5/29 Thoughts I often think

Have you ever felt like you don't belong where you are in your life? I know I have and more importantly feel that way most days. Growing up I often felt alone and then forced myself to fit in somewhere to feel liked I belonged. Today I don't force myself to do that, but there are days where I doubt myself and where I fit in. I have an amazing family that I found all on my own and there are days where I question myself because I don't know how I really fit in. I know that I am loved and know I have their support to do whatever I want to try and that they will be there no matter what.

I let darkness into my life when I was younger because it was easier. I gave up. I accepted and I let it take control. With in the last couple years it almost feels like a second chance. I was able to grow and I let light back in and ever since then I have felt lost. Like I don't know who I am. I know that I'm this nerdy girl, but I feel lost and I have no idea where to start looking for answers.

Most of my life I didn't feel loved and I faked belonging somewhere. Now that I am surrounded by love and people who care I see the world more than just a dreary stale life there's color all around me. I just don't know what my colors looks like. Have any of you ever felt this way? If so how did you find yourself?