Confession

Hello,

Before i start i just wanna preface this by saying this is not something stupid like a suicide note or something like that.

This is me being 100% honest about me and my situation and everything wrong with me.

I wanna start by clarifying the reason for why the modding Discord was deleted, since there is a lot of confusion in that area. Yes, it was because i was under the impression that no one was interested in the server, and as such, i thought there'd be no point in keeping it up, evidently, i was wrong and was not in the right head-space when i madae that decision, i should have consulted Matthew about it as well as the entire community before making a decision that large, but i didn't and there is no going back from this point, i am not asking for forgivness im just asking for you to understand and i'm sorry, i apolagise sincerely for what i've done.

As some of you have already figured out, no, im not the most mentally stable person and it is common for me to have times where i act irrationally or seem self destructive in my behaviour, this is a problem ive had all my life, where i will make decisiosn that are objectively bad for myself and others, despite knowing this, i would still make those decisions.

Regarding what i said about Void, i was still in the wrong head-space whem i made those claims about void being shitty, they are incredibly developers who have been nothing but helpful to the entire modding community and they had absolutely zero say on the modding discord being deleted.

With the claims about me being a gatekeeper, im not gonna disprove thsoe claims at all, because that is probably how i've been, though it was never my intention to withhold information, whenever i've had the time to sit down and help someone with their modding i've done it and give all the informaiton they need (Matthew was the first person i taught how to mod the game and ive probably spent days of my life just helping him with his modding), if it ever came off as me not wanting to tell you information about modding im sorry, that was not my intention.#

I will not be coming back to the community for a long while, and i would appreciate if you would not attempt to contact me or anyone who knows me, thank you for reading this and i hope you can understand, i don't want forgiveness, i just want you to understand.