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- SelahNox (Steph)Today at 2:23 PM
- We need to talk. Because it seems I've said something that was taken the wrong way and upset both of you. Please let me know when this can happen.
- I love you both, and I want to be your friends. And I'd been thinking this entire time that I was just paranoid. I'm a little relieved and a little hurt to find out that I'm not.
- ZenToday at 2:25 PM
- whatever the outcome it would be good to just clear the air
- SelahNox (Steph)Today at 7:19 PM
- Yes, please.
- When you're ready to talk, add me back. Until then, I can't sit here and stare at this.
- SelahNox (Steph) left the group.Today at 7:26 PM
- Zen added SelahNox (Steph) to the group.Today at 7:41 PM
- SelahNox (Steph)Today at 7:42 PM
- Sorry. I left because I don't want to say something I'm going to regret and I can't stand the tension. I understand that y'all might need time, but I would really appreciate it if you would just say that.
- Or give me an idea of when, if that's not asking too much. If it is, I understand. I just have a hefty work schedule and the anxiety is getting me.
- KyuteaToday at 7:46 PM
- Hiya, love. I want to start off by saying I don't hate you. It was never like that.
- The multiple times I responded to you saying exactly that, it was the truth. Because I don't hate you.
- However I'd be lying if I said I did not feel a certain way when you messaged Tori with what you said simply because I wasn't responding right away or to your liking.
- I really do not think that was needed and essentially you were lashing out. Especially to someone that didn't deserve that.
- I would have preferred you to keep DMing me instead of involving another individual given how your insecurities were with me.
- But this is something for Tori to address. And when she is available she will be able to explain her perspective on things.
- I just wanted to let you know as a person and as a friend, that was not okay and that was not cool.
- It is very difficult to approach you when it comes to these things as I'm always afraid it will set you off and then a breakdown pursues.
- And so I've always remained neutral. I've always remained casual with you and have put aside little things that have become bigger things now.
- But your insecurities are affecting and impacting others, love. You have hurt others in the process and it is concerning.
- We can not fix your paranoia or your insecurities. We are not going to be able to always respond to you in the manner or way you want.
- And some of your behavior can come off downright manipulative. The way your tone drastically changes when one does not respond right away, even if they have a valid reason as to why they did not respond quickly, is also not cool.
- It's not humanly possible for people to be able to always bend to your every whim.
- We have bad days too and sometimes that shows in the way we communicate. I tend to get more quiet, I'm more reserved on those days.
- That does not mean I hate you. It means I am not doing well as a person. Which I have made you aware of when you have contacted me.
- You can't take that out on people. Those type of behaviors hurt people along the way, and you are also hurting yourself in the process.
- Because you want those connections. You want people in your life, you want friends, you want to love and be loved. I know you do, love.
- But you really need to work on how you process things, and I know that is going to take a lot of time.
- It doesn't make you a terrible person, it just means you're a work in progress, you know?
- No one is telling you they hate you, but what they are telling you is things you need to work and improve on. People that care about you do that.
- With that being said, I want things to remain very casual and light between us, a surface level friendship, if you will. Nothing more and nothing less.
- I will continue to work along side you like I always have with Haven. I'll pop in vc like I have been. None of that is changing.
- But your tone, your behavior, the way you lash out is not something I am okay with and will not tolerate. And you need to know that.
- I hope you understand where I'm coming from.
- SelahNox (Steph)Today at 7:50 PM
- I realized that wasn't cool the second I said it. I understand where you are coming with, I just wish you had something to me sooner about your problems with me. I miss our friendship and us being close, but if it's not possible, I understand. For what it is worth, I am working on myself and trying in therapy.
- I just really need to be told if what I am doing is upsetting because, and I mean this genuinely, I don't notice. I was raise by wolves. That's not an excuse, it's just a fact. I have problems with this. I know I do and I'm working on it. I can keep working with you and hanging in voice chat.
- I'm trying, but I can't do anything about if I don't know that what I am doing is upsetting others.
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