July 2019 P4ntz Update

Oh boy! A P4ntz update pastebin! I'm going separate all the info into two sections, Life and Stream. That way people who are just there for me and not really on twitch much or whatnot can read about me, and people who only want to consume QUALITY P4NTZ ENTERTAINMENT can get their fill too! Or you can read it all i guess that's fine too.


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So it might not be a huge surprise, but this year has been kinda rough on me. Depression, anxiety and stress have really got a hold on me, and its honestly effected the way i see things. Even changed me in some ways. A part of me felt like i took a step back with growth, but its time to rebuild. I've been working hard on improving myself, trying to figure out what I'm not happy with in my life and fixing it, and focusing on the things that I need to do and what makes me happy. I have had some nice talks with some friends and i feel like i have a decent idea of the path i wanna walk in life.

About a month ago, a long relationship I was in ended. It was mostly mutual and there were no hard feelings either way, but it still stung pretty deep. If you are someone who knew about it, i would like to ask to please respect the people involved, and not really draw attention to it. I try to keep my romantic life off the internet, to avoid outside drama and for general safety of the individual. I'm just trying to be more open about myself to others, i know a lot of you care about me. This event has made me feel lonely, and even made GDQ kinda hard. I'm doing my best to not dwell on the sadness though, and i'm going to use this time to focus on myself, and my stream.

Onto how i plan on bettering myself.

I want to become more physically fit and healthy as a big one. I plan on going to the gym 2-3 times a week, a long with more physical activity in general. I've been slacking the last few years, and as much as i have got better about it this year, i still don't think i am where i wanna be. I'm going be doing my best to step it up. Going with this, i plan on eating better and drinking more water. since i got back from SGDQ i only had pop/soda once, and i think i am going to try to keep it to once a week. Rest of the week is water and only water. I feel like if i keep this up i will feel like i have more energy and just feel better in general, and become hot or something idk.

I'm going to do my best to reach out and check out on my friends more. I'm really bad at this, I am often scared they don't want to be bothered. Its a bad mental state to be in, as i know I'd make time for my friends even if its just to say hi. If anyone wants to have a chat or whatnot with me though, my DMs are open and I'll gladly have a nice chat! This kinda ties in with another thing i wanna work on, breaking out of my comfort zone. I feel like i keep being too safe, not really doing anything new or trying things. I know I'm not the worst at this, but lately i kinda feel like I've been in a rut, playing things safe. So if you see me posting tweets about me doing things you wouldn't expect... good. AND HEY i guess this ties in with another thing! As mentioned before, I wanna be more open about my life and my feelings to you guys. I am AWFUL at this. I briefly have talked about this on stream, but i often feel like no one cares (not in a bad way) what i do everyday, and certain events, and its not worth talking about. I have funny stories about my travels, everyday life and what not, but my brain convinces me its not worth telling. I really need to get out of that mindset, its not healthy.


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So lets start off big. I feel like I have been slacking when it comes to streaming. Imma change that. Expect REAL full time hours from me, 8-12 hours each day, 5-6 days a week. For schedule i will be aiming to do the late nights I'm known for, starting around 10 pm EST. For days off, Wednesdays and whenever i need a day off (be it to chill or going out to do something). These last few months I haven't been streaming a ton, and yea, a good bit of it was life getting in the way, but i still felt like i was slacking. I wanna put my best foot forward, and really give it my all! So expect tons of P4ntz content!

You've probably noticed I've been doing a lot more casual streams lately. I'm kinda in a weird place with speedrunning, were grinding a game for a better time isn't appealing to me right now. Speedrunning burn out really. That doesn't mean i am done with running games in the slightest. doing a few runs here and there and doing timed challenges still hold a strong place in my heart. I may be a speedrunner, but i am mostly known for the crazy long runs or challenges i have done, not really my high ranking times in certain games. And really, I think i'd rather be known for that kinda stuff. Expect some more fun challenges and what not in the future, and maybe if a speed game holds my interest soon, expect a bunch of that!

Trying new things on stream also has my interest. I've been kinda branching out and doing things i wanna play and try, even if its a bit outside the norm for my channel. I wanna continue doing so. I don't know where the future of my channel is going, and honestly i'm down for the ride. My interests my change, and i wanna be comfortable to explore those on stream as well. Gonna give a special shoutout to all those who watch me no matter what I am up to. You guys know who you are and you all are great!

So i started doing this, but i'll be deleting my going live tweets when i am done streaming for the day. Not a big deal, but just to inform everyone. I also plan on adding 2 new channels to my discord, one for Super Mario Maker 2 and one for FFXIV. I've been playing a lot of FFXIV and SMM2 so these just seem like good fits! Also i have planned youtube content and hopefully i can keep up with near daily uploads!

So It looks like baten kaitos 100% won't be happening this summer, but i will do my best to finish a casual playthrough of it this summer/year. I have the list of other incentives i owe down below, and most of them i am going to tackle this summer. I am going to save the longer incentives for when i feel more healthy, and the BOTW all quests + DLC is going to be saved for playing it before BOTW2 comes out. The list of incentives are down below.

This Friday (12th) is when i will do the pokemon ruby/sapphire/emerald 3 games 1 controller run, so look forward to this bad idea going down.

Incentives:

Star Road CCC
Pokemon Crystal No Exp
Pokemon Emerald no pokecenters
TTYD Rando
DK64 Rando
Paper Mario Glitchless
Quest 64 low%
Baten Kaitos 100%
Super Mario 64 DS 150 Star run
TTYD hundo Learning
Pre-Hooktail Pit
BOTW All quests + DLC
24 hour N64 beat as many games as possible a thon
Tales of symphonia casual playthrough
KNIDL
Yugioh FM 5 Card
SMS Hoverless any%
SA2B Chao%

Anyway, thank you all for reading. I love you guys and I'm looking forward to the rest of the year! let's make it an amazing one! Have a wonderful day!