Freedom isn't feeling so fucking free, get it?

MARlSS: [-touches the butt-]
Tsaaq: ((Another nice butt.))
MARlSS: -shay pulledu p to the apartment and sighs.-"i need a shower... ugh I feel gross."-she gets out and makes her way up the steps to the apartment and unlocks it. she goes to her room grabbign some clothes and tssing her keys on her dek.-
Covet: [God dammit XD]
Covet: [no molesto no molesto]
MARlSS: [i touched the butt!-nemo voice-]
Tsaaq: She walked into the apartment behind Shay. "Go ahead." Freedom sighed, going into her room and instantly started taking off her outfit, starting with stepping out of her heels. She frowned, looking in the mirror then poked her head out to the living where she assumed Nika had been. "You can come in here in a sec girl, I'm just getting changed real quick." She called out as she took off her dress and put on a tank top and her shorts. She walked over to her mirror, picking up her cross and playing with it a little before she put it on.
MARlSS: -shay made her way to the bathroom.-"make yourself at home Nika."-she shouted as she closed the door and got into the shower.-
MARlSS: [brb kind of lol]
Tsaaq: ((Tyt.))
Covet: "Yeah, I bet. So rude of that guy to spill beer on you." Nika frowned taking off her shoes holding onto them as she follwed Freedom waiting outside as she got changed out of her outfit. "No problem, I'll grab my stuff and get changed when you're done."
Covet: [Tyt]
Tsaaq: She used a makeup wipe to take off her makeup then proceeded to moisturize her face. "Come on in. I'm decent." She told her loudly then looked at herself in the mirror. "You want me to leave the room?" Freedom asked NIka softly.
Covet: "No it's okay, I can work this. Plenty of time mastering this in highschool Gym class." Nika said going over to her other bag, pulling her former outfit back on, leaving her boots off. Nika sat on the end of her bed and rubbed her feet. "I'm so not used to stilleto heels."
Tsaaq: "I always be wearing heels so I think I'm just conditioned into it." Freedom shrugged as she rubbed in her moisturizer then turned in her stool so she could face Nika, giving a heavy sigh as she rested her hands on her thighs. "I'm sorry... I know I ain't really all that fun. Especially when I got out and I'm around people." Freedom said softly.
MARlSS: -After her shower Shay sighs coming out. he finishes putting her hahir up in the bun and she knocks on freedoms door.-"you two decent in there?"-she waited for an answer.-
MARlSS: [nuuuuu butt come back]
Tsaaq: ((She will.))
MARlSS: [wb XD ]
Covet: [THanks x.x IMVU is being a whore]
Covet: "Yes we're good." Nika called out then looked over at Freedom, "Don't beat yourself up over it. You weren't that bad. It was loud and really flashy there. It was a lot to take in. You were still good company. I promise that's not why I bailed."
Tsaaq: Freedom pouted as she slouched a little bit. "Yeah, we good." She called out to Raksha then shrugged at Nika. "I unno. I just don't really like crowds..." She muttered.
MARlSS: -Shay walks in and smiles.-"that club sucked...."-she goes tothe couch and sits down looking at the two of them.-"At least you two were good to have around and looked hot. So nika did you get that guys number?"
Covet: "Yeah, I did." She said with a soft nod, not wanting to think about what she'd done. " It was a monday night, I'm sure it won't always be like that. But it was fun to dress up and go out." She said with a laugh sitting indian style on the bed, leaning her elbows on her knees.
Tsaaq: "Well yeah..." Freedom trailed off. "I like dressing up and shit." She shrugged before she looked to Nika. "Look at lil miss popular." She laughed a little.
MARlSS: -Shay smiles-"go Nika...hey by the way Nika you want to spend the night tonight?"-she figured she would offer to let her stay the night.-"you can sleep in my room or the living room. The couch pulls out to a bed..or if it is ok with freedom you can sleep in here. it will be fun. you can borrow some of my clothes."
Covet: Nika swallowed and gave a forced smile, nodding her head, "Yeah, something like that." She grabbed her wallet and checked the money in there again, making sure her phone and her ID were still there as well, She looked up at Shay and blinked, "oh stay the night? I probaly will just stay late and head back home. Only because I have to be up early in the morning for classes. I appreciate the offer though, and maybe this weekend I can do that instead? " she offered.
Tsaaq: Freedom looked between Nika and Shay then shrugged her shoulders, turning to look at herself in the mirror once more. "It's cool, stay as long as you want. And spending the night this weekend sounds good. But on Sunday imma be out of the house real early to meet up with my family." Freedom told Nika, running her fingers through her hair. "I don't mind if you stay while I ain't here. I trust you."
MARlSS: -Shay nos her head at nika and smiles.-"You are welcomeand yeah this weekend sounds good. we can order out and watch movies and all that good girly stuff."-she laughs softly.-
Covet: "That sounds perfect. I like that idea. It gives me time to plan ahead for it too." Nika said with a smile, "Despite tonight being a total bust, it was fun to still hang out together."
Tsaaq: She was still feeling under the weather so she didn't chime in much. Freedom was definitely listening though. She leaned her elbows on the surface of her vanity and laid her head down, glancing at the two girls in her mirror as she remained quiet. "Really?" She asked quietly.
MARlSS: -shay nods her head and smiles.-"yeah it was."-she got up and went to freedom hugging her lightly.-"I should go to bed though..."-she smiles to Nika and offeres her a hug as well.-"see you two tomorrow?"
Covet: "Yeah, but I also don't really get out a whole lot. This is the most involved interaction I've had in months." Nika said with a soft laugh. "I like reading way to much. It's either better or worse than TV. I haven't decided." She looked at Shay and gave her a light hug back, "Yeah, sure thing. Sleep well. "
Tsaaq: "That don't mean nothing, reading is good." She told Nika. She listened to Raksha and exhaled loudly. "Aiight, I'll see you in the morning." Freedom said, glancing back at Shay. "G'night." She muttered. "Sleep tight."
MARlSS: -she smiles and waves to the mboth before heading to her room to go to bed-
Covet: Nika looked back over at Freedom. "If you're tired, I can take off as well. I don't want to keep you. " she said to her politely.
Tsaaq: She shook her head. "It's not that I'm tired... Well, I am tired but, I can't really sleep or nothing right now." Freedom told Nika. "You ever had your brain volume on like full blast and shit, and it's like, you can't turn it down cause it's like the old iPod's with the circle wheel thing and it's like your circle wheel is broken on your brain so you're basically fucked and you have to listen to your thoughts?" She rambled a moment then scoffed. "That sounded mad dumb."
Covet: Nika looked over at her and listened, "No it didn't I actually understood all of that. I remember those old iPods. That can't be fun to deal with. Anything I can do to help you sort that all out?" She asked her, with genuine concern.
Tsaaq: "I unno..." Freedom trailed off. "I don't feel like myself." She muttered. As she sat up and looked over to Nika. "I don't really know what to do but wait for the shitty and sad feelings to go away." Freedom muttered. "I guess I miss Derek but I shouldn't. I shouldn't care. But I do. And it's weird. Cause I never cared, not like this anyways. I never really done anything serious with a guy. I've kinda thought they were trouble up until now." Freedom rambled.
Covet: "Well, he was your first right? If it makes you feel any better, I went through the same thing with my first as well.  Don't let your feeling betray you, Guys still are trouble, they just become less trouble the more you get to know them. Sometimes." She said furrowing her brow. "I'm kind of looking out for you, I told him he needs to hit you up. I can't keep occupying his time with my busines stuff." Nika said with a friendly smile.
Tsaaq: She nodded as she listened to Nika. "Well, yeah he was but I didn't think it was that big of a deal..." She trailed off. Freedom began to smile as she exhaled with relief. "Thanks Nika." She muttered."I don't really want to do this over and over again..." Freedom whispered.  "I dead ass really believe you and all but.." Freedom said. "I unno just been so emotional lately..." She sighed, hearing her phone go off. She got up and glanced at it and sucked her teeth. "He hitting me up alright. But it ain't out of the kindness of his heart or nothing..." She grumbled as she typed.
Covet: "You don't expect it to be until it happens." Nika said with a soft smile, " I understand. It's a complicated thing. Maybe you're coming down with something. Between the headache, mood swings, and well getting sick. It could be some weird flu strain?" She suggested like that was supposed to make it better, " Oh... I dont get him. He talks highly about you, and he says he likes hanging out with you, but now he's flaking out?"
Tsaaq: "Maybe Shay is right, maybe I should go to the doctor?" Freedom asked herself outloud. "I unno... I don't think I got time for that. I'm hoping it's what you said." She glanced at her phone and bit the inside of her cheek. "He's asking about this stupid fucking confessional somebody posted about me hooking up with fucking Connor, which I didn't! And even now when I said I didn't he's like 'Oh I wouldn't mind if you did.' The fuck is that supposed to even mean?" Freedom scoffed as she tossed her phone onto her bed. "I don't know... Maybe he just says that shit to sound like a good person, maybe he's not good at all. Maybe I'm fucking stupid." She shrugged.
Covet: Nika listened to her, furrowing her brow, feeling that guilt washing over her again, " Wow, No I'm with you, what does that mean? Not to mention if he's having sex with other women, why would you need his permission or approval to do the same? I don't think it's you that's stupid. Not even a little bit. He's playing with your emotions and that's not fair."
Tsaaq: Freedom frowned as she looked at her phone again and shrugged. "Well.. He ain't answering me anymore. So guess that's it..." She trailed off, sitting down at the floor of the foot of her bed, hugging her knees to her chest. She frowned as she looked up at Nika. "I guess I should just get over him or some shit. Since he's over me, or bored of me already. I don't know. I wouldn't know." Freedom whispered. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to talk shit. I know he's your friend... I'm just, so disappointed..." She muttered. "All the times I defended him when people talked shit about him, I feel like it was all for nothing. And now I look like the stupid girl who caught feelings... Which was the last time I wanted."
Covet: "Ugh, I swear, I'm going to have to bash his clueless head in, for anything to sink it." Nika said, not intending to sound so violent but she was frustrated with how he was treating Freedom, and she knew the reason why. " No you're fine, You're both my friends, and I'm right there with you, I'm disappointed in him as well." Nika slid down to the floor and wrapped an arm around Freedom."It's going to be okay, I'm here and you can let it out now, so that tomorrow, you can hold your head high and start making him realize he's made a mistake."
Tsaaq: ((thing** damn it typos!))
Covet: [XD]
Covet: [aww damn I had one too * sink in]
Tsaaq: She kept frowning as she leaned against Nika, breathing a little so she could force herself to cry, but at this point in her life she'd been very good at not crying in front of people. "It ain't even like I'm asking him to be my boyfriend or nothing. I never did." Freedom sighed. "He brought that shit up. I'm good with being friends but he ain't even treating me like that really." She muttered before lowering her head. "He prolly won't even notice if I dead him or ignore him... I shouldn't have even talked to him when I met him." Freedom sighed.
Covet: Nika rubbed her shoudler and back, "I understand. He's being a jerk. I think he'd notice if you were dead or if you ignored him. He'd start to wonder eventually." She reached for her phone in her bag and pulled it out sending off a message to Derek asking him WTF DUDE!?!. " I don't know if he knows what he wants, or he's just being greedy."
Tsaaq: Once she figured she couldn't burst into tears in Nika's presence she sighed, giving up. "It's aiight..." Freedom trailed off. "This is my own fuckin' fault." She muttered grimly. "I was sposed to wait until I got married to have sex and I didn't cause my soul is weak." Freedom muttered, now her eyes became a little moist. "God is punishing mecause of my dishonesty, cause I ain't take anything seriously when I shoulda been." She covered her face with her hands. "But I don't understand! I pray for forgiveness all the time!"
Covet: "Hey, no it's not. There's only so much you can mentally prepare for. When your body say's you're ready, you're natural instinct is to give into that. Don't punish yourself, because you had a moment of weakness." Nika said with a frown hugging her close. She wasn't religious herself, but she at least repsected the practice  "If you've been praying, you've got nothing to worry about, maybe  God's just got another plan for you? Something bigger and better than all of this It's just taking some time to pull the strings to make it happen?"
Tsaaq: Freedom nodded her head, though expression remained dour. "I mean... That would be way better than him punishing me." She whispered. "What plan would that even be...?" Freedom asked as she let out a high pitched sigh. "All I wanted to do was help Derek and help peple see that he was good." She said, frowning.
Covet: "I don't know God works in mysterious ways." Nika said with an encouraging smile, " You were only ever going to be able to do so much with him, anyways. The rest of it he has to do on his own. This could be part of the challenge? Nobody said helping Derek was going to be easy, afterall. And if anyone could help him, it's totally you."
Tsaaq: "He doesn't want me to help him anymore..." She said in a small voice. "Or that's how he's making me feel." Freedom said as she shrugged. "I'm sorry Nika, I didn't want to make this all about him. But that's all I think about all the time. I can't even help it." She spoke softly. "And I don't like saying that's what's happening in my brain cause then people would talk more shit about me."
Covet: " You don't need to apologize. It's okay, really. He could use a positive influence in his life, life you and he's a moron if he can't see that. You're smart and drop dead gorgeous, and friendly." She told her rubbing her shoulder, being comforting still, "You can tell me anything, and I promise it will stay completely between us. Nobody's going to know about how upset he's made you."
Tsaaq: Freedom sighed as she kept her head rested on Nika's shoulder. "Thank you." She said quietly. "For everything." She shrugged. "You're such a blessing." Freedom said with another sigh. "Raksha is always telling people my fucking business... Especially Derek." She muttered. "What should I do? Should I just stop trying to talk to him?" She asked.
Covet: "You're welcome, It's the least I could do. You've been nothing but sweet and nice. Happy to return the favor." Nika said with a soft smile as they sat there. "Yeah, I don't get their relationship either. He told me that he enjoys having angry sex with her, but he can't stand her. That shouldn't give grounds for her to go and tell him your business though.  Doesn't she have enough of her own that she could blab about?" Nika said. "Part of me sides with not talking to him, Because that'd catch his attention, the other part of me is siding with the idea that you make him crawl to you, and the third part of me is saying to still be there for him as a friend, and don't stop being your genuine self. I know that's not very helpful. I'm sorry."
Tsaaq: Her eyebrows furrowed as she listened to Nika. "Wait..." Freedom trailed off. "She got a whole boyfriend..." She muttered, immediately feeling bad for Leon. "I didn't know they was fucking on the regs." She whispered as she settled into silence from the news she'd received. "I never ever given up on a person, or I never had a time where I felt that was what I had to do..." Freedom said softly. She teared up but still, it wasn't enough for anything to drop from her eyes. "I guess... I can just wait around for him to come to me... He's the one who said that he liked me and made all this happen. He started it." Freedom whispered. "And while we ain't talking I'll keep him in my prayers."
Covet: "Yeah, that's what I thought.  I don't know how often or when the two of them hook up, but he made it sound like it was something on the regular." Nika said hoping she didn't upset Freedom more." There you go. Make him own up to what he said, and you can keep praying for him, Nobody can stop you doing that."
Tsaaq: Freedom shook her head. "Why is Raksha like that? Why don't she care about people's feelings? Well... Derek is guilty too." She muttered, still her expression was that of deep vexation. "Well, when one's lost I suppose it's good advice to stay where you are... Until someone finds you." Freedom quoted Alice In Wonderland, her face seeming a little eased from Nika's presence and her own attempt to make herself feel better. "You don't have to sit 'round here and feel bad for my sad ass." She laughed a little as she looked over to Nika.
Covet: "Your guess is as good as mine. I definitley don't understand either of them. Lewis Carrol, and a ncie quote at that." She smiled, "It's really not that big of a deal. You needed someone to talk to, It's not me being sorry for you, it's me being supportive. That being said, I do need to take off, and get some sleep. But you can definitely text me. I'll answer asap, promise."
Tsaaq: She got up on her feet and wrapped her arms around Nika, hugging her tightly then she pulled away. "Thank you so much." Freedom said softly, before giving her a geniune. "I'll text you, just make sure you get home safe." She said with a smile. "I would just be mad upset all over again if anything happened." Freedom said as she went to the door of her room and went out of the hallway so she could walk Nika to the front door.
Covet: Nika gave Freedom a hug back with a smile, " You're welcome. And of course, I'll let you know when I get there. Keep your head up, and the positive vibes flowing. Things will turn around." She told her being all positive, making sure she had all her things before she headed of her room and out of the apartment, "Goodnight!" She called out geting into her vehicle and driving off.
Tsaaq: ((This is gonna be worse when she finds out she's pregnant I think lmao.))