I'm going to be a better person

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: You know, I'm very sorry, and saddened things have got to the point, where we've gone from
 friends at one point, to you absolutely hating me. It sucks, I've tried to make ammends as best as I can, and I've
 apologized many times for my part in things, but conflicts are a two-way street and there's never going to be progress
 in a positive manner, if you don't want there to be. I definitely, want there to be a repair, but from what I've been
 told and seen...

Well, I've gotten a few reports and screenshots of stuff from players that you probably thought you could trust, and
 you know, I really don't want to take action against you. That's not what I want at all, all I wanted was to repair
 the bridge that had been built between us in the past few months.

 You've made it abdundantly clear though, that you're not interested in that. I could be wrong, but it's being passed
 on that you view the game is a toxic environment and you hope nobody plays here.

If you're not happy here as a player, and you're not happy with me, and you have no desire to even try and repair our
 relationship in any manner, whether to at least being amicable, if not friends. The, it might not be the best idea, to
 continue playing here.

Causing problems, that's just making things more toxic, for the vast majority, who are having fun.

There are many other games out there, many sites, that may suit you better. If you don't want to try and repair our
 relationship at all, it might be best to consider that maybe it's time to say goodbye.

For what it is worth, I really valued our time together, and I am sorry that I couldn't have done a better job in my
 own actions, and reactions to situations and things that have gone on. That's wholly on me, I know I've made mistakes.
 I really, am, sorry, it's come to this.

You were one of the players, and staff, who I truly valued on here for your work and dedication and it is a shame to
 see you go from staff, and it would be a shame to see you go as a player, but if we can't repair things at all, it's
 not at all healthy for this to continue.

You paged Vault Girl with 'You didn't want to repair anything because when I sent you that email, I didn't get a
 response, I got you talking to everyone but me about it. You haven't tried to repair anything...until possibly right
 this second. Also, I don't believe you got anything from anyone, although I've seen a LOT of shit. Stuff that makes me
 wonder why you would try to approach me in any kind of friendly manner.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I did in fact, reply to your email. When I got no reply, I assumed you blocked me. I've also
 prior, sent you emails, gchats, and even @mails with my desire to try and repair things. There's so many people 'in
 the middle though' passing information, back and forth. The same people, who perhaps, act sympathetic to me, while
 saying something about you, only to do the same to you. Not saying, that is the case, but, there seems to be a lot of
 speculation, and rumors being tossed around. Like, when you flipped out on me via email, because I complained, I was
 upset.. that nobody had showed up to my musical scene elsemu* There was no badmouthing of you, there were no attacks
 on you, but still, clearly, someone wanted to cause some drama.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: If you hate me, and you don't have any desire to repair things, I won't push you. I'd just
 ask, go back, to when you were brand new, and read over our emails or something. You're acting like I'm this terrible
 person, because of some shitty disagreements, and events between us recently, using logs from 4 months ago almost to
 hilight what a terrible person I am.. but it's like you've forgotten any good, or support, or whatever, ever. Claiming
 we are 'friends' is not a tactic, as far as I know, we were friends, our PCs were even best friends.

You paged Vault Girl with 'I did not get any reply to your email, and I've been watching. I've gotten replies to other
 emails you have sent before so I will simply assume that is another lie. I also check my @mails here every time I log
 in. Nothing. I want you to stop treating people like shit. Because it's detrimental to this game, and to a lot of
 other things. Now, lets be clear here. I'm not acting like you're some terrible person. Every single thing I have said
 or shown to someone has been things that you've done. Without any additional comments about what *I* think of you. I
 have worked my ASS off for you and you state on pub that the staff you have are undedicated and stupid and you don't
 trust them to do some of the jobs you do? You have spit in my face TIME and TIME again. LOOK AT WHAT YOU PAGED TO ME
 BEFORE. I am SORRY for the "situation". Not with how I treated you or others. You're sorry that people are finally
 taking excpetion to a poor attitude and rudeness that is getting more constant.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I have said some hurtful things. I know for a fact, that the majority of this has started a
 month ago when I said what I said to matt's player. It's easy to see how someone could be wrong in their own
 preconceptions or ideas of what is going on, because it happens to all of us.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: You're personally, choosing, to take offense at a comment, that was not directed towards you,
 and I can bring up more logs of me praising your work, and what you've done then anything negative.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: So, you may think some pretty bad shit about me, and maybe you've got your reasons to believe
 it. Likewise, I had some reasons to believe some pretty bad shit about you, including people like James and Jude
 telling me you, were why they quit and would not come back. So yes, I did, for a great deal of time, think, that you
 have had a direct, detrimental effect, on any male player, you've been involved in. I can see, how hearing that from
 another person might be a huge piss off.

You paged Vault Girl with 'You're stating that in general. That includes me. I'm sure you realize how it feels when
 someone says smoething mean to you, but to not even realize that it might have hurt? I know you've said a lot of
 hurtful things. VERY much so recently. But you know what? I tried to take the high road and be nice, and all it did
 was result in you claiming that I vilify you. Please, I know. I know what is being said. I'm not an idiot. James might
 have said that but I know for a FACT that Jude didn't, because I speak to him on discord on a daily basis. James
 didn't have to leave. He decided he wanted to, and in no small part because of how he was also treated on staff.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I should have come to you with my concerns, rather then sharing them with someone else. I
 should have opened communication for my concerns and issues, or at least tried to, or been willing to in that regard.
 Then Jude lied the last time he logged on here.

You paged Vault Girl with 'Hey, I have screen shots and logs that prove my points. Concretely. You're welcome to say
 anything you want, but if Jude felt that strongly about me and thought I was so toxic and horrible then he wouldn't
 have asked me to play with him on another MU* and help me set it up. Sorry, I don't believe that.'
Vault Girl (Vault) pages: However, it's a two way street. I've put my cards on the table, and been met with more
 hostility, even when you've been going around spreading blatantly false rumors about me and my reaction, isn't to boot
 you or ban yu, which is what every fellow site wiz I spoke to.. said to. Instead, I want to work to fixing this, if it
 cannot be fixed, it's not healthy for this to continue regardless.

You paged Vault Girl with 'It is a two way street and you still have not apologized for several things that you've done
 and now you're telling me things that I know to be a lie. Also. Anything that I have said to anyone, I can back it up.
 So I don't have to spread false rumors. So maybe if we can start with an apology I'm willing to sit down and entertain
 trying to work things out. But stop bringing up things that I know are a falsehood, and that includes Jude.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: The whole clean slate posted was aimed at /you/ because in my email reply I asked to wipe the
 slate clean and try to start over without all of the BS built up between us.

You paged Vault Girl with 'You didn't come and talk to ME. You posted stuff, talked to others, said some really rank
 and nasty shit. Most people think that's aimed at Ashur, and why not, because I haven't page blocked you? None of us
 have.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: It was for everyone, you need to, let go of the pettiness right now, and try to focus on
 fixing the issue, or walking away from it, which is always an option, I don't have you here at gunpoint, and I
 certainly don't want you here unhappy.

You paged Vault Girl with 'I'm perfectly happy when I'm not dealing with the back handed and rude bullshit that I have
 put up with. That we've all put up with. I've been pretty damn polite, actually. Considering some of the things that
 have been said and done. I'm not being petty, and like I said. An apology would be a great start, and the only one
 that I've ever gotten from you is after the thing with Qwillis had happened.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I'm extremely sorry, that my actions, and the things I said have upset you, belittled, or
 disrespected you. Whether they were said in the heat of the moment, or because I thought them to be true, there was no
 intent to hurt you, or upset you or cause issues between us.

You paged Vault Girl with 'Thank you. I'm sorry that you think that I'm trying to sow dissention when all I actually
 want is to be left alone to do my thing. Point in fact, I wish this game would do well, but there are issues that need
 to be addressed and that's why I sent you that email.. A lot of people have said a lot of things that were said about
 me, and I attribute that to the fact that you were angry. I really hope that it doesn't keep happening though. Because
 people literally tell me everything. Even though I absolutely don't want to know.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I'm just going to go out on a limb here, and say, that I don't doubt you believe, I'm going
 around saying all this bad shit, there really hasn't been much. You can talk to people like Qwillis, who I /praised/
 you to up and down for continuing to staff and work on NV despite us having issues. I don't want to point fingers, and
 hey, I'm again, not denying, I have said stuff, but.. I have this terrible feeling, that some of what has been brought
 to you is accidental or wilful misinterpretation by the people bringing it to me. I'm not going to point fingers, or
 take guesses, because I know the people who have been telling me things, and not all of them are people I consider to
 have everyone's best interests at heart. So I am, very sorry, for any of the negative or hurtful things, I have said,
 and I have no way to know if everything sent your way is true, in context, or anything of the sort, but I"ll apologize
 for those things as well, because it's not my desire to have an issue between us. We were really good friends, I get
 there might be too much damage done, to have that again, but I don't want to be enemies.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: What has been really hurtful to me, is going around and telling people i'm this other person,
 I don't know all the details, and I don't want to. I'm not interested, I don't want to add more fuel to a fire or
 cause more drama. What I'd really like, is if there could not be rumors, and attacks made against me. Maybe the person
 who came to me is absolutely lying to me, and there is no post, and you've never said anything.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: but just to clarify, I'm the site owner, every system on here was designed, and created by me
 and under intellectual properties laws, belong to me, minus the FO specific stuff which is trademarked by Bethesda,
 for example Brotherhood of Steel or whatever. I've put untold hours into it, and it doesn't belong to anyone else.
 Likewise, Resident Evil: redefined was my very first mud I've ran and this is my 2nd, so I've made mistakes, and I
 wish I could fix many of them, but I'm just human. I have no clue who 'Elsa' is, by the way, but given from what I was
 told they ran another mud long before me, it seems kind of unlikely, unless I've got multiple personality disorder :(

You paged Vault Girl with 'I was never your enemy. I still get people to come try this game, regardless, and I want
 things here to work out. They won't though, not if people are treated like shit. They'll keep leaving, they'll keep
 giving up and all I want is for people to be treated fairly. For you to treat people like YOU want to be treated. If
 we said things to you that you've said to some of us, or about us, you wouldn't be very happy. All I'm trying to do is
 to get you to treat people like you want to be treated. If you can't do that, things are going to remain the same.
 That has absoultely NOTHING to do with me.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: It's fair to say, that while I've failed many times, in treating people the best, there's
 many times, where people have failed, in doign the same. Me being headwizard? doesn't make me any less of a human
 being, then any of you.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I can promise to do my best, but, when I feel uncomfortable on here, ebcause of the rumors
 that reach my ears, about me, it's hard. So, I can give you my word, to put that extra effort, and try to be extra
 conscious of what I am doing but...

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: ...what is going on, on your end, it has to stop to.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I'm definitely not perfect, but I give my all, and I give my best for everyone on here.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I hope that's reasonable.

You paged Vault Girl with 'I've been a lot nicer than other people have been. I'm willing to go back to my silent
 stance where I don't talk about anything, but the next time I send you an email. Come to me with a response and not go
 to the patreon channel or to every other person who decided to tell me what you said, in great detail. If I'm being
 attacked and spoken about unfairly, I'm going to respond. I'm an adult and I don't take people talking badly about me
 lying down, no matter how passive someone thinks I am. I'm not the only one who probably is owed an apology though.
 There are a lot of people. A LOT OF PEOPLE, who have felt personally attacked. Whether it's true or not, that's
 between you and them. You're human, and you make mistakes, but that doesn't mean you should treat people like shit
 because of it.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: That's fair enough, and that was poor of me to do. I just want to know, that these rumors are
 going to stop. I don't care how or why they started, I just want to run the site in peace and work on improving
 whatever problems exist, so the site can be the best it can be.

You paged Vault Girl with 'What rumors?'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I mentioned them above

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: Apparently I'm someone who ran some other mud and all kinds of junk.

You paged Vault Girl with 'Fine. I won't post any further. I just hope that this isn't some placating thing where
 nothing changes and problems don't get resolved. That would be unfortunate, because people will leave, and that is
 something I don't want.'

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I don't know about the post, to be fair, or where it is, a link was offered but I don't want
 to read something like that and get more upset. I also don't think having rumors, and stuff like negative posts, is
 ultimately helpful fo the game. I'm giving you my word, I'll do everything I can, if I fuck up or you hear something,
 come to me, and I will sit with you and address it. All I'm asking is, don't go around badmouthing the game/me or have
 posts out there doing that, that's like hurting all of us, because it hurts the game. I don't play, so I can focus on
 doing the best I can for everyone, and that's all I want to keep doing.

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I don't have any reason to placate either, if I didn't want you here, and want to fix things,
 I wouldn't need to go through the motions. You know, what I mean? I hope you realize, this is all, because I do, in
 fact, want you here, not the opposite. Kicking is way easier then spending time talking. XD

You paged Vault Girl with 'I did come to you last time, and this is what happened. I hope next time it won't go that
 way.'

From afar, Vault Girl (Vault) nods, "Well, I hope this can be the end of any issues between you and I, from here on
 out. Take a couple weeks, if you still want to staff/build, I'm happy to let you after that, but probably both having
 a little space in that regard will be helpful."

Vault Girl (Vault) pages: I'll do my best to give you space and stay out of your way, and avoid saying anything about
 you, positive, or negative. Just, want the same, and not to have to be told rumors and drama; think that's what you
 want to.