What I wanted to talk about earlier was the whole masochism in retrospect deal, but I'll probably mention that I currently think 'masochism' is a cute word instead of immediately slopping about in all that.
No matter the circumstances, everything is experienced slightly after it actually happens. This fact, however, has never done anything to free more plausibly interesting moments of their mortifying self-association, and it usually takes at least a few days for scenarios that could be considered enjoyable (is that the right word? I'm still confused about whether I value, enjoy or just objectively covet this stuff) to separate from a psychological signature and become, lets say, viable. If being in physical pain didn't dilute my ability to experience the world outside that specific input, I bet this would take a bit longer.
I wish that I could skip out on the part of actual experiences that involves them happening to me, and just remember them in their pure state and feel their consequences.