A log

[23:02] <@Zyrlana> Hey guys.
[23:02] <Wirepony> 'lo Zyrbutt
[23:02] <@Zyrlana> I need to tell you something really important.
[23:03] <Wirepony> ?
[23:03] <+Jackelmandingo> ??
[23:03] <+Jackelmandingo> https://24.media.tumblr.com/d7148521e35406a780931817ee6e8f8c/tumblr_n5ipodgFxj1qzcv7no1_500.jpg
[23:04] <+Jackelmandingo> https://31.media.tumblr.com/e4b71ac29e058961af7d29fd11a80766/tumblr_mxz8m6ZuLA1rhavdko1_500.jpg
[23:04] <+Jackelmandingo> ??
[23:04] <Wirepony> ?!?
[23:04] <@Retl> omg a thing
[23:04] * Vessara licks Zyrlana's face all over
[23:04] <@Zyrlana> I'm sure you've had suspicions for a long time now, but.  About 3 years ago, my cousin died in a car accident, you might know her as Melissa.  After the accident, I developed acute schizophrenia to cope with it, trying to let her keep living through me.  I never have been able to afford any kind of therapy or anything until a couple weeks ago, and, well, I know it's time that I need
[23:04] <@Zyrlana> to let her go, and I'm really sorry I've lied to you all.
[23:05] <@Zyrlana> If you want me to leave, I'll go, I know I've been doing wrong.
[23:05] <@Dime|Work> Eh what now?
[23:05] <@Retl> I don't fully understand as I've only known you about one year, but as long as that helps you feel better and stuff, then it's fine.
[23:05] <+Jackelmandingo> ?? the same.
[23:05] * Retl hugs.
[23:06] * NitoKa licks ponies
[23:06] * Jackelmandingo boops NitoKa
[23:06] * NitoKa boops back
[23:06] <@Dime|Work> Zyrlana: I am confuse.
[23:06] <Wirepony> I don't think I buy it.
[23:06] <@Snow> so... you're not Zyr, but you've been here for years as her?
[23:07] <+Jackelmandingo> Or more.
[23:07] <Wirepony> ...I'm also thankful it's bedtime.
[23:07] * Wirepony ([email protected]) Quit ( Quit: Pigs can fly with sufficient thrust. )
[23:07] * Jackelmandingo gives wire
[23:07] * Retl drinks
[23:07] <+volrathxp> Too late, JMD.
[23:07] <@Zyrlana> Yeah, kinda.
[23:07] <+Jackelmandingo> ......
[23:08] <@Dime|Work> Well, either you're pranking the lot of us or you're a damn fine actor
[23:08] * Rabtar ([email protected]) Quit ( Ping timeout: 121 seconds )
[23:08] <@Dime|Work> Either way, you've been amusing to hang out with. XD
[23:08] * volrathxp is off to bed as well.
[23:08] * volrathxp is tireds.
[23:08] <+Jackelmandingo> OK Zyrlana, are you who you are?
[23:08] <+volrathxp> have a good night, folks.  take it easy.
[23:08] <@Retl> As far as I'm concerned, it's fine if you're like. Eight different people sharing the same name. If none of them are being obnoxious and disruptive and harmful then I don't mine chatting and stuff. :n And if it's a lie, then I'm not sure what you would gain from doing so, but the whole obnoxious/disruptive/harmful thing still holds.
[23:09] * volrathxp ([email protected]) Quit ( Quit: )
[23:09] <@Zyrlana> No, it's true.  She was my older cousin, I've talked about the accident before, but I downplayed it.
[23:09] * NitoKa ([email protected]) Quit ( Connection closed )
[23:09] <@Zyrlana> But now, thanks to medicaid becoming available, I've been able to take medicine and go to therapy to control the schizophrenia.
[23:10] * Retl accepts. Hugs. Is glad you're getting help, then!
[23:10] * ThatDarnPony flops.
[23:10] <@Dime|Work> Well, if it was a coping mechanism to get you through a time you couldnt' get REAL help, I suppose I'm a little hurt, but glad that we could help you get better.
[23:10] <+Jackelmandingo> So are you the same school teacher that we know?
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[23:11] * ChanServ sets mode +v NitoKa for #FalloutEquestria
[23:11] <@Zyrlana> No.  I mean, I still like ponies and fallout and stuff.
[23:11] <@Zyrlana> I actually just drive a school bus.
[23:11] <+Jackelmandingo> Oh...
[23:11] * Jackelmandingo shrugs
[23:11] <@Zyrlana> Which is why I'm always here from 9-1:30
[23:11] <@Snow> huh...
[23:12] <@Zyrlana> My cousin was a teacher though, partially why I became a bus driver, to be at the school.
[23:12] <@Dime|Work> Well. We're still glad to have more FOE/MLP/Fallout fans around. If you want to change your username or whatever, that's fine too, if it helps your conscience on the whole 'honesty' score.
[23:13] <@Zyrlana> I actually came up with most of the pony stuff off of IRC, IRC is what I used to like, be her.
[23:13] * Jackelmandingo hugs Zyrlana "That was a big step you have taken. And now hopfuly will that much better for you."
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[23:14] <@Zyrlana> Well, thanks, I just hope the others are similarly understanding.  I was considering just abandoning IRC all together, but it wouldn't be fair for me to just disappear forever.
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[23:14] * Salt hugs Zyrlana!
[23:14] <@Dime|Work> I'm with JMD. Thanks for admitting it, and I hope you continue recovering. Kinda a little sad that we don't have our busty russian anymore, but knowing you've been missing her longer than we have... *hugs*
[23:14] <Yamaryu> sssssssssup zyr
[23:14] <Roan> Hello everyone
[23:15] <@Zyrlana> Sorry Yam.
[23:15] <Yamaryu> Nothing to say sorry for
[23:16] <+Jackelmandingo> Ok to start off things new. "Hello Zyrlana."
[23:16] <@Zyrlana> Hello Jackelpants.
[23:16] <+Jackelmandingo> XP
[23:16] <Yamaryu> See this is the part where I make a crack that results in an instant ban
[23:16] <Yamaryu> But I've already been to that rodeo.
[23:17] <@Zyrlana> That everyone really is secretly a dude on the internet?
[23:17] <@Dime|Work> Good plan to not, then.
[23:17] <Yamaryu> No
[23:17] <Yamaryu> The ultimate reversal
[23:17] <Yamaryu> I'm actually a blonde white girl
[23:17] <@Zyrlana> Hot?
[23:17] * Willflower is now known as TicTac|Sleep
[23:17] <Neptune> Hot indeed.
[23:17] <@Zyrlana> I actually wasn't concious of me actually doing this until about a month ago.
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[23:17] <@Zyrlana> So if I did anything before the last month, I might not remember it.
[23:18] * Jackelmandingo shrugs
[23:18] <@Zyrlana> On IRC, but possibly other things.
[23:19] * Neptune hugs a Zyrlana.
[23:19] <@Dime|Work> The internet is just possibility delivered digitally. The possibility of bringing back someone you loved, of being better than you are, or because it's anonymous, getting away with behavior you never could in real life. That you chose to honor a loved one is good. That you had to lie to do it isn't, but this is the Internet, and we are bronies. Forgive and forget is the order of the day,...
[23:20] <@Dime|Work> ...every day.
[23:20] <@Retl> Fortunately, IRC tends to have logs. Yay!
[23:20] * Neptune also hugs a Retl.
[23:20] <Yamaryu> [sappy sentimental good feel statement]
[23:21] <@Retl> [squeaking intensifies]
[23:21] * Retl drapes across a Z and resumes playing Gaem
[23:21] * Yamaryu 's favorite pony would apparently be Applejack for honesty if she wasn't a stupid hick
[23:21] * Retl is now known as Retl|Game
[23:21] <Yamaryu> also the second half of that is a joke
[23:21] <@Zyrlana> Anyway, I do still have work in the morning, it's just been harder to sleep every night without telling you guys, I've felt like such a ass, but I didn't have the balls to come out and say it.
[23:21] <Yamaryu> from a video
[23:21] <Yamaryu> about fighting games
[23:21] <Kingsquee> nsfw http://s5.hostingkartinok.com/uploads/images/2014/04/420cbf7bf8f5232784f1fd1328c605de.jpg
[23:21] * Vessara hugs Zyrlana
[23:21] <Roan> I was just informed of a startling development from about three years ago
[23:21] <Kingsquee> that image made my day
[23:21] <Yamaryu> and an apartment fire, involving plastic ponies
[23:21] <%Vessara> No need to worry
[23:22] <Yamaryu> Kingsquee, not sure what I expected
[23:22] <Salt> Bzzt.
[23:22] <Kingsquee> the unexpected?
[23:23] * Neptune s;dp jihd s xut;sms
[23:23] <Neptune> Whoa.
[23:23] * Neptune also hugs a Zyrlana*
[23:23] * Zyrlana pats.
[23:23] <Roan> ... ?
[23:23] <Neptune> I might need to go to bed soon. I can't type properly.
[23:23] <@Zyrlana> Farewells.
[23:23] * Zyrlana ([email protected]) Quit ( Quit: )