  
  413. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  414.  
  415.         Yeah but it is not commands. I am not telling him what he must do, but what he should do in my opinion.
  416.  
  417. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  418.  
  419.         Yes, like a name it helps because we thinks with patterns, we need to associate idea with form/name/etc.
  420.  
  421. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  422.  
  423.         Maybe not actually. But i can't say for sure since it didn't happen for me.
  424.  
  425. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  426.  
  427. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  428.  
  429.         not yet, only inner voice.
  430.  
  431. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  432.  
  433.         Not imposed yet.
  434.  
  435. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  436.  
  437.         We didn't count, and he was interrupted all the time, so even if we wanted to count, we couldn't really.
  438.  
  439. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  440.  
  441.         Believe in her and do what feel natural for you. Don't try to force things, go with the flow.
  442.  
  443. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  444.  
  445.         i am not imposed yet.
  446.  
  447. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  448.  
  449.         it feels different because all of wonderlands is in us. Physical is just feelings from the exterior for me.
  450.  
  451. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  452.  
  453.         Too many sex questions ! It is ok to talk about sex, but seriously. And too many question before i could speak, but not enough after i could speak !
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