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- You have no idea what it's like.
- To constantly doubt your own trauma, because it didn't hurt you that bad.
- To constantly doubt your own trauma, because even if it did you recovered quickly.
- To sit awake wondering if you were always this lewd.. or if you're just so broken you forgot who you used to be.
- To be afraid to think about your identity because of the doubts that creep in.
- To think it's just a fetish, just a sex thing, just something She made you into.
- To hurt your friends.
- To feel like you're the same as Her.
- To constantly doubt if your dysphoria is real.
- To feel like a monster.
- To break down crying at night because you put thought into your identity.
- To scream and scream inside but refuse to tell those you love and care about.
- To sing "One. Nothing's right with me. Two. Nothing's right with me. Three. Nothing's right with me. Four. Nothing's right with me." And be terrified about how correct it feels.
- To doubt not only your gender identity, but your entire identity itself.
- To fall and fail so hard you can't face your parents, or anyone.
- To go from straight As to straight Fs in only a couple years.
- To feel like everyone would be better if you weren't there to ruin it.
- To only breathe because you're too afraid to end it.
- To have one of your only vivid memories be the time you tried to.
- To constantly want to punish yourself.
- To feel like it doesn't matter if you hurt.
- To care about the people you know more than yourself.
- To bury everything you feel until you're ready to collapse.
- To hide it all behind a mask because to show how much you hurt would hurt the people you care about, and you could never hurt them.
- To feel like everything you know is fake.
- To feel like every relationship you have could be destroyed in an instant if you step out of life.
- To feel fake.
- To refuse to take your medicine so you can live in a trance.
- To prefer being a tranced out failure to facing everything that's threatening to tear you apart.
- To feeling like you let everyone down every day of your pathetic life.
- To growing more comfortable in pain than in happiness.
- To do everything you can to keep it inside.
- To gluing a mask to your face so no one can know.
- To being hyper lewd and feminine because it's all you can pull off.
- To cry and be terrified when your mask slips, to lose your mind in anxiety when it feels like they might know.
- To feel like Cor was right to abuse you.
- You don't know my fucking pain.
- No one can.
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