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- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
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- Subtitles by explosiveskull
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- LAURA AS JT: I was 18
- when I wrote my novel "Sarah."
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- 00:01:05,735 --> 00:01:07,669
- Never thought
- it'd become a bestseller
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- 00:01:07,671 --> 00:01:10,838
- with all these fancy people
- wantin' to meet me,
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- the illusive JT LeRoy.
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- 00:01:14,944 --> 00:01:16,711
- But I prefer to be a shut-in
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- 'cause when I'm writin'
- or on the phone,
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- I get to show people
- exactly what I wanna show 'em.
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- I can focus on the words and
- just... leave my body behind.
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- [INDISTINCT SONG ON STEREO]
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- - Dude, it's so good!
- - Yeah?
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- 00:01:56,886 --> 00:01:59,454
- We just got the, uh, the demos
- back from the studio,
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- 00:01:59,456 --> 00:02:01,756
- so, yeah,
- I'm pretty fuckin' excited.
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- 00:02:01,758 --> 00:02:03,693
- [INDISTINCT SONG ON STEREO]
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- - Is that her? Is that Laura?
- - Uh-huh.
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- - Yeah, no, no, that's her.
- - Cool.
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- - Pretty fucking great, right?
- - Yeah.
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- 00:02:12,501 --> 00:02:14,468
- Man, she's, uh...
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- I... I just can't wait for you
- to meet her.
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- I fucking live here now.
- I can't believe this.
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- Fuck, yes, you live here.
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- Dude, you made it out
- of mom's place.
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- You're going up in the world.
- I'm proud of you.
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- - Proud of you.
- - Thanks.
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- [HUMMING]
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- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
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- [GRUNTS] Hey, hey!
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- Hey, come in. This is us.
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- Uh, kitchen right over here.
- Come through.
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- - I kept those books out...
- - Oh, these are beautiful.
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- I wouldn't touch that. You know,
- we got lead. I had it tested.
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- [SIGHS] Alright, this is it.
- This is where the magic happens.
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- - This is so cool, Geoff.
- - Right?
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- 00:03:08,390 --> 00:03:11,758
- Now, listen, uh, couch opens up,
- uh, make yourself comfy,
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- and, uh,
- I'll... I'll make some tea.
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- You want a tea?
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- I'd love a beer.
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- Beer. Right on.
- Okay. You're in luck.
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- I, uh, just made a fresh batch
- of home brew. Cool.
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- - Hey, yo! Come meet my sister!
- LAURA: Be right there!
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- LAURA ON PHONE: Anyway,
- every time I tell him no,
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- I can feel him wantin' more.
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- I just can't believe this
- itty-bitty Southern rant boy
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- is denyin'.
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- I gotta admit,
- I like having the power.
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- Alright, yeah.
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- Yeah, thanks.
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- Same time tomorrow. Bye.
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- Where is she? Where is she?
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- - SAVANNAH: Hey.
- - Oh, look at you.
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- Oh, Savannah.
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- Geoff's baby sister.
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- - I see your soul in your smile.
- - Cool, you guys have met.
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- 00:04:06,082 --> 00:04:09,783
- Look at this creature.
- Just as you said.
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- I can't believe you made this.
- That's so cool.
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- GEOFF: No. I'm good.
- I'm getting good at this.
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- [LAUGHS] You're good
- at everything, baby.
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- 00:04:14,957 --> 00:04:18,191
- Mm, I heard the music
- in the car.
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- - SAVANNAH: It is good. It is...
- - Amazing, right?
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- It's so cool.
- He's in his zone.
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- - I'm just writin' lyrics...
- - Oh, she's just writing lyrics?
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- No, no, no, no.
- This woman is turning my music
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- into, like,
- these beautiful songs.
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- We're writing two, three songs
- a day. It's insane.
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- - He's on fire.
- - You're on fire.
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- - You're on fire, babe.
- - We're on fire.
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- What's that?
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- Oh, it's just this thing I made.
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- I had an extra roll of duct tape
- lying around.
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- - Wait a minute. Hold on.
- - That's pretty cool.
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- Yeah. Just a thing you made?
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- That is not just a thing.
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- What is that?
- Like magical unicorn backpack?
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- That is blowing my mind.
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- That's pure art.
- That's, like, creative genius.
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- Don't, don't put
- that stuff down. Right, baby?
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- - Mm-hmm.
- - Yeah, yeah. No, fuck, yeah.
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- LAURA: Oh, you gotta take her
- to Lee's party.
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- - You gotta go.
- - Oh, we gotta go.
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- - We gotta go.
- - Oh, yeah, first night.
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- - GEOFF: You're gonna come, right?
- - Of course, yeah.
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- Anything you guys wanna do,
- I'm open.
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- Are you gonna come?
- She just got here.
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- And you've gotta come.
- Come on.
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- We don't want you to come,
- we need you to come.
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- - Alright, alright.
- - We need you!
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- You're dragging me
- into the celebration!
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- You're going to Lee's party!
- Sav's moving to San Francisco!
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- - Yo, yo, what's up?
- - Hey, Sav!
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- I put this on you.
- We share clothes.
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- Oh, my God!
- It looks amazing with your hair!
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- Oh, Samuel!
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- This is Geoff's sister,
- Savannah.
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- Yeah, she's taking over
- his old apartment.
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- Hey, I'm Sav.
- Nice to meet you.
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- Twist & Scream poster
- is on the wall.
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- GEOFF: Oh, shit!
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- LAURA: That's so beautiful.
- That's our band. Yeah.
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- - So you're an artist?
- - Yeah, yeah.
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- - What's your name?
- - Sophie.
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- - Sophie. What kind of art?
- - Yeah.
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- It's like conceptual.
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- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
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- And the writing
- has been amazing.
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- Finally not paying the rent
- with phone sex.
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- And I'm getting some offers.
- It's like...
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- Laura,
- you say you did phone sex?
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- Yeah. Oh, yeah.
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- It's one of the more
- creative jobs ever.
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- You know, you have to get
- into the role play of it.
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- But as a writer,
- it's in the madness
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- of creating a character,
- you know what I mean? You're...
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- And then their attention
- turns to Sophie?
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- Because
- of her rinky-dink paintings?
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- I mean, I'm sorry,
- but, like, she's getting that
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- 'cause she's a cute girl
- with a cute little fucking ass
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- and her cute little art.
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- Can you imagine
- if they knew I was JT LeRoy?
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- Right?
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- If they knew I was a "New York
- Times" bestselling author.
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- I mean, that's just so crazy.
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- - Yeah, well, then tell them.
- - Geoff.
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- You know we can't do that.
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- LAURA: I got an idea.
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- What if I do go out
- for some kind of disguise?
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- [GASPS] What's up?
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- You wanna keep a secret?
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- - What's this?
- - It's my book "Sarah."
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- My shot at immortality.
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- SAVANNAH: Oh, so JT's
- like your pen name?
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- - LAURA: More like my avatar.
- - Who is this kid?
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- LAURA: That's just a photo
- I found at a thrift store.
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- 00:07:56,310 --> 00:07:59,411
- I loved it 'cause he looks like
- a kid in a Dennis Cooper novel.
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- 00:07:59,413 --> 00:08:02,414
- - I love Dennis Cooper.
- - Of course, you do.
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- 00:08:02,416 --> 00:08:05,017
- Oh!
- Hey, do you know Mary Gaitskill?
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- Um, yeah, but I haven't...
- I haven't read any of her stuff.
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- 00:08:07,922 --> 00:08:09,922
- - I want to.
- - Oh, you're gonna love it.
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- 00:08:09,924 --> 00:08:12,356
- I'm just finishing
- the Colette books right now.
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- My God, I remember
- the first time I read Colette.
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- I'd feel so French and...
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- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
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- All this great writing
- that comes from distress.
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- But it has beauty in it, too,
- you know.
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- 00:08:26,240 --> 00:08:28,773
- Like, ah, JT certainly had that.
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- 00:08:28,775 --> 00:08:32,411
- Like, his grandparents were
- fundamentalists, super sadistic.
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- 00:08:32,413 --> 00:08:34,682
- [TELEPHONE RINGING]
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- Hey, let me know
- what you think?
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- SAVANNAH: Of course, yeah.
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- LAURA ON PHONE: Hello.
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- Hi.
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- SAVANNAH: "It's my first day
- on the lot.
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- I'm wearing
- the golden Rapunzel wig
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- bestowed upon me
- by my mother, Sarah,
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- the legendary beauty
- and fiercest hooker
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- that ever did work
- a truck stop down south.
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- In her high heels, I strut
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- between the long shimmering
- lines of big rigs."
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- 00:09:03,109 --> 00:09:05,810
- "Cash's hand is like the maw
- of some big animal
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- 00:09:05,812 --> 00:09:09,180
- as he opens it
- revealing a raccoon penis bone.
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- The talisman that distinguishes
- his asphalt girls
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- 00:09:11,851 --> 00:09:13,352
- from all others.
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- 00:09:13,354 --> 00:09:15,119
- The bigger the bone,
- the more in demand
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- 00:09:15,121 --> 00:09:17,889
- her soft girl material is.
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- 00:09:17,891 --> 00:09:20,225
- If you didn't notice the
- raccoon penis bone necklaces
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- 00:09:20,227 --> 00:09:22,194
- and you didn't know
- what that meant,
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- 00:09:22,196 --> 00:09:25,496
- you'd never know
- they were actually boys.
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- 00:09:25,498 --> 00:09:26,763
- You got to earn that raccoon."
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- "The mob surrounds me.
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- Tearing at my lace,
- ripping my hard-won finery.
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- 00:09:31,171 --> 00:09:32,470
- "It's a goddamn boy,"
- they yell.
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- Hungry jackals
- begging at the moon
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- 00:09:34,340 --> 00:09:36,374
- while chasing me
- through the woods.
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- This is all I am.
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- A bloody glittering heart
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- 00:09:39,345 --> 00:09:41,946
- thumping
- under a bruised black sky,
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- refusing to let anyone tell me
- who I'm supposed to be."
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- 00:09:55,929 --> 00:09:58,496
- SAVANNAH ON PHONE: Found it
- so beautiful.
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- 00:09:58,498 --> 00:10:00,398
- It's crazy.
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- 00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:01,966
- I've never read anything
- like it
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- 00:10:01,968 --> 00:10:05,470
- and it's really painful,
- you know.
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- 00:10:05,472 --> 00:10:09,508
- But like fucking magic
- and I can't even...
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- 00:10:09,510 --> 00:10:11,409
- I can't, like, think
- of the right way to describe
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- 00:10:11,411 --> 00:10:13,211
- how it makes me feel, honestly.
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- 00:10:13,213 --> 00:10:17,181
- [CHUCKLES] Oh, my God,
- that's so beautiful
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- 00:10:17,183 --> 00:10:19,150
- to hear you talk about it
- that way.
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- 00:10:19,152 --> 00:10:22,019
- God, of course, you so get it.
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- 00:10:22,021 --> 00:10:23,487
- I don't know if Geoff told you.
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- 00:10:23,489 --> 00:10:26,524
- I was in such a dark place,
- you know.
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- 00:10:26,526 --> 00:10:31,128
- And it was... soul or spirit
- or whatever you wanna call it
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- 00:10:31,130 --> 00:10:33,866
- just... embodied me.
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- 00:10:35,068 --> 00:10:38,237
- This Jeremiah...
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- 00:10:39,238 --> 00:10:41,873
- Terminator LeRoy.
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- 00:10:43,409 --> 00:10:46,876
- Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy.
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- 00:10:46,878 --> 00:10:48,379
- [CHUCKLES] Wow.
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- 00:10:48,381 --> 00:10:50,881
- LAURA: Then he started calling
- this therapist
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- 00:10:50,883 --> 00:10:54,852
- who told JT, "Hey, you should
- write your story down."
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- 00:10:54,854 --> 00:10:58,923
- And it's kind of amazing
- sharing this with you
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- 00:10:58,925 --> 00:11:01,324
- 'cause, um,
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- when I first saw you,
- I thought you looked like him.
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- 00:11:05,063 --> 00:11:07,097
- - Huh?
- LAURA: It's why I was just...
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- 00:11:07,099 --> 00:11:09,600
- I wanted to ask you if I could
- take a picture of you as him.
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- 00:11:09,602 --> 00:11:12,436
- What do you... what do you mean?
- Like...
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- 00:11:12,438 --> 00:11:15,373
- LAURA: I'm... I've been JT
- on the phone for years,
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- 00:11:15,375 --> 00:11:18,609
- and people need to see him now.
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- 00:11:18,611 --> 00:11:22,079
- I mean, I'm... a girl, you know.
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- 00:11:22,081 --> 00:11:23,880
- [CHUCKLES] Just to state
- the obvious.
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- 00:11:23,882 --> 00:11:26,516
- No. No. That's what's beautiful.
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- 00:11:26,518 --> 00:11:28,552
- He's androgynous, you know.
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- 00:11:28,554 --> 00:11:32,155
- He's like, you know,
- discovering his own identity.
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- 00:11:32,157 --> 00:11:35,925
- Boy, girl. He's in disguise,
- and I'd pay you 50 bucks.
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- 00:11:35,927 --> 00:11:37,361
- It is for "Interview" magazine.
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- 00:11:37,363 --> 00:11:40,964
- Sav, "Interview" magazine!
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- What do you think?
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- I mean, yeah, sure. Why not?
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- 00:11:48,507 --> 00:11:51,443
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
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- 00:12:23,542 --> 00:12:25,275
- Oh, really?
- This is what it looks like?
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- 00:12:25,277 --> 00:12:26,579
- - Yeah.
- - Ew.
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- 00:12:28,013 --> 00:12:29,948
- - Looks great.
- - Okay.
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- 00:12:38,590 --> 00:12:41,924
- So put your chin down.
- Keep it tilted. Perfect.
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- 00:12:41,926 --> 00:12:44,060
- Little bit to the right.
- Now just give me eyes though.
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- 00:12:44,062 --> 00:12:45,931
- A little bit. Perfect.
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- 00:13:02,647 --> 00:13:05,448
- LAURA: Oh, my God,
- I'm getting chills.
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- 00:13:05,450 --> 00:13:07,117
- LAURA: [GASPS]
- GEOFF: Sav, you look great.
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- 00:13:07,119 --> 00:13:10,420
- LAURA: That's JT.
- It's fucking perfect.
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- 00:13:10,422 --> 00:13:11,988
- - You don't wanna do one more?
- - Are you kidding me?
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- 00:13:11,990 --> 00:13:14,593
- These are $12 a box. Let's go!
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- 00:13:17,963 --> 00:13:19,429
- LAURA AS JT: I did it.
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- 00:13:19,431 --> 00:13:21,264
- This is a whole new beginning
- for me.
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- 00:13:21,266 --> 00:13:25,134
- Like a whole new world.
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- 00:13:25,136 --> 00:13:27,371
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
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- 00:13:35,213 --> 00:13:38,016
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 233
- 00:13:43,188 --> 00:13:45,257
- Here you go. You all good?
- 234
- 00:13:46,425 --> 00:13:49,391
- That hair looks good on you.
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- 00:13:49,393 --> 00:13:51,460
- Thank you.
- 236
- 00:13:51,462 --> 00:13:54,697
- I was noticing your shoes.
- I've never seen that.
- 237
- 00:13:54,699 --> 00:13:58,401
- Yeah. Free the toes
- and the rest will follow.
- 238
- 00:13:58,403 --> 00:13:59,604
- [CHUCKLES]
- 239
- 00:14:01,506 --> 00:14:03,473
- You've been in here.
- I've seen you in here.
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- 00:14:03,475 --> 00:14:06,242
- You... do you live nearby?
- 241
- 00:14:06,244 --> 00:14:09,546
- Uh, pretty close. Mission.
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- 00:14:09,548 --> 00:14:11,649
- - You?
- - Uh, Soma.
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- 00:14:13,350 --> 00:14:14,618
- Right.
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- 00:14:21,425 --> 00:14:24,326
- If you need anything,
- I'm gonna be working here
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- 00:14:24,328 --> 00:14:27,332
- for the rest of the time
- you'll be here, so...
- 246
- 00:14:28,800 --> 00:14:30,669
- - Okay.
- SEAN: Okay.
- 247
- 00:14:36,474 --> 00:14:38,409
- [TELEPHONE RINGING]
- 248
- 00:14:44,181 --> 00:14:45,715
- - Hello?
- LAURA: Savannah, it's Laura.
- 249
- 00:14:45,717 --> 00:14:48,753
- Oh, my God, how are you?
- Can you do it one more time?
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- 00:14:50,755 --> 00:14:54,223
- LAURA: Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.
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- 00:14:54,225 --> 00:14:56,628
- SAVANNAH: Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.
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- 00:14:59,063 --> 00:15:01,530
- Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.
- 253
- 00:15:01,532 --> 00:15:04,101
- Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.
- 254
- 00:15:06,337 --> 00:15:07,605
- It's great.
- 255
- 00:15:09,373 --> 00:15:11,306
- I mean, it's one thing
- taking a photo,
- 256
- 00:15:11,308 --> 00:15:13,242
- maybe saying like,
- hey, I'm JT LeRoy,
- 257
- 00:15:13,244 --> 00:15:14,844
- but it's another thing
- being him.
- 258
- 00:15:14,846 --> 00:15:17,346
- LAURA: No, no, no, first of all,
- I did the interview already.
- 259
- 00:15:17,348 --> 00:15:19,314
- So it's not like he's trying
- to talk to you, right?
- 260
- 00:15:19,316 --> 00:15:20,817
- He just wants to get
- the picture.
- 261
- 00:15:20,819 --> 00:15:23,217
- And besides,
- when you're meeting someone new,
- 262
- 00:15:23,219 --> 00:15:26,622
- would you ever question
- who they say they are?
- 263
- 00:15:26,624 --> 00:15:28,290
- It's gonna be perfect. Here.
- 264
- 00:15:28,292 --> 00:15:30,325
- This is, uh,
- an interview with JT
- 265
- 00:15:30,327 --> 00:15:31,727
- so you can listen
- to the voice.
- 266
- 00:15:31,729 --> 00:15:34,129
- Oh, I've gotta show you.
- 267
- 00:15:34,131 --> 00:15:36,431
- There's this unbelievably, like,
- 268
- 00:15:36,433 --> 00:15:38,433
- hot as fuck actress
- 269
- 00:15:38,435 --> 00:15:40,502
- Eva Avelin from Europe.
- 270
- 00:15:40,504 --> 00:15:42,672
- The book is doing
- really well there.
- 271
- 00:15:42,674 --> 00:15:44,306
- She's been calling JT
- every night.
- 272
- 00:15:44,308 --> 00:15:46,208
- Just like obsessing
- 273
- 00:15:46,210 --> 00:15:49,444
- and we're finishing
- each other's sentences.
- 274
- 00:15:49,446 --> 00:15:52,280
- SAVANNAH: Whoa.
- LAURA: Yeah.
- 275
- 00:15:52,282 --> 00:15:54,115
- You want a cookie?
- 276
- 00:15:54,117 --> 00:15:58,720
- Oh, no, cookies produce curves.
- I can't do it.
- 277
- 00:15:58,722 --> 00:16:02,891
- LAURA: Wh... what? You can't,
- like, eat cookies and be goth?
- 278
- 00:16:02,893 --> 00:16:06,695
- I'm... [LAUGHS] I'm not goth.
- 279
- 00:16:06,697 --> 00:16:09,364
- - Just skinny?
- - No, not necessarily.
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- 00:16:09,366 --> 00:16:12,400
- Just... just no... curves.
- 281
- 00:16:12,402 --> 00:16:15,336
- Is that why
- you're, like, binding it up
- 282
- 00:16:15,338 --> 00:16:17,673
- and wearing sports bras
- all the time?
- 283
- 00:16:17,675 --> 00:16:19,575
- That's perfect for JT.
- 284
- 00:16:19,577 --> 00:16:21,310
- Get rid of the boobs,
- you're already there.
- 285
- 00:16:21,312 --> 00:16:23,345
- [LAUGHS] Yeah.
- 286
- 00:16:23,347 --> 00:16:26,315
- WOMAN 1 ON RADIO: Today,
- I'm speaking with JT LeRoy,
- 287
- 00:16:26,317 --> 00:16:28,216
- the young writer of "Sarah,"
- 288
- 00:16:28,218 --> 00:16:30,719
- a bestselling novel
- based on his experience
- 289
- 00:16:30,721 --> 00:16:32,621
- as the son of a prostitute
- 290
- 00:16:32,623 --> 00:16:35,156
- who worked truck stops
- in the south.
- 291
- 00:16:35,158 --> 00:16:39,861
- JT, your mother used to pass you
- off as her younger sister?
- 292
- 00:16:39,863 --> 00:16:43,364
- LAURA AS JT ON RADIO: Yeah.
- I mean, um, Sarah,
- 293
- 00:16:43,366 --> 00:16:46,334
- she knew that Johns didn't like
- having a boy around,
- 294
- 00:16:46,336 --> 00:16:49,438
- so she made it
- two pretty girls
- 295
- 00:16:49,440 --> 00:16:52,474
- 'cause she knew that'd get
- twice the attention.
- 296
- 00:16:52,476 --> 00:16:54,876
- Sav, you're... you're cool
- with this, right? I mean...
- 297
- 00:16:54,878 --> 00:16:57,212
- Y... you don't have to do it
- if you don't want to.
- 298
- 00:16:57,214 --> 00:17:00,448
- Yeah, no, no, totally.
- I'm into it.
- 299
- 00:17:00,450 --> 00:17:04,318
- WOMAN 1: Did your mother expect
- you to engage in prostitution?
- 300
- 00:17:04,320 --> 00:17:07,355
- LAURA AS JT: I mean, she didn't
- force me or nothin', but...
- 301
- 00:17:07,357 --> 00:17:09,523
- I mean, she didn't force me
- or nothin'...
- 302
- 00:17:09,525 --> 00:17:11,927
- I don't quite understand it
- 100%, but, like...
- 303
- 00:17:11,929 --> 00:17:14,930
- Yeah, it's, uh,
- it's... complicated.
- 304
- 00:17:14,932 --> 00:17:17,466
- - LAURA AS JT: I loved dressin'...
- - I loved dressin' up.
- 305
- 00:17:17,468 --> 00:17:19,735
- - LAURA AS JT: Puttin' on clothes.
- - Puttin' on clothes.
- 306
- 00:17:19,737 --> 00:17:22,871
- - Turnin' into someone else.
- - Turnin' into someone else.
- 307
- 00:17:22,873 --> 00:17:25,873
- GEOFF: Look, Laura is on the
- phone all the time as JT,
- 308
- 00:17:25,875 --> 00:17:28,509
- but she also pretends to be
- his manager, Speedie.
- 309
- 00:17:28,511 --> 00:17:32,446
- - And she deemed me Astor.
- - Astor?
- 310
- 00:17:32,448 --> 00:17:34,248
- Yeah, Astor's like
- Speedie's boyfriend
- 311
- 00:17:34,250 --> 00:17:36,651
- and we saved JT
- from the streets.
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- 00:17:36,653 --> 00:17:39,387
- You know, we're like this
- happy family and shit.
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- 00:17:39,389 --> 00:17:41,389
- LAURA AS JT: My books
- are fiction.
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- 00:17:41,391 --> 00:17:44,258
- I mean, I tell stories,
- but sometimes
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- 00:17:44,260 --> 00:17:46,328
- the lies are more true
- than the truth.
- 316
- 00:17:46,330 --> 00:17:47,762
- True than the truth.
- 317
- 00:17:47,764 --> 00:17:51,732
- Sometimes the lie
- is more true than the truth.
- 318
- 00:17:51,734 --> 00:17:55,302
- GEOFF: Trust me, this whole
- thing is crazy for me too.
- 319
- 00:17:55,304 --> 00:17:56,837
- I mean, didn't expect
- to be moving in
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- 00:17:56,839 --> 00:17:59,007
- with a teenage male prostitute
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- 00:17:59,009 --> 00:18:02,811
- and an obnoxious
- loud British woman.
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- 00:18:02,813 --> 00:18:05,246
- Obnoxious loud British woman?
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- 00:18:05,248 --> 00:18:08,717
- Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- That's... that's Speedie.
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- 00:18:08,719 --> 00:18:11,852
- LAURA AS SPEEDIE: Well, hello,
- you right little bugger.
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- 00:18:11,854 --> 00:18:13,654
- I thought
- you weren't gonna show.
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- 00:18:13,656 --> 00:18:15,356
- Ready for the shoot?
- 327
- 00:18:15,358 --> 00:18:17,825
- Bruce, this is JT!
- 328
- 00:18:17,827 --> 00:18:20,563
- - Hi, JT.
- SPEEDIE: Say, hello.
- 329
- 00:18:21,964 --> 00:18:23,433
- SAVANNAH AS JT: Hi.
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- 00:18:27,503 --> 00:18:30,638
- He... he gets a bit nervous.
- 331
- 00:18:30,640 --> 00:18:34,408
- And also, by the way, he don't
- like to be touched, alright?
- 332
- 00:18:34,410 --> 00:18:37,310
- Alright, so I give you
- full permission.
- 333
- 00:18:37,312 --> 00:18:40,280
- Poke around, find your shot,
- but, like, in this room.
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- 00:18:40,282 --> 00:18:45,319
- BRUCE: Oh, hey, JT, I'm so glad
- that we could make this work.
- 335
- 00:18:45,321 --> 00:18:48,389
- Hey, uh, bought this
- from you online.
- 336
- 00:18:48,391 --> 00:18:50,624
- And I know how much
- you like chocolate.
- 337
- 00:18:50,626 --> 00:18:55,897
- What? Nothin' for the handler?
- I like it too. [LAUGHS]
- 338
- 00:18:55,899 --> 00:18:57,598
- BRUCE: Great room.
- SPEEDIE: Great.
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- 00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:59,532
- SPEEDIE: My sister's
- got great taste.
- 340
- 00:18:59,534 --> 00:19:03,740
- So, JT, why you don't tell me
- where, uh, you two guys live?
- 341
- 00:19:05,575 --> 00:19:08,809
- - Uh, I live in, um...
- - Tenderloin.
- 342
- 00:19:08,811 --> 00:19:10,377
- SAVANNAH AS JT: Yeah.
- Over there.
- 343
- 00:19:10,379 --> 00:19:12,747
- Oh, cool. There we go.
- 344
- 00:19:12,749 --> 00:19:16,684
- You know, um, if you can get
- that Twist & Scream poster in.
- 345
- 00:19:16,686 --> 00:19:19,553
- That's me sister's band
- and JT loves it.
- 346
- 00:19:19,555 --> 00:19:21,355
- You'd like that, right?
- 347
- 00:19:21,357 --> 00:19:23,556
- BRUCE: I think we need
- to loosen up a little bit.
- 348
- 00:19:23,558 --> 00:19:25,658
- - Oh! Loosen up?
- - Yeah, we do.
- 349
- 00:19:25,660 --> 00:19:28,929
- Shake up them muscles,
- let go, lovey.
- 350
- 00:19:28,931 --> 00:19:32,032
- - You like that?
- BRUCE: Great, great.
- 351
- 00:19:32,034 --> 00:19:34,637
- I got an idea.
- Why don't you, um...
- 352
- 00:19:36,873 --> 00:19:39,274
- Just try standing on this.
- 353
- 00:19:42,011 --> 00:19:45,780
- I'm not really a skater,
- so it's kind of weird.
- 354
- 00:19:45,782 --> 00:19:47,881
- BRUCE: Okay, how about, um...
- 355
- 00:19:47,883 --> 00:19:50,850
- SPEEDIE: You know what?
- Wait, um...
- 356
- 00:19:50,852 --> 00:19:52,752
- I've got, uh...
- 357
- 00:19:52,754 --> 00:19:54,989
- JT loves makeup.
- 358
- 00:19:54,991 --> 00:19:57,524
- What about a lipstick? Right?
- 359
- 00:19:57,526 --> 00:19:59,526
- You wanna put
- some lipstick on, love?
- 360
- 00:19:59,528 --> 00:20:01,829
- In the mirror?
- It could be good, right?
- 361
- 00:20:01,831 --> 00:20:04,064
- BRUCE: Yeah, let's try
- if we can get it right.
- 362
- 00:20:04,066 --> 00:20:06,399
- Let's, uh... This is nice.
- 363
- 00:20:06,401 --> 00:20:07,701
- SPEEDIE: Do you like it?
- 364
- 00:20:07,703 --> 00:20:09,136
- BRUCE: Good. Really nice.
- 365
- 00:20:09,138 --> 00:20:11,004
- BRUCE: Slowly now, pretty.
- SPEEDIE: Nice!
- 366
- 00:20:11,006 --> 00:20:14,774
- I'm just, I'm worried, sorry,
- that... that skateboard is...
- 367
- 00:20:14,776 --> 00:20:17,844
- - Speedie, you're in the shot.
- - Oh, sorry.
- 368
- 00:20:17,846 --> 00:20:19,445
- Alright, come on out.
- Come on out.
- 369
- 00:20:19,447 --> 00:20:21,614
- Good. Beautiful, JT.
- 370
- 00:20:21,616 --> 00:20:25,853
- Beautiful. Beautiful.
- Beautiful.
- 371
- 00:20:25,855 --> 00:20:28,488
- - That's alright.
- - I'm just gonna take a leak.
- 372
- 00:20:28,490 --> 00:20:29,759
- Okay.
- 373
- 00:20:32,028 --> 00:20:34,128
- Yeah, I think he's done.
- 374
- 00:20:34,130 --> 00:20:37,096
- Oh, I just...
- I only shot one roll.
- 375
- 00:20:37,098 --> 00:20:38,765
- SPEEDIE: Oh, no, no, love,
- you don't know
- 376
- 00:20:38,767 --> 00:20:41,601
- how fortunate you are
- to get the shot at all.
- 377
- 00:20:41,603 --> 00:20:44,504
- You're the first person
- who's ever taken his photo.
- 378
- 00:20:44,506 --> 00:20:48,474
- Yeah, no. I mean, he's been in
- the house for like three months.
- 379
- 00:20:48,476 --> 00:20:51,446
- - I know, but he's delicate...
- - Hey, JT.
- 380
- 00:20:53,149 --> 00:20:56,183
- What do you say we do
- a couple more, huh?
- 381
- 00:20:56,185 --> 00:20:58,751
- Well...
- 382
- 00:20:58,753 --> 00:21:01,855
- SPEEDIE: JT, you...
- 383
- 00:21:01,857 --> 00:21:05,491
- Yeah.
- No, I think we're done, Bruce.
- 384
- 00:21:05,493 --> 00:21:07,727
- Thank you for understanding.
- 385
- 00:21:07,729 --> 00:21:11,531
- But I bet
- you've got a great shot, right?
- 386
- 00:21:11,533 --> 00:21:14,667
- Thank you, JT, for your time.
- It was a real pleasure.
- 387
- 00:21:14,669 --> 00:21:16,170
- SPEEDIE: You did great.
- 388
- 00:21:16,172 --> 00:21:18,838
- - Speedie.
- SPEEDIE: Alright.
- 389
- 00:21:18,840 --> 00:21:20,875
- SPEEDIE: Thank you, Bruce.
- BRUCE: Thank you.
- 390
- 00:21:20,877 --> 00:21:23,743
- SPEEDIE: Yeah,
- I'm sure it will be great.
- 391
- 00:21:23,745 --> 00:21:26,545
- And, um,
- we'll see the shots soon.
- 392
- 00:21:26,547 --> 00:21:29,050
- BRUCE: Great. Okay.
- SPEEDIE: Alright then.
- 393
- 00:21:38,193 --> 00:21:40,194
- LAURA: You were looking great.
- SAVANNAH: Disaster vibes.
- 394
- 00:21:40,196 --> 00:21:42,162
- - You were great.
- - Oh, my God. I'm so sorry.
- 395
- 00:21:42,164 --> 00:21:44,664
- Sorry?
- What are you talking about?
- 396
- 00:21:44,666 --> 00:21:47,233
- I can't do that accent. He could
- so see that I was a girl.
- 397
- 00:21:47,235 --> 00:21:49,501
- - I could see him looking at me.
- - Not at all.
- 398
- 00:21:49,503 --> 00:21:52,739
- He never suspected anything.
- It was the opposite.
- 399
- 00:21:52,741 --> 00:21:56,209
- He wanted you to go home
- with him. Fuck, you were great.
- 400
- 00:21:56,211 --> 00:21:59,178
- And playing Speedie
- was so cool, right?
- 401
- 00:21:59,180 --> 00:22:01,681
- Like not giving a fuck
- what anybody thinks of you.
- 402
- 00:22:01,683 --> 00:22:04,851
- You just say whatever the fuck's
- on your mind. I love her.
- 403
- 00:22:04,853 --> 00:22:06,619
- What about when you answered
- every question for me?
- 404
- 00:22:06,621 --> 00:22:07,921
- It was, like, so obvious.
- 405
- 00:22:07,923 --> 00:22:10,157
- No, that's so JT.
- He's nervous.
- 406
- 00:22:10,159 --> 00:22:12,593
- He can't speak for himself.
- That was perfect.
- 407
- 00:22:13,761 --> 00:22:15,827
- Oh, Sav, trust me.
- 408
- 00:22:15,829 --> 00:22:17,964
- I learned about this
- from my phone sex days.
- 409
- 00:22:17,966 --> 00:22:20,967
- You establish yourself
- as someone else, right?
- 410
- 00:22:20,969 --> 00:22:23,202
- You can do that.
- Then drop the accent
- 411
- 00:22:23,204 --> 00:22:25,905
- and nobody even notices.
- 412
- 00:22:25,907 --> 00:22:27,674
- And he's illusive.
- 413
- 00:22:27,676 --> 00:22:30,610
- That's part of the mystery
- and people love mystery.
- 414
- 00:22:30,612 --> 00:22:32,745
- I almost puked when I walked in.
- 415
- 00:22:32,747 --> 00:22:34,580
- Ugh, that's so JT.
- 416
- 00:22:34,582 --> 00:22:36,548
- That was what was so perfect.
- 417
- 00:22:36,550 --> 00:22:40,286
- He looked nauseous
- and nervous and awkward.
- 418
- 00:22:40,288 --> 00:22:43,755
- Oh, my God, on Friday night,
- we've got the reading
- 419
- 00:22:43,757 --> 00:22:45,757
- and, you know, there are
- all these fabulous people
- 420
- 00:22:45,759 --> 00:22:48,627
- that will show up and read for
- him 'cause he's never there.
- 421
- 00:22:48,629 --> 00:22:51,898
- What if you just showed up
- and just, like, hyperventilate,
- 422
- 00:22:51,900 --> 00:22:53,633
- run out
- like he's gonna throw up?
- 423
- 00:22:53,635 --> 00:22:56,035
- - No way! Mm.
- - Yes way!
- 424
- 00:22:56,037 --> 00:22:58,737
- I can't. It was sickening.
- 425
- 00:22:58,739 --> 00:23:02,074
- That's that feeling.
- That's what's so beautiful.
- 426
- 00:23:02,076 --> 00:23:04,142
- It's that feeling we all get
- like right before
- 427
- 00:23:04,144 --> 00:23:06,181
- we do something important.
- 428
- 00:23:12,053 --> 00:23:13,587
- [LAURA SIGHS]
- 429
- 00:23:15,090 --> 00:23:18,291
- You know what?
- Don't worry about it.
- 430
- 00:23:18,293 --> 00:23:20,326
- I can get somebody else
- next time.
- 431
- 00:23:20,328 --> 00:23:23,328
- I gotta go 'cause Geoff and I
- have band practice.
- 432
- 00:23:23,330 --> 00:23:26,598
- [SIGHS] Shit. I'm late.
- 433
- 00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:28,767
- I'm just gonna go like this.
- Okay, Sav, here.
- 434
- 00:23:28,769 --> 00:23:31,970
- - Oh, thanks. I...
- - As promised, love.
- 435
- 00:23:31,972 --> 00:23:35,007
- LAURA: Thank you,
- ta very much!
- 436
- 00:23:35,009 --> 00:23:37,611
- - Oh, my God, that was so fun.
- - See you.
- 437
- 00:23:39,646 --> 00:23:42,583
- [AUDIENCE APPLAUDING]
- 438
- 00:23:45,820 --> 00:23:47,285
- WOMAN 2: Thank you.
- 439
- 00:23:47,287 --> 00:23:49,621
- Uh, JT actually
- isn't feeling well
- 440
- 00:23:49,623 --> 00:23:53,725
- so I'm sorry to say he won't
- be joining us after all.
- 441
- 00:23:53,727 --> 00:23:55,529
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 442
- 00:23:57,698 --> 00:24:01,099
- WOMAN 3: I told you. This is
- some sort of hoax. Right?
- 443
- 00:24:01,101 --> 00:24:02,601
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 444
- 00:24:02,603 --> 00:24:05,539
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 445
- 00:24:13,180 --> 00:24:16,116
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 446
- 00:25:10,938 --> 00:25:13,140
- [TELEPHONE RINGING]
- 447
- 00:25:17,344 --> 00:25:19,177
- - Hello?
- LAURA: Sav.
- 448
- 00:25:19,179 --> 00:25:22,147
- LAURA: Can you come over
- tonight? I have big news.
- 449
- 00:25:22,149 --> 00:25:24,181
- [GASPS] Oh, my God.
- Get in here.
- 450
- 00:25:24,183 --> 00:25:25,816
- You're not gonna believe
- what I'm gonna tell you.
- 451
- 00:25:25,818 --> 00:25:27,017
- Are you ready?
- 452
- 00:25:27,019 --> 00:25:28,420
- A Hollywood producer
- 453
- 00:25:28,422 --> 00:25:30,955
- wants to make "Sarah"
- into a movie.
- 454
- 00:25:30,957 --> 00:25:33,125
- What? No way.
- Are you serious?
- 455
- 00:25:33,127 --> 00:25:37,929
- Can you imagine?
- "Sarah" on the big screen?
- 456
- 00:25:37,931 --> 00:25:40,098
- I... Yeah, yeah.
- That would be epic.
- 457
- 00:25:40,100 --> 00:25:43,168
- JT can do his thing
- and say, you know,
- 458
- 00:25:43,170 --> 00:25:46,470
- "Hey, I'm an agoraphobe who just
- wants his autonomy respected."
- 459
- 00:25:46,472 --> 00:25:49,406
- But... I don't think so.
- 460
- 00:25:49,408 --> 00:25:52,145
- I think this is too big
- an opportunity.
- 461
- 00:25:55,214 --> 00:25:57,882
- I mean, you... us tonight?
- 462
- 00:25:57,884 --> 00:26:01,253
- No, no, silly. This weekend.
- 463
- 00:26:01,255 --> 00:26:02,720
- In LA.
- 464
- 00:26:02,722 --> 00:26:04,456
- We'd stay at her house.
- 465
- 00:26:04,458 --> 00:26:06,825
- There's a party, a reading,
- a photoshoot.
- 466
- 00:26:06,827 --> 00:26:08,960
- Come on, it will be fun.
- 467
- 00:26:08,962 --> 00:26:11,862
- No, just 'cause I... I'm working
- this weekend.
- 468
- 00:26:11,864 --> 00:26:13,432
- That's... that's the only thing.
- 469
- 00:26:15,168 --> 00:26:17,968
- Sweet girl.
- 470
- 00:26:17,970 --> 00:26:20,070
- I know
- the photoshoot was intense.
- 471
- 00:26:20,072 --> 00:26:23,275
- Right? It was a... it was a lot.
- 472
- 00:26:23,277 --> 00:26:26,979
- But, Sav,
- there was a light in you.
- 473
- 00:26:28,482 --> 00:26:31,983
- And I... I felt him
- 474
- 00:26:31,985 --> 00:26:35,388
- leave my body and enter yours.
- 475
- 00:26:40,526 --> 00:26:43,894
- I mean, I was in high school
- 476
- 00:26:43,896 --> 00:26:48,799
- when, I don't know,
- he's turning tricks.
- 477
- 00:26:48,801 --> 00:26:52,136
- Am I interesting enough
- to, like, be him?
- 478
- 00:26:52,138 --> 00:26:55,173
- What? You are interesting!
- 479
- 00:26:55,175 --> 00:26:59,809
- Are you kidding me?
- Sav, you're incredible.
- 480
- 00:26:59,811 --> 00:27:03,314
- I don't, like, hate myself.
- I just... that's so different.
- 481
- 00:27:03,316 --> 00:27:05,883
- I think you gotta think
- about this differently.
- 482
- 00:27:05,885 --> 00:27:08,219
- I mean, we're talking Warhol,
- 483
- 00:27:08,221 --> 00:27:11,422
- Ziggy Stardust, Grace Jones.
- 484
- 00:27:11,424 --> 00:27:12,856
- What if you wake up one morning
- 485
- 00:27:12,858 --> 00:27:14,358
- and say I wanna be
- somebody else?
- 486
- 00:27:14,360 --> 00:27:17,228
- That's what they did.
- They didn't wait for permission.
- 487
- 00:27:17,230 --> 00:27:19,999
- Well, yeah,
- I... I know that feeling.
- 488
- 00:27:21,968 --> 00:27:24,303
- I knew I wanted to be
- an artist, right?
- 489
- 00:27:26,004 --> 00:27:28,372
- 'Cause I was like,
- "I wanna have a life!
- 490
- 00:27:28,374 --> 00:27:33,277
- I don't wanna live in a fuckin'
- cubicle 9:00 to fucking 5:00.
- 491
- 00:27:33,279 --> 00:27:35,512
- That's not who I am."
- 492
- 00:27:35,514 --> 00:27:38,849
- Fine. Fine. Spend my life.
- "Hello, hi. Wanna fuck?"
- 493
- 00:27:38,851 --> 00:27:41,252
- Doing phone sex
- for the rest of my life? No.
- 494
- 00:27:41,254 --> 00:27:43,187
- I'm a writer.
- 495
- 00:27:43,189 --> 00:27:45,523
- I spent my 20s and 30s
- waiting for somebody
- 496
- 00:27:45,525 --> 00:27:50,427
- to discover me,
- somebody to give me permission?
- 497
- 00:27:50,429 --> 00:27:53,499
- Nobody gives you anything.
- You have to take it.
- 498
- 00:27:55,568 --> 00:27:57,370
- Are you gonna take it?
- 499
- 00:27:59,438 --> 00:28:02,973
- You've got all these selves
- inside of you. Explore them.
- 500
- 00:28:02,975 --> 00:28:05,576
- This is your time.
- Find out who the fuck you are.
- 501
- 00:28:05,578 --> 00:28:08,514
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 502
- 00:28:16,289 --> 00:28:18,054
- - Oh, shit.
- - Are we out of chips?
- 503
- 00:28:18,056 --> 00:28:20,391
- Oh, God,
- we ate three bags of chips?
- 504
- 00:28:20,393 --> 00:28:22,359
- I'm gonna be sweating
- potato chips.
- 505
- 00:28:22,361 --> 00:28:24,028
- LAURA: [LAUGHS] Don't worry.
- no food tomorrow,
- 506
- 00:28:24,030 --> 00:28:26,297
- but we need the sweet
- with the salty.
- 507
- 00:28:26,299 --> 00:28:30,134
- - I don't.
- - Secret stash.
- 508
- 00:28:30,136 --> 00:28:32,336
- - Chocolate.
- - I'm okay.
- 509
- 00:28:32,338 --> 00:28:34,273
- - You don't want?
- SAVANNAH: Unh-unh.
- 510
- 00:28:36,174 --> 00:28:37,974
- LAURA: Hey, tell me
- about this boy.
- 511
- 00:28:37,976 --> 00:28:40,043
- Sean? What about him?
- 512
- 00:28:40,045 --> 00:28:42,847
- Well... you date men?
- 513
- 00:28:44,450 --> 00:28:46,483
- Uh, sometimes.
- 514
- 00:28:46,485 --> 00:28:49,919
- If they're as cute as he is,
- I do. But I'm open.
- 515
- 00:28:49,921 --> 00:28:52,222
- I like girls, obviously.
- 516
- 00:28:52,224 --> 00:28:53,357
- I can't go
- to any more Dyke nights.
- 517
- 00:28:53,359 --> 00:28:54,658
- It makes me so uncomfortable.
- 518
- 00:28:54,660 --> 00:28:55,892
- It's so embarrassing.
- 519
- 00:28:55,894 --> 00:28:57,461
- The music's so awful and...
- 520
- 00:28:57,463 --> 00:28:59,395
- Did Geoff ever tell you
- I pretended to be a dyke
- 521
- 00:28:59,397 --> 00:29:00,963
- when we first met?
- 522
- 00:29:00,965 --> 00:29:03,099
- No. Why?
- 523
- 00:29:03,101 --> 00:29:07,337
- LAURA: 'Cause he was
- so good-looking.
- 524
- 00:29:07,339 --> 00:29:10,973
- Well, I wanted to know
- if he liked me for me.
- 525
- 00:29:10,975 --> 00:29:12,543
- SAVANNAH: Aww.
- 526
- 00:29:12,545 --> 00:29:15,579
- Test the waters and not be
- the fat girl swooning.
- 527
- 00:29:15,581 --> 00:29:17,348
- [LAUGHS] Hey.
- 528
- 00:29:17,350 --> 00:29:20,049
- I was 100 pounds
- 529
- 00:29:20,051 --> 00:29:22,685
- fatter than I am now.
- 530
- 00:29:22,687 --> 00:29:25,922
- Oh, I didn't realize that.
- 531
- 00:29:25,924 --> 00:29:28,393
- Good thing I'm not terrified
- of the knife.
- 532
- 00:29:30,662 --> 00:29:33,229
- But I've been with women before.
- 533
- 00:29:33,231 --> 00:29:36,032
- Especially in the group home.
- 534
- 00:29:36,034 --> 00:29:37,503
- How was that?
- 535
- 00:29:39,070 --> 00:29:41,070
- Sex was amazing.
- 536
- 00:29:41,072 --> 00:29:43,374
- No, I mean, the group home.
- 537
- 00:29:43,376 --> 00:29:45,644
- Oh. Rough.
- 538
- 00:29:47,479 --> 00:29:50,382
- But it gave me the tough skin
- I live in.
- 539
- 00:29:53,051 --> 00:29:54,951
- You know, I used to sneak out
- at night
- 540
- 00:29:54,953 --> 00:29:57,286
- and call suicide hotlines
- for help,
- 541
- 00:29:57,288 --> 00:30:01,059
- and I could never... be me.
- 542
- 00:30:02,994 --> 00:30:05,664
- I'd create characters,
- usually boys.
- 543
- 00:30:07,265 --> 00:30:10,402
- Some of them didn't make it,
- but JT...
- 544
- 00:30:12,537 --> 00:30:14,472
- JT kept calling.
- 545
- 00:30:16,207 --> 00:30:19,010
- And it felt so good
- to not have to be in this body.
- 546
- 00:30:20,545 --> 00:30:23,348
- You know, to be as far away
- from it as possible.
- 547
- 00:30:26,151 --> 00:30:27,485
- I get that.
- 548
- 00:30:29,454 --> 00:30:32,390
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 549
- 00:30:58,716 --> 00:31:02,117
- JT. Oh, my God.
- 550
- 00:31:02,119 --> 00:31:04,687
- JT.
- 551
- 00:31:04,689 --> 00:31:08,291
- Oh, my God. It's so good
- to finally meet you.
- 552
- 00:31:08,293 --> 00:31:12,093
- - This is amazing.
- SASHA: Right?
- 553
- 00:31:12,095 --> 00:31:13,729
- SPEEDIE: JT,
- keep writing them books.
- 554
- 00:31:13,731 --> 00:31:15,465
- Maybe you'll get a house
- like this.
- 555
- 00:31:15,467 --> 00:31:17,767
- Oh, no, JT, the real money's
- in screenwriting.
- 556
- 00:31:17,769 --> 00:31:19,769
- You should write me a part.
- A cool part.
- 557
- 00:31:19,771 --> 00:31:21,737
- - I could play a lot lizard.
- - Oh.
- 558
- 00:31:21,739 --> 00:31:23,438
- You already got an actor.
- 559
- 00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:25,507
- SASHA: The guest bedroom's
- this way.
- 560
- 00:31:25,509 --> 00:31:30,045
- SPEEDIE: Don't think
- we've been in... a guest room.
- 561
- 00:31:30,047 --> 00:31:33,215
- It's amazing.
- Oh, my God. What a house.
- 562
- 00:31:33,217 --> 00:31:34,817
- Thank you.
- 563
- 00:31:34,819 --> 00:31:39,154
- Oh, and JT brought you
- a little prezzie.
- 564
- 00:31:39,156 --> 00:31:40,523
- Aww.
- 565
- 00:31:40,525 --> 00:31:42,825
- Not really from Neiman Marcus.
- 566
- 00:31:42,827 --> 00:31:45,661
- I stole that bag out of my
- neighbor's recycling, but...
- 567
- 00:31:45,663 --> 00:31:47,231
- [LAUGHS]
- 568
- 00:31:48,765 --> 00:31:51,266
- SASHA: Oh, little mini onions.
- 569
- 00:31:51,268 --> 00:31:53,535
- How cute.
- 570
- 00:31:53,537 --> 00:31:57,040
- And baked beans.
- 571
- 00:31:58,408 --> 00:32:00,710
- Oh, God. I need one of these.
- 572
- 00:32:00,712 --> 00:32:02,580
- Those are great, right?
- 573
- 00:32:05,383 --> 00:32:09,285
- SPEEDIE: I love that, um,
- and you're quite good at that.
- 574
- 00:32:09,287 --> 00:32:11,655
- That's all I'm gonna say.
- 575
- 00:32:15,092 --> 00:32:18,326
- Oh, and JT wrote all the lyrics
- 576
- 00:32:18,328 --> 00:32:21,630
- to our band's songs,
- Twist & Scream.
- 577
- 00:32:21,632 --> 00:32:23,632
- Thought you'd love it.
- 578
- 00:32:23,634 --> 00:32:26,167
- SASHA: Oh, that's so cool.
- 579
- 00:32:26,169 --> 00:32:28,706
- JT, did you get that book
- I sent you?
- 580
- 00:32:30,475 --> 00:32:32,140
- Yeah, we loved it.
- 581
- 00:32:32,142 --> 00:32:33,811
- Yeah, yeah. It's real good.
- 582
- 00:32:35,679 --> 00:32:38,213
- SASHA: JT, what are you wearing?
- 583
- 00:32:38,215 --> 00:32:40,282
- [LAUGHS]
- 584
- 00:32:40,284 --> 00:32:42,384
- What... what is going on?
- 585
- 00:32:42,386 --> 00:32:44,588
- What's happening
- to all the money?
- 586
- 00:32:45,756 --> 00:32:48,525
- It's not much money though yet.
- 587
- 00:32:49,894 --> 00:32:52,429
- Why do you keep answering
- for him?
- 588
- 00:32:55,365 --> 00:32:57,633
- He's a deaf mute.
- 589
- 00:32:57,635 --> 00:32:59,768
- [LAUGHING]
- 590
- 00:32:59,770 --> 00:33:03,538
- That's the way it feels because
- he hates talkin' about money,
- 591
- 00:33:03,540 --> 00:33:05,440
- hates business talk.
- 592
- 00:33:05,442 --> 00:33:07,442
- You know,
- it's like art, art, art.
- 593
- 00:33:07,444 --> 00:33:09,244
- Keep it pure.
- 594
- 00:33:09,246 --> 00:33:11,880
- I mean, we're two orphans, fuck,
- who found each other.
- 595
- 00:33:11,882 --> 00:33:14,215
- I don't know these things
- either, so you're right.
- 596
- 00:33:14,217 --> 00:33:18,186
- That's great advice.
- We need a guide, you know.
- 597
- 00:33:18,188 --> 00:33:20,823
- I'll... I'll get someone.
- 598
- 00:33:20,825 --> 00:33:23,257
- Okay, alright, Oliver Twist.
- 599
- 00:33:23,259 --> 00:33:24,425
- [LAURA CHUCKLES]
- 600
- 00:33:24,427 --> 00:33:26,661
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 601
- 00:33:26,663 --> 00:33:28,197
- Come on.
- 602
- 00:33:29,666 --> 00:33:32,166
- - Hi, David.
- - Oh, my God.
- 603
- 00:33:32,168 --> 00:33:35,337
- JT, listen to this trying
- to emulate the icons.
- 604
- 00:33:35,339 --> 00:33:38,406
- If I have to talk
- to all of JT's friends as JT...
- 605
- 00:33:38,408 --> 00:33:40,675
- We work off each other.
- You're perfect.
- 606
- 00:33:40,677 --> 00:33:42,577
- LAURA: Totally trust yourself.
- 607
- 00:33:42,579 --> 00:33:44,914
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 608
- 00:33:44,916 --> 00:33:46,614
- JT, you okay?
- 609
- 00:33:46,616 --> 00:33:48,850
- LAURA: JT's a genius
- and Sav's a genius.
- 610
- 00:33:48,852 --> 00:33:51,485
- Don't you ever forget that.
- 611
- 00:33:51,487 --> 00:33:53,220
- SASHA: The bacon-wrapped dates
- are amazing.
- 612
- 00:33:53,222 --> 00:33:55,189
- SPEEDIE: Oh, we don't eat pork.
- 613
- 00:33:55,191 --> 00:33:57,291
- SAVANNAH AS JT: Oh, yeah, I was
- just being polite, but, yeah.
- 614
- 00:33:57,293 --> 00:33:59,728
- LAURA: If you don't understand
- a reference, just go with it.
- 615
- 00:33:59,730 --> 00:34:01,563
- Do what I do.
- Hang a lantern on it.
- 616
- 00:34:01,565 --> 00:34:02,964
- What is... what is that?
- 617
- 00:34:02,966 --> 00:34:04,733
- MAN 1: You're so funny
- with the sunglasses, JT.
- 618
- 00:34:04,735 --> 00:34:06,234
- Do you ever take them off?
- 619
- 00:34:06,236 --> 00:34:08,236
- If it's obvious,
- make it more obvious.
- 620
- 00:34:08,238 --> 00:34:10,704
- Let 'em see these beauties.
- 621
- 00:34:10,706 --> 00:34:12,673
- SASHA: Your eyes
- are so beautiful.
- 622
- 00:34:12,675 --> 00:34:14,675
- LAURA: It's like those
- Chinese finger puzzles.
- 623
- 00:34:14,677 --> 00:34:16,845
- You go in further to get out.
- 624
- 00:34:16,847 --> 00:34:20,316
- Baby, we're at play
- in the fields of the Lord.
- 625
- 00:34:22,786 --> 00:34:24,419
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 626
- 00:34:24,421 --> 00:34:26,588
- Look, there's Eva Avelin.
- 627
- 00:34:26,590 --> 00:34:28,222
- She's dying to do "Sarah."
- 628
- 00:34:28,224 --> 00:34:29,826
- To direct and star in it.
- 629
- 00:34:32,396 --> 00:34:35,829
- JT? Hi, uh, John Bradwell.
- 630
- 00:34:35,831 --> 00:34:38,532
- We loved the piece
- you did on JT!
- 631
- 00:34:38,534 --> 00:34:41,502
- - Thoughtful, investigative.
- - Wow.
- 632
- 00:34:41,504 --> 00:34:45,874
- Really a great piece. It's so
- great that you did that.
- 633
- 00:34:45,876 --> 00:34:48,843
- Um, I'm still living
- in San Francisco,
- 634
- 00:34:48,845 --> 00:34:52,413
- so if you wanted to meet up and
- continue that conversation...
- 635
- 00:34:52,415 --> 00:34:55,350
- Yeah, definitely.
- I'm just gonna go. Just grab...
- 636
- 00:34:55,352 --> 00:34:57,454
- JOHN: Right. Okay.
- 637
- 00:35:03,492 --> 00:35:04,760
- EVA: JT.
- 638
- 00:35:05,828 --> 00:35:07,797
- Oh, Eva. Hey.
- 639
- 00:35:09,465 --> 00:35:11,534
- [SIGHS] Enfin.
- 640
- 00:35:14,370 --> 00:35:16,705
- You are here at last.
- 641
- 00:35:16,707 --> 00:35:19,375
- Um, I'm here. Pretty sure.
- 642
- 00:35:20,711 --> 00:35:23,610
- How's the snail story
- coming along?
- 643
- 00:35:23,612 --> 00:35:25,879
- - Good.
- - Excuse me one second.
- 644
- 00:35:25,881 --> 00:35:28,682
- Does the snail still have
- a visage brute?
- 645
- 00:35:28,684 --> 00:35:31,652
- - Um...
- - Visage brute.
- 646
- 00:35:31,654 --> 00:35:33,420
- Sorry, I'm Speedie.
- 647
- 00:35:33,422 --> 00:35:35,289
- JT was just tellin' me
- about that,
- 648
- 00:35:35,291 --> 00:35:38,592
- uh, ugly face or somethin'.
- I love it! [CHUCKLES]
- 649
- 00:35:38,594 --> 00:35:40,327
- - Just give us a minute?
- - Like a title.
- 650
- 00:35:40,329 --> 00:35:42,563
- Oh. Sure.
- 651
- 00:35:42,565 --> 00:35:44,531
- You staying here?
- 652
- 00:35:44,533 --> 00:35:47,634
- Um, mm-hmm.
- I'm just in that room there.
- 653
- 00:35:47,636 --> 00:35:49,368
- Okay, cool.
- 654
- 00:35:49,370 --> 00:35:51,505
- Just kind of worried about you
- staying at some hotel,
- 655
- 00:35:51,507 --> 00:35:53,941
- running off
- and getting into trouble.
- 656
- 00:35:53,943 --> 00:35:57,444
- [CHUCKLES] I don't really get
- in that kind of trouble anymore.
- 657
- 00:35:57,446 --> 00:36:00,449
- Mm-hmm. You have trouble
- written all over you.
- 658
- 00:36:01,751 --> 00:36:04,618
- Oh, my God.
- You're so fucking cute.
- 659
- 00:36:04,620 --> 00:36:07,488
- Why are you so shy?
- Soak up the attention.
- 660
- 00:36:07,490 --> 00:36:09,523
- Everybody's here for you.
- 661
- 00:36:09,525 --> 00:36:11,390
- Yeah, it's crazy.
- 662
- 00:36:11,392 --> 00:36:14,295
- [SPEAKING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE]
- 663
- 00:36:16,331 --> 00:36:18,766
- Alright. Find me at the bar?
- 664
- 00:36:18,768 --> 00:36:20,703
- - Okay.
- - Okay.
- 665
- 00:36:22,872 --> 00:36:27,040
- Oh, hey, Eva, is... are you gonna
- be at the reading tomorrow?
- 666
- 00:36:27,042 --> 00:36:30,677
- Baby, what are you talking
- about? I'm one of the readers.
- 667
- 00:36:30,679 --> 00:36:32,713
- Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.
- 668
- 00:36:32,715 --> 00:36:34,849
- Well, I was... I was thinkin'...
- 669
- 00:36:36,751 --> 00:36:38,752
- Fuck.
- 670
- 00:36:38,754 --> 00:36:40,053
- ♪ Who took the bomp?
- 671
- 00:36:40,055 --> 00:36:42,992
- [ROCK MUSIC]
- 672
- 00:36:50,733 --> 00:36:52,301
- Shake it out.
- 673
- 00:36:53,736 --> 00:36:55,437
- Look at that!
- 674
- 00:36:58,040 --> 00:37:01,574
- ♪ Every day and night
- 675
- 00:37:01,576 --> 00:37:04,077
- ♪ Every day and night
- 676
- 00:37:04,079 --> 00:37:07,380
- ♪ I can see
- your disco disco dick ♪
- 677
- 00:37:07,382 --> 00:37:09,917
- ♪ Is sucking my heart
- out of my mind ♪
- 678
- 00:37:09,919 --> 00:37:12,586
- ♪ I'm out of time
- I'm out of fucking time ♪
- 679
- 00:37:12,588 --> 00:37:15,589
- ♪ I'm a gasoline gut
- with a Vaseline mind ♪
- 680
- 00:37:15,591 --> 00:37:18,992
- ♪ But wanna disco?
- Wanna see me disco? ♪
- 681
- 00:37:18,994 --> 00:37:22,094
- ♪ Let me hear you
- depoliticize my rhyme ♪
- 682
- 00:37:22,096 --> 00:37:24,864
- ♪ One two three four
- 683
- 00:37:24,866 --> 00:37:27,500
- ♪ You got what you been
- asking for ♪
- 684
- 00:37:27,502 --> 00:37:31,604
- ♪ Is alright alright alright
- alright alright alright ♪
- 685
- 00:37:31,606 --> 00:37:34,409
- JT? So sorry to bother you.
- 686
- 00:37:35,677 --> 00:37:37,077
- I, um...
- 687
- 00:37:37,079 --> 00:37:38,145
- I just wanted to tell you
- 688
- 00:37:38,147 --> 00:37:40,681
- how much your work means to me.
- 689
- 00:37:40,683 --> 00:37:43,617
- I was on the streets
- for a while too.
- 690
- 00:37:43,619 --> 00:37:47,622
- When I read your book,
- I was like, "Someone gets me."
- 691
- 00:37:48,990 --> 00:37:51,626
- Your voice means a lot.
- 692
- 00:37:52,861 --> 00:37:54,495
- Thank you.
- 693
- 00:37:56,698 --> 00:37:59,799
- Do you see that? Huh?
- 694
- 00:37:59,801 --> 00:38:03,436
- Your work, you're helping
- people. It's beautiful.
- 695
- 00:38:03,438 --> 00:38:09,578
- ♪ On your knees who does your
- who does your hair? ♪
- 696
- 00:38:13,214 --> 00:38:14,716
- Thank you.
- 697
- 00:38:17,452 --> 00:38:19,819
- It looks nice.
- 698
- 00:38:19,821 --> 00:38:21,823
- Come to Paris. Okay?
- 699
- 00:38:23,758 --> 00:38:25,625
- SPEEDIE: JT?
- 700
- 00:38:25,627 --> 00:38:26,996
- JT!
- 701
- 00:38:30,765 --> 00:38:32,034
- Au revoir.
- 702
- 00:38:34,002 --> 00:38:36,736
- ♪ One two three four
- 703
- 00:38:36,738 --> 00:38:39,772
- ♪ Who took the Bomp
- from the Bompalompalomp? ♪
- 704
- 00:38:39,774 --> 00:38:43,478
- ♪ Who took the Ram
- from the Ramalamading-dong? ♪♪
- 705
- 00:38:45,480 --> 00:38:48,483
- SAVANNAH AS JT: I feel alive
- for the first time in my life.
- 706
- 00:38:51,653 --> 00:38:53,819
- LAURA ON PHONE: Sav,
- you're never gonna believe this.
- 707
- 00:38:53,821 --> 00:38:56,890
- JT's French publishers
- are flying us to Paris
- 708
- 00:38:56,892 --> 00:38:58,157
- for a press conference.
- 709
- 00:38:58,159 --> 00:39:00,625
- SAVANNAH: Holy fucking shit.
- 710
- 00:39:00,627 --> 00:39:01,961
- Get the fuck out of here.
- 711
- 00:39:01,963 --> 00:39:04,163
- I can't believe
- this is happening.
- 712
- 00:39:04,165 --> 00:39:07,033
- LAURA: And Eva's throwing
- the after party!
- 713
- 00:39:07,035 --> 00:39:09,001
- [CHUCKLES] Okay,
- I kind of gotta go.
- 714
- 00:39:09,003 --> 00:39:10,836
- I'll talk to you...
- I'll call you tomorrow.
- 715
- 00:39:10,838 --> 00:39:12,540
- LAURA: Okay, bye.
- 716
- 00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:21,048
- - You making us a headband?
- - Yeah.
- 717
- 00:39:21,050 --> 00:39:23,450
- - Cute.
- - Thanks.
- 718
- 00:39:29,523 --> 00:39:31,891
- So I have to go to Paris
- 719
- 00:39:31,893 --> 00:39:33,893
- in, like, two weeks.
- 720
- 00:39:33,895 --> 00:39:35,895
- - Shit!
- - Yeah.
- 721
- 00:39:35,897 --> 00:39:38,965
- Wow. That's...
- What... what for?
- 722
- 00:39:38,967 --> 00:39:43,235
- Um, Laura has some work there,
- so, like, I'll assist her.
- 723
- 00:39:43,237 --> 00:39:45,571
- She needs some help.
- 724
- 00:39:45,573 --> 00:39:47,105
- - That's so cool.
- - Yeah.
- 725
- 00:39:47,107 --> 00:39:48,606
- - Have you ever been?
- - Mnh-mnh.
- 726
- 00:39:48,608 --> 00:39:50,242
- - No?
- - Mnh-mnh. Have you?
- 727
- 00:39:50,244 --> 00:39:52,311
- Pfft! I wish.
- 728
- 00:39:52,313 --> 00:39:54,679
- Well, where's my invite?
- 729
- 00:39:54,681 --> 00:39:56,715
- [CHUCKLES]
- 730
- 00:39:56,717 --> 00:39:59,852
- If you're gonna fit
- in my backpack, you can come.
- 731
- 00:39:59,854 --> 00:40:03,255
- Oh, I can fit
- in very small places.
- 732
- 00:40:03,257 --> 00:40:04,726
- [LAUGHS]
- 733
- 00:40:09,596 --> 00:40:11,231
- I'll miss you.
- 734
- 00:40:13,567 --> 00:40:15,633
- Yeah, I'll miss you too.
- 735
- 00:40:15,635 --> 00:40:17,336
- LAURA AS JT ON PHONE: Eva.
- 736
- 00:40:17,338 --> 00:40:20,106
- You haven't taken it off?
- Really?
- 737
- 00:40:20,108 --> 00:40:21,773
- I love that.
- 738
- 00:40:21,775 --> 00:40:23,675
- You know I can't stop.
- 739
- 00:40:23,677 --> 00:40:25,878
- You got my bone
- around your neck.
- 740
- 00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:28,848
- But you started it.
- 741
- 00:40:28,850 --> 00:40:31,917
- I can't wait
- to see you again too.
- 742
- 00:40:31,919 --> 00:40:34,621
- Oh, okay. Alright.
- Call me right back.
- 743
- 00:40:38,592 --> 00:40:42,361
- They sent enough money
- for first-class tickets.
- 744
- 00:40:42,363 --> 00:40:44,296
- I mean, we'll go coach
- and pocket the rest,
- 745
- 00:40:44,298 --> 00:40:47,266
- but I tried to get
- another ticket for Astor
- 746
- 00:40:47,268 --> 00:40:48,767
- and they just won't budge.
- 747
- 00:40:48,769 --> 00:40:52,171
- So I figured
- we'll just buy one if...
- 748
- 00:40:52,173 --> 00:40:54,774
- Yeah, w... w... why would I
- wanna go to Europe?
- 749
- 00:40:54,776 --> 00:40:57,109
- We have a recording session
- next week.
- 750
- 00:40:57,111 --> 00:41:00,278
- Yeah, we have
- a recording session next week.
- 751
- 00:41:00,280 --> 00:41:03,615
- I know, babe.
- I figured we'd move it
- 752
- 00:41:03,617 --> 00:41:05,617
- and it'd give you
- a little more time
- 753
- 00:41:05,619 --> 00:41:08,686
- to work on the music,
- refine things.
- 754
- 00:41:08,688 --> 00:41:11,122
- I mean, we're gonna be
- just jamming through that press.
- 755
- 00:41:11,124 --> 00:41:13,058
- It will be a nightmare
- and I know
- 756
- 00:41:13,060 --> 00:41:14,959
- you hate that whole world,
- anyways, so...
- 757
- 00:41:14,961 --> 00:41:16,928
- Yeah, you know, I don't exactly
- wanna be the caboose
- 758
- 00:41:16,930 --> 00:41:19,098
- on the JT train, but...
- 759
- 00:41:19,100 --> 00:41:22,167
- Laura, we... we're in a band,
- you know.
- 760
- 00:41:22,169 --> 00:41:25,003
- Like, that's our pack.
- It... it's a band, it's a bond.
- 761
- 00:41:25,005 --> 00:41:28,073
- Hey, what do we always say?
- 762
- 00:41:28,075 --> 00:41:30,241
- By any means...
- 763
- 00:41:30,243 --> 00:41:33,111
- Necessary. Yeah, for the band.
- 764
- 00:41:33,113 --> 00:41:34,779
- For the music.
- 765
- 00:41:34,781 --> 00:41:36,047
- It is for the music.
- 766
- 00:41:36,049 --> 00:41:37,715
- How... how is this for the music?
- 767
- 00:41:37,717 --> 00:41:40,985
- Babe, JT's gonna plug the shit
- out of this band.
- 768
- 00:41:40,987 --> 00:41:44,989
- Are you kidding?
- It's massive worldwide press.
- 769
- 00:41:44,991 --> 00:41:49,329
- And I'm, like, this close to us
- getting a review in "Spin."
- 770
- 00:41:50,897 --> 00:41:54,933
- I mean,
- Madonna sent us Kabbalah books.
- 771
- 00:41:54,935 --> 00:41:58,403
- Madonna is in our world!
- [TELEPHONE RINGS]
- 772
- 00:41:58,405 --> 00:42:01,339
- Yeah, that's great, Laura.
- No, really great.
- 773
- 00:42:01,341 --> 00:42:04,042
- Yeah, what world are you in?
- 774
- 00:42:04,044 --> 00:42:05,777
- LAURA AS JT ON PHONE: Hey, Eva.
- 775
- 00:42:05,779 --> 00:42:07,745
- Yeah.
- 776
- 00:42:07,747 --> 00:42:10,183
- Yeah, I gotta have
- creative control.
- 777
- 00:42:11,351 --> 00:42:13,018
- It's my life.
- 778
- 00:42:14,421 --> 00:42:16,955
- I'm the only one who knows...
- 779
- 00:42:16,957 --> 00:42:18,990
- Look, I get it. You wanna go
- to Europe, you know.
- 780
- 00:42:18,992 --> 00:42:20,894
- It's... it's cool.
- 781
- 00:42:23,997 --> 00:42:25,864
- Of course.
- 782
- 00:42:25,866 --> 00:42:29,300
- I mean, the only thing
- is you don't think
- 783
- 00:42:29,302 --> 00:42:31,838
- what we're doing
- is totally fucked, right?
- 784
- 00:42:34,173 --> 00:42:37,710
- No, no. I mean... No, right?
- 785
- 00:42:39,879 --> 00:42:41,912
- I mean, I guess
- technically it's lying.
- 786
- 00:42:41,914 --> 00:42:45,216
- Like, on paper,
- we're... lying to people,
- 787
- 00:42:45,218 --> 00:42:47,786
- but I f... feel like...
- 788
- 00:42:49,256 --> 00:42:50,488
- It feels like
- I'm making something.
- 789
- 00:42:50,490 --> 00:42:52,190
- Like, it feels
- like a performance
- 790
- 00:42:52,192 --> 00:42:55,493
- and, like, I'm so compelled
- to do it.
- 791
- 00:42:55,495 --> 00:42:59,062
- I... I love that feeling.
- 792
- 00:42:59,064 --> 00:43:00,964
- I've wanted
- that feeling forever,
- 793
- 00:43:00,966 --> 00:43:03,401
- and I never knew really what was
- gonna give me that, you know.
- 794
- 00:43:03,403 --> 00:43:06,003
- You have it. You play guitar.
- You've played since you were 12.
- 795
- 00:43:06,005 --> 00:43:10,243
- I see your face when you do it.
- Like... It's that feeling.
- 796
- 00:43:13,246 --> 00:43:15,947
- Guess I'm really good
- at pretending to be
- 797
- 00:43:15,949 --> 00:43:19,884
- a feral 19-year-old street kid.
- 798
- 00:43:19,886 --> 00:43:20,919
- That's not weird, right?
- 799
- 00:43:20,921 --> 00:43:23,320
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]
- 800
- 00:43:23,322 --> 00:43:24,823
- No.
- 801
- 00:43:26,025 --> 00:43:27,157
- Oh, man.
- 802
- 00:43:27,159 --> 00:43:29,962
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 803
- 00:43:35,202 --> 00:43:38,138
- [ANNOUNCEMENT IN FRENCH]
- 804
- 00:44:01,294 --> 00:44:04,029
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 805
- 00:44:08,101 --> 00:44:11,168
- How was your flight? Alright?
- 806
- 00:44:11,170 --> 00:44:13,537
- LAURA AS SPEEDIE: JT's hungry.
- 807
- 00:44:13,539 --> 00:44:15,806
- ISABELLE: You did not indulge
- in the first-class fair?
- 808
- 00:44:15,808 --> 00:44:19,209
- Bugger slept the whole flight.
- Maybe some eggs.
- 809
- 00:44:19,211 --> 00:44:21,546
- ISABELLE: Um, we don't have
- much time.
- 810
- 00:44:21,548 --> 00:44:23,213
- He loves eggs,
- so if we can grab...
- 811
- 00:44:23,215 --> 00:44:26,484
- It's okay, go.
- First time in Paris?
- 812
- 00:44:26,486 --> 00:44:28,185
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 813
- 00:44:28,187 --> 00:44:31,424
- Fucking take my...
- Fuckin' French.
- 814
- 00:44:42,067 --> 00:44:45,337
- SPEEDIE: Quite mature trees,
- aren't they?
- 815
- 00:44:46,572 --> 00:44:50,340
- You never see that in America.
- 816
- 00:44:50,342 --> 00:44:52,342
- It's gorgeous.
- 817
- 00:44:52,344 --> 00:44:56,447
- Europe, I love it.
- You know, it's fantastic.
- 818
- 00:44:56,449 --> 00:44:58,147
- LAURA: I'm gonna barf.
- 819
- 00:44:58,149 --> 00:44:59,982
- I can't believe
- they wouldn't stop for eggs.
- 820
- 00:44:59,984 --> 00:45:01,884
- I can't live off snacks.
- 821
- 00:45:01,886 --> 00:45:04,054
- You need to be my advocate
- and speak up.
- 822
- 00:45:04,056 --> 00:45:06,123
- - We'll never eat.
- - Sorry.
- 823
- 00:45:06,125 --> 00:45:07,524
- You'll have to take
- the jacket off too.
- 824
- 00:45:07,526 --> 00:45:09,126
- We gotta see
- the whole band name.
- 825
- 00:45:09,128 --> 00:45:10,927
- I mean, you can see it.
- You can see it.
- 826
- 00:45:10,929 --> 00:45:11,995
- No, no, it's promotion.
- It's good for Geoff.
- 827
- 00:45:11,997 --> 00:45:14,064
- - EVA: JT!
- - Take...
- 828
- 00:45:14,066 --> 00:45:15,834
- [GASPS]
- Ah!
- 829
- 00:45:16,869 --> 00:45:18,404
- Hello.
- 830
- 00:45:19,438 --> 00:45:21,004
- - Hi.
- - Hey.
- 831
- 00:45:21,006 --> 00:45:22,572
- - Hey, Speedie.
- SPEEDIE: Eva.
- 832
- 00:45:22,574 --> 00:45:24,508
- You look gorgeous as usual.
- 833
- 00:45:24,510 --> 00:45:27,544
- How are you? What's up?
- You nervous?
- 834
- 00:45:27,546 --> 00:45:29,446
- - Yeah, of course.
- - Don't be.
- 835
- 00:45:29,448 --> 00:45:31,281
- You look great.
- I love your jacket.
- 836
- 00:45:31,283 --> 00:45:33,916
- Hey. You'll be fuckin' great.
- 837
- 00:45:33,918 --> 00:45:36,920
- I'm so proud of you, baby.
- 838
- 00:45:36,922 --> 00:45:38,857
- [WHISPERS]
- I have something for you.
- 839
- 00:45:45,230 --> 00:45:47,664
- SPEEDIE: Alright.
- Um, should we...
- 840
- 00:45:47,666 --> 00:45:50,500
- You know what, I think
- it's best I come with you.
- 841
- 00:45:50,502 --> 00:45:53,037
- So that we can check the venue
- and...
- 842
- 00:45:57,175 --> 00:45:59,511
- So you gave me your talisman.
- 843
- 00:46:02,381 --> 00:46:04,416
- I'm gonna give you mine.
- 844
- 00:46:06,685 --> 00:46:09,088
- Belonged to my grandfather.
- 845
- 00:46:10,988 --> 00:46:12,988
- Ah.
- 846
- 00:46:12,990 --> 00:46:16,158
- Well... it's incredible.
- 847
- 00:46:16,160 --> 00:46:18,427
- But I shouldn't accept that,
- you know.
- 848
- 00:46:18,429 --> 00:46:20,331
- Yes, you should.
- 849
- 00:46:32,511 --> 00:46:34,410
- [ISABELLE SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 850
- 00:46:34,412 --> 00:46:36,547
- [SPEAKS IN FRENCH]
- We have to go.
- 851
- 00:46:43,454 --> 00:46:46,391
- [SPEAKING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE]
- 852
- 00:46:48,025 --> 00:46:50,962
- [ALL CHEERING]
- 853
- 00:46:52,731 --> 00:46:54,600
- JT!
- 854
- 00:47:09,580 --> 00:47:10,948
- Hi.
- 855
- 00:47:12,250 --> 00:47:14,185
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 856
- 00:47:16,988 --> 00:47:19,924
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 857
- 00:47:25,363 --> 00:47:28,431
- Your mother put you
- through some awful situations.
- 858
- 00:47:28,433 --> 00:47:31,102
- How does she feel about
- your expose of her behavior?
- 859
- 00:47:32,737 --> 00:47:34,071
- Um...
- 860
- 00:47:35,239 --> 00:47:38,240
- Sh... she's not, um...
- 861
- 00:47:38,242 --> 00:47:40,309
- with us anymore.
- 862
- 00:47:40,311 --> 00:47:43,345
- S... so, um, I don't really know.
- 863
- 00:47:43,347 --> 00:47:46,181
- MAN 2: [SPEAKS IN FRENCH]
- We cannot hear you, JT!
- 864
- 00:47:46,183 --> 00:47:49,351
- Ah, you can't hear me, um...
- [CLEARS THROAT]
- 865
- 00:47:49,353 --> 00:47:50,555
- I...
- 866
- 00:47:51,722 --> 00:47:55,491
- I was just sayin' that, um...
- 867
- 00:47:55,493 --> 00:47:59,695
- my... my mom isn't here anymore,
- 868
- 00:47:59,697 --> 00:48:06,435
- and... also the books
- are fiction, so, yeah.
- 869
- 00:48:06,437 --> 00:48:09,272
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 870
- 00:48:11,308 --> 00:48:14,610
- WOMAN 4: JT? [SPEAKS IN FRENCH]
- 871
- 00:48:14,612 --> 00:48:16,110
- ISABELLE: You wrote
- on your website
- 872
- 00:48:16,112 --> 00:48:17,580
- that writing
- is your... your lifesaver.
- 873
- 00:48:17,582 --> 00:48:21,082
- I... it's painful,
- um, but I need it.
- 874
- 00:48:21,084 --> 00:48:22,418
- ISABELLE: What did
- your friends think?
- 875
- 00:48:22,420 --> 00:48:24,753
- SAVANNAH AS JT: The truth
- in fiction...
- 876
- 00:48:24,755 --> 00:48:27,790
- WOMAN 5: JT, why do you tend
- to avoid public events?
- 877
- 00:48:27,792 --> 00:48:30,693
- Just, um, protection,
- I think and...
- 878
- 00:48:30,695 --> 00:48:32,261
- [WOMAN SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 879
- 00:48:32,263 --> 00:48:33,695
- ISABELLE: Speak to your choice
- of wearing
- 880
- 00:48:33,697 --> 00:48:35,798
- a quote-unquote disguise.
- 881
- 00:48:35,800 --> 00:48:39,400
- Anonymity's kind of like
- losing your virginity.
- 882
- 00:48:39,402 --> 00:48:42,471
- But they are based on your real
- experiences, right, JT?
- 883
- 00:48:42,473 --> 00:48:44,373
- Fiction's sort of a lie
- 884
- 00:48:44,375 --> 00:48:47,345
- but can be more true
- than the truth.
- 885
- 00:48:48,746 --> 00:48:51,447
- MAN 3: JT, you sound
- like a woman to me,
- 886
- 00:48:51,449 --> 00:48:53,415
- but you insist you are a man.
- 887
- 00:48:53,417 --> 00:48:56,354
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 888
- 00:48:59,322 --> 00:49:01,556
- Uh...
- 889
- 00:49:01,558 --> 00:49:04,592
- You know, it's not really
- my responsibility
- 890
- 00:49:04,594 --> 00:49:09,732
- to help lead you
- through your own discomfort
- 891
- 00:49:09,734 --> 00:49:12,403
- on how I make you feel. Um...
- 892
- 00:49:14,271 --> 00:49:17,406
- I can be whomever I wanna be.
- 893
- 00:49:17,408 --> 00:49:19,775
- EVA: Fuck, yeah!
- 894
- 00:49:19,777 --> 00:49:22,610
- Um, and as for sounding
- like a woman,
- 895
- 00:49:22,612 --> 00:49:25,847
- um, well, I'd say thank you.
- 896
- 00:49:25,849 --> 00:49:27,782
- [LAUGHS]
- 897
- 00:49:27,784 --> 00:49:31,653
- But, JT, are you really
- who you say you are?
- 898
- 00:49:31,655 --> 00:49:34,291
- Are you really
- who you say you are?
- 899
- 00:49:37,495 --> 00:49:39,260
- I...
- 900
- 00:49:39,262 --> 00:49:41,329
- I can't really tell.
- Are you a man?
- 901
- 00:49:41,331 --> 00:49:44,433
- [LAUGHS] Prove your masculinity
- right now!
- 902
- 00:49:44,435 --> 00:49:45,667
- Pull your cock out!
- 903
- 00:49:45,669 --> 00:49:48,204
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 904
- 00:49:56,746 --> 00:50:00,348
- Alright. Uh, it's done.
- 905
- 00:50:00,350 --> 00:50:01,551
- It's done.
- 906
- 00:50:02,552 --> 00:50:03,752
- It's done.
- 907
- 00:50:03,754 --> 00:50:06,691
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 908
- 00:50:10,594 --> 00:50:12,594
- [APPLAUSE]
- 909
- 00:50:12,596 --> 00:50:15,430
- You know what I mean?
- That's the key.
- 910
- 00:50:15,432 --> 00:50:17,567
- In America, it's different.
- 911
- 00:50:19,169 --> 00:50:21,336
- In America...
- 912
- 00:50:21,338 --> 00:50:23,273
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 913
- 00:50:24,708 --> 00:50:26,676
- Super cool.
- 914
- 00:50:30,715 --> 00:50:33,447
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 915
- 00:50:33,449 --> 00:50:35,349
- ISABELLE: JT?
- 916
- 00:50:35,351 --> 00:50:37,854
- This young man would love
- for you to sign his book.
- 917
- 00:50:39,188 --> 00:50:40,588
- Bonjour, JT.
- 918
- 00:50:40,590 --> 00:50:43,291
- SPEEDIE: Eva? Eva...
- 919
- 00:50:43,293 --> 00:50:44,494
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 920
- 00:50:45,962 --> 00:50:48,363
- Eva.
- 921
- 00:50:48,365 --> 00:50:51,366
- Uh, I need to take JT back
- to the hotel now.
- 922
- 00:50:51,368 --> 00:50:53,534
- - We need a proper meal.
- - Nonsense.
- 923
- 00:50:53,536 --> 00:50:55,503
- Nah, he's drinking too much.
- 924
- 00:50:55,505 --> 00:50:58,305
- And I can't stand
- all this smoke.
- 925
- 00:50:58,307 --> 00:51:00,842
- Speedie, come on.
- 926
- 00:51:00,844 --> 00:51:03,379
- Stop interfering with his life
- all the time.
- 927
- 00:51:05,247 --> 00:51:07,751
- She's interfering with my life,
- actually.
- 928
- 00:51:08,985 --> 00:51:10,587
- Excuse me.
- 929
- 00:51:12,489 --> 00:51:15,990
- JT, let's go back to the hotel.
- 930
- 00:51:15,992 --> 00:51:18,259
- I'm not ready to go yet.
- 931
- 00:51:18,261 --> 00:51:21,931
- Well, this place is filled
- with toxicity. Let's go.
- 932
- 00:51:23,565 --> 00:51:25,769
- I play in the fields
- of the Lord, remember?
- 933
- 00:51:27,804 --> 00:51:29,804
- My words!
- 934
- 00:51:29,806 --> 00:51:31,574
- EVA: See you later, Speedie!
- 935
- 00:51:32,475 --> 00:51:35,412
- [UPBEAT MUSIC]
- 936
- 00:51:38,548 --> 00:51:41,484
- [INDISTINCT SONG]
- 937
- 00:51:43,753 --> 00:51:46,288
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 938
- 00:51:49,725 --> 00:51:50,960
- Ennio!
- 939
- 00:51:52,561 --> 00:51:54,563
- This look is perfect.
- 940
- 00:52:06,342 --> 00:52:07,675
- [INDISTINCT MUMBLING]
- 941
- 00:52:07,677 --> 00:52:09,843
- It's our favorite song.
- 942
- 00:52:09,845 --> 00:52:11,213
- Oh, right.
- 943
- 00:52:12,681 --> 00:52:13,916
- Sorry.
- 944
- 00:52:17,921 --> 00:52:21,356
- What's up, JT?
- Where are you?
- 945
- 00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:24,994
- I'm...
- 946
- 00:52:27,564 --> 00:52:29,831
- I'm totally right here.
- 947
- 00:52:29,833 --> 00:52:30,934
- I'm just...
- 948
- 00:52:32,702 --> 00:52:34,536
- just tired, you know.
- 949
- 00:52:49,919 --> 00:52:51,520
- Hi.
- 950
- 00:52:53,757 --> 00:52:54,824
- Hi.
- 951
- 00:52:55,925 --> 00:52:58,324
- [CHUCKLES]
- 952
- 00:52:58,326 --> 00:53:00,829
- You have a very different vibe
- than on the phone.
- 953
- 00:53:03,966 --> 00:53:05,601
- Yeah, I'm...
- 954
- 00:53:06,735 --> 00:53:08,804
- I'm so jetlagged.
- 955
- 00:53:11,673 --> 00:53:12,941
- [EXHALES]
- 956
- 00:53:14,676 --> 00:53:18,612
- What's the deal with you
- and Speedie? Huh?
- 957
- 00:53:18,614 --> 00:53:21,784
- I mean, you barely give
- each other room to breathe.
- 958
- 00:53:23,451 --> 00:53:25,486
- She's so obnoxious.
- 959
- 00:53:27,623 --> 00:53:30,291
- I know she's your friend.
- I'm sorry, but...
- 960
- 00:53:31,860 --> 00:53:36,465
- I know it seems weird
- from the outside, but, um...
- 961
- 00:53:38,934 --> 00:53:41,537
- I mean, I wouldn't even exist
- without her.
- 962
- 00:53:44,040 --> 00:53:45,573
- What?
- 963
- 00:53:52,047 --> 00:53:54,583
- I don't really wanna
- go there, but...
- 964
- 00:53:56,417 --> 00:53:58,921
- where are we with the option
- for the film?
- 965
- 00:54:01,890 --> 00:54:04,658
- Um...
- 966
- 00:54:04,660 --> 00:54:08,062
- I just, you know, I'd be
- so fuckin' honored to direct it
- 967
- 00:54:08,064 --> 00:54:10,665
- and play your mother.
- 968
- 00:54:13,001 --> 00:54:14,935
- She's, you know,
- she's such a character
- 969
- 00:54:14,937 --> 00:54:16,535
- obsessed with her own downfall.
- 970
- 00:54:16,537 --> 00:54:18,504
- I... you know,
- I've always just related
- 971
- 00:54:18,506 --> 00:54:21,741
- to that kind of woman, you know.
- 972
- 00:54:21,743 --> 00:54:23,944
- And I really think
- it's important to show
- 973
- 00:54:23,946 --> 00:54:27,414
- how... how you absorbed her pain,
- you know.
- 974
- 00:54:27,416 --> 00:54:29,117
- I wanna do it justice.
- 975
- 00:54:36,557 --> 00:54:39,560
- I probably need, like,
- full control of the script.
- 976
- 00:54:41,196 --> 00:54:43,664
- You know,
- 'cause it's my life, but...
- 977
- 00:54:50,739 --> 00:54:51,940
- Deal.
- 978
- 00:54:54,576 --> 00:54:57,511
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 979
- 00:55:02,583 --> 00:55:04,119
- You're so beautiful.
- 980
- 00:55:40,255 --> 00:55:42,724
- [MOANING]
- 981
- 00:55:48,863 --> 00:55:50,631
- Oh, baby.
- 982
- 00:55:59,974 --> 00:56:01,776
- [DOOR OPENS]
- 983
- 00:56:06,714 --> 00:56:07,981
- [SAVANNAH SNIFFLES]
- 984
- 00:56:07,983 --> 00:56:09,949
- [SAVANNAH SIGHS]
- 985
- 00:56:09,951 --> 00:56:12,452
- - SAVANNAH: Hey.
- - Oh.
- 986
- 00:56:13,220 --> 00:56:15,522
- It's the famous JT.
- 987
- 00:56:17,525 --> 00:56:19,593
- So, JT Leroy, tell me.
- 988
- 00:56:21,028 --> 00:56:22,761
- How do you have time to write
- 989
- 00:56:22,763 --> 00:56:26,598
- your amazing
- bestselling books, huh?
- 990
- 00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:30,002
- Because it seems like you just
- stay out all night partying!
- 991
- 00:56:30,004 --> 00:56:32,007
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know.
- 992
- 00:56:34,909 --> 00:56:36,243
- What were you doing?
- 993
- 00:56:37,845 --> 00:56:39,610
- I thought it was earlier.
- 994
- 00:56:39,612 --> 00:56:42,014
- You can't go out so long
- without me
- 995
- 00:56:42,016 --> 00:56:43,849
- and you're drinking.
- 996
- 00:56:43,851 --> 00:56:45,050
- Who knows what you said?
- 997
- 00:56:45,052 --> 00:56:47,088
- The whole thing
- could have fallen apart.
- 998
- 00:56:48,189 --> 00:56:50,055
- I secured full creative control
- 999
- 00:56:50,057 --> 00:56:52,526
- over the script,
- so there's that.
- 1000
- 00:56:53,861 --> 00:56:55,863
- - What?
- SAVANNAH: Yeah.
- 1001
- 00:57:00,800 --> 00:57:02,635
- Well, I didn't ask you
- to do that.
- 1002
- 00:57:04,338 --> 00:57:06,839
- But I...
- 1003
- 00:57:06,841 --> 00:57:08,675
- I mean, that's good news.
- 1004
- 00:57:11,612 --> 00:57:13,045
- W... what'd she say?
- 1005
- 00:57:13,047 --> 00:57:14,780
- I mean, how did that go?
- I need to know everything.
- 1006
- 00:57:14,782 --> 00:57:16,248
- I gotta get on the phone
- right away
- 1007
- 00:57:16,250 --> 00:57:19,585
- and make sure
- she said what she meant and...
- 1008
- 00:57:19,587 --> 00:57:22,186
- I would love to know what
- you talk about on the phone.
- 1009
- 00:57:22,188 --> 00:57:24,022
- If I knew what you talked
- about on the phone,
- 1010
- 00:57:24,024 --> 00:57:27,059
- maybe I wouldn't sound like
- a stammering idiot around her.
- 1011
- 00:57:27,061 --> 00:57:30,295
- I need more to talk about
- than stuff I read in interviews.
- 1012
- 00:57:30,297 --> 00:57:32,166
- I want her to feel...
- 1013
- 00:57:34,168 --> 00:57:35,635
- me. Like...
- 1014
- 00:57:37,371 --> 00:57:38,806
- Oh, my God.
- 1015
- 00:57:40,808 --> 00:57:42,243
- Did you fuck her?
- 1016
- 00:57:45,078 --> 00:57:47,178
- It's Chinese finger puzzle,
- right?
- 1017
- 00:57:47,180 --> 00:57:49,348
- You go further in to get out?
- 1018
- 00:57:49,350 --> 00:57:51,316
- [SIGHS] The fuck.
- 1019
- 00:57:51,318 --> 00:57:53,684
- Savy! Goddammit!
- 1020
- 00:57:53,686 --> 00:57:55,154
- It's not as bad as you think,
- honestly.
- 1021
- 00:57:55,156 --> 00:57:56,221
- - It's not even like that...
- - Savy!
- 1022
- 00:57:56,223 --> 00:57:58,123
- Are you fucking kidding me?
- 1023
- 00:57:58,125 --> 00:58:03,195
- Baby girl,
- she doesn't want you.
- 1024
- 00:58:03,197 --> 00:58:08,167
- Okay? She wants the person
- she talked to on the phone.
- 1025
- 00:58:08,169 --> 00:58:10,201
- She wants JT.
- 1026
- 00:58:10,203 --> 00:58:13,638
- In fact, [LAUGHS]
- she doesn't even want that!
- 1027
- 00:58:13,640 --> 00:58:15,575
- She wants the fucking rights
- to the movie!
- 1028
- 00:58:20,880 --> 00:58:22,949
- Oh, I'm being mean.
- 1029
- 00:58:25,186 --> 00:58:27,988
- I just hate myself.
- I binged all night.
- 1030
- 00:58:29,256 --> 00:58:31,857
- I was worried.
- 1031
- 00:58:31,859 --> 00:58:34,125
- I need you here
- to keep me on track.
- 1032
- 00:58:34,127 --> 00:58:36,894
- I just... oh, God.
- 1033
- 00:58:36,896 --> 00:58:38,631
- Goddammit!
- 1034
- 00:58:40,266 --> 00:58:42,068
- Don't you think
- this is ridiculous?
- 1035
- 00:58:43,736 --> 00:58:45,071
- You should write as you.
- 1036
- 00:58:46,407 --> 00:58:49,308
- Savy... come on.
- 1037
- 00:58:49,310 --> 00:58:51,742
- You're out of it.
- 1038
- 00:58:51,744 --> 00:58:54,346
- Nobody listens to me as me.
- 1039
- 00:58:54,348 --> 00:58:57,415
- SAVANNAH: They listen to you
- as JT.
- 1040
- 00:58:57,417 --> 00:58:59,683
- But the... JT doesn't exist,
- you know.
- 1041
- 00:58:59,685 --> 00:59:01,219
- He's not real.
- 1042
- 00:59:01,221 --> 00:59:03,988
- I mean, he's super real
- for some people, you know.
- 1043
- 00:59:03,990 --> 00:59:06,292
- Like... personal.
- 1044
- 00:59:07,994 --> 00:59:10,263
- - SAVANNAH: I see it.
- - Is it real for them?
- 1045
- 00:59:14,734 --> 00:59:16,236
- And I got left.
- 1046
- 00:59:18,405 --> 00:59:19,873
- I got tricked...
- 1047
- 00:59:21,307 --> 00:59:23,909
- and put in a mental home
- for grownups.
- 1048
- 00:59:28,114 --> 00:59:29,648
- Abused.
- 1049
- 00:59:31,484 --> 00:59:36,354
- Used up by... [SOBS] my mom.
- 1050
- 00:59:36,356 --> 00:59:40,860
- I was that kid...
- and it is real.
- 1051
- 00:59:42,363 --> 00:59:45,429
- I didn't say it wasn't.
- 1052
- 00:59:45,431 --> 00:59:49,065
- - That's not what I'm saying.
- - You're so mean.
- 1053
- 00:59:49,067 --> 00:59:51,435
- You are so manipulative.
- 1054
- 00:59:51,437 --> 00:59:53,237
- You don't have to do that
- with me.
- 1055
- 00:59:53,239 --> 00:59:55,772
- I'm the last person
- you have to do that with.
- 1056
- 00:59:55,774 --> 00:59:57,676
- We're in Paris...
- 1057
- 00:59:59,045 --> 01:00:00,413
- because of me...
- 1058
- 01:00:02,182 --> 01:00:03,816
- because of my writing...
- 1059
- 01:00:04,984 --> 01:00:08,352
- because of my genius.
- 1060
- 01:00:08,354 --> 01:00:11,056
- I'm glad you know how to put
- an outfit together...
- 1061
- 01:00:12,858 --> 01:00:16,026
- but all you do is show up.
- 1062
- 01:00:16,028 --> 01:00:19,263
- Oh, I... I don't inhabit him,
- he doesn't inhabit me,
- 1063
- 01:00:19,265 --> 01:00:21,032
- he doesn't leap out
- of your body into mine?
- 1064
- 01:00:21,034 --> 01:00:22,300
- We're not making
- something together?
- 1065
- 01:00:22,302 --> 01:00:23,434
- All this bullshit
- that you say to me
- 1066
- 01:00:23,436 --> 01:00:26,404
- to get me to do this crazy shit!
- 1067
- 01:00:26,406 --> 01:00:29,273
- No, no, no,
- if all I do is show up,
- 1068
- 01:00:29,275 --> 01:00:31,945
- honestly, why don't I fucking
- go ahead and stop showing up?
- 1069
- 01:00:33,845 --> 01:00:35,047
- [EXHALES]
- 1070
- 01:00:38,551 --> 01:00:41,084
- [WATER RUNNING]
- 1071
- 01:00:41,086 --> 01:00:43,155
- Stop being a drama queen!
- 1072
- 01:00:49,329 --> 01:00:51,429
- SAVANNAH AS JT: I feel lost
- in a limitless hall
- 1073
- 01:00:51,431 --> 01:00:53,765
- of desire and longing.
- 1074
- 01:00:55,101 --> 01:00:57,167
- What was I thinkin'?
- 1075
- 01:00:57,169 --> 01:00:59,304
- [MUSIC ON TAPE]
- 1076
- 01:01:12,184 --> 01:01:15,386
- Hey. I have to tell you
- something.
- 1077
- 01:01:15,388 --> 01:01:16,922
- [SIGHS]
- 1078
- 01:01:23,929 --> 01:01:25,530
- - What?
- - Yeah.
- 1079
- 01:01:28,033 --> 01:01:29,901
- - Sav.
- - Ah.
- 1080
- 01:01:31,203 --> 01:01:33,069
- I've seen pictures of JT.
- 1081
- 01:01:33,071 --> 01:01:35,473
- - I bet.
- - Yeah, and I read "Sarah."
- 1082
- 01:01:35,475 --> 01:01:37,308
- - I know.
- - I never connected the dots.
- 1083
- 01:01:37,310 --> 01:01:39,510
- I noticed that.
- 1084
- 01:01:39,512 --> 01:01:43,581
- Wow, um, okay, so wait.
- 1085
- 01:01:43,583 --> 01:01:45,548
- When you, when you talk
- to people in person,
- 1086
- 01:01:45,550 --> 01:01:48,020
- they... they don't notice
- that it's not Laura's voice?
- 1087
- 01:01:50,355 --> 01:01:54,057
- And they all think
- that you're a boy.
- 1088
- 01:01:54,059 --> 01:01:57,193
- It's like "The Emperor's New
- Clothes" kind of deal, you know.
- 1089
- 01:01:57,195 --> 01:01:59,429
- Every time someone questions it,
- Laura just throws it
- 1090
- 01:01:59,431 --> 01:02:01,231
- right back on them
- and is like, what do you mean
- 1091
- 01:02:01,233 --> 01:02:04,102
- the Emperor has no clothes?
- That's his very best outfit.
- 1092
- 01:02:05,371 --> 01:02:07,904
- I mean...
- 1093
- 01:02:07,906 --> 01:02:09,606
- I... I wanted to tell you.
- 1094
- 01:02:09,608 --> 01:02:11,940
- I just think I really valued
- the secret of it
- 1095
- 01:02:11,942 --> 01:02:14,511
- and... wanted to protect her.
- 1096
- 01:02:14,513 --> 01:02:17,414
- I would just fucking die
- if I, like...
- 1097
- 01:02:17,416 --> 01:02:19,251
- ruined that for her and...
- 1098
- 01:02:21,887 --> 01:02:23,520
- Yeah.
- 1099
- 01:02:23,522 --> 01:02:27,057
- This is literally the craziest
- thing I've ever heard.
- 1100
- 01:02:27,059 --> 01:02:29,660
- I'm really not sure if I should,
- like, ask more questions
- 1101
- 01:02:29,662 --> 01:02:32,028
- or, I don't know, run away.
- 1102
- 01:02:32,030 --> 01:02:33,831
- - Run out of here?
- - Yeah.
- 1103
- 01:02:35,166 --> 01:02:37,034
- Am I terrible?
- 1104
- 01:02:40,405 --> 01:02:41,904
- - I mean...
- - Also, it's over.
- 1105
- 01:02:41,906 --> 01:02:43,573
- I'm not... I'm not
- gonna do it anymore.
- 1106
- 01:02:43,575 --> 01:02:45,041
- Which is why
- it was, like, a lot easier
- 1107
- 01:02:45,043 --> 01:02:47,510
- to tell you this, to be honest.
- 1108
- 01:02:47,512 --> 01:02:49,045
- You're not gonna do it anymore?
- 1109
- 01:02:49,047 --> 01:02:50,148
- No.
- 1110
- 01:02:52,150 --> 01:02:54,351
- ♪ If I could be
- 1111
- 01:02:54,353 --> 01:02:57,687
- ♪ What you wanted
- 1112
- 01:02:57,689 --> 01:03:00,389
- ♪ If you wanted
- 1113
- 01:03:00,391 --> 01:03:02,359
- ♪ Come and...
- ♪ Be my...
- 1114
- 01:03:02,361 --> 01:03:04,226
- Come and be my one?
- 1115
- 01:03:04,228 --> 01:03:08,431
- ♪ ...be what you wanted ♪
- 1116
- 01:03:08,433 --> 01:03:10,300
- LAURA AS JT ON PHONE: No,
- it's not that I don't want to.
- 1117
- 01:03:10,302 --> 01:03:12,569
- I've just been... I feel like
- if I leave the house,
- 1118
- 01:03:12,571 --> 01:03:15,107
- I'm gonna fall into old habits.
- 1119
- 01:03:16,575 --> 01:03:18,310
- No, I know.
- 1120
- 01:03:19,478 --> 01:03:21,043
- Dennis, I know you know,
- 1121
- 01:03:21,045 --> 01:03:24,012
- but... I... I feel stuck.
- 1122
- 01:03:24,014 --> 01:03:27,216
- No, I really wanna go, Jason.
- 1123
- 01:03:27,218 --> 01:03:29,151
- I do.
- 1124
- 01:03:29,153 --> 01:03:30,387
- I just, um...
- 1125
- 01:03:30,389 --> 01:03:32,455
- For my health,
- 1126
- 01:03:32,457 --> 01:03:35,692
- I need to focus on me right now.
- 1127
- 01:03:35,694 --> 01:03:38,561
- I know it's probably
- not something I should relive,
- 1128
- 01:03:38,563 --> 01:03:41,264
- but... I mean,
- 1129
- 01:03:41,266 --> 01:03:44,136
- it's like, they're makin'
- a movie on my life.
- 1130
- 01:03:46,003 --> 01:03:49,173
- Well, they keep asking me
- to come down to the set and...
- 1131
- 01:03:50,574 --> 01:03:53,208
- Yeah.
- 1132
- 01:03:53,210 --> 01:03:55,246
- No, but how do I say
- no to that?
- 1133
- 01:03:56,715 --> 01:03:58,981
- Yeah, Eva and I have been,
- 1134
- 01:03:58,983 --> 01:04:02,153
- um, having phone sex lately
- and...
- 1135
- 01:04:04,523 --> 01:04:08,657
- Dr. Owen,
- I know it's not healthy, but...
- 1136
- 01:04:08,659 --> 01:04:11,693
- the heart wants
- what the heart wants, right?
- 1137
- 01:04:11,695 --> 01:04:14,632
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1138
- 01:04:29,714 --> 01:04:31,516
- - Hey.
- SAVANNAH: Hey.
- 1139
- 01:04:34,418 --> 01:04:35,684
- SAVANNAH: How you doin'?
- 1140
- 01:04:35,686 --> 01:04:37,186
- - LAURA: Is that Sav?
- - I'm okay.
- 1141
- 01:04:37,188 --> 01:04:39,254
- Yeah, it's Sav!
- 1142
- 01:04:39,256 --> 01:04:42,458
- LAURA: Oh, my God. Get her
- in here. It's like Christmas.
- 1143
- 01:04:42,460 --> 01:04:45,627
- Look at all this stuff
- that JT gets for free.
- 1144
- 01:04:45,629 --> 01:04:48,130
- Thank God you're here, you guys.
- Start taking stuff.
- 1145
- 01:04:48,132 --> 01:04:50,767
- Here, Astor, bowties.
- 1146
- 01:04:50,769 --> 01:04:53,703
- - LAURA: Look at those!
- - What? No.
- 1147
- 01:04:53,705 --> 01:04:56,674
- Did you tell her about Astor
- doing the music for the movie?
- 1148
- 01:04:59,175 --> 01:05:01,643
- Yeah, well, Laura's been
- speaking to Eva about,
- 1149
- 01:05:01,645 --> 01:05:04,179
- well, maybe, right,
- you know, doing the...
- 1150
- 01:05:04,181 --> 01:05:06,181
- the score for the whole movie,
- so...
- 1151
- 01:05:06,183 --> 01:05:09,253
- Definitely. I'm talking to her.
- We're gonna push this through!
- 1152
- 01:05:10,721 --> 01:05:12,454
- How is she doin'?
- 1153
- 01:05:12,456 --> 01:05:15,190
- LAURA: She's good.
- She's really good.
- 1154
- 01:05:15,192 --> 01:05:18,728
- I mean, she's, uh,
- I think, overwhelmed.
- 1155
- 01:05:18,730 --> 01:05:21,630
- You know,
- it's a lot making a movie.
- 1156
- 01:05:21,632 --> 01:05:24,298
- She said she wants JT to design
- 1157
- 01:05:24,300 --> 01:05:26,267
- an outfit for her
- to wear in the movie.
- 1158
- 01:05:26,269 --> 01:05:29,638
- Oh, my God, this is beautiful.
- 1159
- 01:05:29,640 --> 01:05:31,007
- You gotta try this.
- 1160
- 01:05:33,143 --> 01:05:35,544
- Look at that on... Oh, please.
- 1161
- 01:05:35,546 --> 01:05:37,546
- Anzevino's been sending
- all this stuff.
- 1162
- 01:05:37,548 --> 01:05:40,215
- - Like, he sent all this fabric.
- - It's really nice.
- 1163
- 01:05:40,217 --> 01:05:42,584
- LAURA: He wants to support
- JT the designer.
- 1164
- 01:05:42,586 --> 01:05:45,219
- Hey, do you think
- I could talk to her?
- 1165
- 01:05:45,221 --> 01:05:47,623
- LAURA: Uh...
- 1166
- 01:05:47,625 --> 01:05:50,324
- I just got an e-mail.
- You wanna see it?
- 1167
- 01:05:50,326 --> 01:05:52,128
- I just got one from her.
- 1168
- 01:05:55,766 --> 01:05:58,700
- I just... I think talking to her
- would be hard
- 1169
- 01:05:58,702 --> 01:06:02,371
- 'cause we're talking so much
- and it might get a little mucky,
- 1170
- 01:06:02,373 --> 01:06:04,806
- but, um... So, Jacqueline.
- 1171
- 01:06:04,808 --> 01:06:07,144
- "Please, please,
- please come to Tennessee.
- 1172
- 01:06:09,579 --> 01:06:13,414
- Baby boy, I miss your soft lips.
- 1173
- 01:06:13,416 --> 01:06:15,151
- I dream of your skin."
- 1174
- 01:06:16,219 --> 01:06:17,719
- I love this.
- 1175
- 01:06:17,721 --> 01:06:21,823
- "I wanna pull on your hair
- like a horse's mane."
- 1176
- 01:06:21,825 --> 01:06:24,893
- She is so into your pheromones.
- I love that.
- 1177
- 01:06:24,895 --> 01:06:27,665
- I mean, you're talking to her
- as me, you know. Like...
- 1178
- 01:06:30,434 --> 01:06:33,169
- Yeah. I mean...
- 1179
- 01:06:35,171 --> 01:06:36,840
- I'm talking to her as JT.
- 1180
- 01:06:42,813 --> 01:06:45,847
- We had, like, a thing.
- Like a real thing.
- 1181
- 01:06:45,849 --> 01:06:48,817
- It wasn't bullshit, it wasn't...
- 1182
- 01:06:48,819 --> 01:06:51,720
- I... I know that.
- 1183
- 01:06:51,722 --> 01:06:56,626
- Sav, you're as much
- a part of JT as me.
- 1184
- 01:06:58,728 --> 01:07:01,562
- That's the truth.
- 1185
- 01:07:01,564 --> 01:07:05,333
- Not some adolescent
- talking to you in Paris,
- 1186
- 01:07:05,335 --> 01:07:06,636
- saying dumb shit...
- 1187
- 01:07:08,204 --> 01:07:09,838
- because she was jealous
- 1188
- 01:07:09,840 --> 01:07:12,506
- and felt left out and lonely.
- 1189
- 01:07:12,508 --> 01:07:14,576
- I'm s... I'm so sorry.
- 1190
- 01:07:14,578 --> 01:07:16,480
- It's embarrassing.
- 1191
- 01:07:18,716 --> 01:07:21,849
- And the Eva thing actually
- 1192
- 01:07:21,851 --> 01:07:24,785
- turned out to be great.
- 1193
- 01:07:24,787 --> 01:07:26,654
- Why shouldn't you wanna be
- intimate with her?
- 1194
- 01:07:26,656 --> 01:07:29,492
- Oh, my God. And you guys
- have this connection, so...
- 1195
- 01:07:31,427 --> 01:07:32,762
- This is crazy.
- 1196
- 01:07:34,731 --> 01:07:36,664
- LAURA: And this whole
- Tennessee thing.
- 1197
- 01:07:36,666 --> 01:07:40,234
- I don't know what to do.
- I mean, it would be great
- 1198
- 01:07:40,236 --> 01:07:44,639
- for Astor to go
- 'cause of the music, and I...
- 1199
- 01:07:44,641 --> 01:07:47,842
- You know, she really wants us
- to be on set
- 1200
- 01:07:47,844 --> 01:07:51,579
- and see the experience,
- but I... I don't know
- 1201
- 01:07:51,581 --> 01:07:54,982
- if you wanna be JT again.
- 1202
- 01:07:54,984 --> 01:07:57,587
- That's... that's for you
- to decide.
- 1203
- 01:08:06,596 --> 01:08:09,531
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1204
- 01:08:11,333 --> 01:08:14,269
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 1205
- 01:08:21,611 --> 01:08:23,246
- It's the wardrobe.
- 1206
- 01:08:30,687 --> 01:08:32,354
- Makeup.
- 1207
- 01:09:16,999 --> 01:09:18,966
- EVA: Well, well, well!
- 1208
- 01:09:18,968 --> 01:09:21,269
- Hi there, baby boy!
- 1209
- 01:09:23,672 --> 01:09:26,541
- Ain't this a pretty little thing
- that JT made for me?
- 1210
- 01:09:27,877 --> 01:09:29,509
- Everything looks real good.
- 1211
- 01:09:29,511 --> 01:09:32,247
- Aw. Thank you, honey pie.
- 1212
- 01:09:35,317 --> 01:09:36,886
- Hey there, mama.
- 1213
- 01:09:40,590 --> 01:09:42,456
- Hey, Speedie.
- 1214
- 01:09:42,458 --> 01:09:45,625
- Oy. There's your music man.
- 1215
- 01:09:45,627 --> 01:09:48,628
- - Hey.
- - Oh, hey. Astor.
- 1216
- 01:09:48,630 --> 01:09:50,497
- Oh, my God,
- I'm so glad you're here.
- 1217
- 01:09:50,499 --> 01:09:52,699
- It's been a fucking nightmare.
- 1218
- 01:09:52,701 --> 01:09:54,601
- It's just been me
- and these fucking idiots.
- 1219
- 01:09:54,603 --> 01:09:56,605
- Honestly, I have to fight
- for everything.
- 1220
- 01:09:58,540 --> 01:09:59,974
- [EXHALES]
- 1221
- 01:09:59,976 --> 01:10:01,776
- You know what, Speedie?
- 1222
- 01:10:01,778 --> 01:10:03,376
- I kind of understand, you know,
- what you're going through
- 1223
- 01:10:03,378 --> 01:10:05,411
- with this little rascal
- over here.
- 1224
- 01:10:05,413 --> 01:10:07,114
- You know, keeping him close
- 1225
- 01:10:07,116 --> 01:10:09,883
- and fed and out of mischief.
- 1226
- 01:10:09,885 --> 01:10:11,651
- I mean, it's exactly
- what I'm going through
- 1227
- 01:10:11,653 --> 01:10:13,486
- on this fucking set.
- You have no idea.
- 1228
- 01:10:13,488 --> 01:10:15,822
- All these men,
- it's like herding cats.
- 1229
- 01:10:15,824 --> 01:10:18,391
- They all need attention,
- they all need to express
- 1230
- 01:10:18,393 --> 01:10:19,993
- their opinions to me.
- 1231
- 01:10:19,995 --> 01:10:22,595
- Honestly, would they treat
- a male director like this?
- 1232
- 01:10:22,597 --> 01:10:24,999
- I don't think so.
- 1233
- 01:10:25,001 --> 01:10:27,534
- You know, I'm JT's mother,
- I'm the movie's mother,
- 1234
- 01:10:27,536 --> 01:10:29,739
- I'm the fucking world's mother.
- It's exhausting.
- 1235
- 01:10:32,040 --> 01:10:33,673
- But you're doing okay though,
- right?
- 1236
- 01:10:33,675 --> 01:10:36,142
- [EVA SIGHS]
- 1237
- 01:10:36,144 --> 01:10:38,711
- Baby, I'm so happy you're here.
- 1238
- 01:10:38,713 --> 01:10:41,817
- You know, you ground me.
- Calm me down.
- 1239
- 01:10:45,420 --> 01:10:48,855
- I gotta finish this scene.
- Gotta be perfect, right?
- 1240
- 01:10:48,857 --> 01:10:51,391
- Gotta be better than the guys.
- 1241
- 01:10:51,393 --> 01:10:53,027
- - Eva, we need you on the set.
- - John.
- 1242
- 01:10:53,029 --> 01:10:57,396
- I told you this is not the right
- place that we're gonna put this.
- 1243
- 01:10:57,398 --> 01:10:59,935
- - EVA: What?
- - She looks fucking wrecked.
- 1244
- 01:11:02,137 --> 01:11:03,903
- Fuck.
- 1245
- 01:11:03,905 --> 01:11:05,437
- [SIGHS]
- 1246
- 01:11:05,439 --> 01:11:07,776
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1247
- 01:11:09,845 --> 01:11:12,445
- I can't describe
- what I'm feeling.
- 1248
- 01:11:12,447 --> 01:11:13,982
- It's like this...
- 1249
- 01:11:15,584 --> 01:11:17,986
- deja vu feeling.
- 1250
- 01:11:20,888 --> 01:11:23,024
- But I feel like I'm home.
- 1251
- 01:11:32,901 --> 01:11:34,703
- JT...
- 1252
- 01:11:39,975 --> 01:11:42,944
- and Eva, that was so spooky.
- 1253
- 01:11:46,147 --> 01:11:49,115
- Looking at Sarah.
- 1254
- 01:11:49,117 --> 01:11:52,020
- You know, like all these things
- she's picking up on.
- 1255
- 01:11:53,654 --> 01:11:56,956
- I've never ever told
- anybody about it.
- 1256
- 01:11:56,958 --> 01:11:58,992
- All about S... Sarah,
- 1257
- 01:11:58,994 --> 01:12:01,830
- my best friend
- in the group home.
- 1258
- 01:12:02,964 --> 01:12:05,500
- It's like looking right at her.
- 1259
- 01:12:09,003 --> 01:12:10,871
- Art is...
- 1260
- 01:12:12,640 --> 01:12:14,875
- eerie shit, man.
- 1261
- 01:12:25,220 --> 01:12:27,656
- SAVANNAH: This is so crazy.
- 1262
- 01:12:31,992 --> 01:12:34,028
- I have to tell Eva the truth.
- 1263
- 01:12:35,763 --> 01:12:37,531
- GEOFF: Are you sure?
- 1264
- 01:12:39,500 --> 01:12:40,866
- - Baby.
- - Hey.
- 1265
- 01:12:40,868 --> 01:12:43,437
- Oh, hey, I'm so glad you came.
- 1266
- 01:12:44,973 --> 01:12:46,772
- Can you believe
- it's all happening?
- 1267
- 01:12:46,774 --> 01:12:48,542
- - It's crazy.
- - Right?
- 1268
- 01:12:50,111 --> 01:12:52,779
- You doing okay? A little bit
- better from earlier?
- 1269
- 01:12:52,781 --> 01:12:54,881
- Yeah, I'm sorry about that,
- I just...
- 1270
- 01:12:54,883 --> 01:12:56,547
- I had the worst fucking day.
- 1271
- 01:12:56,549 --> 01:12:59,551
- - But it's all gonna be...
- - JT!
- 1272
- 01:12:59,553 --> 01:13:00,886
- EVA: Sit down,
- I'm gonna get you a drink.
- 1273
- 01:13:00,888 --> 01:13:03,555
- Hey, nice to fucking
- meet you in person.
- 1274
- 01:13:03,557 --> 01:13:06,925
- - Yeah. Hey.
- - Hey.
- 1275
- 01:13:06,927 --> 01:13:11,130
- BEN: I am so excited
- to be in your fucking movie.
- 1276
- 01:13:11,132 --> 01:13:12,999
- EVA: He knows that already,
- silly.
- 1277
- 01:13:13,001 --> 01:13:15,168
- BEN: Uh, I've never
- a... acted in anything,
- 1278
- 01:13:15,170 --> 01:13:17,536
- and it's so cool.
- 1279
- 01:13:17,538 --> 01:13:19,473
- You're doing a really good job.
- 1280
- 01:13:20,741 --> 01:13:25,243
- - So is it, like, weird for you?
- - What?
- 1281
- 01:13:25,245 --> 01:13:28,582
- Like seeing your whole life
- recreated and shit?
- 1282
- 01:13:30,818 --> 01:13:34,021
- Uh, yeah, it's weird.
- 1283
- 01:13:38,926 --> 01:13:42,661
- BEN: I... I've been working on
- that song we were talkin' about.
- 1284
- 01:13:42,663 --> 01:13:44,296
- Hmm, play it.
- 1285
- 01:13:44,298 --> 01:13:46,233
- [GUITAR MUSIC]
- 1286
- 01:13:50,037 --> 01:13:52,771
- ♪ I told you to tell me
- 1287
- 01:13:52,773 --> 01:13:55,307
- ♪ To sign on the dotted line
- 1288
- 01:13:55,309 --> 01:14:01,548
- ♪ Anytime I gotta sell
- my soul for the... ♪♪
- 1289
- 01:14:04,151 --> 01:14:07,021
- BEN: Did we settle on first
- or second? I... I can't remember.
- 1290
- 01:14:09,156 --> 01:14:10,890
- [SCOFFS]
- 1291
- 01:14:12,893 --> 01:14:15,027
- - First.
- - Yeah.
- 1292
- 01:14:15,029 --> 01:14:16,727
- EVA: You gotta get that
- recorded, baby, you know,
- 1293
- 01:14:16,729 --> 01:14:18,163
- so it's ready
- for the soundtrack.
- 1294
- 01:14:18,165 --> 01:14:20,799
- BEN: I... I'm gonna.
- 1295
- 01:14:20,801 --> 01:14:23,702
- It's really cool that, uh,
- 1296
- 01:14:23,704 --> 01:14:26,705
- Astor's got some stuff
- for the soundtrack too.
- 1297
- 01:14:26,707 --> 01:14:28,040
- Oh, my God, JT.
- 1298
- 01:14:28,042 --> 01:14:30,811
- I really can't talk
- about this again.
- 1299
- 01:14:38,918 --> 01:14:40,853
- I'm sorry, babe.
- 1300
- 01:14:43,090 --> 01:14:45,689
- I am thinkin' about it.
- 1301
- 01:14:45,691 --> 01:14:47,959
- Okay.
- 1302
- 01:14:47,961 --> 01:14:49,895
- Remember, babe,
- that scene tomorrow
- 1303
- 01:14:49,897 --> 01:14:51,630
- that I was talkin' about
- earlier?
- 1304
- 01:14:51,632 --> 01:14:54,766
- When you see Jeremiah
- in the... in the basement?
- 1305
- 01:14:54,768 --> 01:14:56,368
- You know, I know I was gonna
- shoot it with the dolly,
- 1306
- 01:14:56,370 --> 01:14:57,668
- remember I was telling you about
- earlier?
- 1307
- 01:14:57,670 --> 01:14:59,036
- But I feel like,
- 1308
- 01:14:59,038 --> 01:15:01,273
- I feel like
- I need to shoot it handheld...
- 1309
- 01:15:01,275 --> 01:15:03,175
- You mind if I take a shower?
- I've just been like
- 1310
- 01:15:03,177 --> 01:15:04,975
- runnin' around all day.
- I feel really dirty.
- 1311
- 01:15:04,977 --> 01:15:06,144
- EVA: It's over there.
- 1312
- 01:15:06,146 --> 01:15:07,711
- I think it'd be much cooler...
- 1313
- 01:15:07,713 --> 01:15:10,650
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1314
- 01:15:42,783 --> 01:15:45,316
- BEN: Hey.
- 1315
- 01:15:45,318 --> 01:15:47,718
- EVA: You're not helping.
- BEN: I'm helping you.
- 1316
- 01:15:47,720 --> 01:15:49,787
- Stop! Stop it.
- 1317
- 01:15:49,789 --> 01:15:52,358
- EVA: I'm tired, let's go.
- Oh, my God.
- 1318
- 01:15:54,026 --> 01:15:57,728
- Hey. It's so late, babe.
- Just crash here.
- 1319
- 01:15:57,730 --> 01:16:01,866
- This is actually super comfy.
- Manson stayed on it last week.
- 1320
- 01:16:01,868 --> 01:16:04,169
- We're gonna go to bed,
- I'm so fucking tired.
- 1321
- 01:16:04,171 --> 01:16:06,438
- - Night, JT.
- - Goodnight.
- 1322
- 01:16:06,440 --> 01:16:08,174
- - Goodnight.
- - Hey.
- 1323
- 01:16:31,930 --> 01:16:33,865
- [SIGHS]
- 1324
- 01:16:39,805 --> 01:16:42,742
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1325
- 01:16:56,422 --> 01:16:59,923
- LAURA: She's not
- really quitting, right?
- 1326
- 01:16:59,925 --> 01:17:02,059
- I mean...
- 1327
- 01:17:02,061 --> 01:17:05,029
- she'll come around, huh?
- 1328
- 01:17:05,031 --> 01:17:08,232
- - We're a team.
- - No, baby, no.
- 1329
- 01:17:08,234 --> 01:17:10,234
- Look, I'm sorry, I gotta set
- a boundary here, okay?
- 1330
- 01:17:10,236 --> 01:17:12,770
- Either you stop...
- 1331
- 01:17:12,772 --> 01:17:14,271
- or I'm out.
- 1332
- 01:17:14,273 --> 01:17:16,240
- Hey.
- 1333
- 01:17:16,242 --> 01:17:18,945
- You know what that means for me?
- 1334
- 01:17:30,323 --> 01:17:32,258
- Okay, it's done.
- 1335
- 01:17:34,227 --> 01:17:36,227
- Okay.
- 1336
- 01:17:36,229 --> 01:17:37,763
- Okay.
- 1337
- 01:17:44,402 --> 01:17:47,339
- [EDM MUSIC]
- 1338
- 01:18:21,440 --> 01:18:23,908
- [BREATHING HEAVILY]
- 1339
- 01:18:44,863 --> 01:18:46,766
- [SIGHS]
- 1340
- 01:18:51,970 --> 01:18:53,537
- - Mm-hmm?
- - Mm-hmm.
- 1341
- 01:18:53,539 --> 01:18:55,638
- Alright, look, I gotta jet.
- 1342
- 01:18:55,640 --> 01:18:57,540
- I'll be back soon, okay?
- 1343
- 01:18:57,542 --> 01:19:00,078
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1344
- 01:19:03,982 --> 01:19:07,216
- LAURA: Don't worry,
- I'll get back to writin'.
- 1345
- 01:19:07,218 --> 01:19:09,520
- No, trust me, you.
- 1346
- 01:19:09,522 --> 01:19:12,322
- I can't really answer that, Dot.
- 1347
- 01:19:12,324 --> 01:19:15,158
- They said don't exist, so...
- 1348
- 01:19:15,160 --> 01:19:18,429
- I'm not even talkin' to you
- right now, right?
- 1349
- 01:19:18,431 --> 01:19:21,197
- When shit that's this bleak...
- 1350
- 01:19:21,199 --> 01:19:23,366
- You have no idea
- where I could go,
- 1351
- 01:19:23,368 --> 01:19:25,337
- what I could do to myself.
- 1352
- 01:19:26,938 --> 01:19:29,207
- You have no idea.
- 1353
- 01:19:33,411 --> 01:19:34,579
- JT.
- 1354
- 01:19:36,047 --> 01:19:38,247
- I...
- 1355
- 01:19:38,249 --> 01:19:40,350
- I think you've got
- the wrong person,
- 1356
- 01:19:40,352 --> 01:19:43,318
- but I'll send your server over.
- 1357
- 01:19:43,320 --> 01:19:46,021
- [CHUCKLES] Okay.
- 1358
- 01:19:46,023 --> 01:19:48,493
- LAURA: Jason, no, I don't...
- 1359
- 01:19:50,628 --> 01:19:52,695
- What?
- 1360
- 01:19:52,697 --> 01:19:55,367
- Really? That's crazy.
- 1361
- 01:19:57,469 --> 01:19:59,404
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 1362
- 01:20:03,208 --> 01:20:07,143
- LAURA: Just trying to cut me
- down, say I don't exist.
- 1363
- 01:20:07,145 --> 01:20:12,047
- And I'm out there,
- say I'm workin' in a restaurant
- 1364
- 01:20:12,049 --> 01:20:14,419
- when I'm here talkin' to you...
- 1365
- 01:20:18,423 --> 01:20:20,723
- LAURA: Eva, why would you
- for one second
- 1366
- 01:20:20,725 --> 01:20:22,992
- listen to some dumb rumor?
- 1367
- 01:20:22,994 --> 01:20:25,395
- Rumors have been circling me
- for years.
- 1368
- 01:20:25,397 --> 01:20:28,131
- I mean, come on,
- you know my spirit,
- 1369
- 01:20:28,133 --> 01:20:30,133
- my soul, my art.
- 1370
- 01:20:30,135 --> 01:20:32,134
- We're creative partners.
- 1371
- 01:20:32,136 --> 01:20:34,069
- You gotta trust me on this.
- 1372
- 01:20:34,071 --> 01:20:35,971
- How can I pro...
- 1373
- 01:20:35,973 --> 01:20:37,507
- The premiere...
- 1374
- 01:20:37,509 --> 01:20:39,675
- [SIGHS] Of course,
- I wanna come, but...
- 1375
- 01:20:39,677 --> 01:20:42,246
- you know how hard
- travel is on me.
- 1376
- 01:20:43,748 --> 01:20:46,982
- Yeah, okay, I get it, I get...
- 1377
- 01:20:46,984 --> 01:20:48,919
- I... I'll go.
- 1378
- 01:20:50,188 --> 01:20:51,956
- I'll be there.
- 1379
- 01:21:08,473 --> 01:21:10,473
- [SIGHS]
- 1380
- 01:21:10,475 --> 01:21:12,943
- - SEAN: Everything okay?
- - Yeah.
- 1381
- 01:21:20,083 --> 01:21:21,985
- Was that Laura?
- 1382
- 01:21:25,589 --> 01:21:27,224
- I can tell.
- 1383
- 01:21:29,426 --> 01:21:32,260
- Eva's movie,
- or JT's movie or whatever
- 1384
- 01:21:32,262 --> 01:21:34,331
- got into
- the Cannes Film Festival.
- 1385
- 01:21:37,602 --> 01:21:40,305
- And they want JT to go.
- 1386
- 01:21:41,673 --> 01:21:43,738
- Well, they're pretty
- desperate...
- 1387
- 01:21:43,740 --> 01:21:48,043
- for him to be there, like,
- to promote the movie, and...
- 1388
- 01:21:48,045 --> 01:21:51,480
- and they'd pay me,
- like, $1000 a day.
- 1389
- 01:21:51,482 --> 01:21:54,416
- And people are skeptical, too,
- you know, especially Eva.
- 1390
- 01:21:54,418 --> 01:21:56,218
- If JT doesn't go,
- the whole thing will be over
- 1391
- 01:21:56,220 --> 01:21:58,386
- for Laura, you know.
- 1392
- 01:21:58,388 --> 01:22:01,024
- I know, but... so what?
- 1393
- 01:22:02,494 --> 01:22:04,794
- Every time you come back
- from being JT,
- 1394
- 01:22:04,796 --> 01:22:06,462
- you're a mess.
- 1395
- 01:22:06,464 --> 01:22:08,763
- I could use the money.
- It's a lot of money.
- 1396
- 01:22:08,765 --> 01:22:11,133
- Use a few more people
- while you're at it?
- 1397
- 01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:17,741
- That's a... really reductive,
- simplified version of it.
- 1398
- 01:22:19,243 --> 01:22:21,211
- We've talked about that.
- 1399
- 01:22:22,246 --> 01:22:23,712
- Okay.
- 1400
- 01:22:23,714 --> 01:22:25,717
- Let's get real for a second.
- 1401
- 01:22:29,152 --> 01:22:33,354
- People respond to JT
- because of who they think he is.
- 1402
- 01:22:33,356 --> 01:22:35,289
- But what you guys are doing
- is just like...
- 1403
- 01:22:35,291 --> 01:22:39,261
- People get just as much
- as they put into it.
- 1404
- 01:22:39,263 --> 01:22:41,663
- It's like they use us,
- we use them.
- 1405
- 01:22:41,665 --> 01:22:44,099
- Everyone uses each other.
- That's, like, how it is.
- 1406
- 01:22:44,101 --> 01:22:45,269
- Oh, my God.
- 1407
- 01:22:46,803 --> 01:22:49,039
- You've already decided,
- haven't you?
- 1408
- 01:22:49,841 --> 01:22:52,541
- It's one more time.
- 1409
- 01:22:52,543 --> 01:22:53,843
- I mean, do you hear yourself
- right now?
- 1410
- 01:22:53,845 --> 01:22:57,144
- Just one more time again?
- Like...
- 1411
- 01:22:57,146 --> 01:22:59,113
- You sound like an addict.
- 1412
- 01:22:59,115 --> 01:23:01,550
- Honestly, I'm...
- 1413
- 01:23:01,552 --> 01:23:03,351
- missing something.
- 1414
- 01:23:03,353 --> 01:23:06,220
- Like, I... I miss it.
- 1415
- 01:23:06,222 --> 01:23:08,124
- Please. We both know
- this is about Eva.
- 1416
- 01:23:11,595 --> 01:23:13,230
- You miss her?
- 1417
- 01:23:15,299 --> 01:23:17,766
- Do you wanna see her?
- 1418
- 01:23:17,768 --> 01:23:20,434
- But that's not happenin', Sav.
- 1419
- 01:23:20,436 --> 01:23:22,336
- I mean, it's crazy.
- 1420
- 01:23:22,338 --> 01:23:24,841
- She's into who she thinks JT is,
- not you.
- 1421
- 01:23:29,580 --> 01:23:31,615
- I fucked her in Paris.
- 1422
- 01:23:34,284 --> 01:23:36,484
- - What?
- SAVANNAH: I should've told you.
- 1423
- 01:23:36,486 --> 01:23:38,422
- I... I'm sorry.
- 1424
- 01:23:45,896 --> 01:23:47,831
- I always knew you had a crush.
- 1425
- 01:23:49,465 --> 01:23:51,300
- I mean, it was fuckin' obvious.
- 1426
- 01:23:53,235 --> 01:23:56,372
- But, of course, I... I didn't
- think it really meant anything.
- 1427
- 01:23:57,808 --> 01:23:59,874
- I mean, you know me.
- 1428
- 01:23:59,876 --> 01:24:01,509
- Had you told me earlier,
- I wouldn't have freaked out
- 1429
- 01:24:01,511 --> 01:24:03,547
- but to lie about it?
- 1430
- 01:24:06,550 --> 01:24:08,349
- Just think about what you want
- and what you're doin'
- 1431
- 01:24:08,351 --> 01:24:10,186
- and then we can talk.
- 1432
- 01:24:27,336 --> 01:24:29,938
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1433
- 01:24:29,940 --> 01:24:33,440
- ♪ Like a tunnel
- that you follow ♪
- 1434
- 01:24:33,442 --> 01:24:38,379
- ♪ To a tunnel of its own
- 1435
- 01:24:38,381 --> 01:24:41,715
- ♪ Down a hollow to a cavern
- 1436
- 01:24:41,717 --> 01:24:46,654
- ♪ Where the sun
- has never shone ♪
- 1437
- 01:24:46,656 --> 01:24:50,457
- ♪ Like a door
- that keeps revolving ♪
- 1438
- 01:24:50,459 --> 01:24:55,261
- ♪ In a half-forgotten dream
- 1439
- 01:24:55,263 --> 01:24:58,264
- ♪ Or the ripples from a pebble
- 1440
- 01:24:58,266 --> 01:25:03,337
- ♪ Someone tosses in a stream
- 1441
- 01:25:03,339 --> 01:25:06,874
- ♪ Like a clock
- whose hands are sweeping ♪
- 1442
- 01:25:06,876 --> 01:25:11,846
- ♪ Past the minutes of its face
- 1443
- 01:25:11,848 --> 01:25:14,849
- ♪ And the world
- is like an apple ♪
- 1444
- 01:25:14,851 --> 01:25:17,788
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 1445
- 01:25:19,922 --> 01:25:23,423
- ♪ Like the circles
- that you find ♪
- 1446
- 01:25:23,425 --> 01:25:27,596
- ♪ In the windmills
- of your mind ♪
- 1447
- 01:25:31,867 --> 01:25:34,935
- ♪ Keys that jingle
- in your pocket ♪
- 1448
- 01:25:34,937 --> 01:25:39,506
- ♪ Words that jangle
- in your head ♪
- 1449
- 01:25:39,508 --> 01:25:43,276
- ♪ Why did summer
- go so quickly? ♪
- 1450
- 01:25:43,278 --> 01:25:47,580
- ♪ Was it something
- that you said? ♪
- 1451
- 01:25:47,582 --> 01:25:50,751
- ♪ Lovers walk along the shore
- 1452
- 01:25:50,753 --> 01:25:55,689
- ♪ And leave their footprints
- in the sand ♪
- 1453
- 01:25:55,691 --> 01:25:59,326
- ♪ Is the sound
- of distant drumming ♪
- 1454
- 01:25:59,328 --> 01:26:03,931
- ♪ Just the fingers
- of your hands? ♪
- 1455
- 01:26:03,933 --> 01:26:07,533
- ♪ Pictures hanging
- in a hallway ♪
- 1456
- 01:26:07,535 --> 01:26:11,939
- ♪ And the fragment of a song
- 1457
- 01:26:11,941 --> 01:26:15,642
- ♪ Half-remembered names
- and faces ♪
- 1458
- 01:26:15,644 --> 01:26:20,346
- ♪ But to whom do they belong?
- 1459
- 01:26:20,348 --> 01:26:23,817
- ♪ When you knew
- that it was over ♪
- 1460
- 01:26:23,819 --> 01:26:28,455
- ♪ You were suddenly aware
- 1461
- 01:26:28,457 --> 01:26:32,358
- ♪ That the autumn leaves
- were turning ♪
- 1462
- 01:26:32,360 --> 01:26:36,863
- ♪ To the color of his hair
- 1463
- 01:26:36,865 --> 01:26:39,833
- ♪ Like a circle in a spiral
- 1464
- 01:26:39,835 --> 01:26:42,770
- ♪ Like a wheel within a wheel
- 1465
- 01:26:42,772 --> 01:26:46,073
- ♪ Never ending or beginning
- 1466
- 01:26:46,075 --> 01:26:49,076
- ♪ On an ever-spinning reel
- 1467
- 01:26:49,078 --> 01:26:53,747
- ♪ As the images unwind
- 1468
- 01:26:53,749 --> 01:26:58,384
- ♪ Like the circles
- that you find ♪
- 1469
- 01:26:58,386 --> 01:27:04,793
- ♪ In the windmills
- of your mind ♪
- 1470
- 01:27:07,629 --> 01:27:12,099
- ♪ Like the circles
- that you find ♪
- 1471
- 01:27:12,101 --> 01:27:15,702
- ♪ In the windmills of
- 1472
- 01:27:15,704 --> 01:27:17,403
- LAURA AS SPEEDIE: Oy.
- 1473
- 01:27:17,405 --> 01:27:20,373
- ♪ Your mind ♪
- 1474
- 01:27:20,375 --> 01:27:22,975
- - LAURA AS SPEEDIE: Oy.
- - Hey, Eva. Hey.
- 1475
- 01:27:22,977 --> 01:27:25,812
- SPEEDIE: They want the two
- of you to introduce the film.
- 1476
- 01:27:25,814 --> 01:27:28,714
- - No, no. Shh.
- - Eva! Eva!
- 1477
- 01:27:28,716 --> 01:27:30,783
- - No, no.
- - What?
- 1478
- 01:27:30,785 --> 01:27:32,718
- - Babyhead.
- - Oh, my God.
- 1479
- 01:27:32,720 --> 01:27:34,687
- What's... come here.
- 1480
- 01:27:34,689 --> 01:27:36,025
- What's wrong?
- 1481
- 01:27:37,927 --> 01:27:40,393
- SAVANNAH: I don't know
- what I was thinking.
- 1482
- 01:27:40,395 --> 01:27:41,728
- I really thought that
- 1483
- 01:27:41,730 --> 01:27:43,029
- something could have worked out
- between us.
- 1484
- 01:27:43,031 --> 01:27:45,698
- I feel like a complete idiot.
- 1485
- 01:27:45,700 --> 01:27:48,901
- Oh, don't blame yourself.
- 1486
- 01:27:48,903 --> 01:27:51,904
- Okay? Oh, my God.
- 1487
- 01:27:51,906 --> 01:27:53,773
- What? For going there?
- 1488
- 01:27:53,775 --> 01:27:56,578
- If we never let ourselves
- go there, we'll never grow.
- 1489
- 01:27:57,745 --> 01:28:00,013
- So, you're stuck, right?
- 1490
- 01:28:00,015 --> 01:28:03,183
- Some emotional vortex with her.
- 1491
- 01:28:03,185 --> 01:28:05,685
- There's no way around that,
- so you need to talk to her
- 1492
- 01:28:05,687 --> 01:28:09,121
- about what happened
- in Tennessee.
- 1493
- 01:28:09,123 --> 01:28:11,860
- You're at an impasse,
- my beautiful friend.
- 1494
- 01:28:13,761 --> 01:28:15,029
- Okay?
- 1495
- 01:28:16,965 --> 01:28:19,532
- It's like one of those sores
- that scabs over
- 1496
- 01:28:19,534 --> 01:28:22,969
- and all kinds of dirt
- are underneath.
- 1497
- 01:28:22,971 --> 01:28:26,539
- You just gotta go back in
- and take that dirt out.
- 1498
- 01:28:26,541 --> 01:28:29,809
- Talk to her and clean up
- this mess, right?
- 1499
- 01:28:29,811 --> 01:28:31,843
- Yeah.
- 1500
- 01:28:31,845 --> 01:28:34,849
- Hey, I love you.
- 1501
- 01:28:37,018 --> 01:28:38,753
- - Love you.
- - Come on.
- 1502
- 01:28:40,221 --> 01:28:43,222
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1503
- 01:28:43,224 --> 01:28:45,691
- ELLIOT: You took a film
- about truck stop hookers
- 1504
- 01:28:45,693 --> 01:28:47,593
- to the Cannes Film Festival.
- 1505
- 01:28:47,595 --> 01:28:49,795
- People know you're only involved
- if it's edgy,
- 1506
- 01:28:49,797 --> 01:28:51,898
- if it's relevant, if it's real.
- 1507
- 01:28:51,900 --> 01:28:54,799
- But more importantly,
- JT is interested
- 1508
- 01:28:54,801 --> 01:28:57,836
- in taking the problems
- of the soul, the spirit,
- 1509
- 01:28:57,838 --> 01:29:00,772
- and transforming them
- into craft, you know.
- 1510
- 01:29:00,774 --> 01:29:03,910
- Oh, my God,
- he does it with his own designs!
- 1511
- 01:29:03,912 --> 01:29:05,577
- You, uh, design?
- 1512
- 01:29:05,579 --> 01:29:07,914
- Oh, he's, he's amazing.
- 1513
- 01:29:07,916 --> 01:29:09,617
- So many...
- 1514
- 01:29:18,659 --> 01:29:21,728
- I... I just wanna, um,
- say something.
- 1515
- 01:29:29,137 --> 01:29:32,004
- Just that in Tennessee,
- 1516
- 01:29:32,006 --> 01:29:34,941
- I was feeling, um,
- 1517
- 01:29:34,943 --> 01:29:38,177
- like, really hurt
- 'cause, you know,
- 1518
- 01:29:38,179 --> 01:29:42,214
- that you were with, uh, Ben.
- 1519
- 01:29:42,216 --> 01:29:44,149
- Not that
- you s... shouldn't have been,
- 1520
- 01:29:44,151 --> 01:29:47,185
- it's just, um...
- 1521
- 01:29:47,187 --> 01:29:50,822
- I shouldn't have been there
- and...
- 1522
- 01:29:50,824 --> 01:29:54,260
- it was awkward and shitty, uh...
- 1523
- 01:29:54,262 --> 01:29:56,195
- Really?
- 1524
- 01:29:56,197 --> 01:29:58,532
- That's what
- you wanna talk about, JT?
- 1525
- 01:30:02,036 --> 01:30:05,571
- What did you expect?
- Like, one drunk fuck
- 1526
- 01:30:05,573 --> 01:30:07,639
- and I was gonna run off
- into the sunset with you
- 1527
- 01:30:07,641 --> 01:30:10,610
- and be in some sweet little
- lesbian relationship?
- 1528
- 01:30:13,080 --> 01:30:15,515
- I mean,
- you wr... wrote all those...
- 1529
- 01:30:18,051 --> 01:30:20,221
- e-mails, you know.
- 1530
- 01:30:23,857 --> 01:30:26,060
- I guess you just wanted
- the film rights.
- 1531
- 01:30:30,298 --> 01:30:32,766
- EVA: I put my whole life
- in this movie.
- 1532
- 01:30:34,901 --> 01:30:38,737
- I made a movie that is based
- on a true story, right?
- 1533
- 01:30:38,739 --> 01:30:40,707
- I made this film for you.
- 1534
- 01:30:42,709 --> 01:30:44,243
- I mean, you kind of made it
- for yourself too...
- 1535
- 01:30:44,245 --> 01:30:47,246
- You know, don't tell me
- who I made this movie for!
- 1536
- 01:30:47,248 --> 01:30:48,813
- Alright, and don't pretend
- like you don't know
- 1537
- 01:30:48,815 --> 01:30:50,584
- what I'm trying to talk about.
- 1538
- 01:30:52,186 --> 01:30:55,353
- Do you know how many times
- I had to defend you?
- 1539
- 01:30:55,355 --> 01:30:58,992
- Like tell people,
- "No, JT is actually real?"
- 1540
- 01:31:01,328 --> 01:31:04,631
- If this whole thing turns out
- to be bullshit...
- 1541
- 01:31:11,038 --> 01:31:14,208
- I'm gonna be devastated, JT,
- okay?
- 1542
- 01:31:16,377 --> 01:31:19,110
- You gotta tell me.
- 1543
- 01:31:19,112 --> 01:31:21,982
- Please tell me
- that your story is real.
- 1544
- 01:31:23,616 --> 01:31:25,919
- Tell me that you wrote
- these books...
- 1545
- 01:31:27,653 --> 01:31:29,923
- and that you are
- who you say you are.
- 1546
- 01:31:41,235 --> 01:31:42,802
- Eva...
- 1547
- 01:31:50,643 --> 01:31:53,013
- I mean, JT's whoever
- you want him to be.
- 1548
- 01:31:59,786 --> 01:32:01,088
- Oh, my God.
- 1549
- 01:32:02,322 --> 01:32:05,192
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1550
- 01:32:16,969 --> 01:32:18,904
- [SIGHS]
- 1551
- 01:32:35,321 --> 01:32:38,021
- LAURA AS JT: I feel like
- we're salmon
- 1552
- 01:32:38,023 --> 01:32:40,791
- returning to our ocean home.
- 1553
- 01:32:40,793 --> 01:32:43,261
- And w... we're finally leavin'
- the chrysalis
- 1554
- 01:32:43,263 --> 01:32:48,166
- to become the monarch
- butterflies of our own selves.
- 1555
- 01:32:48,168 --> 01:32:51,269
- I feel like I've arrived.
- 1556
- 01:32:51,271 --> 01:32:55,472
- Like I finally found
- my true self.
- 1557
- 01:32:55,474 --> 01:32:58,410
- [TELEPHONE RINGING]
- 1558
- 01:33:01,013 --> 01:33:03,847
- JOHN: Laura, this is John
- Bradwell from "The Guardian."
- 1559
- 01:33:03,849 --> 01:33:05,849
- I'm running a piece about JT.
- 1560
- 01:33:05,851 --> 01:33:08,886
- In particular, about the photo
- I found online of Savannah.
- 1561
- 01:33:08,888 --> 01:33:12,190
- It looks strikingly
- like Mr. LeRoy.
- 1562
- 01:33:12,192 --> 01:33:15,126
- It'd really be in your best
- interest to return my call.
- 1563
- 01:33:15,128 --> 01:33:17,495
- [SIGHS] Fuck.
- 1564
- 01:33:17,497 --> 01:33:19,496
- JOHN: Geoff, Bradwell
- with "The Guardian"
- 1565
- 01:33:19,498 --> 01:33:21,231
- calling again
- to confirm that Savannah...
- 1566
- 01:33:21,233 --> 01:33:24,201
- Yeah, yeah, uh, Savannah,
- uh, my sister,
- 1567
- 01:33:24,203 --> 01:33:28,038
- was... was the body
- of... of JT LeRoy, yeah.
- 1568
- 01:33:28,040 --> 01:33:30,340
- But... but Laura was...
- Laura was the voice.
- 1569
- 01:33:30,342 --> 01:33:31,975
- She... she did all the writing.
- 1570
- 01:33:31,977 --> 01:33:34,978
- JOHN: Savannah,
- Bradwell calling again.
- 1571
- 01:33:34,980 --> 01:33:37,315
- Listen, I know for a fact
- that you're JT,
- 1572
- 01:33:37,317 --> 01:33:39,117
- so at this point
- you should really
- 1573
- 01:33:39,119 --> 01:33:41,919
- just make a statement
- before my story runs.
- 1574
- 01:33:41,921 --> 01:33:43,855
- [DRAMATIC MUSIC]
- 1575
- 01:33:45,457 --> 01:33:48,025
- This may sound crazy,
- but the whole thing was never
- 1576
- 01:33:48,027 --> 01:33:50,160
- a... a big scheme.
- Never at all.
- 1577
- 01:33:50,162 --> 01:33:52,329
- I mean, it was just...
- 1578
- 01:33:52,331 --> 01:33:53,830
- I don't know.
- It just got out of hand.
- 1579
- 01:33:53,832 --> 01:33:55,167
- It snowballed, I guess.
- 1580
- 01:34:04,244 --> 01:34:06,976
- What the fuck?
- 1581
- 01:34:06,978 --> 01:34:10,480
- I guess we betrayed some people,
- sure.
- 1582
- 01:34:10,482 --> 01:34:13,419
- [SPEAKING IN FRENCH]
- 1583
- 01:34:17,456 --> 01:34:19,856
- Baby, did you get followed?
- 1584
- 01:34:19,858 --> 01:34:21,525
- I don't know.
- I don't think so.
- 1585
- 01:34:21,527 --> 01:34:24,061
- [BREATHING HEAVILY]
- Oh, fuck.
- 1586
- 01:34:24,063 --> 01:34:25,898
- This is a fucking witch hunt.
- 1587
- 01:34:27,266 --> 01:34:28,966
- Do you... you want a tea?
- 1588
- 01:34:28,968 --> 01:34:30,900
- Or I can... I can make you eggs
- or something.
- 1589
- 01:34:30,902 --> 01:34:33,004
- No, I... I can't eat anything.
- I'm okay.
- 1590
- 01:34:34,473 --> 01:34:36,373
- Oh, my God.
- 1591
- 01:34:36,375 --> 01:34:38,110
- Babe.
- 1592
- 01:34:39,345 --> 01:34:40,946
- [SIGHS]
- 1593
- 01:34:43,815 --> 01:34:46,218
- They know who I am now.
- 1594
- 01:34:51,924 --> 01:34:53,993
- I'm so ashamed.
- 1595
- 01:34:58,597 --> 01:35:01,032
- I just wanna fucking disappear.
- 1596
- 01:35:05,571 --> 01:35:07,106
- How are you holding up?
- 1597
- 01:35:09,041 --> 01:35:12,478
- I mean, I figured I'd feel
- some kind of relief...
- 1598
- 01:35:15,281 --> 01:35:17,281
- but I'm kind of at a loss.
- 1599
- 01:35:17,283 --> 01:35:18,816
- I just, like...
- 1600
- 01:35:20,852 --> 01:35:22,954
- - At a loss.
- - Yeah.
- 1601
- 01:35:26,057 --> 01:35:27,393
- Babyhead...
- 1602
- 01:35:29,395 --> 01:35:32,928
- it's the fucking
- end of the book.
- 1603
- 01:35:32,930 --> 01:35:36,166
- It's like the end of "Sarah."
- 1604
- 01:35:36,168 --> 01:35:39,903
- JT's like running naked
- through the woods.
- 1605
- 01:35:39,905 --> 01:35:41,307
- They have pitchforks.
- 1606
- 01:35:42,907 --> 01:35:44,575
- They're fucking after him.
- 1607
- 01:35:46,210 --> 01:35:48,179
- Mad 'cause he's actually a boy.
- 1608
- 01:35:52,283 --> 01:35:54,252
- You could have written
- a different ending.
- 1609
- 01:35:57,323 --> 01:35:59,224
- Had to be that ending.
- 1610
- 01:36:06,564 --> 01:36:08,832
- It's a great fuckin' ending.
- 1611
- 01:36:09,467 --> 01:36:11,169
- [CHUCKLES]
- 1612
- 01:36:14,205 --> 01:36:16,140
- [SIGHS]
- 1613
- 01:36:17,576 --> 01:36:20,409
- [TELEPHONE RINGING]
- 1614
- 01:36:20,411 --> 01:36:23,114
- LAURA: They think
- that the work is fraudulent.
- 1615
- 01:36:26,084 --> 01:36:29,319
- You know, this ain't a hoax,
- this ain't fraud.
- 1616
- 01:36:29,321 --> 01:36:31,389
- The books are real.
- 1617
- 01:36:35,193 --> 01:36:36,527
- Hello?
- 1618
- 01:36:39,263 --> 01:36:40,965
- Hello?
- 1619
- 01:37:07,492 --> 01:37:10,428
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- 1620
- 01:37:15,734 --> 01:37:17,669
- [SIGHS]
- 1621
- 01:37:19,637 --> 01:37:22,471
- WOMAN 6: Without further ado,
- let's give a warm welcome
- 1622
- 01:37:22,473 --> 01:37:24,707
- to Laura Albert.
- 1623
- 01:37:24,709 --> 01:37:27,645
- [CROWD APPLAUDING]
- 1624
- 01:37:35,620 --> 01:37:38,156
- [BREATHES DEEPLY]
- 1625
- 01:37:44,094 --> 01:37:45,630
- Tom Waits...
- 1626
- 01:37:47,197 --> 01:37:50,064
- wanted to do an interview
- 1627
- 01:37:50,066 --> 01:37:52,470
- with JT LeRoy for "Vanity Fair."
- 1628
- 01:37:53,704 --> 01:37:56,006
- JT declined...
- 1629
- 01:37:58,109 --> 01:38:00,978
- because he was notoriously shy.
- 1630
- 01:38:05,750 --> 01:38:09,184
- One of the reasons JT...
- 1631
- 01:38:09,186 --> 01:38:12,120
- was so shy...
- 1632
- 01:38:12,122 --> 01:38:14,958
- is JT didn't have a body.
- 1633
- 01:38:17,127 --> 01:38:19,330
- JT was an avatar.
- 1634
- 01:38:21,299 --> 01:38:24,433
- We are given this persona,
- 1635
- 01:38:24,435 --> 01:38:27,470
- and then we are given this body,
- 1636
- 01:38:27,472 --> 01:38:30,307
- and there's no promise
- from whomever made us...
- 1637
- 01:38:31,508 --> 01:38:33,477
- that the two will be in sync.
- 1638
- 01:38:35,145 --> 01:38:38,982
- A... and hey, I say
- we can be in the misery...
- 1639
- 01:38:40,651 --> 01:38:43,253
- of trying to get them
- to match up...
- 1640
- 01:38:45,322 --> 01:38:47,558
- or we can create our own world.
- 1641
- 01:38:50,495 --> 01:38:53,128
- Let me take you back.
- 1642
- 01:38:53,130 --> 01:38:55,396
- I was in a group home,
- 1643
- 01:38:55,398 --> 01:38:57,499
- I'm in my pain,
- 1644
- 01:38:57,501 --> 01:39:00,168
- and there's pain all around.
- 1645
- 01:39:00,170 --> 01:39:04,341
- And I'm... I'm looking
- for the tools...
- 1646
- 01:39:06,343 --> 01:39:09,745
- for other people
- to feel that pain,
- 1647
- 01:39:09,747 --> 01:39:11,348
- to understand it.
- 1648
- 01:39:12,850 --> 01:39:17,118
- And I can't be in this body,
- you know.
- 1649
- 01:39:17,120 --> 01:39:19,554
- Because my biggest fear is
- 1650
- 01:39:19,556 --> 01:39:22,057
- if I tell you my pain...
- 1651
- 01:39:23,527 --> 01:39:25,827
- you'll say, "You deserved it."
- 1652
- 01:39:25,829 --> 01:39:28,296
- "You're disgusting."
- 1653
- 01:39:28,298 --> 01:39:31,599
- "You're horrible."
- 1654
- 01:39:31,601 --> 01:39:36,504
- And I'm seeing
- these blond blue-eyed boys
- 1655
- 01:39:36,506 --> 01:39:39,242
- on after-school specials,
- and I'm like...
- 1656
- 01:39:41,311 --> 01:39:43,345
- I gotta find another body.
- 1657
- 01:39:46,516 --> 01:39:49,286
- So I start calling
- suicide hotlines...
- 1658
- 01:39:50,887 --> 01:39:52,689
- and I meet JT.
- 1659
- 01:39:54,791 --> 01:39:57,327
- I was as surprised
- as everyone else...
- 1660
- 01:39:59,864 --> 01:40:01,832
- what JT wrote.
- 1661
- 01:40:04,267 --> 01:40:06,201
- Then I was sad...
- 1662
- 01:40:07,871 --> 01:40:11,739
- 'cause I couldn't give JT
- 1663
- 01:40:11,741 --> 01:40:13,810
- the body he wanted...
- 1664
- 01:40:16,913 --> 01:40:19,382
- the body he deserved.
- 1665
- 01:40:23,653 --> 01:40:27,557
- And he found that in Savannah.
- 1666
- 01:40:32,929 --> 01:40:36,363
- - Um, but to be back is...
- - Oh, I know.
- 1667
- 01:40:36,365 --> 01:40:38,398
- - Meta.
- - It's incredible.
- 1668
- 01:40:38,400 --> 01:40:39,767
- - What's your name?
- - Mikayla.
- 1669
- 01:40:39,769 --> 01:40:42,670
- - Mikayla. Pleasure.
- - Thank you.
- 1670
- 01:40:42,672 --> 01:40:45,107
- - Really.
- - Hey.
- 1671
- 01:40:46,643 --> 01:40:48,910
- Babyhead, get in here.
- 1672
- 01:40:48,912 --> 01:40:51,913
- It's been a long time.
- 1673
- 01:40:51,915 --> 01:40:53,648
- I'm... I'm really glad
- that I came.
- 1674
- 01:40:53,650 --> 01:40:55,315
- I'm really glad you did too.
- 1675
- 01:40:55,317 --> 01:40:56,750
- - What's your name?
- - Uh, D.J.
- 1676
- 01:40:56,752 --> 01:40:59,421
- - D.J., thanks for coming.
- - Thank you so much.
- 1677
- 01:41:00,656 --> 01:41:02,690
- - How's Geoff?
- - He's good.
- 1678
- 01:41:02,692 --> 01:41:06,494
- You know, he's being Geoff.
- Making music.
- 1679
- 01:41:06,496 --> 01:41:07,862
- I like what you said
- earlier too.
- 1680
- 01:41:07,864 --> 01:41:10,898
- Thank you for connecting
- to "Sarah" like that.
- 1681
- 01:41:10,900 --> 01:41:12,400
- - It's really beautiful.
- - Oh!
- 1682
- 01:41:12,402 --> 01:41:14,469
- C... can we just
- get a picture of you guys?
- 1683
- 01:41:14,471 --> 01:41:16,873
- - Sure. Um, yeah.
- - Yeah, sure.
- 1684
- 01:41:17,907 --> 01:41:19,640
- Wow.
- 1685
- 01:41:19,642 --> 01:41:21,143
- Here we are.
- 1686
- 01:41:23,646 --> 01:41:26,647
- Well, I also came
- to say goodbye.
- 1687
- 01:41:26,649 --> 01:41:29,984
- Um, I'm gonna move to New York.
- I'm excited.
- 1688
- 01:41:29,986 --> 01:41:33,888
- Wow, I guess.
- That's a big one for you.
- 1689
- 01:41:33,890 --> 01:41:35,859
- - What's your name?
- THOMAS: Uh, Thomas.
- 1690
- 01:41:42,264 --> 01:41:44,965
- Congratulations.
- 1691
- 01:41:44,967 --> 01:41:46,933
- And you know, maybe I'll see you
- out in the world.
- 1692
- 01:41:46,935 --> 01:41:49,569
- We're playin' in the fields
- of the Lord.
- 1693
- 01:41:49,571 --> 01:41:51,373
- - What's your name?
- ALEX: Alex.
- 1694
- 01:41:53,676 --> 01:41:55,277
- [CHUCKLES]
- 1695
- 01:41:56,512 --> 01:41:58,913
- Hey S... Sav.
- 1696
- 01:41:58,915 --> 01:42:02,984
- I heard you were, uh, writing.
- 1697
- 01:42:02,986 --> 01:42:05,520
- Yeah.
- 1698
- 01:42:05,522 --> 01:42:07,454
- Just remember, [BRITISH ACCENT]
- just 'cause you played a writer
- 1699
- 01:42:07,456 --> 01:42:09,458
- doesn't mean you are one.
- 1700
- 01:42:15,864 --> 01:42:17,366
- Good luck.
- 1701
- 01:42:19,635 --> 01:42:21,270
- Thank you.
- 1702
- 01:42:22,638 --> 01:42:24,371
- - What's your name?
- - Eva.
- 1703
- 01:42:24,373 --> 01:42:25,875
- Eva...
- 1704
- 01:42:28,945 --> 01:42:31,880
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1705
- 01:42:36,518 --> 01:42:39,786
- ♪ Oh make me over
- 1706
- 01:42:39,788 --> 01:42:43,557
- ♪ I'm all I wanna be
- 1707
- 01:42:43,559 --> 01:42:47,427
- ♪ A walking study
- 1708
- 01:42:47,429 --> 01:42:48,795
- ♪ In demonology
- 1709
- 01:42:48,797 --> 01:42:52,432
- ♪ Hey so glad
- you could make it ♪
- 1710
- 01:42:52,434 --> 01:42:55,769
- ♪ Yeah now you really made it
- 1711
- 01:42:55,771 --> 01:43:02,711
- ♪ Hey so glad
- you could make it now ♪
- 1712
- 01:43:05,047 --> 01:43:08,515
- ♪ Oh look at my face
- 1713
- 01:43:08,517 --> 01:43:11,985
- ♪ My name is might have been
- 1714
- 01:43:11,987 --> 01:43:15,789
- ♪ My name is never was
- 1715
- 01:43:15,791 --> 01:43:17,457
- ♪ My name's forgotten
- 1716
- 01:43:17,459 --> 01:43:20,994
- ♪ Hey so glad
- you could make it ♪
- 1717
- 01:43:20,996 --> 01:43:24,631
- ♪ Yeah now you really made it
- 1718
- 01:43:24,633 --> 01:43:30,038
- ♪ Hey there's only us left now
- 1719
- 01:43:31,840 --> 01:43:35,509
- ♪ When I wake up in my makeup
- 1720
- 01:43:35,511 --> 01:43:39,045
- ♪ It's too early
- for that dress ♪
- 1721
- 01:43:39,047 --> 01:43:42,815
- ♪ Wilted and faded
- somewhere in Hollywood ♪
- 1722
- 01:43:42,817 --> 01:43:46,485
- ♪ I'm glad I came here
- with your pound of flesh ♪
- 1723
- 01:43:46,487 --> 01:43:49,923
- ♪ No second billing
- 'cause you're a star now ♪
- 1724
- 01:43:49,925 --> 01:43:53,693
- ♪ Oh Cinderella
- they aren't sluts like you ♪
- 1725
- 01:43:53,695 --> 01:43:57,396
- ♪ Beautiful garbage
- beautiful dresses ♪
- 1726
- 01:43:57,398 --> 01:44:02,536
- ♪ Can you stand up
- or will you just fall down? ♪
- 1727
- 01:44:02,538 --> 01:44:05,871
- ♪ You better watch out
- 1728
- 01:44:05,873 --> 01:44:09,542
- ♪ Of what you wish for
- 1729
- 01:44:09,544 --> 01:44:12,878
- ♪ It better be worth it
- 1730
- 01:44:12,880 --> 01:44:14,647
- ♪ So much to die for
- 1731
- 01:44:14,649 --> 01:44:18,118
- ♪ Hey so glad
- you could make it ♪
- 1732
- 01:44:18,120 --> 01:44:21,788
- ♪ Yeah now you really made it
- 1733
- 01:44:21,790 --> 01:44:27,563
- ♪ Hey there's only us left now
- 1734
- 01:44:29,131 --> 01:44:32,798
- ♪ When I wake up in my makeup
- 1735
- 01:44:32,800 --> 01:44:36,435
- ♪ Have you ever felt
- so used up as this? ♪
- 1736
- 01:44:36,437 --> 01:44:38,171
- ♪ It's all so sugarless
- 1737
- 01:44:38,173 --> 01:44:41,507
- ♪ Hooker waitress
- model actress ♪
- 1738
- 01:44:41,509 --> 01:44:43,642
- ♪ Oh just go nameless
- 1739
- 01:44:43,644 --> 01:44:47,047
- ♪ Honeysuckle
- she's full of poison ♪
- 1740
- 01:44:47,049 --> 01:44:50,784
- ♪ She obliterated
- everything she kissed ♪
- 1741
- 01:44:50,786 --> 01:44:54,153
- ♪ Now she's fading
- somewhere in Hollywood ♪
- 1742
- 01:44:54,155 --> 01:44:59,491
- ♪ I'm glad I came here
- with your pound of flesh ♪
- 1743
- 01:44:59,493 --> 01:45:02,795
- ♪ You want a part of me
- 1744
- 01:45:02,797 --> 01:45:06,599
- ♪ Well I'm not selling cheap
- 1745
- 01:45:06,601 --> 01:45:09,037
- ♪ No I'm not selling cheap ♪
- 1746
- 01:45:13,141 --> 01:45:16,078
- [INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]
- 1747
- 01:45:41,936 --> 01:45:44,904
- ♪ If I could be
- 1748
- 01:45:44,906 --> 01:45:48,807
- ♪ What you wanted
- 1749
- 01:45:48,809 --> 01:45:54,046
- ♪ Then how can I be honest?
- 1750
- 01:45:54,048 --> 01:45:57,116
- ♪ If I could breathe
- 1751
- 01:45:57,118 --> 01:46:00,953
- ♪ Like you wanted
- 1752
- 01:46:00,955 --> 01:46:07,128
- ♪ I'd be here but in my skin
- 1753
- 01:46:08,728 --> 01:46:12,664
- ♪ An open promise
- that was made ♪
- 1754
- 01:46:12,666 --> 01:46:16,802
- ♪ If life was given to a name
- 1755
- 01:46:16,804 --> 01:46:21,807
- ♪ And your body for this heart
- forever changed ♪
- 1756
- 01:46:21,809 --> 01:46:24,944
- ♪ What's life but a game
- 1757
- 01:46:24,946 --> 01:46:28,981
- ♪ To see for the hearts
- we take ♪
- 1758
- 01:46:28,983 --> 01:46:31,216
- ♪ And make
- 1759
- 01:46:31,218 --> 01:46:34,086
- ♪ If I could be
- 1760
- 01:46:34,088 --> 01:46:38,090
- ♪ What you wanted
- 1761
- 01:46:38,092 --> 01:46:43,528
- ♪ Then how can I be honest?
- 1762
- 01:46:43,530 --> 01:46:46,531
- ♪ If I could breathe
- 1763
- 01:46:46,533 --> 01:46:50,269
- ♪ Like you wanted
- 1764
- 01:46:50,271 --> 01:46:56,643
- ♪ I'll be here but in my skin
- 1765
- 01:47:28,641 --> 01:47:32,643
- ♪ Spoken word
- can break the way ♪
- 1766
- 01:47:32,645 --> 01:47:36,714
- ♪ We hear the words
- fall from a page ♪
- 1767
- 01:47:36,716 --> 01:47:41,886
- ♪ 'Cause there's mysteries
- of fortune and fame ♪
- 1768
- 01:47:41,888 --> 01:47:44,889
- ♪ What's love but a name
- 1769
- 01:47:44,891 --> 01:47:48,793
- ♪ Tainted by the promises
- 1770
- 01:47:48,795 --> 01:47:51,129
- ♪ We break
- 1771
- 01:47:51,131 --> 01:47:54,266
- ♪ If I could be
- 1772
- 01:47:54,268 --> 01:47:58,036
- ♪ What you wanted
- 1773
- 01:47:58,038 --> 01:48:03,375
- ♪ Then how can I be honest?
- 1774
- 01:48:03,377 --> 01:48:06,710
- ♪ If I could breathe
- 1775
- 01:48:06,712 --> 01:48:10,214
- ♪ Like you wanted
- 1776
- 01:48:10,216 --> 01:48:16,256
- ♪ I'll be here but in my skin
- 1777
- 01:48:21,027 --> 01:48:26,733
- ♪ Who could ever take
- this name ♪
- 1778
- 01:48:29,036 --> 01:48:34,174
- ♪ The lies we make ♪
- 1779
- 01:48:34,176 --> 01:48:39,176
- Subtitles by explosiveskull
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