This is incrediable hard for me. Right now I can not stand to look at mesylf in the mirror or of photos of me, hear my voice. I have developed a habit of starting jobs and then quiting the third or fourth day. Even if the job is easy and the people or nice. My husband just told me tha he hopes that he dies during his back surgery  (on the 30th) so that he will not have to see my face again. We have been married for 20 years. Please Pray for me.“I pledge to do my best to do something loving for mesylf,however big or small, for the next 31 days.”