My partner and I have been together roughly 3.5 years and have been living together for the past year.

The main issue I have is that I am sometimes embarrassed by him, and I feel like a major a-hole even admitting it, to the point that it has started to effect how I feel about him, sexually.

When we first met, the basis of our dating and my interest in him was 100% to do with who he was as a person. Much of his manner of dress, of speaking, was very odd when we first met. He still is a very eccentric person. He had very few friends as a result of this and often went into depressive periods of self hate. I am only this third long term girlfriend, his longest relationship so far, the first few being almost twenty years older than him and one of which being extremely abusive.

An example of some of the things he did when we first met:

-Wore pants that were at least seven sizes too large for him that required him to wear a belt that caused the pants to basically "bunch" up around his waist and even then, they often fell down. He would wear these pants with very slim fitting shirts most of the time, so you could see these large gaps down into his pants.

-Would have very in depth long conversations with other people and then ask if he could record them on his phone, which he would then play back and listen to, over and over. He also had a portable speaker connected to a blue tooth that he wore in his backpack so he could basically amplify his voice wherever he went.

-only ate chocolate chip waffles for dinner for the first three months of our relationship and nothing else.

-was very honest about his STI's (herpes) and designed a dinner mat "penis guard" that he wanted to wear with a condom to make sure we had zero skin to skin contact. He literally went to the store, spoke with an old lady to help him find the right kind of soft dinner/plate mat and then wore this in front of me for the first time.

-Went on a camping trip with my family for the first time, and I left him alone with said family while I went to the store to grab supplies. He used that time to step away from my family, and blast buddhist monk chanting in a bush about thirty feet away from camp. When my family tried to get him to come back to hang out, saying that they didnt mind his music, he said that the "music wasn't for him, he's playing music for the trees."

-On our first dinner/movie night/date night together, he chose a movie and then proceeded to sob through it. When I asked afterwards if he was okay, he said, "gently caress yes I am okay, catharsis is important."

-When being intimate, will often make a very strange growling animal noise. I have no idea where he got that from, and its actually just distracting because he's very skilled otherwise.

-Will often speak to me in very shakespearean language/poetry.

The majority of people he's met have been very put off by him at first, even reacting very harshly to him until they get to actually know who he is and then they love him. He still has people from high school that reach out to him all the time, wanting to talk. He's extremely giving and will have long and in depth, deep conversations with them for hours.

It also helps that despite his eccentricities, he is an extremely beautiful person both physically and internally. (He often gets strangers and foreigners asking to take photos with him because they think he is a famous person, either Robert Pattinson or Harry Potter.)

In the beginning, all of these kinds of things were literally enthralling to me. They were like a breath of fresh air, and he forced me to do the work of really not caring so much what people thought. He is 100% himself in every situation.

Which brings me to my problem, now. Over time, these eccentricities have grown somewhat tiresome. I want to be a supportive partner, but there always seems to be something new and sometimes - I just want to go into public and not be noticed. He recently started talking about wearing an actual wizard's hat and cape in public - specifically a cape made out of reflective scotch lite material so he will actually "glow".

His mind is always preoccupied with how he can live like an individual - to the point he forgoes the important stuff. If I want to plan a trip, or go on a hike, or do anything together - I am the one that will need to remind him to bring water, food, appropriate clothing. For example, if we're going to go on a hike, he will forget to bring any supplies to sustain his life but will bring all of his crystals so they can recharge under the sun. The crystals aren't the problem for me - but bearing the weight of constantly reminding him to things so he won't die is.

Additionally, I am getting to the point of possibly wanting children. I fear that staying with him, the weight of basic necessities and common sense will ALWAYS be on my shoulders.

We've talked about all of these things extensively. He understands and things HAVE gotten better. He truly has put an effort in.

I am just not sure where to start with this underlying resentment and embarrassment that I feel on occasion. I know that these things can grow if not unchecked, i just have no idea what to do. I don't want it to grow to the point where I just hurt him.

Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? Does it get better? What work can I do on myself?