You don't have to work through all this by yourself, there are a great many books and self help video's available to purchase, and or to rent that can guide you through this maze. It is completely doable, you just need to know what to look for, and be able to ask for help if you need it. There is even technology available that can basically 'hand hold' your brain through the decompression phase.

 This equipment and software will place your brain into the receptive state that is needed to facilitate inner growth. As it was stated earlier... it is all in the mind. Since we have limited space to work with here, we can touch on the one area that will facilitate the fastest response in your body to 'bring it down' to a level that will create the kind of calm that you need to prosper. Take a deep breath...

https://thedietsquare.com/how-to-heal-your-body-and-spirit-while-you-develop-mind-control/