Jeff Chronicles, 6 months later, True.

ok where do i start
9:07 PM
Where do you?
9:07 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
I'm sorry
9:07 PM
What are you sorry for?
9:08 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
everything that happened
9:08 PM
In what ways are you sorry, though?
9:08 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
well to start all the drama I caused all the stress it was immature of me and selfish
9:10 PM
Do you truly understand why Charlotte, Savage, Coffee, and I were angry and frustrated with that drama?
9:14 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
because it never stopped
9:15 PM
What never stopped?
9:15 PM
and because I brought u into it
lifeisfeelspodcast
The drama
9:16 PM
What drama are you talking about? And why didn't it stop?
9:16 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
all the drama and it didn't stop because I wouldn't let it go
9:17 PM
Can you elaborate on the drama you are talking about?
9:17 PM
the drama with me and Ed coffee u and Charlotte thinking I was a perv not leaving u guys alone
lifeisfeelspodcast
The stuff with kayla
9:18 PM
Ah, the stuff from November 2018.
Are you truly sorry, though? When I asked you that last time it really didn't seem like you had understood why we were all upset and angry.
9:20 PM
and all the drama and stress I caused before that I'm sorry
lifeisfeelspodcast
I have changed or my mindset has
9:20 PM
There was no drama before, but stress, yes.
In what ways have you changed?
9:21 PM
well I don't constantly message people now
lifeisfeelspodcast
don't flirt with every girl I met
9:21 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
and it's not at  all about being famous
9:23 PM
I mean, that's something people shouldn't do. You shouldn't flirt with every girl in your radius at all.
And this fame thing is new to me, what do you mean it's not all about being famous?
9:24 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
I found myself and  I remembered the reason I started the podcast is to make a difference effect people send positive messages and have a group of people who understand that message and embrace that message people who  have been through it

THE GOAL IS to stop bullying, stop cyberbulling stop cancel culture and help people who need help

Finding themselves if the fame comes with it the fame comes with it

I graduated highschool

And can u keep a secret
9:29 PM
Jeff, what are you talking about???
Fame had nothing to do with the issues that happened in November.
9:29 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
Ik but that was one thing that has changed about me
9:30 PM
Well, I'm glad to hear there's a change in that. But it isn't really related to everything that went down.
9:31 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
ok back to November I understand what no means now I don't flirt with everyone and I don't bug people 24 7 anymore I have more patience
9:32 PMAnd again, no means no and not flirting with everyone and bugging them isn't exactly something to be boastful about. You shouldn't be doing those kind of things anyway.
9:34 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
That was just because I wanted to talk to clear all this as soon as we could and my brain took over
9:35 PM
Please rewrite that sentence.
9:35 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
That was just because I wanted to talk to clear all this as soon as we could
9:36 PM
We gave you a chance to explain it ages ago, and you didn't. But NOW you want to clear it up, when it's been nearly a year since we stopped talking to you?
9:37 PM
u asked for space so I gave it to u and I thought I  could be ok with all u not talking to me and I was for a while

The truth shadow I have wanted to talk to u for months but haven't seen u so when I saw u on twitch tonight I took action
lifeisfeelspodcast
I thought it was time
9:41 PM
Jeff, I wasn't asking for space all those months ago. I was telling you to leave me alone because it was clear to me then you didn't really understand or process why I, charlotte, coffee and everyone were so angry and upset.
9:41 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
But I do now
9:42 PM
Well, congrats. You realized it now when literally all of us have moved forward.
9:42 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
Do u still talk to them
9:43 PM
Not often. I chat with Coffee and Charlotte every now and then, and I talk to Savage on the regular.
But the four of us, coffee, charlotte, savage and I are still cool with each other.
9:44 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
shadow your the one I care about the most your the only one I reached out to cause u are the one I missed the most also I was trying to find myself and there is a big difference between that me and this me
9:46 PM
I sort of find this hard to believe. I really don't believe you miss me more than Coffee or Savage.
9:47 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
I do trust me
9:48 PM
I still haven't really anything that signifies that you've changed since we last spoke. It still seems you haven't really changed that much.
9:48 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
the fact that I found I'm gay the fact that I have realized that everyone goes through  things and yettt
9:49 PM
What does your sexuality have anything to do with this?
9:50 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
well it has made realized not to keep begging  people to do things like when I kept asking u to be in the podcast and u said no yet I kept asking that was immature and selfish of me  u be u and shouldn't have kept trying to get u to do something u didn't want too
9:54 PM
That literally doesn't have anything in regards to what I just asked..
But Jeff, you should've dropped the getting me on the podcast thing the instant I said no. And that wasn't even part of all that drama.
9:55 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
I'm not just talking about the drama I'm talking about everything
9:56 PM
Can you explain what everything is?
9:56 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
everything including the drama?
9:57 PM
Everything that you wanted to talk about by talking with me.
9:57 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
I want us to put water under the bridge
9:58 PM
You expect me to just forgive you because you claim you have changed, and have us be friends again?
9:58 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
No I don't that s why I wanted to talk and get u too see I have changed and that u mean alot to me
10:00 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
And it has to do with my sexuality becomes if I never found myself I would realised to let people do what they want and let them be who they want to be
There are a lot of contradictions in your logic. You don't want me to forgive you and be friends again, but you claim to care enough for me to reach out to me and try to "put water under the bridge" and show that you changed?
I don't necessarily see the connection between your sexuality and me either.
10:03 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
Yes I want to be friends but I understand why u wouldn't want to be
10:03 PM
yes I want water under the bridge
lifeisfeelspodcast
I want us to be good
10:05 PM
Jeff, I haven't really been convinced that you've changed.
10:05 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
y
10:06 PM
Saying you have changed can easily just be your way of you trying to get me back into your life.
From what I've seen, it seems like you haven't changed at all.
10:06 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
shadow please
10:06 PM
You're talking like the last time we spoke was last week.
You also did this last time.
Begged.
10:06 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
I'm not saying you have to be best friends with me but I want us to try and be friends again someday that can go slow if u want but I support u I want to support u on your streams your a cool dude shadow
10:09 PM
Jeff, I don't think you really understand.
I made it clear that I wanted you to leave me alone. I am talking with you currently because I wanted to give the benefit of the doubt and see if you truly did change.
But it really doesn't seem that's the case.
10:10 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
how haven't I changed
10:10 PM
When I said I wanted you to leave me alone, that meant don't come into contact with me again.
Well, you started begging that's one.
You begging me was something you did last year with all the drama when things weren't turning out how you wanted.
10:11 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
and I tried not to contact u agian
10:11 PM
But you just said you waited til the time was right to contact me.
And don't get me wrong - I want water under the bridge too. I want  you to have closure as well. But that doesn't mean I want to be your friend again.
10:12 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
yah until like 3 months ago I wasn't going to contact u again but then one day I saw u on twitch and it made me miss u more so I waited and now well  here we are
10:15 PM
I'm sorry you feel that way, but we are never going to be friends again.
10:16 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
u don't believe in second chances
10:17 PM
I already gave you one months ago.
I gave you another chance tonight because I was interested in hearing what you had to say.
10:18 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
and
10:18 PM
I already told you - we are never going to be friends again.
10:18 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
was that your descion before we talked
10:19 PM
In a way, yes.
10:20 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
Before u wanted to hear what I had to say
10:20 PM
And I did hear what you had to say.
And it told me all that I needed to know, really.
10:20 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
and u think I'm full of crap
10:20 PM
I did also say I was doing this  so you can get closure as well.
Personally, I have no idea.
But my gut isn't telling me I'm wrong.
10:21 PM
lifeisfeelspodcast
the clourse was I hoping leading to friendship
10:22 PM
If you were coming into this to expect our friendship to be restored, you are sadly mistaken.
10:22 PM
Do you have anything else you'd like to say?
thank u for the closure on where I will forever stand
10:29 PM
Goodbye, Jeff. Have a nice life.