wake up thursday, got to school, get to math class, my fav subject, first kid waiting for teacher to unlock the door, school cant afford seperate desks so studentds share long tables, sit in back, no friends, kids file in, nobody sits next to me at my table, bell rings, im alone, girl walks in late, cutest girl ive ever seen, only empty seats left are at my table, some seats are not right next to me, she sits next to me anyway, too nervous to look at her, stare down at blank notebook, 20seconds pass, she sends a sideways kick under a table, i look up at her, huge gray blue eyes, almost perfect complexion, come freckles, cute little nose, she smiles at me, we dont talk rest of class until bell rings, she says cya and leaves, next match class, she is late, sits next to me again, doesnt wait 20seconds kicks me right away, i dont look up but say hi, sit through class until bell rings, she says cya, first text coming up, create complex plan to help her cheat on test to impress her, test day comes, wait for her to look like she needs help, she looks fine whole test, bell rings, next class, tests marked, only person who beat my score was her, my amazement breaks the ice and we start talking, next few months we get close, guys start moving toward back of class, sitting closer to her, start to feel jealous, try out of kickboxing team to impress her with bravery, accidentally try too hard and qualify for team, now commited to kickboxing team, she says im turning in brwan, feelsbadman, go to coach, ask to quit team, he thinks i lack confidence, gives me pep talk, i walk away confused, still on team, win first match, praised by peers, first time she is ever early for math, sits other side of class, arrive late and dont see where she is until mid-class, bell rings, she leaves without glancing back, we dont talk rest of year, first two years of highschool go by fast, start meeting friends through kickboxing, have less time for stydying, talk and act obnoxious during class, grades steadily decline from 98%+ to Cs, still keeping eye on her, qualify for tournament, board bus for 4day trip to tournament, everyone excited en route, hard to sit still, arrive at tournament, last match, me and last years runner up, win, head back to bus, coach has solemn look on face, uncertain why, enter bus, team is estatic with tournament outcome, won new kickboxing gear for school, coach enters bus, asks me to leave with him, news makes my heart stop momentarily, enter bus, friends dont notice expression on coachs or my face, speak to coach, say id rather go back alone, coach understads, says he will tell friends news for me, grab map and start walking to bus station, alone, seeing everything, the time is going, ticking on, everybody's rushing, gotta get down to the bust stop, gotta catch my bus, i see my friends, kicking in the front seat, sitting in the back seat, gotta make up my mind, which seat can i take