So a bit of IRL update on life and plans for future. So since 2016, life has been a bit of a whirlwind with my health and personal life. Back in 2016 me and a carer won a share of 20k, and since then my life has been cursed with bad luck.

22nd of December 2017 I was diagnosed with kidney stones after a year of really poor health and water infections, I couldn’t enjoy life. This is Where life gets really messed up. So fast forward to mid 2018 I eventually get admitted into hospital today in the may to have the stones removed via a scope as my pre op tests showed that I was an anaesthetic risk, wish has never been a thing as I’ve had many more major operations, so even though I will always a bit of a higher risk with my disability and posture, what’s the worst that could go wrong? it’s never been flagged up to the point where the anaesthetist is majorly against putting me under, and would only do so if I went to intensive care after, coz the way he saw it, he felt that doing so would mean I could end up on life support for a period of time considering the original plan was to remove them throw open surgery. So obviously I went away thinking “oh crap I’m done for I’m a dead man”

Anyhoo, they decided to do it under a scope with me fully awake, which to be honest was a piece of cake, the only real risk was again because of my shape, getting me in a position to access the stones as I can’t lay flat. So the Risk is they might only get so many stones if any at all. So they didn’t get all the stones, so it was like “ok what’s next? Open surgery was a no no so what now? Do we bite the bullet with open surgery and hope I don’t die?” The solution was laser surgery, which carried the same drawbacks as the scope surgery, so no guarantees, so this was seemingly was the final role of the dice before having to take the open surgery.

However, in the middle of me having open surgery and being assessed for the laser surgery I discovered something truly friking horrific. In the may I’d had the first lot of surgery(scope) then a month later, I discover my asshole parents had financially bled me dry in a two year period.....since the 10k win. Yeah fucking cheers for that. Discovered coz of a paid job I was at. So for the next few months I fought for justice, spent the first ever Christmas without them, to basically be told in January of this year that they can’t charge my parents as everything was cash transactions so they can’t prove if they had given money to me. So they got away with it......whilst that was happening, in the November I was granted the laser surgery and had it in February of this year and was all cleared in may, finally my life was back on track. So what now? So at this point decide that I had to do something with my life that I enjoyed, gaming. I was going to make it my mission to go for affiliate on twitch to earn money for myself as I was only being paid for 5 months at my job I had also decided I was going to start attending local speed running/gaming events,  I had finally found the fire inside me to be successful. So here was the plan, attend a local event 4 hours away from me, and run super Metroid project base any% nmg, this weekend, with my birthday being Sunday. What could possibly go wrong? The 19th of July was wat could go wrong.

I ended up with fucking sepsis out of no where. I spent the next 2 weeks in a life and death battle, being told that the doctors on the Monday/Tuesday they actually didn’t think I’d survive as the situation was that bad, uggghh and if I’m completely honest, in 31 nearly 32 years of life I have never been this ill or close to death as I was at this point. I was eventually released on the 5th of August after a 2 week battle to get myself healthy and can no longer attend the event, as I have no time to sort it and I have to take it easy and I couldn’t get my submission in on time anyway. So now I’m gonna have to try and find easy events to attend and find online marathons to attend as I want to get myself known among gamers and enjoy bringing enjoyment to those around me