I respect the opinion which is why I ask questions on here. about 4-5 weeks ago, I had the most profound experience of my life; it felt like what I now understand to be enlightenment. Although reading about what buddha and other "mystics" say on the subject I am caught by how my experience was slightly delayed. I had a lot of similar feelings such as being at one with the universe or being the big bang just as a singular raindrop is also the rain itself. I felt things like 'non-duality' etc... This experience was brought about after a 3 day party where I drank an excessive amount of alcohol. I usually feel a loss of what seems like ADHD during my hangover's, however, I felt as if I was having a heart attack, and the moment where I realized my heart is not going to give out on me I had the most profound eureka moment of my life! It felt as if by giving up on trying to be aware or trying to control my experience by noticing it, I was completely able to be in the present moment. This feeling of being in the moment lasted for about 3 weeks until I went to a party and drank too much, once my hangover wore off from this night I felt a loss of the experience that had inhabited my psyche for the previous 3 weeks.  : My question is-  does anybody have any pointer on trying to get that perspective back? It was the best thing I had experienced in my life and I feel like i lost it. The eureka moment was governed by me thinking about how the present moment is all that there is, its the only constant. I then felt like my thoughts and me had lined up perfectly and there was no lag time between what i thought and what I experienced. I usually feel that I am able to psyche my self out and over think things..

Any thoughts at all would be greatly appreciated!