[2:40:01 AM] Annie Trinty: Hi, sorry I'm so late to get on. We finallly had our first night up here where it was warm enough to stay outside after dark.
[2:40:23 AM] Annie Trinty: And I really missed being able to do that, so I didn't come in until 10
[3:30:29 AM] Annie Trinty: Oh and my answer to your question? Just don't get killed. Seriously, I'd prefer you did as little life-threatening stuff as possible. Namely because along with how much losing you would suck, I wouldn't even know because there's no one on your end (other than you) who knows about me and would notify me if you died. So... just... don't die, will you? At least wait two years so I can be waiting by your side with a difribulator.
[10:52:19 AM] ASHPoD: but. I'm NOT going to give up high voltage. for ANYTHING.
[10:52:54 AM] ASHPoD: and the defib may not work cuz if I do get electrocuted, I'm gone for good. that's high voltage for you.
[10:53:15 AM] ASHPoD: and if you have a problem with my intense passion for high voltage
[10:53:33 AM] ASHPoD: I'm not sure how well this relationship will work ouy.
[10:53:39 AM] ASHPoD: Cuz frankly
[10:53:59 AM] ASHPoD: HV is a greater part of my life . MUCH greater part of my life than portal.
[10:54:30 AM] ASHPoD: Cuz
[10:54:40 AM] ASHPoD: not many girls like high voltage.
[10:54:59 AM] ASHPoD: It's highly likely I'm the only girl my age that likes it.
[10:55:50 AM] ASHPoD: But there are a ton of guys that would do anything to have a partner that not only didn't mind them playing with HV, but also played a part in it.
[10:56:10 AM] ASHPoD: I have to remind you. I'm biCURIOUS. I'm e͸perimenting
[10:56:19 AM] ASHPoD: please please please remember that.
[10:56:50 AM] Annie Trinty: Well you wanted to know my oppinoion so here it is: If you're doing anything lethal, I'm going to disaprove and be concerned. Did your seriously need to ask my feelings? Because my feelings towards the subject Are exactly what you'd expect.
[10:57:31 AM] ASHPoD: Then I'm really leaning away from this relationship. Because I'd rather give up portal than high voltage.
[10:57:50 AM] ASHPoD: that's how big a part in my life it is.
[10:58:00 AM] ASHPoD: And frankly
[10:58:07 AM] ASHPoD: high voltage could kill me any second
[10:58:13 AM] ASHPoD: one false move and I'm gone.
[10:58:22 AM] ASHPoD: But the danger is part of the fun
[10:58:28 AM] ASHPoD: part of the passion
[10:58:32 AM] ASHPoD: part of the desire.
[10:58:48 AM] ASHPoD: I may be called Ashpod now
[10:58:57 AM] ASHPoD: but I am still TeslaCoilGirl inside.
[10:59:32 AM] ASHPoD: I am not sure if I told you this or not. I think I did.
[10:59:44 AM] ASHPoD: But I DO have a pretty big fetish for electricity, too
[11:01:26 AM] ASHPoD: I just needed to let you know. Now that you told me that you're not so happy about my hobby, that's a big blow to our relationship.
[11:02:07 AM] ASHPoD: Because a HUGE REQUIREMENT for me is that they at least approve of my hobby. I'd much prefer them actually doing it with me.
[11:04:01 AM] Annie Trinty: And as far as you being bicurious, that's fine. But here's the thing: Guy, girl, WHATEVER, any one you date who isn't at least RELUCTANT about you doing something that could KILL you, be it HV, skydiving, having random, unprotected sex, etc. etc. etc., clearly doesn't care about you.
[11:04:16 AM] ASHPoD: nope. There are plenty of boys out there
[11:04:22 AM] Annie Trinty: I'm not jelous at all of the idea of you being with someone else
[11:04:39 AM] Annie Trinty: Yes, and boys can be ASSHOLES. Girls can to
[11:05:36 AM] Annie Trinty: My point is that anyone who is ambivalent about this kind of thing is NOT someone you, or anyone for that matter, should be dating!
[11:05:48 AM] ASHPoD: even this one kid my age that does it that I've had a crush on for two years, and a few days ago that likes me. juniortore1 is his youtube channel
[11:05:48 AM] Annie Trinty: And where is this even coming from?
[11:06:01 AM] ASHPoD: and you can even see that he does
[11:06:11 AM] ASHPoD: I just need to let you know
[11:06:24 AM] Annie Trinty: OHHhhhhh you want to break up with me because you want to be with him?
[11:06:29 AM] ASHPoD: if things end up working, I'm much more likely to choose him over you.
[11:06:35 AM] Annie Trinty: Because that's fine
[11:06:36 AM] ASHPoD: of course
[11:06:40 AM] Annie Trinty: I'm hurt
[11:06:42 AM] Annie Trinty: but that
[11:06:46 AM] ASHPoD: we'll be friends. no doubting that.
[11:06:47 AM] Annie Trinty: but that's fine
[11:06:59 AM] ASHPoD: But... far as a relationship goes
[11:07:04 AM] ASHPoD: yeah.
[11:07:19 AM] ASHPoD: anyways I gotta go to a study session for 2 hrs
[11:07:24 AM] ASHPoD: I'll talk later.
[11:07:25 AM] Annie Trinty: Just please don't go looking for something to spark an arguement over
[11:07:48 AM] Annie Trinty: WTF?
[11:08:02 AM] Annie Trinty: ARE WE BREAKING UP OR NOT?
[11:10:59 AM] Annie Trinty: Well this is a nice how'do'ya'do!
[11:14:54 AM] Annie Trinty: The second someone else comes along, you look for a flaw in the relationship, barely give me time to explain myself, set some unrealistic/unhealthy standards for our relationship you can't possibly expect me or any sane person who cares about you to meet, and then just drop this on me a couple minutes after I wake up? Okay, I know you didn't know I just woke up, but still!
[11:18:13 AM] Annie Trinty: Listen, if it is about the HV, here's what I was about to tell you before this whole thing happened: Of course I'm going to disapprove to the extent that I'm concerned. I stand by the conviction that anyone who wouldn't have reservations about it either isn't mentally well, or doesn't care about you, or both. But have I ever pestered you to stop? No
[11:18:21 AM] Annie Trinty: Mostly because I can't
[11:22:43 AM] Annie Trinty: But also, obviously a lot of important stuff is dangerous. Science doesn't advance without taking risks, so I DO respect your hobby even if it makes me uncomfortable. And maybe it sounds like I'm just changing my mind because I don't want you to leave me, and yes, I did change my mind, but that's because I actually thought about it some more BEFORE you broke up with me.
[11:24:08 AM] Annie Trinty: And maybe I'm just angry, but I'm sorry, this is feels like a really shitty way to end it on me. I don't feel like we talked it out at all.
[11:25:20 AM] Annie Trinty: Just "Do you like this thing I like?"
"No, not really, that sounds dangerous"
"No? Well I really like it and so does someone else I like so bye"
[11:27:11 AM] Annie Trinty: Even if we get a chance to talk later, this abruptness is bullshit. I don't want to be friends. I've got enough FRIENDS that spring random crap on me, and most of them don't seem to have a deathwish. So... don't call me.
[11:29:23 AM] Annie Trinty: Maybe I'll change my mind, but for now, if you pull this kind of crap, I don't want to be in a relationship with you. I don't want to be FRIENDS with you.
[11:32:58 AM] Annie Trinty: I'm going to leave you on as a contact for 24 hours so I can mull things over and give you a chance to explain yourself if you want to, BECAUSE HOW I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO HAVE BEEN TREATED, but when I go to bed tonight, the way things look from here, I'm deleting you.
[2:42:56 PM] ASHPoD: Dude. Calm down
[2:44:26 PM] ASHPoD: seriously. I TOLD you from the beginning. It is an eperiment. And he didn't "just come along." I've known him for over two years, and I've had a crush on him for over two years. Another friend told me that he likes me. And yes, most of it is the high voltage part. It's been a requirement for two years that they must absolutely 100% approve of high voltage.
[2:45:01 PM] ASHPoD: I'm not saying we're breaking up just yet.
[2:45:56 PM] ASHPoD: I'm saying that, if things eventually work out with him, I'm choosing him over you, because, frankly, to be honest, I liked you for your personality and the fact that you like Portal in a similar way I do.
[2:46:02 PM] ASHPoD: But
[2:46:36 PM] ASHPoD: I am not sure if I can say "I love you" because of how much our other likes conflict.
[2:47:08 PM] ASHPoD: Even within portal. You like wheatley. I like GLaDOS. You don't actually feel the same way I do about testing.
[2:47:42 PM] ASHPoD: I just needed to let you know this NOW so that you wouldn't be hurt later
[2:47:50 PM] ASHPoD: because I told myself two years ago
[2:48:23 PM] ASHPoD: The moment someone shows dissaproval to high voltage, I can't be with them. It's too big a part of my life to give up or dampen.
[2:48:52 PM] ASHPoD: It would be far more hurting to me than if I told you to stop chasing after smerch.
[2:49:54 PM] ASHPoD: I told you multiple times that it's an eXperiment. an eXperiment. an eXperiment. I don't have a relationship and I thought it would be healthy to be in one for the time being and see how it feels.
[2:50:22 PM] ASHPoD: If things don't work out, friends with benefits can always be there.
[2:50:24 PM] ASHPoD: cuz
[2:50:56 PM] ASHPoD: I don't think many other people can sit and have a true discussion about anything you have to say.
[2:51:02 PM] ASHPoD: And I'm ready to do that.
[2:51:29 PM] ASHPoD: But please understand. If you can't truly tolerate high voltage, I'm not sure if the relationship can work out.
[2:51:36 PM] ASHPoD: That's 99% of the reason.
[2:52:15 PM] ASHPoD: I'm... I'm sorry, ok? But my love for high voltage is greater than my love for anything or anyone else platonically, symbolically, and romantically.
[2:52:30 PM] ASHPoD: Please, PLEASE try to understand that.
[2:52:39 PM] ASHPoD: Please don't be like my mom.
[2:56:15 PM] ASHPoD: Seriously, I don't even want a single doubt about the high voltage hobby. No uncomfortability at all. It's not because of Salvatore. It's not him at all. It's because I'd rather have someone that not only approves of high voltage but also wants to do high voltage stuff with me. It's far easier for me to get someone into Portal than it is for me to get someone into a high voltage geek.
[2:58:55 PM] ASHPoD: I'm not saying I'm breaking up with you. As said though, if things end up working with Sal, and things get serious, I'd choose him over you. Don't get me wrong. I DO like you. But... I'm still not sure about it. The eXperiment data, etc. tells me that because the only place we actually converge is that we both are portalphiles, I'm not so sure if the relationship will work out as well as you think it will in the long run.
[2:59:13 PM] ASHPoD: And to save you heartbreak later, I have to let you know this now.
[2:59:35 PM] ASHPoD: I am legitimately sorry. And as said, this isn't about Sal. It's about high voltage.