I’ve liked you for a long time, since November. But since that day at the beach with Dana, Sydney, and Virginia I’ve liked you more than ever because I feel like I was fully comfortable around you and able to say or do anything without you getting mad which I haven’t felt like before and you actually walked with me ahead of your friends without having to wait for them to catch up. but with saying that, I like you so much and you mean so much to me that that I’m scared that I’m going to lose you and when I see you having fun with other people I worry about it sometimes especially when u talk to other guys but that’s just something I have to get used to because the last thing I will ever ask you to do is stop talking to people for me, that’s so wrong to do. I like the feeling of having someone that trusts me enough to tell me everything because it makes me feel like I have a best friend which I have never had in my life before. You mean the world to me and the highlight of my day is talking to you. As soon as I see that you are on fob or your name pops up when your calling me it makes me smile and that’s not an exaggeration it’s the truth. I say that I’d be lost without you and we kid about it but its 100% true. You’ve helped me so much by just being  there and cheering me up in the hardest of times and I hope I’ve helped you too although the past month or two I don’t think I’ve been of much help, more of a growing problem. All of this stuff at school with people bothering you about me and people asking me about you has caused me to build relationships with great people which include your friends who if I ever need advice, I go to. example being Virginia tonight. I’m definitely one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. I’m stubborn, I get into weird moods, I can be obsessive about things, I don’t just come out and say things, I bottle my emotions up and it takes something big for them to really come out, but if you let me I can be one of the best things in your life. It takes work with me but with every relationship there baggage and its overcoming the hard times that defines you as a person. Basically what I’m trying to say is I’m so sorry for everything I’ve put you through. I want you to be happy, and I’ll do anything for you to be happy. If you ever needed me I’d answer my phone, if anything happened and you needed help I don’t care if it’s 3 a.m., I’d find a way to get there. I never told you this but in Florida I always told the counselors, my mom, my teachers, principals, etc. that I have an okay family, I’m not poor, I’m not needy but I’m missing one piece out of my puzzle to happiness. And I told myself when I moved here it was going to be my goal to find that missing piece. I told my counselor this and she said she wanted me to tell her when I did and one night I talked to you for hours like 3 or 4 hours and I went in that following day and the first thing I said when I sat down was “I found my missing piece”. Your my missing piece and without you id just be the stupid little depressed, unmotivated, self-conscious Kyle that doesn’t want to talk to anyone.  I don’t want to be that person again. I hope this helps with your forgiving me and I’m never going to forgive myself for making you cry. I was pretty much having a panic attack the entire time Virginia was relaying these messages to me. I’m sorry I ruined your birthday, im going to make it up to you.