Journal 13

[16:16] "For you speak, as if... I am any different. Than my kin. There..." Stepping forward, the pale image akin to the terpahim. Would begin oozing out fumes, sickly magics spreading across the ground as flesh gave weigh.

And the image to what was before the lupine would only...

Double?

With the ascended revealing its true form. "As you can see... Humanity claims us animals. When in reality? They simply fear that we come to take on their image. Because, they fear themselves... It is. Simple. After-all, born from their nightmares. We can't help, but poke fun at humanity. Yes? It is an action that expands beyond; race. Death is not dealt solely by demon-kind alone."

And with their words said? They returned back to the more humane image. For alignments sake.
(Irkalla)
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[16:24] Irkalla says, "a little..."
[16:25] She saw the once looking Teraphim creature transform and change. It had become a true demon. She eyed it. It was twice the size of her. She listened to it's words. Words that she felt were wrong.

"Humanity from what I have seen... fear being threatened..." She paused and saw the demon transform to looking back like a teraphim. It was sickly to think about. "... Demons are not of this world.. they have no place here... Perhaps if they were not so willing to cause trouble that they would perhaps... be allowed to survive here..." She looked at them.

"Yet the first time ran into one." She eyed Jianyu. "It and it's companions decided to attack me only cause I was there with an enemy of theirs..." She looked back at the demon. "Not exactly a good first impression... I did not even know what a demon was until then truly. I had heard rumors and what people of Myllenoris had spoke. Yet those rumors came true when I was attacked for just being there..." She explained

She could have had a different viewpoint on demons entirely if she had met one during her younger years. Now it would take a lot to change that.
(Finnae Rose)
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[16:34] "What a weak spirit. Fear of being threatened? Fear is the very reason we exists. Humanity and their fear was the catalyst of every genocide, Every murder, Every calamity...And yet Demons acting by their nature is something to make them feel threatened? Ridiculous."

The demon had no face, Yet it was very clear he was staring towards Finnae now. "What purpose is a life stood in stagnation only to progress towards death as slowly as quickly as you desire? Terharim are not of this world....and they were manifested from Aesche's womb and yet you welcome them with open arms despite the many atrocities they've commited."

The creature knows. He heard the rumors and the talks about the wars of the passed read the books that lined Osrona and Theria's halls as well. "Terahprim, Beastkin, Humans....You all claim to be a higher race because you are from this world yet you do nothing but waste it, What will happen once Demonkin no longer exist on Esshar? Will you all go into lustful peace and co existence? Doubtful You'll gain powers to destroy eachother just as you've always done. And will continue to do."

Like an echo of shadows the demon now moves closer to the girl, The Abyss deep within its skull now plain for her to see. "The lie you've been told is that mankind is better, Its better to live a lie after all, Demons are however honest. We fear nothing, and what we do fear? We destroy...We do whatever it takes to survive and progress further. We don't lie to ourselves that what we do is good or evil We know what our purpose is...and we move towards it with every fiber of our being regardless of who gets hurt."
(Eugo La Ravias)
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[16:53] Fari'aeth says, "Irkalla"
[16:53] Irkalla asks, "Hm?"
[16:55] She felt it's presence looking at her. She could feel it. She listened to it's words. "From what I was told... Teraphim were gifted life from Aschea due to her fighting against the witches that brought the demons here... She made them so that the spirits could continue to be protected. They did not come from her womb." She explained to the demon. Unless she was educated improperly. She knew that much to be true.

"I do not claim to be above anyone... I care for each and every person's life until they threaten another... So far I have only seen attacks by demonkind. Tell me do you believe humanity to be so weak willed that they would always fight? I have heard tales of countries that have found peace. Do you not believe the same possible here?" She asked as genuinely as possible curious of it's answer.

The demon got closer and it could see it's skull deep in it. It was a disturbing sight. "Some people believe to be better... Teraphim can be racist. The drakanites and Rhoynish are prideful. Razuka are conniving. Lapine… well I have yet to meet or interact with many of my kind. I did not... grow up in a city till much later in my life." She explained.

"I am no liar and if someone wanted to search my mind to detect whether I am lying or not go ahead. I would not stop you." She told truthfully. The girl may have an issue with demons. However, that does not mean she wouldn't be willing to discuss things with them. To hear both sides.
(Finnae Rose)
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[17:01] Fari'aeth would come out and look to the woman.

"Tell them your name? And also what you want?" His hands would stroke around her hair.

"Irkalla this one she can be...useful. She access to things...things like the Vale."
(Fari'aeth)
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[17:08] Listening to the conversation held, while it could've added more. There wasn't much a need to pile upon voices on the woman. Eugo, was enough.

However, after they were addressed. The woman moved both hands to adjust the headpiece. The skull of a small baby dragon. Likely done on purpose to taunt theria and the likes of their betrayal.

"Hm...? Ah, yes... I remember the words spoken by the king prior to my departure. Turn her into a warrior, less you both be slain. Yes?" With a heavy none-needed breathe.

The woman pressed off the building whilst gesturing for eugo follow behind. "Yes, I could assist. However? I'd prefer if my apprentice here did so. While I do enjoy the thought of toying with a rabbit. They require the much needed experience with the soul still. As I? Merely need to work on my own incomplete project." Stroking at their chin with mild displeasure.

Parts of them understood where the king stood. Wanting to push the humans further, but such reality could only look to make or break them.

A path the irkalla would too follow. Had they not been on the brink as such. "Now then, tell us your name... Worry not, while it will be something of a painful experience. You will get the chance to realize more about yourself. Than you'd ever imagined!" Liking throwing sprinkles on shit, it still possibly wouldn't be as appealing as being set free. But alas, these were the actions of being captured.
(Irkalla)
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[17:15] The ritual that the two had been performing had up until now only been used on willing participants, This would be the first time someone resisted, And as for Eugo? "Very rarely do demons get to experience pleasure. But watching her in pain would perhaps unlock that emotion for me."

A cold soot filled voice, Echos of many voices some deeper some lower, All in the same intense agony and strain much like what the Lupine would soon experience. The demon followed closely behind his Mistress, leaving no response towards the girl about her feelings.

Although the comment about Teraphrim brought a glancing chuckle to his frame. "I can't promise this will be a quick procedure...I'm still not even sure what was done to you..." He glances over towards the Demonic figure of Dax...still unsure of exactly what the man was.

But for now Eugo began to gather essence. He would require a lot as he had inklings this girl would resist him.
(Eugo La Ravias)
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[17:15] * You have been awarded 1 Roleplay Points! *
[17:28] Irkalla says in telepathy, Be Gentle with this one... You've a year with them before Tyranny expects a warrior out of them. To ensure their proper loyality. We must both infulence their mind and body with this. Breaking her in the beginning will do nothing for us. Understand? For this first procedure? Have them realize that they were abandoned. That no hope or savior shall come for them. Yes?
[17:29] She was now ignored. The discussion they were having had been eroded away. This was saddening to the Lapine woman. She was more interested in what they were discussing. Now, Fari'aeth was here. The torture would begin real soon. She felt her mind begin to remember the beginning from when it started the day before. She shook her head trying to rid herself of the memories.

The drakanite's touch made her shiver. She would feel herself beginning to lose herself. She could tell they were gonna use her. To do the things they couldn't. She did not want to do what they wanted. She wouldn't have a choice in the matter though.

Her voice began to escape her lips. It was in short breaths that the words came out past the mythril tongue. "I... am Fi-.. See O-... Clau-" She was fighting with herself internally again. Not sure who she was anymore. Her pain could be seen on her face. Tears would begin to fall. Her eyes becoming redder as she would wipeaway the tears. The pain and agony she felt. Blood would poor out of her pores of her skin trying to surround her. Comfort her. It brought no comfort. "I.. do not know... who I am..." She spoke.

"I was... created.. to be a tool... a weapon... what I want..." She paused. Her voice trailed off. "Too... protect the ones I love... to feel... loved..." The words escaped. She was screaming at herself in this internal battle with who she was.

You are you Finnae! Do not listen to them! You are yourself!

No. You have always been a tool for others! You know this C-1!

Claudia... You know that you just want to feel special. That is cause you are special. Do not think that you are not for a second. The pain you endear. You endear it for a reason. So you can be strong. You know this. So though you are going to be a tool one day. Remember you endear this so that you can have your own life to be in control of Someday.

Those last few words that raced through her mind were true. It made her eyes welt up. Her mouth opened once more. "I am Claudia... I want to be in control of myself..." She stated looking up at the three of them. Blood pouring out the corners of her eyes. Tears falling.
(Finnae Rose)
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[17:40] He would look at her and nod.

"Claudia tell them do you believe you will be saved?"

He walk around her.

"Where is your friends now?"

"Who saved you?"

He then look to the others. "How about we teach her about embracing her true destiny?" Nodding to the woman. "You know how to handle things."
(Fari'aeth)
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[17:55] The demon would give a nod towards Irkalla. Although it would be fine, After all Eugo had been fully capable of taking this time. The questions Dax asked would only go to further what the demons intended to accomplish so he allowed for it.

As they were conversing the Demon would begin to scribble runes in the air black words in the written words of the Atryallians while these words were no good for enchanting they served various other uses. A slice of the demons writs allowed for blood to flow freely which would quickly be shaped into a ritual circle, As Eugo had done so before many times...It took mere moments before the Ritualistic circle was brought to bare.

Although the demon seemed to be improving upon its original design from before. Having fully expected the girl to resist he placed certain counter measures that would make any attempt at such...brought with pain.

A stronger variant of Curse Magic that the demon had been aiming to perfect. A glance towards Dax and the Lupine. "If you would get in the Circle." The demon pointed towards the Ritualistic Circle the shape of a pentagram Black Demons blood and strange runes were already anointed with corrupting black magics.

"Let us begin..." The Apprentice of the witch demon proclaimed.
(Eugo La Ravias)
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[18:02] As the project would begin, they looked to mostly examine the process. Noticing whether it be truth or lies in the revealed weakness shown by the lupine. What could only come from it all?

Was a smile on the demon as they moved forward. Reaching out with a hand between the two. "It is a simple desire. To be loved... To love. All of which you can & will find. But first? You must love yourself... That is what we shall teach you. Acceptance to your flaws."

Peeling away after hearing Eugo require them in the circle. A subtle smile was given as the lupine was commanded away. "Go on... Know. The more you accept, the easier this will be for you. The more you resist? The more painful this shall be... You've a year to become a loyal warrior."

And it'd be a year they took full advantage of. Neither rushing nor slowing down.

Turning away to Eugo, a single nod before they spoke up. "Fari'? I remember you spoke of desiring the same thing. Yes? You should speak with Eugo then when you're free... With his time magics? He could surely assist in some ways I cannot."
(Irkalla)
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[18:11] "Claudia... does not believe so... no..." She said in a hushed voice. She did not want to believe it. She wanted to fight. She wanted to lash out at them. Though it would not work. Only screams in her mind at this point. As if a part of Finnae, no, Claudia was losing and being mentally locked away. Like the memories of her childhood. She still remembered everything that had happened up till now. Though it felt less like her.

"I... no... one... has saved me... not for a long time..." She wanted to deny those thoughts. She remember that it was no one that saved her from the experiments that happened to her as a child. She saved herself. She wanted to get away from the pain bad enough so she took that chance she had back then. No one saved her from the day Yuri cut off her tongue. She fought and escaped herself.

She was then told to get inside the circle. She stood frozen. Parts of her resisting. She did not want to move at all then. The teraphim like demon spoke. The words rang similar to Veronica's but more twisted. Still it weakened her enough. Enough to make her feel like they were going to be worth her trust.

The first step came forward and more screams in her mind came.

"Accept... my flaws... though I was being created... to be a... flawless... weapon..." The words came out as the bloody tears begun to fall. Her eyes slowly becoming a dyed red color. Though that would not last long. A hand she brought up to wipe away the bloody tears smearing them away and along her face. Her eyes looking white again.

"I... know... I am... flawless..." Though this was far from true for the woman. She was still growing and maturing. She was not flawless.

Parts of her still fought in that mental barrier yet it would not be enough. She stepped forward and finally into the circle. She would kneel down in the fetal position. Tears no longer there. A blood smeared face. Her expression was that of a dead pan. Although a smile was beginning to form creepily. "... finally... feel loved again..." She said to herself.

Finnae was falling and now Claudia was beginning to rise from the pools of blood.
(Finnae Rose)
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[18:22] He would then look at her.

"We will start with pain and then you cme to accepting that pain. That will make you stronger. So he would then nod his head.

"I will talk to you in due time. Its a progress. But hopefully in Hel it make things easy for us both." Though Claudia transformation was going perfectly. He enjoyed it very much.

"She will be a powerful ally. We just need to push her a bit more."

As he walk back in forth.
(Fari'aeth)
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[18:29] He waited for the girl to get into the circle placing himself on the outside bounds of the magic circle while she sat in the center. "Fear not Human. We have plenty of time to learn the truth of your essence. This will cause you pain surely but it will not bring an end to your life.”

The looming sensation of dread would only build up as the demon began to einject essence into the runes black lightning charged all around them and for a moment a rune appeared on the girls forehead a sign that the ritual had began to take place. The arcs of Occultic lightning channeling towards it.

“...For now? Let's ruminate on what you've lost...how those who you wished protected you failed you and left you to rot." The Demon's words would be piecing and pointed direct and with the many echoes within the empty skull of the creature tormented and taunted her yet it was just the beginning.

A flawless weapon...It was something the demon had thought tocreate one day, something that would show just how marvelous he could be. Chronomancy was what he strived for and Achieved. Now he would pour himself into the Dark Arts until he could break the timestream in half and ruin this world.

The Umbral Lightning continued to pour into the center of her head. Visions of the ones she loved poured into her mind, Changing it from what she thought it to be. Memories that weren’t necessarily true but seemed as if she’d lived through them in the lenses of another. They weren’t her own anymore. As if they belonged to another...Eugo’s influence only proving to dive into the depths of her mind. The mental barricade slowly eroding for her. The morality she held onto the morale she built up over the years soon felt like a dream.

“The body, The mind, And the Soul all equal parts all very important. Many train their bodies, and minds to be capable of using the power the soul has to offer but very rarely do we gain full access to true strength.” The sounds of a ticking clock began to ring in the ears around the Lupine as if she was being dunked into a pool of cold water the sensations would be brisk and shocking.

“I’ll start by sending her mind through time allowing her to feel the influence of those who have been slain by human desires." The essence gathered. Her mind sent back tot he most notable of atrocities recorded in Essharian history. Blood Death, Carnage. Countless times repeatedly.

From small children sieging Theria's walls to grown warriors being mascaraed by the Syndicate. She would experience it all. These feelings were translated through the curse magic, Those being killed for foolish reasons protecting someone they held dear....their lovers betraying them leading to their death...All these emotions came like a bitter flood over the woman as the demon twisted at her soul.

And just as she could not fathom another transition through the timestream he would pull her mind back intoher body. "Tell me girl through all the vacuums of time you've witnessed. Do you believe humanity is any worse than Demonkind? We may fight for destruction but we have also amassed it within ourselves We are no friend or ally we are the true path to power. What will you see next...I wonder?" The experience had not yet been over, The next phase would begin shortly after throwing her into the possibility of the future.
(Eugo La Ravias)
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[18:50] She heard his words yet they did not penetrate her mind. Not until the pain begun to start. She would begin to convulse violently. The words begun to dug deeper as the rune on her head begun to glow. Screams of agony coming on through.

"AaaaAAAaaAaHHHH!" She shouted feeling the lightning pulse through her. Her memories shifting and changing. Myrin no longer gave her the name Finnae. Mo'Cha and Natalie attacked her in the desert and left her for dead now. Veronica had simply handed her over to the demons herself to maim the child back then. More and more were changing. Twilly did not teach her any medical practices. Claudia taught herself after all the experimentation she went through.

More and more and the tears of blood would return. "NooooOOO THEEEESSSEEE!" She screamed out more and more. Her mind shifting changing. These were not what happened. She knew this all had happened. Appolus spit on her when she asked to be his retainer. Renly did not give her advice for her magic.

Demios. He was not like a grand father to her no more. Instead she remembered him as the intimidating force that manipulated and controlled her. Used force to make her do his bidding! "DEEEEMIIIIIOOOOOSSSSS!" She screamed not wanting those precious memories to change. The memories of those she cared and loved being cruel and ruthless. No more was this sweet innocent woman. Instead she was changing, shifting, molding to become what they wanted her to be.

Then memories of things she was not apart of begun. Battles of the past she watched over. The cruelty of men showing as they all marched into battle. People turning on each other. Cities being a lit in flames. Every man, woman and child having done the worst to them by another man. This was what she knew. However, she thought these people had always been the ones plagued by occult. However, there were even those that used holy magic who killed the innocent.

Then it all came to a stop. She heard his words and she scowled at him. "Everyone... is sickening. No demon nor man is better." She said in a rude nasty voice. The only thing that was better than man was what she believed to be her. She stared down the demons. She did not care for them. Nor anyone at this point. To her they were beneath her. They worse. "Violence... without reason..." She said clearly staring at him. Her eyes shaking as the blood would stop pouring from her eyes and would begin to swirl around her eyeballs as she stared him down.
(Finnae Rose)
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[19:07] Her outburst towards him only proved to show that it was working, The visions corrupting her view of mankind all that mattered was the truth after all. Even if it had to be spun in a web of lies. "Indeed. Even Demons, Even mankind, And yet we all exists to claim power and for what reason other than to destroy one another?" There was a cycle that continued and started back up again. This would be no different.

The next journey would be the future, Hers? Or perhaps Esshar's. The surroundings smelted by some unknown horror, The smell of Flames, Smoke Oil...and most prominently blood. The skies of Esshar that were once illuminated by the light of the stars were now dim and dark covered in the pilfierating smoke clouds of factories.

Barsburgian invasion had claimed all hostage. Another transition left her within the Vale. She could see the great trees burning, Feel the flames of the Empire's weaponry blasting and killing everyone, A slaughtering massacre's.

Demons collard and bound to the will of the Empire they were forced into this regardless of how they felt the Even the demons were becoming tools of destruction something they feared far worse than death. And yet it all felt as if her reality was shifting. Home didn't feel like home anymore.

Yet as the visions continued to play the Demon would merely be looming over her, In an attempt to reach into her soul Essence shrouded around him as he moved to inspect her. The Divine Barrier to her soul being weakened by the amount of pain she was in.

Yet not nearly enough for the demon to reach in. "To whos benefit does this cycle play out for? Life is born to die...and yet humanity wastes it with the goal of peace that can never truly be accomplished. Demonkind forces change...whether by threat of their safety or sanity we exists to push humanity to the bring of destruction. Regardless if any of wish to be better. So then what choice do we have?" The demon echoed in the back recess of her mind....

"There is only one path forwards. We break that cycle." Cracks the sounds like glass breaking over and over as if something was trying to force its way inside....

"Open yourself to what you've been blind too. Who left you behind?, All alone...and not a single soul coming to your defense despite all that you've worked for? I'll tell you why. There are no saviors in this Eternia. Only those who destroy will ever amount to anything." And through the cracks that were formed Darkness spilled in, Like tar it oozed into her soul and leaving a smeared residue behind.

Occultism touching her soul if not but for a moment inducing a violent reaction that and just as it did Eugo snapped Ending the ritual entirely."Not yet..." The demon sneered.

"We have plenty more time...to twist you. But think of what you saw, And especially....Of who you don't see... Eugo would sink back into the shadows the Ritual having served its purpose for the time being. They would share plenty more time together and Eugo hadn't a need to break her soul apart just yet.

(Eugo La Ravias)
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[19:33] The pain would come again. Coursing over her body. She shook violently. She was beginning to see more. She would scream out in agony.

There she stood in the center of Myllenoris. She was a bit taller her perception looking down more on the people around her as they worked hard for the empire of Barsburg. She felt a whip crack against her back and she turned to see Twilly. She was the one forcing her into this pain. She treaded into the Vale beginning to lash against the trees there. The mist that was there now replaced with smog. Blood could be smelled permeating the air. Blood dripped down her arms.

She saw the demons. She saw the people who had Casted her aside. All chained all broken down. All now a slave to the cogs of a machine. She no longer wanted to be in this place. Her face begun to cringe in the real world and she would shake and then she fought back. She stood up. "No... that." she stated feeling the electric going over her body. "Is not a future I will allow..." She scowled her eyes opening up. Void of the pure white of it all now covered in a red coat. The blood swirling around her eyeballs more violently than before. "I do not care if the demons are at war with Myllenoris… I will not allow... Barsburg… To destroy what I cherish." She gritted her teeth. "I decide when..." She said before more pain begun to electic through her. She was standing now feeling the pain. Her arms shaking. The demon would be able to pierce into her Divine Barrier.

"This.... Benefits no one..." She growled at the demon. "I will not allow it either. The PERFECT weapon will not let this continent fall." She growled more "The choice you... all have is to let me stop THEM" Her voice becoming darker sounding.

"It shall be MY cycle to break..." Her voice responded to the demon through the pain a smile forming on her face. She knew if it wasn't for this blasted collar she could take it on. Claudia knew that much.

The demon commanded her to open her eyes to what has blinded her. She knew that no one would come. She wouldn't need them either. "I do not need them. I have myself." She said more retorts to the demon. Attitude building within her.

She felt the occult pour more into her. This was helping mold and change her. This was something she would resist against. She was not a depraved demon. So she would fight against the depravity that seeped in.

She lashed at the monster. "Off of that!" She screamed her eyes swirling with blood staring him down. "Do not touch..." She scowled. Her soul was hers. Just like the demon wanted he got the violent reaction.

Then the ritual ended. She fell to her knees and glared at Eugo. "Twist me... all you want. I will not care. I am still Perfect. I do not care who I do not see. I only need me." She stated glaring at them. After all no one else was here for her. So why would she need them to show her where no one was. She only needed herself.

The blood in her eyes would begin to become tears that would streak down her face. The anger still there. Subsiding surely though. Claudia stood there. A smile on her face. An eerie smile as her face covered in blood.
(Finnae Rose)
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[19:41] Watching as the process had finally reached its conclusion. The visceral magics waning upon completion. "Well-done. Eugo… You continue to both improve and prove the knowledge you gain. Each time." A smile complimenting the woman's pale features.

"You're correct... Barsburg is an enemy... Girl. One that will see the entire island under. Their rule." And while in theory, that was something of a positive for Esshar.

If only for the idea they could progress in ways none had ever before.

"If you desire to take them on? You will first. Prove yourself. In the year of training. Yes? Though it may prove a little boring. I am sure. Fari' wouldn't mind taking you with them... That's something you'll have to speak with them on. You are their captive. While you currently demonstrate a willingness to abide. You require a few more... Conditional inputs before being exposed to the world once more. Yes?"

But then again, a lot of things could change within a year, but much like their defeat at starfall? Only time could be had and in the first year would be important.

"Regardless... Woman. You're to speak with the other demons in these woods. Your demeanor clearly expresses an open-minded to it that many lack. So? Learn... Of those around you. Just don't be annoying about it..."
(Irkalla)
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[19:42] Irkalla says, "And humans too..."
[19:47] Despite the praise Eugo was offered he wanted more for himself, Having not fully been able to grasp witchcraft the demon still took the time to study it and recreate it in his own facet.

"Thank you Mistress I intend for much greater things but for now even if this is all I am capable of I do so to complete the Kings Commands." Even if that were the case if demons were as ruthless as they claimed they would've strung the girl up in the Dreadwoods by now.

She was lucky to even be given a chance to experience such visions. The Demon had no more words to flow in her direction merely listening to Irkalla's chidings a before sinking into his own thoughts.

Barsburg...Myllenoris..Just what could he do to upset the balance to help Demonkind? He thought about it many times over but it was a hard ask for a Kaor of little measure like himself.

For now he played around with his runes his intent on making the curse magic he'd been creating more potent and destructive than before.
(Eugo La Ravias)
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[19:53] Finnae scoffs
(Finnae Rose)
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[19:53] Finnae Rose says, "I can see what is neccesarry of you demons. You push forward the change needed for balance in life."
[19:54] Finnae Rose says, "I will talk to you all though. See how you all... view this world"