I think about spitting on you often.

<oof> good :) and you?
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<bulletproofvest> You don't seem to be doing well by your Facebook wall. You seem irritated.
<bulletproofvest> I am over all well.
<oof> just irritated with my family mostly. deadbeats. it's greeeeeat.
<oof> but that's good that you're going well.
<bulletproofvest> I was here incase you needed someone, not to gloat in your face.
<oof> I know.
<oof> I appriciate it
<bulletproofvest> :)
<oof> it's just my father. he expects me to drive 45 minutes to see him, yet he doesn't pay for my gas like he promised he would. then he gets mad when i don't visit since my truck is broken down for the past month, and he gets mad at me for asking to help pay for one of the parts it needs.
<oof> I'm just tired of him pretending to care about me so he looks good in front of my family.
<bulletproofvest> I understand.
<bulletproofvest> "Having a best friend, losing them, watching yourself get replaced, then getting them back and not knowing how to work back up to where you were. Difficult stuffs."
<bulletproofvest> and
<bulletproofvest> "It's really annoying how stick thin barbie looking girls who wear shorts that give people a free show get so much attention. While you're off flirting with every guy who stares at your ass, I'm pretty sure you'll never be in a happy, successful relationship because you're so damn full of yourself that you'll fall for the first guy who says "I love you" on the first date when everyone else knows what he really wants.
<bulletproofvest> Don't be jealous because I'm happy in my relationship. I'm not a slut, and I can tell the difference between a pretty face and a beautiful heart.
<bulletproofvest> also concerned me.
<oof> I just don't know what to do to make things right again. As for the barbie one, that's just something that's been irritating me since yesterday at the mall, seeing it happen so much.
<bulletproofvest> With who? Do you need help with the situation?
<bulletproofvest> Oh, right.
<oof> well, considering I was talking about our friendship mostly, I'm not sure what there is to be done. :x
<bulletproofvest> Who was that status about?
<oof> it was in regards to the picture you posted with stephanie.
<bulletproofvest> I don't have a best friend if that's sincerely your concern.
<oof> It's more of me being jealous whennnn in reality, it's my fault that we are at the level we're at right now.
<bulletproofvest> A situation isn't ever 100% someone's fault. I promise.
<oof> I still feel like it's more my fault.
<bulletproofvest> Okay. Sorry, I did not want to mash on my keyboard while in a Skype call with Raine. His phone is broken.
<oof> don't be sorry. I understand.
<bulletproofvest> You know I am not a person who will sit here and bullshit you with lies. I wouldn't do that with anyone. Yes, it is probably more your fault than mine. A relationship does take two people though. It does have two percentages. It's similar to contributary negligence.
<bulletproofvest> Each person does a percentage of the damages.
<oof> agreed
<bulletproofvest> I'm not  a twat. Don't feel the need to sugarcoat things.
<bulletproofvest> I actually was going to ask you why you haven't talked to me lately. I know it's not just your issue but I wanted your side of why.
<bulletproofvest> I got side tracked with helping my dad. He's ill.
<oof> I feel like I don't know how to talk to you anymore.
<oof> I hope he's better soon, btw.
<bulletproofvest> Can you elaborate on that?
<bulletproofvest> He's just hungover. Long stupid issue. It's taken care of but thank you.
<oof> I just don't know how to rebuild a friendship. I don't know what limits are between us, or how much distance you want kept between us, etc.
<bulletproofvest> What do you think will happen if you overstep a boundary? Yes, this is a serious question. Yes, all I want is honesty.
<oof> I'm afraid that you'll leave again and not give me another chance.
<bulletproofvest> There's one word in there that shouldn't even be thought of in this situation.
<bulletproofvest> Pick it out.
<oof> another?
<bulletproofvest> Afraid.
<bulletproofvest> If there's one thing I want you to take from our friendship, Kiley, it will be the importance of not living in fear.
<bulletproofvest> You do often and it worries me.
<bulletproofvest> If you let your life be controlled by fear you will only go as far as your mind will allow you too.
<bulletproofvest> In most situations it's a lot less than the person can accomplish.
<oof> That's how I've always been.
<bulletproofvest> You should probably figure out why and come to terms with it.
<bulletproofvest> Fears are educated into us, and can, if we wish, be educated out.
<bulletproofvest> Karl Augustus Menninger
<oof> I don't really know any other way.. I do, I just don't know how to go about it.
<bulletproofvest> Can you re word that sentence?
<oof> I don't know how to live any other way.
<bulletproofvest> Everything rewarding takes practice.
<bulletproofvest> This is going to sound really insulting and I'm hoping you'll take it in a positive manner like I mean it.
<bulletproofvest> Our relationship over time had me feel like it developed into a younger-older sister ordeal. You remind me a lot of myself - a baby when I was a bit younger than you. It's a pattern. It's a puzzle. It can be fixed. I'm not interested in seeing you go on unhappy. I can't make the decision for you to change though.
<bulletproofvest> You know ultimately that is inside of yourself.
<bulletproofvest> I'm here if you need anything.
<bulletproofvest> I'm not saying you as a person either. I'm saying you deserve as everyone does to better what they disagree with.
<bulletproofvest> No one is perfect. Everyone always needs to be better than what they currently are living with.
<bulletproofvest> ?
<oof> I just dont' know what to say.
<bulletproofvest> You're supposed to say how you feel.
<oof> "You remind me a lot of myself - a baby when I was a bit younger than you."
<oof> i don't understand what you mean
<bulletproofvest> "You remind me a lot of myself without a baby but I was a year or so younger than you."
<oof> well I got that. I mean that I don't understand how I remind you of that.
<bulletproofvest> It doesnt matter. I'm not interested in arguing with anyone. We can just lay this to rest.
<oof> 11ö.3ö
<oof> I wasn't trying to argue, I was just trying to better understand what you were saying.
<bulletproofvest> You won't like it is why I cut the conversation off.
<oof> why did you mention it then? :x
<bulletproofvest> I'm kind of asking myself why I'm even having this entire conversation or caring if you want to take in some honesty.
<oof> okay
<oof> http://www.facebook.com/kristin.nicole.brown/posts/2576425164844
<oof> this made my night.
<bulletproofvest> This is why we don't talk :)
-n00b4Life- hmm.. i don't think so?
<bulletproofvest> You're on the level of a highschooler and I gave that up entirely when we split.
<bulletproofvest> You can continue being lost, feeling sorry for yourself, and crying over Facebook posts.
<oof> Because I AM a highschooler? Do you forget that I'm only 17?
<bulletproofvest> You can continue liar and cheating and hoping people care about you.
<bulletproofvest> You had uneducated safe and birthed a child.
<oof> I'm not lying to anyone, and I'm certiantly not cheating.
<bulletproofvest> Step up to the plate of your life.
<bulletproofvest> None of us feel bad for you.
-n00b4Life- i'm the same person i've always been?
<bulletproofvest> We think this is bullshit.
<bulletproofvest> Can you grow up?
<oof> I'm not asking anyone to feel bad?
<bulletproofvest> You chose to grow up early by having a child and keeping her.
<bulletproofvest> Don't act like you should be talking shit at your desk in geometry.
<bulletproofvest> I don't give a fuck.
<oof> I do have a child, and I am keeping her.
<bulletproofvest> Go meet your boyfriend.
<bulletproofvest> Go cry about your pathetic life.
<bulletproofvest> I'm not doing this agian.
<oof> ....................................
<bulletproofvest> You're friendless because you don't love yourself.
<bulletproofvest> You're friendless because you aren't capable of being your own friend.
<bulletproofvest> Go.
<oof> I could care less if I'm friendless, I'm happy.
<oof> My life is in order and it's in the direction I want it in.
<bulletproofvest> Your Facebook wall shows it.
<bulletproofvest> Your Facebook wall shows it. [2]
<bulletproofvest> Lie after lie.
<oof> lol
<oof> talk about lies
<bulletproofvest> Fill me in oh wise one.
<oof> I tried to apologize and make things better.
<bulletproofvest> Give me a cutthroat dramatic punch.
<bulletproofvest> Why?
<oof> Obviously it was a mistake.
<bulletproofvest> For your benefit.
<bulletproofvest> If you really think I'm going to wave a wand in a fairy outfit get over yourself.
<bulletproofvest> I'm not 16. This is the real world. We're in reality.
<bulletproofvest> I tried to fix it and you got pissy because I shut my mouth BECAUSE YOU
<bulletproofvest> can not handle your emotions correctly at all.
<bulletproofvest> I'm bi-polar and I do better.
<bulletproofvest> Thanks for the link.
<bulletproofvest> Go play.
<oof> I can't handle my emotions?
<oof> Since when?
<bulletproofvest> "Having a best friend, losing them, watching yourself get replaced, then getting them back and not knowing how to work back up to where you were. Difficult stuffs."
<bulletproofvest> "Kileycherie Welker
<bulletproofvest> I hate unreliable people. Don't sit there and tell me that you'll always help out when I need it, then bail on me when I ask. THEN turn around two months later and offer to help again. The reason I didn't ask for help this time is because of that. My entire childhood is filled with disappointment because of you. I find it sad that this is how my family treats me. I'd love to say "Hey, I turn 18 in 114 days! I hope you're sad when you realize you've been cut from my life because you're such a douche!" but I doubt you'll be sad.
<bulletproofvest> Get out of my life. I don't need you. My daughter and I are doing just fine without you. I let you back into my life because I thought you were trying to change, just like you promised me. I don't see any changes. I'm done.
<oof> I admitted my faults. I owned up to everything and I told the truth.
<bulletproofvest> It's really annoying how stick thin barbie looking girls who wear shorts that give people a free show get so much attention. While you're off flirting with every guy who stares at your ass, I'm pretty sure you'll never be in a happy, successful relationship because you're so damn full of yourself that you'll fall for the first guy who says "I love you" on the first date when everyone else knows what he really wants.
<bulletproofvest> Don't be jealous because I'm happy in my relationship. I'm not a slut, and I can tell the difference between a pretty face and a beautiful heart.
<oof> I don't know what your problem is.
<bulletproofvest> You're ugly all over by the way.
<bulletproofvest> Your outside is disgraceful because of your inside.
<oof> ...
<bulletproofvest> Want more?
<oof> LOL
<oof> It's facebook.
<bulletproofvest> You know, its really disappointing to see so many people carry their babies around in those bassinet carseats. A carseat is for in the CAR. That's why it's called a CARseat. Does no on really want interaction with their child? Also, blankets. You're in a store, the carseat is in a stroller. Your kid doesn't need to be hidden from the world. They aren't going to melt if the light touches them. Seriously... People really irritate me.
<oof> really?
<bulletproofvest> It's not a therapy board.
<bulletproofvest> Really.
<bulletproofvest> You aren't in control.
<oof> You do the same thing.
<bulletproofvest> You don't have your GED.
<oof> lol
<bulletproofvest> You're not getting a job.
<bulletproofvest> You're not doing anything.
<oof> yeeeeah, I do.
<oof> actually.
<oof> lol
* bulletproofvest shakes head.
<bulletproofvest> I'm sure.
<oof> and if you'd have asked, you'd know that.
<bulletproofvest> You really aren't worth a second of my time.
<bulletproofvest> I said I didn't wish to speak about something so after lurking you attack me.
<bulletproofvest> Who does that?
<bulletproofvest> I know you have baggage. Everyone does.
<bulletproofvest> People get sick of trying to help when the other person sits there like a dunce.
<oof> I didn't attack you, I found something that I didn't understand sooo I asked youabout it.
<bulletproofvest> I met every word of it.
<oof> If I'm not worth your time, why are you still nagging?
<bulletproofvest> I didn't say I didn't care.
<bulletproofvest> I said you're not worth my time.
<oof> bye.
<bulletproofvest> Good luck, pitiful pearl.
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