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- Wave to the camera on my computer, smile and say cheese!
- But I was always crazy. If you look back hard
- You'll find the signs when I was a baby, passing
- Time by filling VCRs with every change-piece I'd
- find and tossing things out of windows daily. If I
- remember childhood, it's only vaguely; Pac-Man noise,
- wrestling episodes and VAC-Man toys. Games
- that would've made other parents backhand boys, coupled with
- shows dope enough to fill a crackhead void. Living
- life in fiction, lost in a world of older
- heroes and villains until TV time was over.
- Remember drugs at youth and the numbness to the odors
- The defunct programming plan of parenthood without the blessing of both coders
- Left with wounds that never healed but closed over
- Yet split apart as I grow older. Hazy
- years in school, full of ostracization.
- Low bars set and lower toleration
- For dreams too big and goals with too many complications.
- Raised up rough, but tried to stay thankful I wasn't Haitian
- Or living in a bombed out desert nation
- Where American troops spread their nationalization
- With bullets and guns and explosive detonation.
- Peace will come in time. Have to be patient.
- Younger years on medication. Had my
- first adult dose of amphetamines when I was younger than
- children in shows about education. Then my first
- panic attack...came with hallucinations. Parents
- in rehab. Had to see them in visitation. The man
- my mom fucked couldn't be bothered to see the patient
- kid. Had to wait for him. Every time he
- never walked through the door, I lost a day for him.
- Middle school was heaven. High school was hell.
- No more interest. Life doomed to fail.
- Sobriety...turned to bias against the
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