leaving

I'm going to make this pastebin completely free of bullshit; feelings and words that I don't mean or are not needed, et cetera. Bare bones, what I need people to know, what I want to say before I go, that kind of stuff. If you don't care about what I have to say, please don't meme this in the chat. Please have some respect.

Long story short, I'm leaving invertia. I have three reasons for leaving. I will first list these reasons and then I have a few words I'd like to say to individual people.

The first reason for leaving is because of my lack of enjoyment being in the server. My personality has changed substantially since I joined back in early December. The general atmosphere of Invertia is one that is typically spammy and filled with memes, somewhere you can go to mess around and have a good time. I just don't enjoy that anymore, I dislike seeing it and I don't want to partake in it. I understand that is not something that will change, this is more of a personal reason.

My second reason for leaving is because of the mistreatment of a lot of people there, myself included, by the staff team. This also extends into thoughts I've had about staff management and why I think it is terrible. For the most part, the staff team is pretty good. But there are lingering issues that prevent me from doing what I feel comfortable with there. I don't want to highlight any people in particular because it would be rude to call names, but there's a certain 3 I'm thinking of that are probably obvious. Simply put, I dislike the fact that they are allowed to have an operative role while still showing a stark lack of maturity in handling situations, often devolving to just straight up insulting other members. I understand that they don't need to be 100% mature due to the nature of the server, but in serious times, they can be incredibly immature and rude. Henceforth, I'm leaving because I don't want to be in a server where I am governed by these people. To any owners that read this, I highly recommend that you take another look at who you think should staff the server. Don't just pick your friends, think about who actually has the common sense and maturity to be good staff members and set examples.

My third reason for leaving is because I don't feel welcome there anymore. Countless times have I said hello in the chat only to be completely ignored. I understand that not everyone has to welcome me in the chat, but it's literally gotten to the point to where I feel like no one cares about me being there whatsoever, bar a few people. You know who you are. Furthermore, a lot of members hate me there, or treat me with a massive amount of disrespect. I've never done anything on purpose to provoke or agitate anyone. Scott comes to mind, as do Delta and Bio. I have had feuds with them in the past, but I've always sought to resolve the situation as calmly as I can. I never want anyone to think that I hate them, or that I think that I'm better than anyone. All I like to do is conversate with people in the server whenever I'm feeling bored or lonely. I don't ask for much. And still, I just get a massive feeling like I don't feel welcome there at all. All I wish is that everyone can have fun in life and be successful. I don't have an ill mindset. I don't ever hate anyone. I don't block people on discord anymore, no matter how much they piss me off. I come to Invertia to enjoy myself, yet I just feel like no one wants me to even be there. I'm leaving because of this, mostly.


I know this is probably long winded and I haven't even been in the server for very long, but this is just something I've wanted to get off my chest for a while.
A couple of things I want to say to individual people:

Tri: thanks for being a really nice owner, you've always been particularly considerate in most situations, and you're also a really funny person. Best of luck with managing the server.

Randy: You've always been really fun to talk to. I remember countless mornings just sitting at school on my break talking with you, those were good times. best of luck in the future!

Hya: I kinda still want to talk to you outside of the server, you've always been someone I've really respected and it's a shame I don't talk to you as much as I want to.

Lockstep: Sorry for everything I've done in the past, although in a way there are things I'm not sorry about. I'm a little worried, and kind of scared. I've found you to become incredibly untrustworthy and brash recently in your decision making. I'm afraid you're going to start spreading disreputable rumours about me, because I've become friends with people you hate and perhaps done things that you dislike; although I have reasons for these doings, I can't actually explain because I can't contact you. At the time of writing this you've blocked me and I'm not going to push for the reason why. All I ask is that you consider what I've said before talking about me behind my back, and also if you could please delete any personal information you have of me. This includes my face reveal if you have it saved anywhere. I'm confident you have the maturity in you to at least respect this request. If you want to unblock me and talk, I am more than willing, I hold nothing against you. Best of luck with the rest of your education, and the future too.

I guess that's it. Thanks for reading, if anyone actually bothered to read all of this.