Big Brothers is Back - Dictator charlie dealing with her inner demons part 1

from /hhg/ Hazbin Hotel general #389, #395 and #408
part 1: https://pastebin.com/LwRxTRNH
part 2: https://pastebin.com/7yHcR14j
part 3: https://pastebin.com/AfxC5i7f
Big Brothers is Back - de-conditioning part 1: https://pastebin.com/mW1E0BCD
Big Brothers is Back - de-conditioning part 2: https://pastebin.com/T8gpjxCJ
Dictator charlie dealing with her inner demons part 2: https://pastebin.com/y2Zrm8e7
part 4: https://pastebin.com/uHK1m26T
DC timeline Octavia: https://pastebin.com/tmxYDp4t
DC what if part 1: https://pastebin.com/pErwRZ58
Timeline shenanigans happens: https://pastebin.com/C1jgFV52
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Dictator charlie dealing with her inner demons?
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I'd imagine Dictator Charlie has guilt and/or anger-driven nightmares pretty regularly. Vaggie probably has to comfort her in the aftermath, but Charlie probably doesn't really open up to her about the details, so she can't really help all that much.
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>Charlies inner demon of guilt
>Charlies inner demon of rage/denial
>Charlies inner demon of pride
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>Inner demon of guilt

>Looks like Charlie did before she seized the throne and started dressing like a cartoon dictator
>Pink tux, bowtie, heels
>But her hands are always covered in blood
>Dripping with it
>No matter how much drips off, they stay bloody
>She's often weeping
>Asks the same question over and over again
>"What have we done?"
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>Inner Demon of Rage/Denial

>Looks like Charlie in her uniform, but she's permanently stuck in her demon form, allowing her body to stretch and move in odd ways
>she's either shrieking at Charlie to be more brutal, ("WHY DIDN'T YOU HAVE THEM PURGED?!") or acts condescending, smugly grinning whenever Charlie seems to falter ("Oh, afraid of a bit of resistance now, are we?")
>is extremely suspicious and impatient with everyone, including Charlie's loved ones, and acts like a deranged parody of Charlie's dictator persona
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>Inner Demon of Pride

>Charlie, but she seems perfect, halfway into gaining her mother's physique
>her uniform is now white, and more ornate - more fitting for a queen-cum-president
>she barely emotes, and is surrounded by an air of superiority
>she always berates/encourages Charlie in a breathless, monotone voice
>sometimes she's helpful...
>other times...
>she shrinks down, becoming a child version of Charlie, wearing an all-too-big, hodgepodge uniform, screaming at Charlie to do something
>sometimes she even bares her fangs, revealing her horns
>generally acts as childish as her normal form is reserved

Or the other version.

>Inner demon of pride

>Looks like Charlie does now, full long-coated, jack-booted, peaked-cap dictator
>But the chest of her coat is festooned with an absurd amount of meaningless medals and pins that jingle like windchimes when she moves
>She's head and shoulders taller than the real Charlie is
>Her hair is a richer golden color and much glossier, her teeth gleam like pearls
>She carries around the shattered remains of a halo like a trophy
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>Charlie looks at Anon, or rather looks past him at her inner demon of Guilt
>She's crying and constantly telling him that she didn't mean to become a monster, her words fall deaf on his ears
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>Guilt demon is constantly begging for forgiveness
>Tries to grab her brother's shoulder to get his attention
>Or tries to hug him
>Or grabs his face and tries to make him look her in the eye, choking on pleas for absolution
>She leaves bloody hand prints all over him
>Charlie is the only one who can see them
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>Guilt constantly tells Charlie that Anon will never forgive her/them/us
>Rage/Denial either insults Anon, calling him a spineless coward for not seeing what she does as necessary
>Or claims that Anon will just betray you like [insert character Charlie had executed] and tells her to "take care of him" just to be safe
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>Pride tells her that her brother is uppity, ungrateful, and untrustworthy
>"He wants the throne for himself"
>"You've done all the legwork to make this system run, now he wants to take it away and leave you with nothing"
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>Adult!Pride talks about Anon as if he was an object, or a trivial achievement
>she belittles Charlie about keeping him around
>Childish!Pride, on the other hand, constantly tries to get Anon's attention, whenever he disagrees with Charlie, and tries to badger a response out of him, to no avail - while spelling out what Charlie really wants: attention
>Egotism!Pride bosses Anon around, or pretends that whatever he said (that Charlie agrees with) was her idea, and waxes lyrically about her vaguely-described "great schemes"


>when the veil finally falls of Charlie's misdeeds, the demons change
>Egotism!Pride disperses, her medals breaking into pieces upon hitting the floor
>other Pride is permanently stuck in childish form, and looks to be on the verge of tears
>Anger/Denial is choking on her own rage, and is unable to articulate a word, not to mention shrinking in size, until she's looks like a dwarf version of herself - the same height as Childish!Pride
>Guilt, on the other hand, appears pleased, and grows into this room-filling, twisted, Picasso-esque parody of Charlie, with her entire body covered in splodges of blood, masochistically reveling in being called out for all her misdeeds
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>Charlie sighs as Pride is manifested
>Pride sneers at her and Anon, then at everyone else at the grand table they're seated at
>The room is silent as her, vaggie, angel and anon eat their meal
>"Why do you keep them here? They are nothing but inhibitors to us."
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>"Because I love them"

>The sound of a fist smashing onto the table announces the arrival of Rage

>"You love them?!"
>"YOU FUCKING LOVE THEM?!!!"
>"WHAT THE FUCK HAS THAT EVER GOTTEN US?"
>"WE LOVED MOM AND SHE COULDN'T BE FUCKED TO EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE WHEN WE CALLED HER!"
>"WE LOVED DAD AND HE CALLED US A FAILURE"
>"WE LOVED OUR BROTHER AND HE FUCKING LEFT US TO GO PLAY KNIGHT ERRANT AT THE ASS-END OF CREATION WHILE WE DEALT WITH EXTERMINATORS AT OUR THROATS YEAR AFTER YEAR AFTER FUCKING YEAR!"
>"AND LOOK AT WHERE ALL OF IT LEFT US!"
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>Rage sighs and leans back in her chair
>Her uniform melts away into a strawberry-pink suit as Guilt takes her place
>Her gloves evaporate, revealing blood-stained hands
>She turns to look Charlie squarely in the eye

>"Your love is worthless, Charlie"

>"And you've proven a hundred times over that you're unworthy of being loved to boot"

>"I can't imagine why Vaggie stays with us, except maybe out of fear"
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y'think if dictator-charlie ever does kill her brother that her inner demons would adjust, in a sense, to that happening?
or is that a bit dumb
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The guilt demon would just become inconsolable and incoherent, except for when she screams at Charlie and calls her an abomination. She'd also get even bloodier, and she'd be holding some memento that reminds her of her brother.
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Guilt would probably alternate between being her past self, and being her brother.
Anger/Denial would either chastise her for being so foolhardy, and then immediately dismissing it as a necessary sacrifice.
And pride would (hopelessly) try to get her out of her inevitable slump, to no avail.
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>Dictator Charlie's FW there are reports of a massive revolt right at the edges of Pandemonium and they're all singing this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2uYcP6YmDpc
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I have a feeling that sex with dictator charlie would be... unpleasant. Not bad per say just, it would be a physical thing for her. Loveless.
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Probably. Playing around with the inner demons thing, the Pride demon has got to be present in the bedroom pretty frequently. Sex has become an act of conquest and validation for her instead of a moment of intimacy and care. Vaggie is probably having a really hard time.
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Any affection she gives would be hollow.
>Charlie hugs anon
>She just wraps her arms around him.
>She doesn't greet him like before.
>She doesn't hop around like a jackass.
>She doesn't even smile.
>Just stands there quietly for a few seconds and lets go.
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At first, most definitely. Her attempts to relive the happy past through her brother might thaw her a bit over time. Guilt would regularly call her out on how frigid she's become and try to coax her into baring a bit more of her heart.
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Actually the hollowness of her affections could even be a form of self-therapy. She's buried her soft side for so long that joyless demonstrations are really the best she can manage, but she's trying to fix herself and remember what its like to tell someone you love them and actually mean it.
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>Anon hugs Charlie for the first time since he came back
>Every hug between them was initiated by Charlie
>The hug reminds her of her childhood and how happy she was
>Charlie nearly breaks down crying
Sometimes small things like a hug can make a big difference in someone deprived of anything positive
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Dictator Charlie facing her past actions in a vision/hallucination?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZeSf6H9hIvo as an example
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that be interesting
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>Charlie seeing what would have happened if Anon stayed with her during her rise to power
>She watches how her decisions would have changed him for better or for worst
>Mostly for the worst
>In the end she would see how Anon would have ended up being her Enforcer/War Hound