Gridbull - Today at 6:07 PM
whatever
have fun
Klensy - Today at 6:07 PM
awh
hugs
Gridbull - Today at 6:08 PM
I'm not a good loser, just so you know
I don't take it well
it hits me hard, and I sometimes hit myself afterwards
Klensy - Today at 6:12 PM
It's ok
but you are not allowed to hit yourself
Gridbull - Today at 6:12 PM
won't stop me -.-
I don't like it either
it helps me vent at least
Klensy - Today at 6:13 PM
Please don't, for me
Gridbull - Today at 6:13 PM
I won't lie to you by agreeing
I can't
Klensy - Today at 6:13 PM
;-;
At this point I'm not sure which would be worse
Gridbull - Today at 6:14 PM
bruises heal
don't worry
Klensy - Today at 6:14 PM
Already am..
Gridbull - Today at 6:14 PM
shh
Klensy - Today at 6:14 PM
No
Gridbull - Today at 6:14 PM
I'm an intense person
and I have a lot of pent up anger
Klensy - Today at 6:15 PM
I understand that
But still..
Gridbull - Today at 6:16 PM
why did I tell you -.-
Klensy - Today at 6:16 PM
I want to hear it
You hear my problems
Gridbull - Today at 6:16 PM
I can deal with my problems
and I can deal with yours too
I'm good at that
Klensy - Today at 6:17 PM
Are you saying I can't?
Gridbull - Today at 6:17 PM
not at all o.o
I mean you don't have to worry
Klensy - Today at 6:17 PM
Well it does sound like it
Gridbull - Today at 6:17 PM
that's not what I meant
I thin kyou know that
I'm sorry if you saw it that way, I should've thought out my phrasing better
it's my fault
Klensy - Today at 6:20 PM
Sorry...Shouldn't have gotten mad about that
No it's not
hug
Gridbull - Today at 6:21 PM
licks..
Klensy - Today at 6:21 PM
pets(edited)
We both have our problems
I want to try and help with your's like you do with mine
Gridbull - Today at 6:23 PM
do I though?
do I help
Klensy - Today at 6:23 PM
Yes
You listen
although I'm stubborn and rarely speak
Gridbull - Today at 6:24 PM
you should..
how about this
Klensy - Today at 6:24 PM
So should you
Gridbull - Today at 6:24 PM
I promise to always tell you when I'm upset, and why(edited)
if you do as well
Klensy - Today at 6:25 PM
..that will be hard for me
Gridbull - Today at 6:25 PM
same here
Klensy - Today at 6:26 PM
But if it helps you I'll do it
Gridbull - Today at 6:27 PM
well(edited)
I take it personally when I lose in brawlhalla
I've put 570 hours in that game, and I'm still as slow and predictable as I ever was
I feel like it's all wasted because I'm too inept to learn
so I put more bruises on my legs and chest to vent my anger at myself
it's not good, I know(edited)
I don't like brawlhalla, I don't know why I play it so much
Klensy - Today at 6:30 PM
You take it seriously, that is understandable
I do that with some games too
For example Isaac
Gridbull - Today at 6:31 PM
do you bruise yourself when you lose :P
Klensy - Today at 6:31 PM
Well..No, since I got out of the habit of hurting myself(edited)
Gridbull - Today at 6:32 PM
you see
shows strength that I don't have
Klensy - Today at 6:32 PM
You have more strength
You can talk about it openly
I couldn't
Let me tell you something about me
5 years ago something happened to me. It probably is the reason why I have DID. Anywhoo. I started to hurt myself to take the pain away. I kept going for two years until my friend made me stop.
Gridbull - Today at 6:35 PM
how did he do that
Klensy - Today at 6:35 PM
He stayed with me, talked with me, was there for me when I needed it
And even he doesn't know the reason why I started it all
I've never told anyone
I can't
Gridbull - Today at 6:36 PM
I wonder if my guess is true...
Klensy - Today at 6:36 PM
Well then ask me?
Gridbull - Today at 6:36 PM
do you mind if I'm blunt
Klensy - Today at 6:37 PM
No
Gridbull - Today at 6:37 PM
were you molested in any way
or abused similarly
Klensy - Today at 6:37 PM
You mean raped? Yes
Gridbull - Today at 6:38 PM
I hate my knowledge sometimes
DID is rarely caused by anything else
Klensy - Today at 6:38 PM
Usually it's a childhood trauma
Gridbull - Today at 6:39 PM
that was your childhood
5 years is a long time
Klensy - Today at 6:39 PM
Well...I was 14 so kinda...I think
Gridbull - Today at 6:39 PM
yes
your brain was still very much unstable and developing
Klensy - Today at 6:40 PM
Actually that might explain why my personas are showing through now...it's been exactly 5 years tomorrow
wow
Well...anyways
Gridbull - Today at 6:40 PM
no anyways
Klensy - Today at 6:40 PM
We were talking about you
So yes
Gridbull - Today at 6:41 PM
as you wish
am I truly the only one you ever told
Klensy - Today at 6:41 PM
I think so...I never told the friend who helped me. I didn't want him to worry
Never told my parents, police, anyone
Gridbull - Today at 6:42 PM
are they the type to listen
Klensy - Today at 6:42 PM
My parents? They do not even know I'm gay
the friend who helped me really does listen
I listen to him also
Infact we almost got together
but I said no since I knew he wouldn't enjoy it after a while
Gridbull - Today at 6:43 PM
again, that strength
Klensy - Today at 6:43 PM
Sh
Gridbull - Today at 6:43 PM
I've seen other victims of that, far too many
you know I would never have guessed if you haven't led me to it
you know why?
Klensy - Today at 6:44 PM
Hm?
Gridbull - Today at 6:44 PM
because you're tough
you don't show it
Klensy - Today at 6:44 PM
I try not to
I don't want people to worry
Gridbull - Today at 6:44 PM
are you glad you told me?
Klensy - Today at 6:45 PM
Not really sure...you could have lived without the information..
Gridbull - Today at 6:45 PM
I'm glad you told me
Klensy - Today at 6:46 PM
I'm not sure..
Gridbull - Today at 6:46 PM
what are you afraid of
Klensy - Today at 6:46 PM
You know so much about me now.
I have slight trust issues
Gridbull - Today at 6:46 PM
how much do you know about me?
Klensy - Today at 6:46 PM
Uh...nothing really personal really
Gridbull - Today at 6:47 PM
would you care to
Klensy - Today at 6:47 PM
I know about your cutmarks...about your relationship with Oren...uh...
Of course! Why wouldn't I?
Gridbull - Today at 6:47 PM
what would you like to know more about
my childhood, my current home life, my online life...(edited)
Klensy - Today at 6:48 PM
Your biggest secret
Gridbull - Today at 6:48 PM
I..
hm
Klensy - Today at 6:48 PM
You don't have to if uncomfortable..
Gridbull - Today at 6:48 PM
I don't actually know what that is offhand
Klensy - Today at 6:48 PM
pets it's ok
Gridbull - Today at 6:49 PM
I keep a lot from my family
but not a lot from people like you
Klensy - Today at 6:49 PM
So do I
;-;
Gridbull - Today at 6:49 PM
my mom and sis know I'm a furry
and they didn't believe that I was gay
still don't
Klensy - Today at 6:50 PM
Why?
Gridbull - Today at 6:51 PM
no son of hers would ever be gay!
Klensy - Today at 6:51 PM
;-;
Gridbull - Today at 6:51 PM
she wants grandchildren damn it!
x3
Klensy - Today at 6:52 PM
Well..my parents always bring me a condom when a girl comes home with me...
They really think I'm straigth(edited)
Gridbull - Today at 6:53 PM
kinda humorous tbh x3
Klensy - Today at 6:53 PM
It gets kinda disturbing
Gridbull - Today at 6:53 PM
I would never tell my dad any of this
Klensy - Today at 6:53 PM
nods
Gridbull - Today at 6:53 PM
he almost broke my wrists once
Klensy - Today at 6:53 PM
..
what the fuck
Gridbull - Today at 6:54 PM
he's that kind of father
I've learned to deal with it
Klensy - Today at 6:54 PM
;-;
Nobody should ever learn to deal with shit like that
Gridbull - Today at 6:57 PM
my mom dealt with the same thing you did when she was a girl, from her uncle
ended up running away after a few years of depression, getting kidnapped, going to jail, and finally ending up in an abusive marriage(edited)
understandably she's a little overprotective of me
Klensy - Today at 6:58 PM
Mhm...
Gridbull - Today at 6:58 PM
I'm not allowed to talk to anyone online
if they ever saw, I'd be banned entirely
Klensy - Today at 6:58 PM
Oh now i understand you more...
hug(edited)
Gridbull - Today at 6:59 PM
oh?
what do you understand
Klensy - Today at 6:59 PM
I was confused why your family didn't like you talking online
Gridbull - Today at 6:59 PM
nods
everyone online is a 50 year old pedophile
Klensy - Today at 6:59 PM
Mhm totally
Klensy - Today at 7:02 PM
Thank you for telling me this
Gridbull - Today at 7:02 PM
it's because I trust you
I'll tell  you anything
Klensy - Today at 7:03 PM
I trust you too
Gridbull - Today at 7:05 PM
hmmm...
secrets
trying to think
Klensy - Today at 7:05 PM
You don't have to
Gridbull - Today at 7:05 PM
I want to
Klensy - Today at 7:06 PM
hug
I think my past still haunts me a bit. That's why I don't want to have a relationship rn
Gridbull - Today at 7:07 PM
I know
I'm being called away, I'll think on it more
I'll be back when I can, sweets
stay safe ok?
Klensy - Today at 7:07 PM
Okey
Always