ASM 2022

ASM 2022

Now I am home and resting after my time away I thought I would quickly reflect on my recent trip to Adelaide.

It was so nice to meetup with everyone again after 3 years of not attending an event, everyone was very kind and friendly to speak too which helped calm my nerves. Going into this trip I was not in the best headspace mentally I am currently looking for a new house to rent as the owners of the current one I live in are selling and I have 4 weeks to find a new place, as well many changes have been happening at my job which has made me uneasy on the thought of travelling away whilst so much change will happen once I get back.

Sadly I just couldn't shake off these negative feelings and found I didn't really enjoy my trip as my headspace was not good and felt like I didn't gel with people as well as I use too. This is not a knock on anyone personally just a self reflection that with the headspace I was in I just felt like a real outsider and could not make good enough connections this year which made me very homesick halfway through the trip. In the end though I was mostly keen to showcase my run at ASM but sadly had to miss out on that too as I found myself as a close contact to someone who was symptomatic. I tested a few hours before my run and found myself positive which meant my run had to be pulled from the event which really put a dagger through the trip as I was already spending a lot of my time alone in the hotel room and would continue to do so isolating which was just the worst.

Was such a sad feeling knowing I spent so much time prepping for my run and even put off making youtube content just to focus on this ASM run just to lose it at the final hour really bummed me out. I am kinda turned off going to events again as the feeling of isolating in a hotel when away from home is just the worst (mind you this is the world we live in now I am sure I will get over this thought with time). I don't know anymore hey I put a lot of weight on this trip going well which was not wise as I have left it feeling mentally worse then I did entering. I am not one to usually talk about my mental health on social platforms as it's my own business and I like dealing with it privately but yeah currently at one of the lowest in the last few years and hoping finding a new rental and some good luck will change that around.

In terms of speedrunning and YT stuff I will try to resurge both as I did learn over the last few months I have missed grinding games again. In terms of speedruns I am re-learning SHAR and starting off with 100%, I do find I get burnt out from that game pretty quickly so if I do ill switch to maybe learning a FF run or maybe Toy Story 2. In terms of YT stuff it was awesome talking to people at ASM regarding the KH History Video and how there is interest in KH2, I do want to start this but do require a fair few people to help research the history, for now I think I will keep working on shorter format videos to help grow my discography.

If I have any more updates I will usually talk about it in my discord server so find me there if you want to keep posted on my day to day!

- Saiyanz