Submission (2018)

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Subtitles by explosiveskull

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<i>Euston College was
first founded in the early 1800s</i>

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<i>by Elijah Euston,</i>

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<i>primarily to educate his six
sons and seven daughters.</i>

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<i>Why he felt the need to educate them
at a college this isolated and inbred</i>

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<i>isn't readily available.</i>

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<i>As a novelist with one moderately
successful book under my belt,</i>

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<i>I arrived at this well-paying
but lower-tier institution</i>

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<i>with wife and child in tow,</i>

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<i>the promise of health insurance
beckoning.</i>

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<i>A short term gig, I thought,</i>

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<i>fully expecting my second novel
to offer me a reprieve</i>

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<i>and save me from obscurity.</i>

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<i>That was a decade ago.</i>

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<i>I had been touted
as an author to watch.</i>

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<i>Little did I realize that that
christening would turn into my eulogy.</i>

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<i>Okay, so what did
everybody think?</i>

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What did <i>anybody</i> think?

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<i>Look at them.
They're shell-shocked.</i>

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<i>They look like cartoon characters
hearing birdies tweet.</i>

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What engaged you?

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<i>Maybe it's a conspiracy.</i>

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<i>Three stories about sex with animals,
and the term has just begun.</i>

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- Meg, why don't you jump in?
- I thought it was disgusting.

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Positives first, please.

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You can always find
something nice to say.

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<i>Unless you're a critic.
Or my first editor.</i>

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His spelling
wasn't offensive.

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- Up yours.
- He wanted something positive.

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That was the only positive
thing I had to say.

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<i>Then again, maybe I should be
grateful for any student work</i>

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<i>with a shred of vitality
and life,</i>

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<i>even if it is about bestiality.</i>

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<i>That's more than I seem to have at the moment.</i>

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Is something wrong, Professor Swenson?

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Why do you ask?

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You groaned.
Twice.

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Did I?

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Can you blame him?

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That part where Danny did
what he did to that chicken

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was just really, really gross.

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I agree with Meg.

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I thought the scene in the
kitchen came out of nowhere.

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Seemed totally bogus.

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Okay, so then
what would we do

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to make it not seem
"totally bogus,"

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as Carlos says?

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<i>Always quote the students,
if possible.</i>

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<i>Makes them feel like
they're being taken seriously.</i>

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I'd change the boy's character

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so that we know he's the kind of
person who'd do something like that.

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He should be really pissed at the
waitress, so when he goes home...

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<i>And here we go.</i>

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<i>The quote-unquote "suggestions"
that make a bad story worse.</i>

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<i>When I first started teaching
I'd settle for nothing less</i>

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<i>than the whole class
falling in love with me.</i>

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<i>Now I just want to get through the
hour without major psychic damage.</i>

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Okay, all right. Okay, so then, does
everyone agree with these suggestions?

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I think
they kinda suck.

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All right, Angela.

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Will you tell us why
you think they "kinda suck"?

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I guess I just kind of liked
the way that it ended,

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that it was so weird
and unexpected.

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I mean, that's, like,
the whole point, isn't it,

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that anyone can do
something like that?

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This guy is getting home
from a really shitty date.

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He goes home, opens the fridge,
sees the chicken and does it.

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Right?

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Guys are always surprising themselves
doing crazy shit like that,

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even if they think they're not the kind
of guy who would do crazy shit like that.

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Most guys would not
bone a chicken.

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Yeah. I know
what most guys would do.

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Okay, well, Angela does
bring up a good point.

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She has a point.

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Uh, Ryan doesn't do
what he does

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because he's
a naturally violent person

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or because his girlfriend bought
chicken and he hates chicken.

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It's the rejection that has caused him to
do "crazy shit," as Angela says. Right?

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Now,
we've all been there.

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Which is why we can see
that he is like us.

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Okay. To be continued
next week.

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Very good. Who's on the
hot seat next week?

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Wh-Who is it?

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Angela. Okay, great.

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- So, this will be your first time, right?
- Actually...

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So we promise
to go easy on you.

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Don't we?

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- No?
- Actually, I'm not finished yet.

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I, um, was hoping I could come talk to
you during your office hours tomorrow.

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Yeah. Just remind me
when I have office hours.

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Tomorrow morning.

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Really?
I have morning office hours?

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I'm more devoted
than I thought I was.

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That's great.

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Then I will see you tomorrow morning
in my office during my office hours.

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- Thank you.
- Thank you, Professor.

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All right, good luck.
Class dismissed. Get out.

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Um, thanks.
I'll see you tomorrow.

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Looking forward.

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Hello?

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- Nurse, I need some help.
- Shit!

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- Sorry. I'm sorry.
- You scared me.

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- I'm sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
- Oh, my God.

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- Come here.
- What are you doing?

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- Have a little quickie?
- You can't do that.

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- Why not?
- Because I'm at work.

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- So what? We'll say it's therapeutic.
- Stop. No.

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There's a patient
right next door

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who's been vomiting nonstop
since this morning.

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Oh, great. My erection is gone.
Our jobs are safe.

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He's the fifth kid
I've seen today.

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Must be something
going around.

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Well, let's go back home and get under
the covers where there are no germs.

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We can't. We've got that meeting.
Remember?

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Shit. Which we're already late for.
Let me tell Arlene I'm leaving.

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Later though. A thorough checkup.
I promise.

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Okay.

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Good.

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I have here a copy of the Euston
College policy on sexual harassment.

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Every September one receives
this in one's mailbox,

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along with changes to the health
plan and cafeteria hours.

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And every September

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one immediately tosses
it all into the trash.

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I know I do, and it's my
unfortunate duty to write them.

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Such an asshole.

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- But I thought we might all...
- Shh.

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spend a moment or two
going over it together.

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I had a dream
about Ruby last night.

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- Oh?
- Yeah.

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We were driving, and I told her that
I'm her father and that I loved her

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and that... that I only wanted
what was best for her.

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What did she say?

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She told me
that she forgave me,

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that she was actually relieved
that I broke them up.

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Wow.
What a wonderful dream.

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I know.

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And then this huge semi truck
came hurtling towards us.

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She screamed
and I slammed on the brakes.

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- And then I woke up.
- Oh, God. Maybe not such a wonderful dream.

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Call her again.

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No. I think she just deletes my messages
without even listening to them.

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Surprise her. Drive down and
take her out for dinner.

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I'm sure she could use
a good meal.

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But someplace
within walking distance.

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You don't want
to take any chances.

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Love you.

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Me you too.

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I'm still up.
What are you wearing?

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<i>Excuse me?</i>

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<i>It's Angela Argo.
I'm sorry.</i>

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<i>I know you only gave out your
phone number for emergencies,</i>

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<i>but I think we were
supposed to meet at 9:00.</i>

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Oh, shit...
I-I mean, yes, of course.

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- I'll, uh... I'll be there in 15.
- <i>Are you sure?</i>

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<i>'Cause if you're busy
writing or something...</i>

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No, no.
The writing can wait.

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Uh, I will see you in 15.
Okay, bye.

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Hi.

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- Hi.
- Hi. I'm so sorry I'm late.

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Oh, it's okay. Don't worry about it.

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I was kinda liking it,
actually.

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You know,
sitting here, hiding out.

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When I was a kid, I'd sit
and read under the porch

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when I was supposed
to be at school.

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Oh. Good.

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- You're a reader, huh?
- Yeah.

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Good.

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Come on in. I won't bite.

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You're reading <i>Jane Eyre?</i>
You liking it?

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Oh, yeah. Yeah.
I love it. It's cool.

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I love that she's in this
mad rage the whole time.

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Then she finally gets to marry the blind guy
who's just toasted his wife in the attic.

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- It's wild.
- Yeah.

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The trouble is, I'm reading it for Professor
Healy's class, Text Studies in Gender Warfare.

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And it just kinda feels like everything
that we read is the same thing. You know?

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Like the male patriarchy
sticking it to women.

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And I understand that you can say that, but I
also think that not everything is the same.

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True.
Please, have a seat.

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Um, anyway, it is...

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It's, like,
my favorite book.

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- Good.
- Except for yours.

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<i>Phoenix Time</i> is, like, my
favorite book in the universe.

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Oh.
Well, I'm very flattered.

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- Thanks.
- Yeah.

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It saved my life,
actually.

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How do you mean?

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Well, my therapist gave it to me
after my father killed himself.

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And I won't bore you with the details of
the whole story or anything, but, um,

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it just really showed me

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that people can get through
stuff like that.

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I read it, like,
a million times.

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And also, it's just
a really great book.

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It's up there
with Brontë and Stendhal.

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- Stendhal?
- <i>The Red and the Black?</i>

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It's another favorite
of mine.

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- Really?
- Mm-hmm.

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I'm actually working on a
postmodern retelling of that story.

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It's my new novel.

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- Oh, my God.
- Yeah.

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That's amazing.

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Huh.

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- Can I ask you something?
- Sure.

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Um, what happened
in your novel...

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Did...
Did that really happen?

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Well, I thought
we had, um, discussed in class

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that we wouldn't ask writers
questions like that.

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This isn't class.

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Um... yes.

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That is
how my father died.

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And my mother and I
watched it on television.

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He was protesting
the Vietnam War.

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It was a celebrity death
for about 15 minutes.

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So...

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Wow.

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Yeah.

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- I'm writing a novel too.
- Oh. Great.

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Oh, God, not that I'm comparing
it to yours or anything.

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I shouldn't even
call it that.

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It's not a novel.
It's just pages.

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It's, um... It's like chapters
in search of a novel.

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That's good. Well put.

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And what's it called,
your novel?

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<i>Eggs.</i>

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<i>Eggs?</i>

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<i>Eggs.</i>
It's very evocative.

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Thanks.

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And what is <i>Eggs</i> about?

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Um, well,
actually, I'd...

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I'd like to just show it
to you, if that's okay.

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I brought, um,
the first chapter here.

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I thought I could give
you the first chapter,

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you could read it, let
me know what you think,

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and we could go chapter
by chapter, or not.

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It's about halfway done.
I started last summer.

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Why don't I read
the first chapter,

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and then maybe we can put it up and take
a look at it in next week's workshop.

237
00:12:48,241 --> 00:12:50,209
- Whatever. You decide.
- Okay.

238
00:12:50,211 --> 00:12:53,711
I just can't believe Theodore Swenson's
gonna read something I've written.

239
00:12:53,713 --> 00:12:56,348
I should just take it back and start over

240
00:12:56,350 --> 00:12:58,349
and throw it away,
probably.

241
00:12:58,351 --> 00:13:00,418
I think...
my writing sucks.

242
00:13:00,420 --> 00:13:03,622
No. That's what every
first-time writer thinks.

243
00:13:03,624 --> 00:13:06,691
And, actually, quite a few
second-time writers.

244
00:13:06,693 --> 00:13:08,860
So just take a deep breath.

245
00:13:08,862 --> 00:13:10,863
Just breathe.
It's all right.

246
00:13:10,865 --> 00:13:13,364
Right. Breathe.
Okay, um, I will.

247
00:13:13,366 --> 00:13:16,167
And also I know there are, like,
four or five typos in there,

248
00:13:16,169 --> 00:13:18,537
and I was gonna fix them,
but I didn't have time.

249
00:13:18,539 --> 00:13:20,705
- But I know that...
- Don't worry about it.

250
00:13:20,707 --> 00:13:22,574
Just...

251
00:13:22,576 --> 00:13:24,743
- Just breathe.
- Yes. Yes. There you go.

252
00:13:24,745 --> 00:13:28,379
And I'm really sorry before, when I
called you, if I interrupted something,

253
00:13:28,381 --> 00:13:30,282
if you were writing
or something.

254
00:13:30,284 --> 00:13:32,484
- Oh, no. Not at all. Not at all. Not at all.
- I'm sorry.

255
00:13:32,486 --> 00:13:35,220
- Sorry I was late.
- Oh, don't worry about it. Thank you so much.

256
00:13:35,222 --> 00:13:37,355
I really appreciate you reading my b...
Okay, bye.

257
00:13:37,357 --> 00:13:38,592
Okay.

258
00:13:47,333 --> 00:13:48,834
The Black and the Black,

259
00:13:48,836 --> 00:13:52,373
<i>inspired, of course, by
Stendhal's</i> The Red and the Black.

260
00:14:04,250 --> 00:14:06,551
<i>Only now the character
of Julien Sorel</i>

261
00:14:06,553 --> 00:14:10,922
<i>was a young sculptor with a Black
Panther dad and a social climbing mom,</i>

262
00:14:10,924 --> 00:14:15,259
<i>a guy who uses everyone he meets in his
ferocious scramble up the art world ladder.</i>

263
00:14:15,261 --> 00:14:18,398
<i>Race. Art. Ambition.</i>

264
00:14:30,343 --> 00:14:33,378
<i>Hey, buddy, it's Len, your editor.
Remember me?</i>

265
00:14:33,380 --> 00:14:35,479
<i>So when am I gonna
see something?</i>

266
00:14:35,481 --> 00:14:38,216
<i>You were supposed to send me a
draft three months ago. Call me!</i>

267
00:14:38,218 --> 00:14:39,621
<i>Give my love to...</i>

268
00:15:06,579 --> 00:15:08,580
<i>Every night after dinner,</i>

269
00:15:08,582 --> 00:15:10,681
<i>I went out
and sat with the eggs.</i>

270
00:15:10,683 --> 00:15:14,452
<i>This was after my mother and I washed
the dishes and loaded the washer,</i>

271
00:15:14,454 --> 00:15:18,290
<i>after my father dozed off
over his medical journals.</i>

272
00:15:18,292 --> 00:15:21,960
<i>It was then that I slipped out the kitchen
door and crossed the chilly backyard,</i>

273
00:15:21,962 --> 00:15:26,531
<i>dark and loamy with the yeasty smell
of leaves just beginning to change,</i>

274
00:15:26,533 --> 00:15:29,634
<i>noisy with the rustle of them
turning colors in the dark.</i>

275
00:15:29,636 --> 00:15:33,872
<i>For a moment I looked back
at the black frame of our house,</i>

276
00:15:33,874 --> 00:15:37,345
<i>the whole place jumping and
vibrating with the dishwasher hum.</i>

277
00:15:38,279 --> 00:15:40,479
<i>Then I entered the toolshed,</i>

278
00:15:40,481 --> 00:15:42,880
<i>lit only
by the incubator bulbs,</i>

279
00:15:42,882 --> 00:15:46,420
<i>silent but for the whirring hearts
inside the fertilized eggs.</i>

280
00:15:47,987 --> 00:15:51,023
<i>This was my 11th-grade
biology project.</i>

281
00:15:51,025 --> 00:15:53,358
<i>Officially, that is.</i>

282
00:15:53,360 --> 00:15:56,527
<i>But underneath those charts,
those notebooks,</i>

283
00:15:56,529 --> 00:15:59,364
<i>the racks of fertilized eggs,</i>

284
00:15:59,366 --> 00:16:01,767
<i>my real project
was black magic...</i>

285
00:16:01,769 --> 00:16:05,637
<i>casting spells for things
I shouldn't have wanted,</i>

286
00:16:05,639 --> 00:16:07,339
<i>and longed for,</i>

287
00:16:07,341 --> 00:16:09,373
<i>and finally got.</i>

288
00:16:09,375 --> 00:16:12,279
<i>Like Mr. Reynaud,
my science teacher.</i>

289
00:16:17,784 --> 00:16:19,584
Angela.

290
00:16:19,586 --> 00:16:21,353
Angela. Hi.

291
00:16:21,355 --> 00:16:22,921
- Hi.
- I read your chapter.

292
00:16:22,923 --> 00:16:24,089
Oh, shit.
You hated it.

293
00:16:24,091 --> 00:16:26,792
I could tell by the way you
were looking at me in class.

294
00:16:26,794 --> 00:16:30,329
Not that you were looking at me, but I
could feel it. You thought it sucked.

295
00:16:30,331 --> 00:16:32,931
No.
Actually, the opposite.

296
00:16:32,933 --> 00:16:35,403
I think
it's quite accomplished.

297
00:16:36,470 --> 00:16:38,670
- Really?
- Yeah, I do. Yeah.

298
00:16:38,672 --> 00:16:41,773
You're not just saying that because you're
afraid if you tell me what you really think,

299
00:16:41,775 --> 00:16:43,908
I'm gonna go kill myself
in my dorm room?

300
00:16:43,910 --> 00:16:46,577
No. No, that's
not why I'm saying it.

301
00:16:46,579 --> 00:16:49,614
I'm telling you the truth. I
really, really, really enjoyed it.

302
00:16:49,616 --> 00:16:51,816
- Ted. Hi!
- Hey! How are you?

303
00:16:51,818 --> 00:16:53,685
- I'm good.
- Good. Good.

304
00:16:53,687 --> 00:16:56,620
We're on a break. I left some
papers in the office as usual.

305
00:16:56,622 --> 00:16:58,790
- You know Angela.
- I do know Angela.

306
00:16:58,792 --> 00:17:00,825
- It's nice to see you again.
- You too, Professor.

307
00:17:00,827 --> 00:17:02,960
Um, we're just talking
about Angela's novel.

308
00:17:02,962 --> 00:17:04,963
- Her novel?
- Yeah.

309
00:17:04,965 --> 00:17:07,698
- Wow. That's impressive.
- Yeah.

310
00:17:07,700 --> 00:17:09,935
- He's just being nice.
- No.

311
00:17:09,937 --> 00:17:13,105
- Okay. Well, please call me. Let's have lunch.
- Okay. I will, I will.

312
00:17:13,107 --> 00:17:14,973
I found the typos.

313
00:17:14,975 --> 00:17:16,974
I made corrections.

314
00:17:16,976 --> 00:17:19,744
Just... keep writing.

315
00:17:19,746 --> 00:17:23,482
- Do you want to discuss it in class?
- Oh, God, no. No.

316
00:17:23,484 --> 00:17:25,884
You have to be very careful
to whom you show this now.

317
00:17:25,886 --> 00:17:29,120
Don't listen to what anyone says.
I mean it.

318
00:17:29,122 --> 00:17:32,057
Not even me.
Especially me.

319
00:17:32,059 --> 00:17:33,728
Wow. Um...

320
00:17:34,628 --> 00:17:36,828
Oh, my God,
that makes me so...

321
00:17:36,830 --> 00:17:38,964
happy.

322
00:17:38,966 --> 00:17:40,702
Just...

323
00:17:41,101 --> 00:17:42,934
Thank you.

324
00:17:42,936 --> 00:17:44,938
You're welcome.
Good job.

325
00:17:46,473 --> 00:17:49,774
Can I give you another couple of pages?

326
00:17:49,776 --> 00:17:50,975
I'm sorry?

327
00:17:50,977 --> 00:17:54,111
I understand if you, like, need
a break or something, but...

328
00:17:54,113 --> 00:17:58,149
And it's not like reading a real
writer's work, anyway. I know that.

329
00:17:58,151 --> 00:18:03,021
But if I... I-If you... I
understand if you don't want to.

330
00:18:03,023 --> 00:18:05,360
No, it would be
my pleasure.

331
00:18:06,959 --> 00:18:08,929
It just...
It means the world.

332
00:18:10,030 --> 00:18:11,766
- Okay, bye.
- Bye.

333
00:18:14,501 --> 00:18:17,601
<i>"A little-known
fact about eggs," Mr. Reynaud said.</i>

334
00:18:17,603 --> 00:18:21,840
<i>"During the equinox and solstice you
can actually balance one on its end."</i>

335
00:18:21,842 --> 00:18:25,444
<i>I never tried to balance an egg
during the equinox or the solstice.</i>

336
00:18:25,446 --> 00:18:27,611
<i>I don't believe in astrology.</i>

337
00:18:27,613 --> 00:18:30,148
<i>But I knew that my life
was like that egg,</i>

338
00:18:30,150 --> 00:18:33,217
<i>and the point it balanced on were the
few minutes I got to stay after class</i>

339
00:18:33,219 --> 00:18:35,052
<i>and talk to Mr. Reynaud.</i>

340
00:18:35,054 --> 00:18:36,620
Hi.

341
00:18:36,622 --> 00:18:38,023
Hi.
I'm sorry I'm late.

342
00:18:38,025 --> 00:18:39,858
Oh, hi.
No, no, no. No problem.

343
00:18:39,860 --> 00:18:41,892
- Hi. Hi.
- I had to go to Montpelier.

344
00:18:41,894 --> 00:18:44,529
- They were holding this book for me.
- Oh.

345
00:18:44,531 --> 00:18:46,697
- <i>Dog Poems.</i>
- Yes.

346
00:18:46,699 --> 00:18:48,766
Oh, this is
one of my favorites.

347
00:18:48,768 --> 00:18:52,137
One of my freshmen wrote a
poem about his dog dying.

348
00:18:52,139 --> 00:18:56,541
I thought if I could show them something literary
about animals we'd have some place to start.

349
00:18:56,543 --> 00:18:58,542
See what a good teacher
you are.

350
00:18:58,544 --> 00:19:00,678
I mean, what you do
for your students.

351
00:19:00,680 --> 00:19:02,813
They write reviews of us.
Look what we all do.

352
00:19:02,815 --> 00:19:04,882
Can I get a white wine,
please? Thank you.

353
00:19:04,884 --> 00:19:09,788
See, if it were my students, they would
be having sex with the dead dogs.

354
00:19:09,790 --> 00:19:12,090
- Or at least writing about it.
- That's disgusting.

355
00:19:12,092 --> 00:19:16,828
Yeah, but I can't say anything because I would
be repressing their creative self expression.

356
00:19:16,830 --> 00:19:19,231
So what <i>do</i> you say?

357
00:19:19,233 --> 00:19:20,965
I take the technical route.

358
00:19:20,967 --> 00:19:25,971
If you have a chicken in a suburban refrigerator...

359
00:19:25,973 --> 00:19:27,906
what's the texture like?

360
00:19:27,908 --> 00:19:30,242
What's the temperature?
What does it feel like?

361
00:19:30,244 --> 00:19:32,944
- Specificity? Specificity. Sure.
- Yeah.

362
00:19:32,946 --> 00:19:34,111
- Yeah.
- You make it seem so lascivious.

363
00:19:34,113 --> 00:19:38,183
That is a sexual harassment
lawsuit waiting to be filed.

364
00:19:38,185 --> 00:19:40,217
Yeah, tell me about it.
Yeah, yeah.

365
00:19:40,219 --> 00:19:42,620
So how's
Angela Argo doing?

366
00:19:42,622 --> 00:19:45,290
- Do we know what we'd like?
- Yes.

367
00:19:45,292 --> 00:19:46,657
I'll have the usual.

368
00:19:46,659 --> 00:19:49,860
Char-grilled steak sandwich, mashed
potatoes and a salad on the side.

369
00:19:49,862 --> 00:19:52,129
- Yes.
- And I will have the very same thing.

370
00:19:52,131 --> 00:19:53,264
- You got it.
- Thank you.

371
00:19:53,266 --> 00:19:54,666
Thank you.

372
00:19:54,668 --> 00:19:56,201
Why do you ask?
Cheers.

373
00:19:56,203 --> 00:19:59,006
- Ask what?
- About Angela Argo.

374
00:20:01,240 --> 00:20:03,641
I'm just curious
how her novel's going.

375
00:20:03,643 --> 00:20:06,744
Oh. Well, I have to say
it's surprisingly good.

376
00:20:06,746 --> 00:20:08,312
The stuff she wrote for me
was awful.

377
00:20:08,314 --> 00:20:09,981
Well...

378
00:20:09,983 --> 00:20:11,616
And she wrote a... a...

379
00:20:11,618 --> 00:20:13,821
a collection of poetry
for me that...

380
00:20:15,088 --> 00:20:18,023
I may be a bit prudish, but I
found it terribly obscene.

381
00:20:18,025 --> 00:20:20,090
Obscene?

382
00:20:20,092 --> 00:20:21,826
Yikes.

383
00:20:21,828 --> 00:20:22,961
Like how?

384
00:20:22,963 --> 00:20:25,900
Dramatic monologues
and dialogues

385
00:20:26,900 --> 00:20:30,769
about a phone sex worker,
Angela 911.

386
00:20:30,771 --> 00:20:32,870
Really?

387
00:20:32,872 --> 00:20:37,042
So Euston is now admitting
former phone sex workers?

388
00:20:37,044 --> 00:20:38,310
I don't know.

389
00:20:38,312 --> 00:20:41,245
But do you think
that she was actually...

390
00:20:41,247 --> 00:20:43,148
I don't know.
I don't want to know.

391
00:20:43,150 --> 00:20:44,815
- Hi. Thank you.
- Thank you.

392
00:20:44,817 --> 00:20:47,151
Thank you very much.
Thank you.

393
00:20:47,153 --> 00:20:50,088
It's very confusing, 'cause there
was also multiple references

394
00:20:50,090 --> 00:20:53,157
to the phone sex worker's
sexually abusive father.

395
00:20:53,159 --> 00:20:56,093
One time we had a conference and
she intimated they were true.

396
00:20:56,095 --> 00:20:58,196
I wonder if that's the reason
he killed himself.

397
00:20:58,198 --> 00:21:00,831
- He killed himself?
- Yeah.

398
00:21:00,833 --> 00:21:02,803
She never mentioned that.

399
00:21:03,736 --> 00:21:05,070
The end of
spring semester,

400
00:21:05,072 --> 00:21:08,305
I get a call from Betty
Hester at the library.

401
00:21:08,307 --> 00:21:10,108
Mother Hubbard.

402
00:21:10,110 --> 00:21:12,744
- That's mean.
- I'm s... I... I didn't say "old."

403
00:21:12,746 --> 00:21:14,346
- In any event...
- All right.

404
00:21:14,348 --> 00:21:16,715
she called to say
that Angela

405
00:21:16,717 --> 00:21:19,283
wanted to donate
a volume of her poems

406
00:21:19,285 --> 00:21:21,386
to the Euston library
as a gift.

407
00:21:21,388 --> 00:21:23,955
- Mm-hmm.
- So Betty reads some of these.

408
00:21:23,957 --> 00:21:26,090
And she is
totally freaked out.

409
00:21:26,092 --> 00:21:27,391
So what did you say?

410
00:21:27,393 --> 00:21:29,628
I told her, just catalog
the goddamn things.

411
00:21:29,630 --> 00:21:32,196
Nobody's ever gonna check
it out except Angela.

412
00:21:32,198 --> 00:21:33,935
Mmm.

413
00:22:11,170 --> 00:22:13,237
<i>"I'm the
father of four daughters.</i>

414
00:22:13,239 --> 00:22:16,242
<i>Three of them are sleeping. One
is awake and waiting for me.</i>

415
00:22:17,274 --> 00:22:19,843
<i>I keep thinking of her tiny breasts,
my fingers between her legs."</i>

416
00:22:19,845 --> 00:22:21,413
Ted?

417
00:22:21,415 --> 00:22:23,415
Can I help you
with something?

418
00:22:23,417 --> 00:22:25,820
Oh, no, I'm good.
Thank you. Thanks.

419
00:22:38,165 --> 00:22:40,764
- Hello.
- Oh.

420
00:22:40,766 --> 00:22:43,201
- So good to see you, Ted.
- Likewise.

421
00:22:43,203 --> 00:22:45,203
- Yeah, it's been ages.
- Yeah.

422
00:22:46,907 --> 00:22:50,011
- Too busy writing to read?
- I wish.

423
00:22:50,710 --> 00:22:52,843
Oh. <i>My Dog Tulip.</i>

424
00:22:52,845 --> 00:22:55,780
- Mmm.
- Oh. I don't think I know this one.

425
00:22:55,782 --> 00:22:57,348
Uh, Professor Moynahan
recommended it.

426
00:22:57,350 --> 00:23:00,185
- Oh, well, it must be good then.
- I think so, yes.

427
00:23:00,187 --> 00:23:01,953
- Okay, thanks.
- Ah-ah.

428
00:23:01,955 --> 00:23:04,191
- What about that one?
- Oh! I forgot.

429
00:23:05,191 --> 00:23:06,925
Oh, dear.

430
00:23:06,927 --> 00:23:09,761
- I believe I know this author.
- Really?

431
00:23:09,763 --> 00:23:12,030
- Yeah. Is she one of your students?
- Yeah, she is.

432
00:23:12,032 --> 00:23:14,866
Uh-huh.
Well, how fortunate for her.

433
00:23:14,868 --> 00:23:17,737
Okay.

434
00:23:18,839 --> 00:23:20,804
- Send my love to Sherrie.
- I will.

435
00:23:20,806 --> 00:23:23,009
- And to Ruby.
- Mm-hmm.

436
00:23:27,013 --> 00:23:29,949
- We're late.
- Ah, who cares?

437
00:23:30,950 --> 00:23:33,083
Oh, I have missed
these dinners,

438
00:23:33,085 --> 00:23:35,119
these gatherings.

439
00:23:35,121 --> 00:23:40,257
Lost souls pretending that they're
not dying of boredom and angst

440
00:23:40,259 --> 00:23:43,026
in some provincial outpost.

441
00:23:43,028 --> 00:23:45,362
Behave, or I'll take you
home before dessert.

442
00:23:45,364 --> 00:23:47,098
- Promise?
- Mmm.

443
00:23:47,100 --> 00:23:50,737
Ugh. I hope she doesn't
serve jam trifle again.

444
00:23:52,938 --> 00:23:55,743
Be nice.
And no English accents.

445
00:23:56,509 --> 00:23:58,076
Yes, Mum.

446
00:23:58,078 --> 00:23:59,276
It slipped out.

447
00:23:59,278 --> 00:24:02,981
- Can I interest you in some Marmite?
- Marmite? I love Marmite.

448
00:24:02,983 --> 00:24:05,849
Haven't had Marmite since
my <i>wunderjahr</i> at Oxford.

449
00:24:05,851 --> 00:24:07,851
- <i>Ah!</i>
- <i>Wunderjahr.</i>

450
00:24:07,853 --> 00:24:10,522
I am so glad you like it.
Most Americans don't.

451
00:24:10,524 --> 00:24:13,558
- Oh! Sherrie!
- Hello.

452
00:24:13,560 --> 00:24:15,126
How are you?

453
00:24:15,128 --> 00:24:17,561
Hello. How are you?

454
00:24:17,563 --> 00:24:19,330
- Hello.
- Hello.

455
00:24:19,332 --> 00:24:21,099
- Hi!
- Lovely to see you.

456
00:24:21,101 --> 00:24:24,334
Lovely to see you too.
Sir. How are you?

457
00:24:24,336 --> 00:24:26,236
Everyone.

458
00:24:26,238 --> 00:24:28,875
Can I interest you in some
Marmite hors d'oeuvres?

459
00:24:29,543 --> 00:24:31,542
I never say no
to Marmite.

460
00:24:31,544 --> 00:24:33,144
Unless, of course,
you're serving it...

461
00:24:33,146 --> 00:24:35,245
with steak and kidney pie.

462
00:24:37,984 --> 00:24:40,952
There he is.
Hello, Ted.

463
00:24:40,954 --> 00:24:42,453
Splendid of you
to come.

464
00:24:42,455 --> 00:24:45,189
- Something to wash that down with, old man?
- Yes, um...

465
00:24:45,191 --> 00:24:47,826
Vodka, please, on the rocks.
A double.

466
00:24:47,828 --> 00:24:49,526
Pellegrino, no ice, please.
Thank you.

467
00:24:49,528 --> 00:24:53,398
We were just talking about the
rigors of the creative pursuit.

468
00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:56,234
And now we can hear what our author in
residence has to say on the subject.

469
00:24:56,236 --> 00:24:59,036
How is your work going
these days?

470
00:24:59,038 --> 00:25:02,340
Well, sometimes fast,
sometimes slow.

471
00:25:02,342 --> 00:25:03,907
You know... Ah.

472
00:25:03,909 --> 00:25:06,077
The creative process
is very challenging.

473
00:25:06,079 --> 00:25:08,115
But rewarding,
when it's good.

474
00:25:11,217 --> 00:25:14,886
What are you working on? Or is talking
about one's writing verboten?

475
00:25:14,888 --> 00:25:17,254
Only to those who have yet
to read my previous work.

476
00:25:17,256 --> 00:25:20,958
It's on my nightstand. Scout's honor.
Third from the top.

477
00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:23,930
- Sure.
- You're working on another novel?

478
00:25:24,630 --> 00:25:26,296
Yes, um,

479
00:25:26,298 --> 00:25:29,002
but, actually, I'd rather
extol the virtues of Marmite.

480
00:25:31,204 --> 00:25:34,872
Don't let the sarcasm fool you.
He's very excited about it.

481
00:25:34,874 --> 00:25:39,109
What's it about? Oh, have you told us?
Sorry if I've forgotten.

482
00:25:39,111 --> 00:25:42,280
No, actually... No, I don't
think I did tell you.

483
00:25:42,282 --> 00:25:45,215
I don't think I told anyone,
not even my nearest and dearest.

484
00:25:45,217 --> 00:25:46,417
Writers
are a secretive bunch.

485
00:25:46,419 --> 00:25:50,221
- As if we're all just dying to steal their ideas.
- We are.

486
00:25:50,223 --> 00:25:52,956
What's the title? Throw us
a bread crumb. Come on.

487
00:25:52,958 --> 00:25:55,361
Tease us.
We do love to be teased.

488
00:26:00,367 --> 00:26:01,902
<i>Eggs.</i>

489
00:26:02,968 --> 00:26:04,871
It's called <i>Eggs.</i>

490
00:26:07,407 --> 00:26:09,506
What an interesting
title.

491
00:26:09,508 --> 00:26:11,009
- Well, yeah.
- Hmm.

492
00:26:11,011 --> 00:26:13,378
I thought it was
<i>The Black and the Black.</i>

493
00:26:13,380 --> 00:26:16,580
The wife's always the last to know, isn't she?

494
00:26:16,582 --> 00:26:19,117
- Well, I think they're both great titles.
- Thank you.

495
00:26:19,119 --> 00:26:23,253
Well, whatever it's called, I've got no doubt
it's gonna be another smashing success.

496
00:26:23,255 --> 00:26:25,622
- Absolutely.
- Good for us.

497
00:26:25,624 --> 00:26:27,391
- Yes! - Yes.
- Cheers!

498
00:26:27,393 --> 00:26:28,726
Cheers!

499
00:26:28,728 --> 00:26:32,496
So how do Euston's best and
brightest strike you this year?

500
00:26:32,498 --> 00:26:35,500
Well, I don't suppose
it'll come as a shock to say

501
00:26:35,502 --> 00:26:40,538
that each year's entering class seem to have
read less than last year's worst students.

502
00:26:40,540 --> 00:26:44,474
The high schools are definitely
slacking off on their Dryden and Pope.

503
00:26:44,476 --> 00:26:49,112
You know, I sort of had an
interesting thing happen the other day.

504
00:26:49,114 --> 00:26:51,416
It was in my
Intro to American Lit.

505
00:26:51,418 --> 00:26:53,451
We're doing Poe.

506
00:26:53,453 --> 00:26:57,054
So I thought I'd give them a little
bio, a little gossip really,

507
00:26:57,056 --> 00:27:00,058
to make things more immediate,
give it a personal touch.

508
00:27:00,060 --> 00:27:03,394
Well, that's what we've been reduced to...
fodder for the talk shows.

509
00:27:03,396 --> 00:27:06,997
Poe and his
13-year-old child bride cousin

510
00:27:06,999 --> 00:27:09,701
discussing their marital
arrangements with Ellen.

511
00:27:11,670 --> 00:27:13,603
I'm sure
everyone would tune in.

512
00:27:13,605 --> 00:27:16,006
They would.
They would though.

513
00:27:16,008 --> 00:27:19,510
S-So anyway, as I'm talking
about Poe's marriage,

514
00:27:19,512 --> 00:27:22,312
the entire class
gets quiet.

515
00:27:22,314 --> 00:27:24,715
And when I asked them
what the matter was,

516
00:27:24,717 --> 00:27:26,751
none of them
would answer.

517
00:27:26,753 --> 00:27:29,020
Until one young woman
says,

518
00:27:29,022 --> 00:27:31,589
"We've been studying
the work of a child molester?"

519
00:27:31,591 --> 00:27:33,690
Oh, you've gotta
be kidding.

520
00:27:33,692 --> 00:27:35,392
Poor Edgar Allan.

521
00:27:35,394 --> 00:27:36,694
That's fascinating.

522
00:27:36,696 --> 00:27:38,730
Have the rest of you
found this, um,

523
00:27:38,732 --> 00:27:42,199
heightened consciousness
about those issues?

524
00:27:42,201 --> 00:27:46,337
I never talk to a female student alone
in my office without the door wide open.

525
00:27:46,339 --> 00:27:48,473
Oh?

526
00:27:48,475 --> 00:27:51,208
And I keep a tape recorder in my
desk in case things get dicey.

527
00:27:51,210 --> 00:27:53,343
Last week we were
doing <i>Great Expectations,</i>

528
00:27:53,345 --> 00:27:55,545
and one of my students,
a big beefy jock,

529
00:27:55,547 --> 00:27:59,550
asked me if Dickens meant there
to be a homosexual thing

530
00:27:59,552 --> 00:28:01,351
between Pip
and Magwitch.

531
00:28:01,353 --> 00:28:03,454
He was definitely
trying to bait me.

532
00:28:03,456 --> 00:28:06,690
Maybe he was just looking for a
classically sanctioned way to come out.

533
00:28:06,692 --> 00:28:10,594
I told him I didn't think Dickens meant
us to read a gay subtext into the book

534
00:28:10,596 --> 00:28:14,165
and we should consider
what the writer had intended.

535
00:28:14,167 --> 00:28:16,067
Mmm.

536
00:28:16,069 --> 00:28:17,467
The next day,
a female student told me

537
00:28:17,469 --> 00:28:21,138
that the discussion had
made her feel very "unsafe."

538
00:28:21,140 --> 00:28:24,609
The way she said
that word, "unsafe,"

539
00:28:24,611 --> 00:28:25,843
gave me the chills.

540
00:28:25,845 --> 00:28:30,247
It's a perfectly ordinary word
with a perfectly valid meaning.

541
00:28:30,249 --> 00:28:32,516
So, Lauren, do these things
come up with you?

542
00:28:32,518 --> 00:28:35,119
Of course they come up.
I bring them up.

543
00:28:35,121 --> 00:28:39,657
I want the students to feel safe...
this word that Dave finds so chilling.

544
00:28:39,659 --> 00:28:43,461
I want the students to be able to come to
me if they are experiencing harassment

545
00:28:43,463 --> 00:28:45,163
or anything, really.

546
00:28:45,165 --> 00:28:47,697
I really take them
very seriously.

547
00:28:47,699 --> 00:28:50,100
- I have an idea.
- What's that, Ted?

548
00:28:50,102 --> 00:28:52,736
I think that we have been
giving in without a fight,

549
00:28:52,738 --> 00:28:56,607
that we have been knuckling under
to the most neurotic forces

550
00:28:56,609 --> 00:28:59,310
of repression and censorship.

551
00:28:59,312 --> 00:29:02,746
I think we need to help these
people get over their problems.

552
00:29:02,748 --> 00:29:07,084
We should desensitize them
the way the Scientologists do.

553
00:29:07,086 --> 00:29:11,155
Lock them in a room and shout dirty
words at them until they grow up.

554
00:29:11,157 --> 00:29:13,390
Shit, shit, shit!
Fuck, fuck, fuck!

555
00:29:13,392 --> 00:29:15,760
Cocksucker!
Motherfucker! Asshole!

556
00:29:15,762 --> 00:29:17,462
- Fuck, fuck, fuck.
- Okay...

557
00:29:17,464 --> 00:29:20,363
- Throw in a couple of "cunts" while you're at it.
- Oh!

558
00:29:20,365 --> 00:29:23,201
Just good, old,
time-tested Anglo-Saxonisms.

559
00:29:23,203 --> 00:29:25,770
And we will be doing
these people a favor.

560
00:29:25,772 --> 00:29:28,805
Emotionally, spiritually,
educationally.

561
00:29:28,807 --> 00:29:31,842
We'll be helping them grow up a lot
faster than if we just coddle them

562
00:29:31,844 --> 00:29:33,811
and indulge
every whim and neurosis.

563
00:29:33,813 --> 00:29:36,182
It just... Aaah!

564
00:29:43,523 --> 00:29:45,458
Ted's got Tourette's.

565
00:29:46,258 --> 00:29:48,859
Late onset adult Tourette's.

566
00:29:48,861 --> 00:29:50,828
It's a very rare
condition.

567
00:29:50,830 --> 00:29:53,330
Oh, good, dessert.

568
00:29:53,332 --> 00:29:56,402
I hope everyone has room
for a little jam trifle.

569
00:29:57,637 --> 00:29:59,206
Yum.

570
00:30:03,243 --> 00:30:06,577
"Late onset Tourette's"?

571
00:30:06,579 --> 00:30:09,914
- That's what...? What was that?
- I had to say something.

572
00:30:09,916 --> 00:30:13,451
My God, Ted,
what the hell got into you?

573
00:30:13,453 --> 00:30:15,586
"Throw in
a couple of ‘cunts'"?

574
00:30:15,588 --> 00:30:20,157
I kept expecting your head to swivel
around and for you to projectile vomit.

575
00:30:20,159 --> 00:30:25,428
I don't know. I think it was the whole Poe
on <i>Ellen</i> thing that pushed me over the edge.

576
00:30:25,430 --> 00:30:27,465
- Oh, you're driving.
- Yes, I'm driving.

577
00:30:27,467 --> 00:30:30,534
God, what a bunch
of spineless idiots.

578
00:30:31,438 --> 00:30:34,338
Imagine my father
seeing me wind up here.

579
00:30:34,340 --> 00:30:37,507
He would've staged a hunger
strike to shut this place down.

580
00:30:37,509 --> 00:30:39,709
Ugh.

581
00:30:39,711 --> 00:30:43,246
Magda's got a huge crush on you, you know.

582
00:30:43,248 --> 00:30:45,483
Nobody gets a crush on me
anymore.

583
00:30:45,485 --> 00:30:47,154
I'm too old.

584
00:30:49,354 --> 00:30:53,256
<i>"He says, ‘Is this 859-6732?</i>

585
00:30:53,258 --> 00:30:55,592
<i>Is this Angela 911?'</i>

586
00:30:55,594 --> 00:30:58,598
<i>I say, ‘What would you
like to do tonight?'</i>

587
00:31:00,632 --> 00:31:03,801
<i>He says, ‘I'm coming
up to you from behind.</i>

588
00:31:03,803 --> 00:31:05,770
<i>My hand is over your mouth.</i>

589
00:31:05,772 --> 00:31:09,573
<i>I'm bending you over a trash
can, making you open your legs.</i>

590
00:31:09,575 --> 00:31:11,274
<i>You push your ass
against me...'"</i>

591
00:31:11,276 --> 00:31:12,510
- Ted?
- Yeah.

592
00:31:12,512 --> 00:31:15,215
- I'm going to bed.
- Okay. I'll be up in a bit.

593
00:31:20,553 --> 00:31:23,687
<i>"Just then, Eddie
really started to hate mirrors.</i>

594
00:31:23,689 --> 00:31:27,625
Eddie was glad there were no mirrors
on the bottom of the toilet bowls.

595
00:31:27,627 --> 00:31:31,262
He would've had to see his
fat, pale, jellyfish face..."

596
00:31:31,264 --> 00:31:33,763
<i>"He says, ‘Is this Angela 911?'</i>

597
00:31:33,765 --> 00:31:36,701
<i>I say, ‘What would you
like to do tonight?'</i>

598
00:31:36,703 --> 00:31:38,936
<i>He says,
‘Listen to what I'm doing.</i>

599
00:31:38,938 --> 00:31:43,307
<i>I'm pulling up your skirt,
slapping your thighs just lightly.</i>

600
00:31:43,309 --> 00:31:45,810
<i>You feel my hardness
straining to find release.</i>

601
00:31:45,812 --> 00:31:46,910
<i>You unbutton my...'"</i>

602
00:31:46,912 --> 00:31:48,812
- Coach.
- Yeah?

603
00:31:48,814 --> 00:31:50,348
That's it.

604
00:31:50,350 --> 00:31:52,949
It's great.
Really.

605
00:31:52,951 --> 00:31:54,952
- Very brave work, Carlos.
- Thank you.

606
00:31:54,954 --> 00:31:56,520
Good.

607
00:31:56,522 --> 00:31:58,822
What did everyone
think?

608
00:32:11,004 --> 00:32:12,770
- Hey.
- Hey.

609
00:32:12,772 --> 00:32:15,339
Thanks
for what you said.

610
00:32:15,341 --> 00:32:17,007
Oh, yeah, sure.
No sweat.

611
00:32:17,009 --> 00:32:18,443
At least somebody
understands me.

612
00:32:18,445 --> 00:32:21,811
That part where the guy goes on and
on about the dog, that was amazing.

613
00:32:21,813 --> 00:32:22,980
- Doofy.
- Yes. Right.

614
00:32:22,982 --> 00:32:24,881
Doofy.

615
00:32:24,883 --> 00:32:26,850
You walkin'
across the quad?

616
00:32:26,852 --> 00:32:31,022
I got, like, a half an hour before
Western Lit. We could grab a coffee.

617
00:32:31,024 --> 00:32:33,357
I, uh... I can't.
I've, um...

618
00:32:33,359 --> 00:32:36,494
I gotta see what he thought about my
chapter. I'm really nervous about it.

619
00:32:36,496 --> 00:32:39,030
I think
he probably hated it.

620
00:32:39,032 --> 00:32:41,032
- Well, good luck.
- Thanks.

621
00:32:41,034 --> 00:32:43,270
- I'll see you around.
- All right.

622
00:32:46,906 --> 00:32:49,309
Looks like
you made his day.

623
00:32:50,342 --> 00:32:51,975
Well, I was
just telling the truth.

624
00:32:51,977 --> 00:32:53,910
- His story wasn't bad.
- Yeah.

625
00:32:53,912 --> 00:32:59,817
And thank you for not letting another
class devolve into civil war.

626
00:32:59,819 --> 00:33:02,386
Well, don't thank me too fast.
Nothing's for free, you know.

627
00:33:02,388 --> 00:33:05,826
Oh? What's it gonna cost me?

628
00:33:06,726 --> 00:33:09,459
Time. Hard time.

629
00:33:09,461 --> 00:33:12,530
This one...
really sucks.

630
00:33:12,532 --> 00:33:14,999
Great. I can't wait to read it.

631
00:33:15,001 --> 00:33:17,100
Uh, it's from
the mother's perspective,

632
00:33:17,102 --> 00:33:18,703
and it's about
when the parents first meet.

633
00:33:18,705 --> 00:33:23,541
I know I've been giving you so much stuff,
so if it's too much, just let me know.

634
00:33:23,543 --> 00:33:25,846
No, no, it's my pleasure.
Really. I, um...

635
00:33:27,813 --> 00:33:31,682
Uh, just don't be upset with me if it takes
me, you know, a few days to read it.

636
00:33:31,684 --> 00:33:33,717
- Yeah, yeah. No rush.
- Okay.

637
00:33:33,719 --> 00:33:35,686
I'll just be
waiting by the phone.

638
00:33:37,556 --> 00:33:39,790
- All right.
- All right, thanks. I'll see ya.

639
00:33:39,792 --> 00:33:41,328
All right.
See ya.

640
00:33:45,965 --> 00:33:47,997
<i>"It was a
morning like any other.</i>

641
00:33:47,999 --> 00:33:49,465
<i>The alarm went off.</i>

642
00:33:49,467 --> 00:33:53,439
<i>But when I tried to stand, the room
spun until it threw me onto the floor.</i>

643
00:34:00,112 --> 00:34:03,650
<i>I was terrified. I called a
cab and went to the hospital.</i>

644
00:34:05,450 --> 00:34:09,854
<i>The doctor looked in my eyes, my throat,
and said I had an ear infection.</i>

645
00:34:09,856 --> 00:34:11,455
<i>Nothing to worry about.</i>

646
00:34:11,457 --> 00:34:15,459
<i>But as soon as I stood up to leave, I
collapsed again on the examining room floor.</i>

647
00:34:15,461 --> 00:34:17,595
<i>Nurses ran in.</i>

648
00:34:17,597 --> 00:34:20,600
<i>I woke up as the young doctor
was taking my pulse."</i>

649
00:34:21,566 --> 00:34:23,369
Are you all right?

650
00:34:25,671 --> 00:34:28,742
<i>"Later. We're married now."</i>

651
00:34:34,747 --> 00:34:36,817
How the hell
could she have known that?

652
00:34:37,983 --> 00:34:39,649
<i>Hey, I read your chapter.</i>

653
00:34:39,651 --> 00:34:41,818
- <i>Already? Wow.</i>
- Yeah.

654
00:34:41,820 --> 00:34:44,722
- <i>I'm flattered.</i>
- I'm just not so sure that you need it.

655
00:34:44,724 --> 00:34:48,492
You know, the parents meeting,
how they meet and...

656
00:34:48,494 --> 00:34:52,562
It just seems a little bit...
extraneous to me.

657
00:34:52,564 --> 00:34:55,432
<i>The reader needs to hear it
for what's coming later.</i>

658
00:34:55,434 --> 00:34:59,570
But how did you come up with the whole
thing, anyway? Um, I'm curious.

659
00:34:59,572 --> 00:35:02,606
I mean,
the earache and the...

660
00:35:02,608 --> 00:35:05,843
the falling down
and the meeting in the hospital.

661
00:35:05,845 --> 00:35:08,044
<i>It happened to someone
I knew in high school.</i>

662
00:35:08,046 --> 00:35:09,512
- <i>Why?</i>
- Um...

663
00:35:09,514 --> 00:35:11,481
<i>You sound upset.
Is something wrong?</i>

664
00:35:11,483 --> 00:35:13,483
Oh, no. Oh, no.
Um, no.

665
00:35:13,485 --> 00:35:15,919
But we'll talk about it
tomorrow. Okay.

666
00:35:15,921 --> 00:35:17,454
Okay. Bye-bye.

667
00:35:17,456 --> 00:35:18,724
Who was that?

668
00:35:19,791 --> 00:35:20,791
Magda.

669
00:35:20,793 --> 00:35:23,193
You're leading her on,
you know.

670
00:35:23,195 --> 00:35:26,664
She won't appreciate it
in the end.

671
00:35:26,666 --> 00:35:28,968
- Will you help me with the groceries?
- Of course.

672
00:35:29,968 --> 00:35:32,903
I would love to. Yes.

673
00:35:44,851 --> 00:35:47,917
Danny is, uh...
He's doing just wonderfully.

674
00:35:47,919 --> 00:35:51,689
His narrative skills are
growing better by the day,

675
00:35:51,691 --> 00:35:54,925
and I must say he has a
very vivid imagination.

676
00:35:54,927 --> 00:35:58,495
Well, he's always loved creative writing.
Especially about animals.

677
00:35:58,497 --> 00:36:00,030
Yeah, yeah...

678
00:36:00,032 --> 00:36:02,233
Excuse me. Is...
Is this Professor Swenson?

679
00:36:02,235 --> 00:36:05,102
- Yes.
- Our Angela is in your class.

680
00:36:05,104 --> 00:36:07,104
Oh, yes, of course.
Yes.

681
00:36:07,106 --> 00:36:10,740
Well, I'll let you go. I just wanted
to see, in general, how he was doing.

682
00:36:10,742 --> 00:36:13,977
- And thank you for your inspiration.
- Okay. Thank you.

683
00:36:13,979 --> 00:36:15,245
- Hi.
- Hi.

684
00:36:15,247 --> 00:36:17,146
Amy.
I'm sorry we're late.

685
00:36:17,148 --> 00:36:19,048
We left Jersey
at 5:30 this morning

686
00:36:19,050 --> 00:36:21,117
so we didn't have to pay
for another night's motel.

687
00:36:21,119 --> 00:36:22,318
Sure. Okay.

688
00:36:22,320 --> 00:36:25,055
That's a little more information
than the professor needs.

689
00:36:25,057 --> 00:36:26,756
- Mark.
- Hi, Mark. How are you?

690
00:36:26,758 --> 00:36:28,124
- Good. Good.
- Please have a seat.

691
00:36:28,126 --> 00:36:29,496
Thank you.

692
00:36:30,530 --> 00:36:32,997
So, how is Angela doing?

693
00:36:32,999 --> 00:36:35,698
Uh, she told us
that we must come see you,

694
00:36:35,700 --> 00:36:38,736
that you were the only teacher that would
have anything nice to say about her.

695
00:36:38,738 --> 00:36:41,571
Well, I'm sure you'll find
that that is not true.

696
00:36:41,573 --> 00:36:45,675
No, she talks about your class
all the time. You're, like, her hero.

697
00:36:45,677 --> 00:36:48,044
She thinks you're the greatest
writer that ever lived.

698
00:36:48,046 --> 00:36:51,814
Well, that's very flattering.
It's always good to have a fan.

699
00:36:51,816 --> 00:36:53,983
Especially
such a talented one.

700
00:36:53,985 --> 00:36:57,153
Oh, w-well, sh-she's
always wanted to be a writer.

701
00:36:57,155 --> 00:37:00,189
You know, I remember when she started.
I bought her this computer.

702
00:37:00,191 --> 00:37:03,260
And she used to print up
this little family newspaper.

703
00:37:03,262 --> 00:37:08,032
Uh, stuff like how long she'd have to wait in
the morning to get into the bathroom, you know.

704
00:37:08,034 --> 00:37:09,769
Hmm.

705
00:37:10,769 --> 00:37:13,169
Is, um,
something the matter?

706
00:37:13,171 --> 00:37:15,972
Oh, no, no. I-I-I...

707
00:37:15,974 --> 00:37:17,441
She told... It's just...

708
00:37:17,443 --> 00:37:21,245
I had no idea that her literary
aspirations went back to early childhood.

709
00:37:21,247 --> 00:37:25,149
Oh, yeah, she's always had a way
with words, that one, you know.

710
00:37:26,852 --> 00:37:28,586
<i>That was your
stepfather, right?</i>

711
00:37:28,588 --> 00:37:30,653
Of course. Why?

712
00:37:30,655 --> 00:37:32,823
Oh, no,
I was just, um...

713
00:37:32,825 --> 00:37:35,925
I was curious because
the way he was talking,

714
00:37:35,927 --> 00:37:39,932
he... he spoke as though he had
known you your whole life.

715
00:37:41,133 --> 00:37:44,200
Since you were,
like, a baby.

716
00:37:44,202 --> 00:37:46,035
Oh, well, he did.

717
00:37:46,037 --> 00:37:50,073
Um, he lived next door to us
my whole life, him and his wife.

718
00:37:50,075 --> 00:37:52,675
And then...

719
00:37:52,677 --> 00:37:56,113
after my dad killed himself,
about a year after,

720
00:37:56,115 --> 00:37:58,816
him and his wife split up
and he married my mom.

721
00:37:58,818 --> 00:38:00,883
It was
a big neighborhood scandal.

722
00:38:00,885 --> 00:38:02,121
Oh.

723
00:38:05,758 --> 00:38:08,892
You know, I... I did lie
about something though.

724
00:38:08,894 --> 00:38:12,229
Um, my dad...
wasn't crazy.

725
00:38:12,231 --> 00:38:14,834
He was...
He was sick.

726
00:38:15,367 --> 00:38:17,834
He had emphysema.

727
00:38:17,836 --> 00:38:19,970
Oh.

728
00:38:19,972 --> 00:38:22,205
I'm sorry.

729
00:38:22,207 --> 00:38:23,841
Thanks.

730
00:38:23,843 --> 00:38:27,847
I remember this, um, time
he took me grocery shopping,

731
00:38:29,247 --> 00:38:33,651
and... he got so winded
he was wheezing and stuff.

732
00:38:33,653 --> 00:38:35,251
He had to sit down.

733
00:38:35,253 --> 00:38:39,191
And then I saw the checkout guy,
who I thought was really cute...

734
00:38:41,126 --> 00:38:44,597
I saw him roll his eyes at the
girl that was bagging groceries.

735
00:38:46,698 --> 00:38:49,735
And...
I was embarrassed.

736
00:38:50,869 --> 00:38:53,003
And ever since
he killed himself,

737
00:38:53,005 --> 00:38:56,305
I think about that...
every day,

738
00:38:56,307 --> 00:38:59,646
and I feel so guilty.

739
00:39:03,682 --> 00:39:05,885
Why was I so mad at him?

740
00:39:08,354 --> 00:39:09,889
But you weren't.

741
00:39:11,856 --> 00:39:14,390
You weren't mad at him.

742
00:39:14,392 --> 00:39:17,760
You were angry
at the situation.

743
00:39:17,762 --> 00:39:21,967
You were angry because
life is... cruel and unfair.

744
00:39:25,271 --> 00:39:27,907
Perfectly normal.

745
00:39:35,347 --> 00:39:36,914
- It was crooked.
- Thanks.

746
00:39:36,916 --> 00:39:38,785
- Sorry.
- Yeah.

747
00:39:44,256 --> 00:39:47,191
<i>"Mr. Reynaud looked closely.</i>

748
00:39:47,193 --> 00:39:50,160
<i>His voice was calm, full of
compassion and tenderness</i>

749
00:39:50,162 --> 00:39:52,866
<i>as he held the damaged egg
up to the light.</i>

750
00:39:56,468 --> 00:39:58,334
<i>I started to cry.</i>

751
00:39:58,336 --> 00:40:02,740
<i>‘They're all dead and it's
my fault,' I said to him.</i>

752
00:40:02,742 --> 00:40:04,941
<i>They were supposed to hatch
ten days ago.</i>

753
00:40:04,943 --> 00:40:08,814
<i>I knew something was wrong, but I didn't
know what to do, so I did nothing.</i>

754
00:40:10,416 --> 00:40:12,850
<i>‘Don't blame yourself,'
he said,</i>

755
00:40:12,852 --> 00:40:15,155
<i>soothing me
with his gentle touch.</i>

756
00:40:17,155 --> 00:40:18,155
<i>‘Don't cry.'</i>

757
00:40:18,157 --> 00:40:22,294
<i>He wiped my tears,
his fingers caressing my face,</i>

758
00:40:23,394 --> 00:40:25,461
<i>our bodies melting together,</i>

759
00:40:25,463 --> 00:40:27,833
<i>our lips, our tongues.</i>

760
00:40:40,378 --> 00:40:43,981
<i>As his hand slipped under my jeans,
I made a sound so low in my throat</i>

761
00:40:43,983 --> 00:40:46,086
<i>that even the unborn chicks
must have heard me."</i>

762
00:41:11,376 --> 00:41:13,376
<i>Angela Argo here.</i>

763
00:41:13,378 --> 00:41:15,881
<i>Hey, give me that,
you jerk-off. Stop.</i>

764
00:41:48,613 --> 00:41:50,048
Hi.

765
00:41:52,017 --> 00:41:53,983
You hated it,
didn't you?

766
00:41:53,985 --> 00:41:55,788
That's why
you didn't call.

767
00:41:56,354 --> 00:41:57,988
No.

768
00:41:57,990 --> 00:42:00,860
Actually,
I quite admired it.

769
00:42:01,459 --> 00:42:02,593
- Really?
- Yeah.

770
00:42:02,595 --> 00:42:04,494
'Cause
it was like...

771
00:42:04,496 --> 00:42:06,195
- What?
- I don't know.

772
00:42:06,197 --> 00:42:08,865
It was weird, I guess, knowing
you were reading those pages.

773
00:42:08,867 --> 00:42:12,336
They were really intimate, and I was
so nervous I didn't sleep all night.

774
00:42:12,338 --> 00:42:16,073
Angela, I'm a professor
of literature.

775
00:42:16,075 --> 00:42:19,475
I mean, a little
eroticism doesn't frighten me.

776
00:42:19,477 --> 00:42:21,077
Good.

777
00:42:21,079 --> 00:42:23,046
'Cause... now I can breathe.

778
00:42:23,048 --> 00:42:24,513
I was just, you know...

779
00:42:24,515 --> 00:42:28,952
I was imagining you getting home and
getting ready for bed or eating dinner

780
00:42:28,954 --> 00:42:34,026
and knowing you were reading those pages and
wondering if you were like, you know...

781
00:42:36,494 --> 00:42:38,197
You know.

782
00:42:41,499 --> 00:42:44,468
Anyway, I'm just really glad you liked it.
That's great.

783
00:42:44,470 --> 00:42:48,107
Um, sorry to bother you
without an appointment.

784
00:42:50,008 --> 00:42:51,977
When do I get more?

785
00:42:53,912 --> 00:42:58,080
Um, well, at this point,
probably never.

786
00:42:58,082 --> 00:43:00,182
Yeah, well,
writers block

787
00:43:00,184 --> 00:43:02,619
gets the best of us
sometimes, doesn't it?

788
00:43:02,621 --> 00:43:04,521
No, it's not that.

789
00:43:04,523 --> 00:43:07,658
My hard drive just crashed, so
I've gotta get a new computer.

790
00:43:07,660 --> 00:43:10,593
Oh. Sorry to hear that.

791
00:43:10,595 --> 00:43:12,431
Yeah.

792
00:43:13,631 --> 00:43:15,097
Hey, listen.

793
00:43:15,099 --> 00:43:17,466
Maybe this is
a stupid idea, um...

794
00:43:17,468 --> 00:43:20,437
And you can absolutely say no.
In fact, I expect you to say no.

795
00:43:20,439 --> 00:43:23,273
But I just really
need a ride to Burlington.

796
00:43:23,275 --> 00:43:26,008
My stepdad said I could buy a new
computer on his credit card.

797
00:43:26,010 --> 00:43:29,379
I want to buy it in person, because last time
I bought it online and it was defective,

798
00:43:29,381 --> 00:43:32,215
and then returning it
was a total nightmare.

799
00:43:32,217 --> 00:43:35,519
Yeah, um, look,
it's not impossible.

800
00:43:35,521 --> 00:43:38,057
But, um, I...

801
00:43:40,224 --> 00:43:42,459
When I'm not here,
I'm writing, so...

802
00:43:42,461 --> 00:43:44,995
I don't know that it will...

803
00:43:44,997 --> 00:43:46,296
Right. I'm sorry.
Yeah.

804
00:43:46,298 --> 00:43:47,433
Um...

805
00:43:49,034 --> 00:43:51,271
I figured that was why
you'd say no.

806
00:43:52,403 --> 00:43:54,570
Well, can't your boyfriend
drive you, or...

807
00:43:54,572 --> 00:43:56,174
I don't have
a boyfriend.

808
00:43:57,242 --> 00:43:59,041
Ah.

809
00:43:59,043 --> 00:44:01,311
Well, I thought you...
Yeah.

810
00:44:01,313 --> 00:44:05,318
It's no big deal. I'll just put it
on the shelf for a little while.

811
00:44:06,485 --> 00:44:10,720
Probably not such a bad idea anyway.

812
00:44:10,722 --> 00:44:12,991
- Thanks again.
- All right.

813
00:44:17,329 --> 00:44:19,265
What about tomorrow
at 10:00?

814
00:44:22,568 --> 00:44:24,033
Really?

815
00:44:24,035 --> 00:44:25,769
Yeah. Yeah.

816
00:44:25,771 --> 00:44:28,405
Oh, my God. Thank you so much.
Thank you.

817
00:44:28,407 --> 00:44:30,539
That would be great.

818
00:44:30,541 --> 00:44:31,807
Um, yeah.

819
00:44:31,809 --> 00:44:34,477
I live in Hughes. Do you wanna
pick me up outside of my dorm?

820
00:44:34,479 --> 00:44:36,445
- Yeah, perfect. We'll just go...
- Great.

821
00:44:36,447 --> 00:44:40,117
We'll go, we'll do it quickly,
and then, uh, it'll be done.

822
00:44:40,119 --> 00:44:41,417
- Okay?
- Perfect.

823
00:44:41,419 --> 00:44:43,153
- All right, great.
- Thank you so much.

824
00:44:43,155 --> 00:44:44,990
- See ya.
- We'll see you tomorrow.

825
00:45:12,517 --> 00:45:15,519
So have you decided what your
major's going to be yet, or...

826
00:45:15,521 --> 00:45:18,120
Well, I have till
the end of the year to declare,

827
00:45:18,122 --> 00:45:20,057
but I was thinking
creative writing.

828
00:45:20,059 --> 00:45:21,624
Mm-hmm.

829
00:45:21,626 --> 00:45:24,260
Unless you think I should
major in something else.

830
00:45:24,262 --> 00:45:27,530
No, no. I think... No, I
think it's a great idea.

831
00:45:27,532 --> 00:45:29,432
No, I-I, um...

832
00:45:29,434 --> 00:45:32,635
I just didn't want to assume that
that was what you wanted to do.

833
00:45:32,637 --> 00:45:34,403
Good.

834
00:45:34,405 --> 00:45:37,274
Because writing is really the
only thing that interests me.

835
00:45:37,276 --> 00:45:38,541
It's all I care about,
really.

836
00:45:38,543 --> 00:45:42,345
If I wake up that day and I'm
writing, then I'm in a good mood.

837
00:45:42,347 --> 00:45:43,847
I'm happy.

838
00:45:43,849 --> 00:45:45,584
I know what you mean.

839
00:45:46,785 --> 00:45:48,684
- It's better than anything.
- Yeah.

840
00:45:48,686 --> 00:45:50,820
It's better than sex.

841
00:45:50,822 --> 00:45:53,122
Well...

842
00:45:53,124 --> 00:45:56,094
- Maybe not that.
- Maybe not that, yeah, but...

843
00:46:07,171 --> 00:46:08,872
No, no. I don't want
external speakers.

844
00:46:08,874 --> 00:46:11,874
I just need to make sure it has the
new Intel core i5 and i7 processors.

845
00:46:11,876 --> 00:46:13,843
- Absolutely.
- Okay.

846
00:46:13,845 --> 00:46:15,711
And I don't want
an in-store service plan

847
00:46:15,713 --> 00:46:18,314
because it never breaks
before that expires anyway.

848
00:46:18,316 --> 00:46:21,420
Your daughter
is very charming.

849
00:46:37,468 --> 00:46:40,169
That was easy. Everything
should be that easy.

850
00:46:40,171 --> 00:46:41,905
Thank you.

851
00:46:41,907 --> 00:46:45,343
It's just one writer
helping another writer.

852
00:46:45,910 --> 00:46:47,613
Thanks.

853
00:46:56,255 --> 00:46:57,787
- What...
- No. Sorry. Go ahead.

854
00:46:57,789 --> 00:47:00,222
No, you...
Go ahead. Choose.

855
00:47:00,224 --> 00:47:01,358
- Yeah?
- Yeah.

856
00:47:01,360 --> 00:47:02,292
Okay.

857
00:47:18,943 --> 00:47:20,544
All righty.

858
00:47:20,546 --> 00:47:22,312
All right.

859
00:47:22,314 --> 00:47:24,613
Um, you wouldn't be willing,
by any chance,

860
00:47:24,615 --> 00:47:27,617
to help me carry this stuff
up to my room, would you?

861
00:47:27,619 --> 00:47:29,785
Or help set it up?

862
00:47:29,787 --> 00:47:33,657
I understand if you have to get going.
I've taken up enough of your day already.

863
00:47:33,659 --> 00:47:36,792
Actually, I don't think I'd be
much help setting up a computer.

864
00:47:36,794 --> 00:47:38,827
My wife
had to set mine up.

865
00:47:38,829 --> 00:47:41,798
I'm, like, totally useless.

866
00:47:41,800 --> 00:47:43,499
- So...
- Well, that's cool.

867
00:47:43,501 --> 00:47:44,968
- I can probably do it.
- Okay.

868
00:47:44,970 --> 00:47:47,206
You can just be
moral support.

869
00:48:06,390 --> 00:48:08,658
Did you do
these drawings?

870
00:48:08,660 --> 00:48:10,593
Um, yeah.
Mostly.

871
00:48:10,595 --> 00:48:13,463
- Very good.
- Thanks. I've been doing it forever.

872
00:48:13,465 --> 00:48:15,999
I just kind of pass the time
that way. You know?

873
00:48:16,001 --> 00:48:18,468
Impressive.

874
00:48:18,470 --> 00:48:20,537
- I think we got it!
- Oh!

875
00:48:20,539 --> 00:48:23,472
Putting together my last
computer was, like, total hell.

876
00:48:23,474 --> 00:48:25,475
You must be
my good luck charm.

877
00:48:25,477 --> 00:48:27,443
Well, I'm glad to hear it.

878
00:48:27,445 --> 00:48:30,713
Hey, um, let me print out
the new pages for you.

879
00:48:36,988 --> 00:48:38,657
Son of a bitch.

880
00:48:41,492 --> 00:48:43,461
Shit. Shit!

881
00:48:44,463 --> 00:48:47,466
- Uh, the paper's jammed.
- Yeah, no shit.

882
00:48:48,834 --> 00:48:50,267
Sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.

883
00:48:50,269 --> 00:48:54,336
I just... I really wanted to give you
these pages before you went a-and...

884
00:48:54,338 --> 00:48:56,405
Don't worry about it.
You know what?

885
00:48:56,407 --> 00:48:59,475
Just e-mail them to me,
'cause I really should go.

886
00:48:59,477 --> 00:49:02,879
Sometimes it jams. Let me just
try this one other thing. Okay?

887
00:49:04,816 --> 00:49:07,316
Shit! Shit.

888
00:49:07,318 --> 00:49:09,554
- Okay, all right...
- No, it's...

889
00:49:10,521 --> 00:49:12,756
Relax, relax.
It's okay. It's not...

890
00:49:12,758 --> 00:49:15,595
- It's so...
- It's okay. It's okay.

891
00:49:16,762 --> 00:49:18,861
Hey.
It's all right.

892
00:49:18,863 --> 00:49:20,432
Don't...

893
00:50:42,447 --> 00:50:43,646
Ow!

894
00:50:43,648 --> 00:50:46,615
- Oh, my God! What was that?
- I don't know.

895
00:50:46,617 --> 00:50:49,688
Just heard that through my skull.

896
00:50:50,588 --> 00:50:53,555
Sorry.
I think I broke a tooth.

897
00:50:53,557 --> 00:50:55,725
- Are you okay?
- I don't know. Yeah.

898
00:50:58,997 --> 00:51:02,064
I think I lost a filling or something.

899
00:51:02,066 --> 00:51:04,466
That's not all you lost.

900
00:51:04,468 --> 00:51:06,836
- Oh, yes. I'm sorry.
- Don't worry about it.

901
00:51:06,838 --> 00:51:10,840
Hey, um, let's...
let's try this again.

902
00:51:10,842 --> 00:51:13,008
- Okay, well, I'm not so sure I'm...
- No, no, no, no.

903
00:51:13,010 --> 00:51:14,577
- What?
- No, not that.

904
00:51:14,579 --> 00:51:17,180
- I was gonna say my...
- Oh!

905
00:51:17,182 --> 00:51:19,418
- pages, you know.
- Oh, ok... okay.

906
00:51:20,184 --> 00:51:22,919
Um, hey, we never
locked your door.

907
00:51:22,921 --> 00:51:26,021
I locked it when we came in.

908
00:51:26,023 --> 00:51:28,024
- Oh.
- Whoa, I think we got it.

909
00:51:28,026 --> 00:51:29,928
Um...

910
00:51:31,463 --> 00:51:33,562
Um, do you have a, um...

911
00:51:33,564 --> 00:51:35,934
- Yeah, there's a, uh...
- Uh, what do you call it? Yeah.

912
00:51:40,171 --> 00:51:41,706
Okay.

913
00:51:42,907 --> 00:51:45,041
Bingo!

914
00:51:45,043 --> 00:51:47,075
- We shook it loose.
- All right.

915
00:51:47,077 --> 00:51:49,611
We did
some kind of voodoo.

916
00:51:49,613 --> 00:51:50,579
Yeah.

917
00:51:50,581 --> 00:51:52,649
I'm very sorry about...

918
00:51:52,651 --> 00:51:54,684
Here.

919
00:51:54,686 --> 00:51:56,019
Oh.

920
00:51:56,021 --> 00:51:57,519
The new chapter.

921
00:51:57,521 --> 00:51:59,055
Ah, fantastic.

922
00:51:59,057 --> 00:52:01,825
Okay, I'll read it
as soon as I can.

923
00:52:01,827 --> 00:52:02,928
Great.

924
00:52:04,796 --> 00:52:07,796
Look, we shouldn't really
tell anybody about this. Right?

925
00:52:07,798 --> 00:52:11,100
I mean, it'll cause
a terrible scandal and...

926
00:52:11,102 --> 00:52:13,535
Right, like I'm
gonna tell anyone.

927
00:52:13,537 --> 00:52:16,573
Like I want to get us both
kicked out of Euston.

928
00:52:16,575 --> 00:52:18,774
- Don't worry. This didn't happen.
- Yeah, all right. Okay.

929
00:52:18,776 --> 00:52:21,711
- At least not yet.
- Okay. All right.

930
00:52:21,713 --> 00:52:23,812
Okay.

931
00:52:23,814 --> 00:52:25,180
All right.

932
00:52:25,182 --> 00:52:27,552
Um, okay.

933
00:52:31,856 --> 00:52:33,691
Okay, um...

934
00:52:51,510 --> 00:52:53,209
- Ah, Claris. Hi.
- Hi, Professor Swenson.

935
00:52:53,211 --> 00:52:54,843
- How are you?
- Good. How are you?

936
00:52:54,845 --> 00:52:57,680
- Good, good, good. I'll see you in class.
- Yeah.

937
00:52:57,682 --> 00:52:59,651
- See you there.
- All right. Okay.

938
00:53:23,909 --> 00:53:26,744
Oh, goody! You're home.

939
00:53:27,711 --> 00:53:29,945
I can't decide.
What would you like?

940
00:53:29,947 --> 00:53:32,881
Uh, I don't know.
That's a tough one.

941
00:53:32,883 --> 00:53:35,653
Maybe roll back the clock. How 'bout that?

942
00:53:37,756 --> 00:53:40,222
For dinner, silly.

943
00:53:40,224 --> 00:53:42,760
Uh, how about
some oatmeal?

944
00:53:44,996 --> 00:53:46,930
I broke that tooth today.

945
00:53:46,932 --> 00:53:48,932
- Oh, no.
- Yeah.

946
00:53:48,934 --> 00:53:51,233
How'd you do that?

947
00:53:51,235 --> 00:53:54,137
- On an olive.
- An olive?

948
00:53:54,139 --> 00:53:57,039
At Euston Commons?
Sounds exotic.

949
00:53:57,041 --> 00:53:59,108
No, I... I...

950
00:53:59,110 --> 00:54:02,345
I had this craving, so I went
over to the Minit Mart quickly,

951
00:54:02,347 --> 00:54:04,981
and I, um...

952
00:54:04,983 --> 00:54:08,651
I bought a whole jar and I-I ate
practically the whole thing.

953
00:54:08,653 --> 00:54:11,588
You know how you take... you put,
like, the pits inside of your mouth,

954
00:54:11,590 --> 00:54:13,021
and then I...
which I do...

955
00:54:13,023 --> 00:54:14,923
and then I bit on it,
and...

956
00:54:14,925 --> 00:54:16,794
- Stupid.
- Maybe you're pregnant.

957
00:54:17,829 --> 00:54:19,595
What? What?

958
00:54:19,597 --> 00:54:22,064
Weird food cravings.

959
00:54:22,066 --> 00:54:24,834
For a second you looked scared
you might actually be pregnant.

960
00:54:24,836 --> 00:54:26,872
No, it's not funny.
I really, um...

961
00:54:28,273 --> 00:54:32,008
When you're 20-something, you
think everything is replaceable.

962
00:54:32,010 --> 00:54:34,644
But when you're 49,
you know it isn't.

963
00:54:34,646 --> 00:54:37,079
- Aw. I'm sorry.
- It's okay.

964
00:54:37,081 --> 00:54:40,115
You should've come to the clinic.
We could've fixed you up.

965
00:54:40,117 --> 00:54:42,151
Does it hurt?

966
00:54:42,153 --> 00:54:44,220
Only when I do this.
Ow.

967
00:54:44,222 --> 00:54:46,124
Don't do that.

968
00:54:47,992 --> 00:54:49,658
Stupid.

969
00:54:49,660 --> 00:54:53,695
I'm going to make you
some very soft,

970
00:54:53,697 --> 00:54:56,131
very delicious

971
00:54:56,133 --> 00:54:58,334
scrambled eggs with cheese.

972
00:54:58,336 --> 00:55:00,169
Oh, good. Okay.

973
00:55:00,171 --> 00:55:02,104
Oh. Ow.

974
00:55:02,106 --> 00:55:04,807
- That did not hurt.
- No, no. Not really.

975
00:55:04,809 --> 00:55:07,242
Don't you want
something else, or...?

976
00:55:07,244 --> 00:55:09,047
No. I'm all right.

977
00:55:20,191 --> 00:55:23,026
<i>"He pressed
until the egg cracked,</i>

978
00:55:23,028 --> 00:55:26,665
<i>its slimy yoke slipping over
our intertwined fingers.</i>

979
00:55:27,999 --> 00:55:30,166
<i>My fingers slid
against his fingers</i>

980
00:55:30,168 --> 00:55:31,934
<i>until our hands were joined</i>

981
00:55:31,936 --> 00:55:35,137
<i>and I no longer knew
which fingers were whose.</i>

982
00:55:35,139 --> 00:55:38,908
<i>He took my hand,
still slippery from the egg,</i>

983
00:55:38,910 --> 00:55:41,144
<i>and wrapped it
around his penis.</i>

984
00:55:41,146 --> 00:55:44,280
<i>His spit tasted
like an old person's food.</i>

985
00:55:44,282 --> 00:55:47,182
<i>Liver and onions, fried fish.</i>

986
00:55:47,184 --> 00:55:49,121
<i>His stomach pillowed into me.</i>

987
00:55:51,756 --> 00:55:53,222
<i>Maybe he knew
what I was thinking,</i>

988
00:55:53,224 --> 00:55:57,160
<i>because he got rougher as he
pushed himself hard inside me.</i>

989
00:56:02,700 --> 00:56:05,734
<i>I began to cry because it hurt,</i>

990
00:56:05,736 --> 00:56:08,204
<i>but at the same time,</i>

991
00:56:08,206 --> 00:56:10,707
<i>I felt happy that he wanted me,</i>

992
00:56:10,709 --> 00:56:13,776
<i>that I alone had the power to
make a grown man risk everything</i>

993
00:56:13,778 --> 00:56:15,977
<i>to do what we were doing</i>

994
00:56:15,979 --> 00:56:18,080
<i>in the warm light of the shed,</i>

995
00:56:18,082 --> 00:56:20,785
<i>with the trays of eggs
humming around us."</i>

996
00:56:39,003 --> 00:56:41,870
I know dudes
who'd do that, okay?

997
00:56:41,872 --> 00:56:44,740
I'm just not convinced
this dude would do that.

998
00:56:44,742 --> 00:56:47,343
It doesn't matter whether or not
someone would do something like that.

999
00:56:47,345 --> 00:56:51,247
What matters is whether Meg's made us
believe that the guy in her story did it.

1000
00:56:51,249 --> 00:56:52,981
- So...
- Hey, Meg.

1001
00:56:52,983 --> 00:56:55,818
The guy in your story... What
does he do for a living?

1002
00:56:55,820 --> 00:56:58,488
I don't know. I mean, wait.
He's a contractor.

1003
00:56:58,490 --> 00:57:00,455
Is that in the story?

1004
00:57:00,457 --> 00:57:02,191
It was,
and then I took it out.

1005
00:57:02,193 --> 00:57:04,059
It's not in the story because
the guy's not in the story.

1006
00:57:04,061 --> 00:57:06,095
We don't believe it
for a fucking second.

1007
00:57:06,097 --> 00:57:08,363
We don't believe one thing he
says or anything that he does,

1008
00:57:08,365 --> 00:57:10,867
certainly not that he takes a
cat up to the roof to kill it.

1009
00:57:10,869 --> 00:57:13,836
A guy like that is more likely to be nicer
to the cat than he is to the woman.

1010
00:57:13,838 --> 00:57:15,905
It's like you didn't
even investigate it.

1011
00:57:15,907 --> 00:57:18,774
You were too busy thinking up some
vicious thing for this asshole to do

1012
00:57:18,776 --> 00:57:20,111
than actually
write a story.

1013
00:57:25,115 --> 00:57:26,381
Well,

1014
00:57:26,383 --> 00:57:32,053
it appears that Angela did not
care for Meg's writing this week.

1015
00:57:32,055 --> 00:57:35,858
I'm sorry. It's unfair Angela gets to shoot
her mouth off about everybody else's stuff,

1016
00:57:35,860 --> 00:57:37,193
and we never talk
about her work.

1017
00:57:37,195 --> 00:57:39,796
She should have to play
by the same rules we do.

1018
00:57:39,798 --> 00:57:43,432
However, I did make it clear at the beginning
of the course that no one is obligated...

1019
00:57:43,434 --> 00:57:45,867
Fine. Whatever.

1020
00:57:45,869 --> 00:57:48,336
I'll bring my stuff into class.
I'm not scared.

1021
00:57:48,338 --> 00:57:50,939
I just don't see
the point.

1022
00:57:50,941 --> 00:57:54,876
But if it'll make you happy,
I'll do it next week.

1023
00:57:54,878 --> 00:57:58,381
Okay. Great. Thank you,
Angela, for volunteering

1024
00:57:58,383 --> 00:58:02,584
and for, um, extricating us
from this little snafu.

1025
00:58:02,586 --> 00:58:04,452
Uh-huh.

1026
00:58:04,454 --> 00:58:06,588
Snafu.

1027
00:58:06,590 --> 00:58:08,557
- Beautiful.
- Mmm. It's one of my favorites.

1028
00:58:08,559 --> 00:58:11,961
All right, there we are. So we'll see you next week.

1029
00:58:11,963 --> 00:58:14,162
Angela, would you stay
so that we could talk about

1030
00:58:14,164 --> 00:58:17,101
what you would indeed
like to read next week?

1031
00:58:26,010 --> 00:58:28,144
I'm sorry for going off
like that.

1032
00:58:28,146 --> 00:58:30,079
You know, one minute
I'm minding my business,

1033
00:58:30,081 --> 00:58:32,215
and the next
I'm ripping Meg's heart out.

1034
00:58:32,217 --> 00:58:35,852
Yeah, no, it's okay. I mean,
you were right.

1035
00:58:35,854 --> 00:58:38,521
It's just
the mood I'm in.

1036
00:58:38,523 --> 00:58:40,793
I was pissed
before I came in here.

1037
00:58:42,459 --> 00:58:44,359
Why is that?

1038
00:58:44,361 --> 00:58:46,197
Because
you didn't call.

1039
00:58:48,198 --> 00:58:49,934
About the pages.

1040
00:58:51,235 --> 00:58:53,301
Oh, yeah. No. I know. I'm sorry.
I didn't get the chance...

1041
00:58:53,303 --> 00:58:55,872
It's just those were really
extreme scenes, you know.

1042
00:58:55,874 --> 00:58:59,207
And I needed to know what you thought.
It was driving me crazy.

1043
00:58:59,209 --> 00:59:02,477
And here I am defending male
behavior against Meg's bullshit,

1044
00:59:02,479 --> 00:59:06,649
but here you are exhibiting the
worst type of male behavior.

1045
00:59:06,651 --> 00:59:11,419
And honestly I'd rather you throw
my cat off the roof and kill it

1046
00:59:11,421 --> 00:59:16,327
than have you read these really tough and
hard-to-write pages and not even call.

1047
00:59:22,934 --> 00:59:24,934
I'm sorry.

1048
00:59:24,936 --> 00:59:27,104
It was thoughtless.

1049
00:59:30,340 --> 00:59:32,443
Apology accepted.

1050
00:59:34,077 --> 00:59:35,346
Good.

1051
00:59:37,314 --> 00:59:39,381
So then next week,
I think you should just...

1052
00:59:39,383 --> 00:59:42,517
Let's just start
with the first chapter.

1053
00:59:42,519 --> 00:59:44,389
All right?

1054
00:59:45,423 --> 00:59:48,323
Um, yeah. Sure.

1055
00:59:48,325 --> 00:59:50,660
You know, I don't know
if I'll get much out of it.

1056
00:59:50,662 --> 00:59:52,195
No offense, but...

1057
00:59:52,197 --> 00:59:55,965
You know, I just really need to get my
stuff out in the world to someone that...

1058
00:59:55,967 --> 00:59:57,399
someone that
doesn't know me,

1059
00:59:57,401 --> 01:00:00,669
and they can tell me if I suck
or if I should keep going

1060
01:00:00,671 --> 01:00:06,508
or if I should just burn it all and
rip it up and never write again.

1061
01:00:06,510 --> 01:00:10,512
I don't think
that you have to do that.

1062
01:00:10,514 --> 01:00:13,282
Was that <i>Blue Angel?</i>
Did you watch <i>Blue Angel?</i>

1063
01:00:13,284 --> 01:00:15,684
- Yeah.
- I don't think I've ever seen it.

1064
01:00:15,686 --> 01:00:17,986
Marlene Dietrich's great
though, right?

1065
01:00:17,988 --> 01:00:19,521
Pretty boring actually.
It was hard to get through.

1066
01:00:19,523 --> 01:00:21,691
But I've gotta return it
or else I might as well buy it.

1067
01:00:21,693 --> 01:00:24,693
- Okay.
- Hey, uh...

1068
01:00:24,695 --> 01:00:27,729
What if the next time you talk
to your editor in New York,

1069
01:00:27,731 --> 01:00:31,968
you sort of mention
my novel to him?

1070
01:00:31,970 --> 01:00:33,401
You know?

1071
01:00:33,403 --> 01:00:35,738
Have him just read a chapter,
a couple of pages even,

1072
01:00:35,740 --> 01:00:38,310
and then he'll tell you
and you can tell me.

1073
01:00:41,311 --> 01:00:42,947
Um...

1074
01:00:44,983 --> 01:00:46,952
let me think about it.

1075
01:00:48,086 --> 01:00:50,986
- Thanks. I really appreciate it.
- No problem.

1076
01:00:50,988 --> 01:00:52,588
- See you.
- Okay. See you later.

1077
01:00:52,590 --> 01:00:54,191
Bye.

1078
01:02:06,430 --> 01:02:09,568
So, let's talk
about what we liked

1079
01:02:10,700 --> 01:02:13,068
before we tear it down,
as usual.

1080
01:02:14,472 --> 01:02:17,273
I thought some
of the egg stuff was okay.

1081
01:02:17,275 --> 01:02:20,542
Oh, come on, Carlos. It was
all so obvious and symbolic.

1082
01:02:20,544 --> 01:02:23,312
Thank you. I mean, this egg shit.
Really? It's cliché.

1083
01:02:23,314 --> 01:02:24,613
I didn't believe
the voice.

1084
01:02:24,615 --> 01:02:26,782
I mean, teenage girls
don't think like that.

1085
01:02:26,784 --> 01:02:28,550
There were no teenage
expressions in it.

1086
01:02:28,552 --> 01:02:30,452
It was like...
It was totally unrealistic.

1087
01:02:30,454 --> 01:02:33,122
And the narrator's so...
I don't know.

1088
01:02:33,124 --> 01:02:35,557
I just kept waiting to learn
something about her as a character.

1089
01:02:35,559 --> 01:02:36,792
I feel you.

1090
01:02:36,794 --> 01:02:41,564
Okay, but it is the first part
of the first chapter of a novel.

1091
01:02:41,566 --> 01:02:44,399
A novel's got to have something
to keep you reading.

1092
01:02:44,401 --> 01:02:47,169
We're not staying with this story
about some chick hatching eggs

1093
01:02:47,171 --> 01:02:49,571
and having fantasies
about her teacher.

1094
01:02:49,573 --> 01:02:53,445
Yeah. This is, like, the worst thing
we've read in class all year.

1095
01:03:06,724 --> 01:03:10,191
You know,
sometimes... sometimes,

1096
01:03:10,193 --> 01:03:12,327
there comes along something

1097
01:03:12,329 --> 01:03:16,198
that is new
and fresh and original.

1098
01:03:16,200 --> 01:03:18,537
It's unlike anything
that's ever been written before.

1099
01:03:19,736 --> 01:03:22,671
I'm not saying what Angela
has written is <i>Ulysses,</i>

1100
01:03:22,673 --> 01:03:27,242
but what I am saying is what she
has written is very original.

1101
01:03:27,244 --> 01:03:30,345
And the rest of you
need to see that.

1102
01:03:30,347 --> 01:03:34,783
Because if there's one thing that I
want you to take away from this class,

1103
01:03:34,785 --> 01:03:38,653
it's the ability...
it's the generosity

1104
01:03:38,655 --> 01:03:41,756
to see the real deal.

1105
01:03:41,758 --> 01:03:44,425
And that's the real deal.

1106
01:03:44,427 --> 01:03:48,497
It should be painfully obvious
to all of you

1107
01:03:48,499 --> 01:03:51,233
that what Angela has written
is more sophisticated,

1108
01:03:51,235 --> 01:03:53,801
more profound,

1109
01:03:53,803 --> 01:03:56,372
more nuanced,
and more compelling

1110
01:03:56,374 --> 01:04:00,642
than anything
any one of you has written

1111
01:04:00,644 --> 01:04:03,245
for this entire semester.

1112
01:04:03,247 --> 01:04:06,318
And I'm shocked
that you don't see it.

1113
01:04:19,697 --> 01:04:23,666
Hello. Hi. It's Ted Swenson
calling for Len Currie.

1114
01:04:23,668 --> 01:04:26,204
- <i>One minute, Mr. Swenson.</i>
- Mm-hmm.

1115
01:04:27,939 --> 01:04:29,872
<i>Ted. Finally.</i>

1116
01:04:29,874 --> 01:04:31,941
- <i>How are you, man?</i>
- Hey, how are you?

1117
01:04:31,943 --> 01:04:33,809
<i>Jesus, you're hard
to get ahold of.</i>

1118
01:04:33,811 --> 01:04:35,343
- <i>You coming to New York?</i>
- Yes.

1119
01:04:35,345 --> 01:04:36,812
In fact,
that's why I'm calling.

1120
01:04:36,814 --> 01:04:40,282
I want to talk to you about a couple
of things. Maybe the week after next?

1121
01:04:40,284 --> 01:04:42,450
<i>The week
of Thanksgiving?</i>

1122
01:04:42,452 --> 01:04:44,352
Uh... No.
Actually, I meant...

1123
01:04:44,354 --> 01:04:46,588
<i>That Friday is perfect.</i>

1124
01:04:46,590 --> 01:04:49,358
<i>It's actually the only slot I've got
free on my schedule for the next year.</i>

1125
01:04:49,360 --> 01:04:50,892
<i>Not really, but just about.</i>

1126
01:04:50,894 --> 01:04:53,829
<i>And by lunchtime I'll be climbing the
walls to get away from the wife and kids.</i>

1127
01:04:53,831 --> 01:04:55,363
<i>Don't tell anyone I said that.</i>

1128
01:04:55,365 --> 01:04:58,867
<i>Norma's. Twenty-second and Park
Avenue South. See you at 1:00.</i>

1129
01:04:58,869 --> 01:05:01,303
<i>Can't wait to finally
read what you've got.</i>

1130
01:05:11,581 --> 01:05:13,314
Hello?

1131
01:05:13,316 --> 01:05:15,783
Oh, my God. Ted.
She's here!

1132
01:05:15,785 --> 01:05:18,320
- Hello?
- Oh!

1133
01:05:18,322 --> 01:05:20,689
I did not expect you
so early.

1134
01:05:20,691 --> 01:05:23,325
Oh, I thought you'd hit
all that traffic.

1135
01:05:23,327 --> 01:05:25,394
- It wasn't too bad actually.
- Oh. Good.

1136
01:05:25,396 --> 01:05:27,428
- Smells good, Mom.
- Hey!

1137
01:05:27,430 --> 01:05:30,298
- Hey. How are you?
- Hi.

1138
01:05:30,300 --> 01:05:32,968
She's back
and better than ever.

1139
01:05:32,970 --> 01:05:35,004
You look great.

1140
01:05:35,006 --> 01:05:37,439
- You look great.
- Thanks, Dad.

1141
01:05:37,441 --> 01:05:40,843
- You don't need to say it a third time.
- Okay. All right.

1142
01:05:40,845 --> 01:05:43,611
I'm taking this course
on the abnormal personality.

1143
01:05:43,613 --> 01:05:46,814
- It's for my psych major.
- Mmm. That sounds interesting.

1144
01:05:46,816 --> 01:05:50,419
Yeah, a lot of these studies say that
first-degree relatives of affected individuals

1145
01:05:50,421 --> 01:05:53,488
have a higher risk of
developing symptoms themselves.

1146
01:05:53,490 --> 01:05:56,524
- Makes you think about Grandpa.
- It makes perfect sense.

1147
01:05:56,526 --> 01:05:57,792
This is absolutely
delicious, honey.

1148
01:05:57,794 --> 01:06:00,829
Although a child of a bipolar has
less than a 15-percent chance

1149
01:06:00,831 --> 01:06:02,363
of developing it himself.

1150
01:06:02,365 --> 01:06:05,401
Well, there you go.
Fifteen percent. Spared.

1151
01:06:05,403 --> 01:06:07,403
Unless there are other
members of the family

1152
01:06:07,405 --> 01:06:10,571
who suffer from some kind
of mood disorder too.

1153
01:06:10,573 --> 01:06:14,246
I remember your mother
was depressed a lot as well.

1154
01:06:16,046 --> 01:06:20,381
Honey, would it be all right if we didn't
talk about my inherited mental illness

1155
01:06:20,383 --> 01:06:22,450
during Thanksgiving dinner?

1156
01:06:22,452 --> 01:06:24,320
It's pretty fascinating
though.

1157
01:06:24,322 --> 01:06:25,521
Bipolar is rampant.

1158
01:06:25,523 --> 01:06:28,823
My father wasn't bipolar.

1159
01:06:28,825 --> 01:06:31,559
He was angry about
the state of our country.

1160
01:06:31,561 --> 01:06:34,662
I just think his underlying emotional
state must have had a big effect on you,

1161
01:06:34,664 --> 01:06:36,798
and I'm surprised you
never went into therapy.

1162
01:06:36,800 --> 01:06:38,666
Why? I'm a writer.

1163
01:06:38,668 --> 01:06:41,736
To me, it's all grist for the
emotional mill. Why shrink it away?

1164
01:06:41,738 --> 01:06:44,409
He set himself on fire.

1165
01:06:47,077 --> 01:06:49,480
Yes, I know that.
I know.

1166
01:06:51,948 --> 01:06:54,950
But I don't think political
outrage is inherited, so...

1167
01:06:54,952 --> 01:06:57,553
- I wouldn't worry.
- Okay.

1168
01:06:57,555 --> 01:07:01,326
Let's change the subject.

1169
01:07:05,396 --> 01:07:06,865
How's your book coming?

1170
01:07:27,017 --> 01:07:28,751
So how's the novel
coming?

1171
01:07:28,753 --> 01:07:30,885
Well, it's coming.
You know, it's coming.

1172
01:07:30,887 --> 01:07:33,488
It's... It's slow.

1173
01:07:33,490 --> 01:07:36,725
It's coming slowly, but actually I didn't
want to talk to you about my novel.

1174
01:07:36,727 --> 01:07:40,095
I wanted to talk to you
about, uh, a novel

1175
01:07:40,097 --> 01:07:41,896
that one of my students
is writing.

1176
01:07:41,898 --> 01:07:43,731
- God help us.
- No, no, no.

1177
01:07:43,733 --> 01:07:45,666
Len, listen.

1178
01:07:45,668 --> 01:07:48,372
It's about a high school girl who
has an affair with her teacher.

1179
01:07:49,740 --> 01:07:51,707
Here, let me...
I want to give it to you.

1180
01:07:51,709 --> 01:07:53,675
- You're fucking her.
- What?

1181
01:07:53,677 --> 01:07:55,676
- No, I'm not...
- But you want to.

1182
01:07:55,678 --> 01:07:58,613
No, I don't want to...
It's not about sex.

1183
01:07:58,615 --> 01:08:02,550
It's about that this kid
is really, really talented.

1184
01:08:02,552 --> 01:08:06,521
I believe you. I re...
I'm sure she's very good.

1185
01:08:06,523 --> 01:08:08,724
But I don't have time
to look at some chick novel

1186
01:08:08,726 --> 01:08:11,559
about a girl with the hots
for her high school teacher.

1187
01:08:11,561 --> 01:08:13,928
- Why don't you just look at the first few pages?
- Ted.

1188
01:08:13,930 --> 01:08:15,596
- First few pages.
- Ted.

1189
01:08:15,598 --> 01:08:17,632
- First few pages.
- Ted.

1190
01:08:17,634 --> 01:08:20,735
Do yourself a favor.
Take the manuscript back.

1191
01:08:20,737 --> 01:08:23,741
Tell her you'll show it to me
if she lets you fuck her.

1192
01:08:26,110 --> 01:08:28,444
Now, what about
your book?

1193
01:08:28,446 --> 01:08:30,546
Let's get serious here.

1194
01:08:30,548 --> 01:08:32,713
I've had a thought.

1195
01:08:32,715 --> 01:08:34,919
Have you ever considered
a memoir?

1196
01:08:35,652 --> 01:08:36,851
Len.

1197
01:08:36,853 --> 01:08:39,654
You don't need me to tell you
that what's selling these days

1198
01:08:39,656 --> 01:08:43,758
has the juicy gleam,
the bloody smell of truth.

1199
01:08:43,760 --> 01:08:44,927
Yes, I know.

1200
01:08:44,929 --> 01:08:47,095
How many people you think
read a novel?

1201
01:08:47,097 --> 01:08:49,565
- I...
- About 5,000.

1202
01:08:49,567 --> 01:08:52,801
Out of the 5,000 people that read
your novel, 2,000 of them are dead,

1203
01:08:52,803 --> 01:08:55,870
and the other three...
they've forgotten.

1204
01:08:55,872 --> 01:09:01,412
Better to be a hot, new memoirist than
a mid-list, middle-aged novelist.

1205
01:09:02,213 --> 01:09:04,745
I'm not doing this
as your publisher.

1206
01:09:04,747 --> 01:09:07,419
I'm doing this
as your friend.

1207
01:09:08,552 --> 01:09:10,554
Well, I appreciate that.

1208
01:09:11,254 --> 01:09:14,088
Thank you.
Thank you.

1209
01:09:14,090 --> 01:09:15,623
Now, look.

1210
01:09:15,625 --> 01:09:17,926
I don't know you that well,

1211
01:09:17,928 --> 01:09:20,095
but the best thing...

1212
01:09:20,097 --> 01:09:22,096
the really good thing
would be

1213
01:09:22,098 --> 01:09:25,234
if there was something that had been
going on since your father's death.

1214
01:09:25,236 --> 01:09:28,569
- Some ongoing problem.
- A problem? Like what?

1215
01:09:28,571 --> 01:09:29,805
What are you...

1216
01:09:29,807 --> 01:09:33,141
Drinking, drugs,
spousal abuse.

1217
01:09:33,143 --> 01:09:35,743
- Oh!
- Sex addiction.

1218
01:09:35,745 --> 01:09:38,212
Compulsively fucking
your students.

1219
01:09:38,214 --> 01:09:40,849
That would be great.

1220
01:09:40,851 --> 01:09:42,016
Len!

1221
01:09:42,018 --> 01:09:44,185
- Something that's directly traceable...
- Shh!

1222
01:09:44,187 --> 01:09:45,488
to your dysfunctional
childhood.

1223
01:09:45,490 --> 01:09:50,862
And something that you've, you
know, "recovered from," of course.

1224
01:09:52,161 --> 01:09:53,895
Yeah.

1225
01:09:53,897 --> 01:09:56,097
Well.

1226
01:09:56,099 --> 01:09:58,001
I'll think about it.

1227
01:10:05,276 --> 01:10:07,743
What are you doing,
sitting in the dark?

1228
01:10:07,745 --> 01:10:10,048
I don't know.
Just thinking.

1229
01:10:11,648 --> 01:10:13,282
Everything okay?

1230
01:10:13,284 --> 01:10:15,950
Is Ruby all right?
Is she pissed that I went?

1231
01:10:15,952 --> 01:10:19,721
No. No, not at all.
I told you, she's fine.

1232
01:10:19,723 --> 01:10:21,789
What did Len
have to say?

1233
01:10:21,791 --> 01:10:24,226
Oh, well, you know,
his kid's got ADD,

1234
01:10:24,228 --> 01:10:27,762
and they're medicating him
into a stupor, and, you know.

1235
01:10:27,764 --> 01:10:29,765
I mean about the chapters
that you gave him.

1236
01:10:29,767 --> 01:10:32,836
Oh, yeah.
Yeah, no. He's, um...

1237
01:10:33,771 --> 01:10:36,637
You know, he's excited.

1238
01:10:36,639 --> 01:10:39,807
You know, but it's probably gonna take him
a little while to read it, he said, so...

1239
01:10:39,809 --> 01:10:40,842
Okay.

1240
01:10:40,844 --> 01:10:43,578
Everyone would love
to see you finish <i>Eggs.</i>

1241
01:10:43,580 --> 01:10:44,913
Mm-hmm.

1242
01:10:44,915 --> 01:10:46,918
Oh, by the way,
one of your students called.

1243
01:10:48,585 --> 01:10:51,086
She sounded upset.

1244
01:10:51,088 --> 01:10:53,087
- Did she leave her name?
- No.

1245
01:10:53,089 --> 01:10:55,791
She said she wanted
to talk about her novel.

1246
01:10:55,793 --> 01:10:57,926
She thought
it was your cell.

1247
01:10:57,928 --> 01:10:59,063
Oh, her novel.

1248
01:10:59,929 --> 01:11:02,864
- Oh, great.
- Her novel.

1249
01:11:02,866 --> 01:11:05,199
She's back in New Jersey.
She left her number.

1250
01:11:05,201 --> 01:11:06,802
She said to call her
anytime.

1251
01:11:06,804 --> 01:11:09,971
Unbelievable.
These students, you know...

1252
01:11:09,973 --> 01:11:13,976
You say don't call me unless it's
a life-threatening emergency,

1253
01:11:13,978 --> 01:11:17,178
and, of course, everything to them
is a life-threatening emergency.

1254
01:11:17,180 --> 01:11:20,315
You know, you're at their beck and call.
It's just...

1255
01:11:20,317 --> 01:11:23,985
- I'm sure it's nothing that can't wait until Monday.
- Okay.

1256
01:11:23,987 --> 01:11:26,687
I'm going up.

1257
01:11:26,689 --> 01:11:28,927
All right.
I'll see you up in a minute.

1258
01:11:49,647 --> 01:11:51,413
Morning.

1259
01:11:51,415 --> 01:11:53,585
Happy Thanksgiving.

1260
01:11:57,821 --> 01:11:59,857
I hate it when you
look at me like that.

1261
01:12:00,657 --> 01:12:01,793
Like what?

1262
01:12:04,661 --> 01:12:06,063
Like dinner.

1263
01:12:07,430 --> 01:12:11,169
I'm sorry. I didn't think I was
looking at you like dinner.

1264
01:12:12,870 --> 01:12:16,006
I don't usually think about
dinner until I've had lunch.

1265
01:12:23,781 --> 01:12:25,881
So, I'm guessing
it didn't go very well.

1266
01:12:25,883 --> 01:12:28,150
Otherwise,
you would've called.

1267
01:12:28,152 --> 01:12:32,788
No, I... I, uh... I talked to
him about it, and he said...

1268
01:12:32,790 --> 01:12:35,222
You know, he's a very busy man.
He said he'll read it.

1269
01:12:35,224 --> 01:12:40,095
Of course, he could be so busy that he just
pretends to read it and then sends it back.

1270
01:12:40,097 --> 01:12:44,102
But, unfortunately,
we have no control over that.

1271
01:12:46,769 --> 01:12:48,839
So when can I
call him?

1272
01:12:51,107 --> 01:12:53,074
You're welcome.

1273
01:12:53,076 --> 01:12:55,409
- How was your Thanksgiving?
- Grisly.

1274
01:12:55,411 --> 01:12:58,148
So when can I call
and see if he's read it?

1275
01:12:59,082 --> 01:13:01,182
I don't think
he would like that.

1276
01:13:01,184 --> 01:13:05,022
Um, that might make him
want to not read it.

1277
01:13:09,093 --> 01:13:11,262
You didn't give it to him,
did you?

1278
01:13:14,764 --> 01:13:16,800
Okay, look.

1279
01:13:18,367 --> 01:13:20,237
I didn't leave it
with Len.

1280
01:13:22,505 --> 01:13:24,806
It's not that I didn't try.
I did.

1281
01:13:24,808 --> 01:13:28,443
It's just that he's not
reading any new novels now.

1282
01:13:28,445 --> 01:13:30,345
And you shouldn't
take it personally.

1283
01:13:30,347 --> 01:13:33,748
It's not... You know, it's not like
he read it and he didn't like it.

1284
01:13:33,750 --> 01:13:35,816
It's just... That's all.

1285
01:13:35,818 --> 01:13:37,918
I mean, come on.

1286
01:13:37,920 --> 01:13:40,221
You're young. You haven't
even finished the novel yet.

1287
01:13:40,223 --> 01:13:44,760
You and I both know
that this is all... bullshit.

1288
01:13:44,762 --> 01:13:46,328
None of it matters.

1289
01:13:46,330 --> 01:13:49,364
When am I going to be published?
My reputation and my fame.

1290
01:13:49,366 --> 01:13:51,065
It's bullshit!

1291
01:13:51,067 --> 01:13:54,235
The only thing that matters
is the work.

1292
01:13:54,237 --> 01:13:56,504
That's all. The work.

1293
01:13:56,506 --> 01:13:58,209
Fuck you.

1294
01:14:01,111 --> 01:14:03,878
No. Fuck you.

1295
01:14:03,880 --> 01:14:06,480
I went out
of my fucking way for you.

1296
01:14:06,482 --> 01:14:08,249
I went down to Manhattan
to see my editor,

1297
01:14:08,251 --> 01:14:11,185
so he could take me out for lunch
so he could treat me like shit,

1298
01:14:11,187 --> 01:14:15,123
so he could tell me that I had to write
a memoir about my early years...

1299
01:14:15,125 --> 01:14:17,191
everything that I covered
already in <i>Phoenix Time.</i>

1300
01:14:17,193 --> 01:14:19,226
But now I'm supposed to
write it in a different way,

1301
01:14:19,228 --> 01:14:21,797
and it's supposed to be
the actual truth.

1302
01:14:21,799 --> 01:14:23,565
Fuck me. Fuck you.

1303
01:14:23,567 --> 01:14:26,034
- What did you tell him?
- I told him no.

1304
01:14:26,036 --> 01:14:28,302
I'm a novelist,
plain and simple.

1305
01:14:28,304 --> 01:14:30,004
I still have
some standards.

1306
01:14:30,006 --> 01:14:31,573
It's easy for you
to have standards,

1307
01:14:31,575 --> 01:14:34,876
with your nice, fat teaching job
and your tenure forever and ever.

1308
01:14:34,878 --> 01:14:37,812
You'll always have time to
write, even if you don't.

1309
01:14:37,814 --> 01:14:39,547
Whereas if I end up
working at a drugstore,

1310
01:14:39,549 --> 01:14:42,316
which with my parents' connections
is a best-case scenario,

1311
01:14:42,318 --> 01:14:45,886
I'll never have the time, while you sit
here making your little moral distinctions

1312
01:14:45,888 --> 01:14:48,155
about not selling out
your fabulous talent.

1313
01:14:48,157 --> 01:14:50,292
I can't believe
you let this happen.

1314
01:14:50,294 --> 01:14:54,831
- I can't believe you didn't fight harder for me.
- Angela, what...

1315
01:14:58,101 --> 01:14:59,566
The only reason why
I let you fuck me

1316
01:14:59,568 --> 01:15:04,142
was so you could get my novel to someone
who could actually do something.

1317
01:15:07,177 --> 01:15:10,180
I did not think that
that's what that was about.

1318
01:15:12,148 --> 01:15:17,254
I did not think this was
about you letting me fuck you.

1319
01:15:19,889 --> 01:15:22,160
I thought that was something
that we both wanted.

1320
01:15:24,327 --> 01:15:26,164
Well, now you know.

1321
01:16:34,531 --> 01:16:37,231
- Hello?
- <i>Professor Swenson?</i>

1322
01:16:37,233 --> 01:16:39,668
<i>It's Hillary from
Dr. Bentham's office.</i>

1323
01:16:39,670 --> 01:16:41,270
Yes?

1324
01:16:41,272 --> 01:16:46,373
<i>Dr. Bentham would like to see you as soon
as you arrive this morning, if possible.</i>

1325
01:16:46,375 --> 01:16:49,711
Um, yeah, I should be there
in about ten, 15 minutes.

1326
01:16:49,713 --> 01:16:54,048
Will it take long? Because I
have office hours this morning.

1327
01:16:54,050 --> 01:16:56,383
<i>I'll tell him
you'll be here shortly.</i>

1328
01:16:56,385 --> 01:16:58,153
<i>Thank you so much.</i>

1329
01:16:58,155 --> 01:16:59,456
Okay.

1330
01:17:22,679 --> 01:17:24,315
Ted.

1331
01:17:25,381 --> 01:17:27,485
- Hi.
- Please, sit.

1332
01:17:29,052 --> 01:17:31,485
Thank you for coming in
on such short notice.

1333
01:17:31,487 --> 01:17:36,224
Oh, yeah. Well, office hours this
early aren't very popular, so...

1334
01:17:36,226 --> 01:17:37,394
Hmm.

1335
01:17:38,995 --> 01:17:41,428
Ted, maybe we could dispense
with the small talk,

1336
01:17:41,430 --> 01:17:43,131
if that's all right,

1337
01:17:43,133 --> 01:17:46,070
and get directly
to the point.

1338
01:17:53,710 --> 01:17:56,110
<i>So I'm guessing
it didn't go very well.</i>

1339
01:17:56,112 --> 01:17:58,480
<i>Otherwise,
you would have called.</i>

1340
01:17:58,482 --> 01:18:02,684
<i>No, I-I, uh... I talked
to him about it, and he said...</i>

1341
01:18:02,686 --> 01:18:05,619
<i>You know, he's a very busy man.
He said he'll read it.</i>

1342
01:18:05,621 --> 01:18:10,257
<i>Of course he could be so busy that he just
pretends to read it and then sends it back,</i>

1343
01:18:10,259 --> 01:18:14,230
<i>but, unfortunately,
we have no control over that.</i>

1344
01:18:15,499 --> 01:18:17,465
<i>I can't believe
you let this happen.</i>

1345
01:18:17,467 --> 01:18:19,601
<i>I can't believe you didn't
fight harder for me.</i>

1346
01:18:19,603 --> 01:18:21,105
<i>Angela, what...</i>

1347
01:18:23,106 --> 01:18:25,039
<i>The only reason why
I let you fuck me</i>

1348
01:18:25,041 --> 01:18:28,446
<i>was so you could get my novel to someone
who could actually do something.</i>

1349
01:18:30,647 --> 01:18:36,053
<i>I did not think this was
about you letting me fuck you.</i>

1350
01:18:37,454 --> 01:18:41,025
<i>I thought that was something
that we both wanted.</i>

1351
01:18:43,059 --> 01:18:45,693
Francis, look.

1352
01:18:45,695 --> 01:18:47,796
I did not make this girl
sleep with me

1353
01:18:47,798 --> 01:18:49,730
in exchange
for pimping out her novel.

1354
01:18:51,268 --> 01:18:53,601
Ted, maybe it's premature
to warn you

1355
01:18:53,603 --> 01:18:56,538
that everything you say
can be used against you, but...

1356
01:18:56,540 --> 01:18:58,672
Are you arresting me?
Is that what's happening?

1357
01:18:58,674 --> 01:19:01,842
Are you reading me my Miranda rights?
Are the cops here?

1358
01:19:01,844 --> 01:19:04,212
Of course not.

1359
01:19:04,214 --> 01:19:08,149
But the evidence against you,
it does look pretty damning.

1360
01:19:08,151 --> 01:19:10,651
Meaning what?

1361
01:19:10,653 --> 01:19:13,721
The student is charging you
with sexual harassment.

1362
01:19:13,723 --> 01:19:15,489
Oh.

1363
01:19:15,491 --> 01:19:17,792
She's threatening
to sue the school.

1364
01:19:17,794 --> 01:19:19,726
And given what she's
presented us with,

1365
01:19:19,728 --> 01:19:21,628
I really think
you might consider,

1366
01:19:21,630 --> 01:19:23,631
for everybody's sake,

1367
01:19:23,633 --> 01:19:25,699
resigning.

1368
01:19:25,701 --> 01:19:28,569
I wouldn't ask you to do it
just for the college, old chap.

1369
01:19:28,571 --> 01:19:31,739
I'd say go ahead, fight,
if that's what you want.

1370
01:19:31,741 --> 01:19:34,441
But you do have
a family to consider

1371
01:19:34,443 --> 01:19:36,613
and a professional
reputation.

1372
01:19:43,353 --> 01:19:45,787
And my so-called
options?

1373
01:19:45,789 --> 01:19:49,257
Well, I suppose we'd have to form
a committee to look into this.

1374
01:19:49,259 --> 01:19:51,458
Gather testimony.

1375
01:19:51,460 --> 01:19:56,163
Hold a hearing, if necessary.
And I assume it would be.

1376
01:19:56,165 --> 01:19:59,570
It's all spelled out in the faculty
handbook under sexual harassment.

1377
01:20:00,737 --> 01:20:02,136
This is not
sexual harassment.

1378
01:20:02,138 --> 01:20:08,743
Actually, Ted, this sounds like the
textbook case of sexual harassment.

1379
01:20:08,745 --> 01:20:10,712
Yeah, but that's
not what it is.

1380
01:20:10,714 --> 01:20:13,815
Incidentally, Ms. Argo
has asked me to ask you

1381
01:20:13,817 --> 01:20:17,655
to not contact her until after
this matter is settled.

1382
01:20:20,624 --> 01:20:22,626
So, what do you say, Ted?

1383
01:20:58,795 --> 01:21:01,261
Want to go out
to dinner?

1384
01:21:01,263 --> 01:21:03,730
Are we celebrating
something?

1385
01:21:03,732 --> 01:21:05,466
Uh, a day
without disaster.

1386
01:21:05,468 --> 01:21:07,935
Oh. That's worth
celebrating.

1387
01:21:09,738 --> 01:21:11,672
Emilio's?

1388
01:21:11,674 --> 01:21:14,976
You might want to wait for a month
without disasters for that.

1389
01:21:14,978 --> 01:21:19,413
Well, there won't be any of those
anytime soon, so... let's go tonight.

1390
01:21:19,415 --> 01:21:21,552
- All right.
- All right.

1391
01:21:23,219 --> 01:21:25,289
- Let me just go take a shower.
- Okay.

1392
01:21:34,330 --> 01:21:36,166
Ted. What are you...

1393
01:21:53,650 --> 01:21:55,516
<i>In my dread and confusion,</i>

1394
01:21:55,518 --> 01:21:58,319
<i>I reverted
to the conventional wisdom</i>

1395
01:21:58,321 --> 01:22:01,788
<i>that if you're going to deliver
shattering information to a loved one,</i>

1396
01:22:01,790 --> 01:22:05,525
<i>it's best to do it in a crowded
place that will preempt tears,</i>

1397
01:22:05,527 --> 01:22:08,531
<i>recriminations,
murder attempts, and so forth.</i>

1398
01:22:09,799 --> 01:22:12,800
<i>I guess I should have known
that at 7:00 on a weekday night,</i>

1399
01:22:12,802 --> 01:22:14,668
<i>the place would be empty.</i>

1400
01:22:14,670 --> 01:22:16,604
I'll have the venison.

1401
01:22:16,606 --> 01:22:18,972
- And I'll have the, um, salmon.
- Oh.

1402
01:22:18,974 --> 01:22:21,476
Uh, even though
it's probably exhausted

1403
01:22:21,478 --> 01:22:23,645
after swimming
all the way to Vermont.

1404
01:22:25,348 --> 01:22:27,748
We made it
through Thanksgiving.

1405
01:22:27,750 --> 01:22:29,449
- Not too bad.
- Not too bad.

1406
01:22:29,451 --> 01:22:31,552
- Not too bad.
- I barely remember it.

1407
01:22:34,290 --> 01:22:36,391
What do you think?

1408
01:22:36,393 --> 01:22:38,726
Think she'll come home
for Christmas?

1409
01:22:38,728 --> 01:22:41,628
Yeah, I hope so. Yeah.

1410
01:22:41,630 --> 01:22:44,634
- I'm so glad we're in this together.
- Me too.

1411
01:22:50,639 --> 01:22:53,244
So if I...

1412
01:22:54,643 --> 01:22:56,646
- If I tell you something...
- Mm-hmm.

1413
01:22:57,880 --> 01:23:01,649
will you promise not to be
mad at me, no matter what?

1414
01:23:01,651 --> 01:23:03,818
I recognize a lose-lose deal
when I hear one.

1415
01:23:03,820 --> 01:23:05,986
No, I mean it.

1416
01:23:05,988 --> 01:23:08,259
Have you been sleeping
with a student?

1417
01:23:14,863 --> 01:23:17,332
Oh, my God.
I was kidding.

1418
01:23:17,334 --> 01:23:19,434
I didn't really...

1419
01:23:19,436 --> 01:23:21,438
I didn't sleep with her.
My tooth broke.

1420
01:23:23,039 --> 01:23:26,440
Oh, okay. So you were going to sleep
with her, except your tooth broke?

1421
01:23:26,442 --> 01:23:29,677
Well... Something like that.
Not really.

1422
01:23:29,679 --> 01:23:32,413
- I mean...
- What did she do? Punch you in the face?

1423
01:23:33,817 --> 01:23:35,717
No.

1424
01:23:35,719 --> 01:23:38,819
Is she the one who called when
you were supposedly in New York?

1425
01:23:38,821 --> 01:23:40,421
Um, I think so.

1426
01:23:40,423 --> 01:23:42,657
And do you think that's
who you went to see

1427
01:23:42,659 --> 01:23:44,691
when you told us you were
going to see your editor?

1428
01:23:44,693 --> 01:23:46,694
No, I...

1429
01:23:46,696 --> 01:23:48,695
- Look at me, goddamn it!
- Okay. All right.

1430
01:23:48,697 --> 01:23:50,698
What are you looking
at them for?

1431
01:23:50,700 --> 01:23:53,467
Look... No, I was in New York.
I saw Len.

1432
01:23:53,469 --> 01:23:55,136
I wouldn't lie
about something like that.

1433
01:23:55,138 --> 01:23:56,837
I'm very superstitious.
You know that.

1434
01:23:56,839 --> 01:24:00,443
- What if the plane went down?
- Too bad it didn't.

1435
01:24:05,814 --> 01:24:08,716
- Is she pretty?
- No.

1436
01:24:08,718 --> 01:24:10,150
No. Not really. No.

1437
01:24:10,152 --> 01:24:11,918
Then what? Youth?
Great body? What?

1438
01:24:11,920 --> 01:24:14,825
- No, no. None of that. Nothing.
- It's just...

1439
01:24:18,460 --> 01:24:20,160
She can write,
you know.

1440
01:24:20,162 --> 01:24:23,131
She can write?
This is about writing?

1441
01:24:23,133 --> 01:24:26,566
And it never once crossed your mind that
your wanting to sleep with this kid

1442
01:24:26,568 --> 01:24:28,502
might have clouded
your literary judgment?

1443
01:24:28,504 --> 01:24:31,972
It's just that this novel
she's writing, it's just...

1444
01:24:31,974 --> 01:24:33,608
It's stupid.
I know it's stupid.

1445
01:24:33,610 --> 01:24:35,476
That's what attracted me.

1446
01:24:35,478 --> 01:24:37,177
- Oh. Oh, I get it.
- And okay. Wait...

1447
01:24:37,179 --> 01:24:39,146
So you didn't fuck a student.
You fucked a book.

1448
01:24:39,148 --> 01:24:41,815
You're like some groupie, like one of
those chicks who used to come up to you

1449
01:24:41,817 --> 01:24:45,886
after one of your readings because they
thought you were some famous writer.

1450
01:24:45,888 --> 01:24:48,955
You know what?
You're worse than a groupie.

1451
01:24:48,957 --> 01:24:52,159
- You're like a vampire sucking this kid's blood.
- Okay.

1452
01:24:52,161 --> 01:24:56,062
A guy whose own daughter barely talks
to him because he forgot she existed.

1453
01:24:56,064 --> 01:25:00,467
You were so self-involved, so in
love with your own little problems,

1454
01:25:00,469 --> 01:25:02,703
that the only way that
she can get your attention

1455
01:25:02,705 --> 01:25:06,574
is to start dating a guy whose reputation
is so bad even you will have heard of it,

1456
01:25:06,576 --> 01:25:08,946
even with your head
so far up your ass.

1457
01:25:14,217 --> 01:25:16,717
Okay, that's...
All right. Sherrie.

1458
01:25:16,719 --> 01:25:19,220
Those pathetic little crushes
you used to get on students,

1459
01:25:19,222 --> 01:25:22,890
always simpering about how Little Miss
Such-and-Such is really very talented,

1460
01:25:22,892 --> 01:25:28,061
and always asking me if anyone would
still think you were attractive.

1461
01:25:28,063 --> 01:25:29,797
I should have known better.

1462
01:25:29,799 --> 01:25:32,533
Serves me right for thinking
that we were different.

1463
01:25:32,535 --> 01:25:35,703
We weren't like everybody else.
We weren't the cliché.

1464
01:25:35,705 --> 01:25:40,007
The aging, insecure writer and
his pathetic, supportive wife.

1465
01:25:40,009 --> 01:25:42,677
- Okay.
- God, what could possibly be more cliché

1466
01:25:42,679 --> 01:25:45,178
than thinking
you're not one?

1467
01:25:45,180 --> 01:25:50,251
Whatever the fuck you are looking
for, it is not out there.

1468
01:25:50,253 --> 01:25:52,086
It is not in me.

1469
01:25:52,088 --> 01:25:54,888
And it's not in the pussy
of one of your students

1470
01:25:54,890 --> 01:25:57,958
who just happens
to be able to write.

1471
01:25:57,960 --> 01:26:01,431
I know that. Don't you
think that I know that?

1472
01:26:21,951 --> 01:26:25,252
She's filing a sexual
harassment suit against me.

1473
01:26:25,254 --> 01:26:26,989
Good.

1474
01:26:28,124 --> 01:26:30,624
I hope they crucify you.

1475
01:26:30,626 --> 01:26:33,464
I hope they fucking
make you pay.

1476
01:28:13,696 --> 01:28:16,696
Ruby. Hi, honey.
I was going to call you...

1477
01:28:16,698 --> 01:28:18,699
<i>I think it sucks
what you did to Mom.</i>

1478
01:28:18,701 --> 01:28:20,001
<i>You should feel
like shit.</i>

1479
01:28:20,003 --> 01:28:22,970
- <i>That's how you made her feel.</i>
- No, I know that. I know.

1480
01:28:22,972 --> 01:28:26,806
And I can offer up no worthy defense.

1481
01:28:26,808 --> 01:28:28,876
I...

1482
01:28:31,981 --> 01:28:33,617
Well.

1483
01:28:37,253 --> 01:28:39,622
Nice talking to you too.

1484
01:28:47,796 --> 01:28:51,198
<i>♪ Falling in love again ♪</i>

1485
01:28:51,200 --> 01:28:54,769
<i>♪ Never wanted to ♪</i>

1486
01:28:54,771 --> 01:28:57,937
<i>♪ What's a girl to do? ♪</i>

1487
01:28:57,939 --> 01:29:00,009
<i>♪ Can't help it ♪</i>

1488
01:29:02,010 --> 01:29:05,378
<i>♪ Love's always been my game ♪</i>

1489
01:29:05,380 --> 01:29:09,016
<i>♪ Play it how I may ♪</i>

1490
01:29:09,018 --> 01:29:13,386
<i>I'm sorry, my friend,
but you have left me no choice.</i>

1491
01:29:13,388 --> 01:29:15,891
<i>I must request
your resignation.</i>

1492
01:29:29,037 --> 01:29:33,039
<i>All sold out. Standing
room only, Herr Professor.</i>

1493
01:29:33,041 --> 01:29:36,444
- <i>I will not go on.</i>
- <i>What happened to you?</i>

1494
01:29:36,446 --> 01:29:39,216
<i>Are you mad?
You have got to go on.</i>

1495
01:29:41,851 --> 01:29:43,417
<i>Put on his wig.</i>

1496
01:29:43,419 --> 01:29:46,020
<i>Don't get excited,
Herr Professor.</i>

1497
01:29:46,022 --> 01:29:48,254
<i>Be calm, please.</i>

1498
01:29:48,256 --> 01:29:50,794
<i>Ladies and gentlemen,
an egg.</i>

1499
01:29:52,929 --> 01:29:54,761
<i>Crow!</i> Kikeriki.

1500
01:29:54,763 --> 01:29:56,198
Kikeriki!

1501
01:29:57,332 --> 01:29:59,702
Kikeriki!

1502
01:31:30,026 --> 01:31:31,992
<i>We all know
why we're here...</i>

1503
01:31:31,994 --> 01:31:35,529
to investigate the charges
brought by Miss Angela Argo

1504
01:31:35,531 --> 01:31:39,432
against
Professor Theodore Swenson.

1505
01:31:39,434 --> 01:31:43,372
This committee has already taken a
number of depositions under advisement.

1506
01:31:45,207 --> 01:31:47,244
Do you have
any questions, Ted?

1507
01:31:50,513 --> 01:31:53,047
Ted?

1508
01:31:53,049 --> 01:31:54,985
No. No.

1509
01:31:55,985 --> 01:31:58,485
I suppose we should
just begin.

1510
01:31:58,487 --> 01:32:00,221
Can you tell us
in your own words

1511
01:32:00,223 --> 01:32:04,190
what happened at Dean Bentham's
on the evening of November 6?

1512
01:32:04,192 --> 01:32:06,025
Well...

1513
01:32:06,027 --> 01:32:07,927
Did you ever notice
anything unusual

1514
01:32:07,929 --> 01:32:11,265
in Professor Swenson's
behavior toward Ms. Argo?

1515
01:32:11,267 --> 01:32:12,333
Well...

1516
01:32:12,335 --> 01:32:15,002
Did he do anything in class
that led you to suspect

1517
01:32:15,004 --> 01:32:17,808
that he was involved
inappropriately with Ms. Argo?

1518
01:32:19,207 --> 01:32:23,476
Did you ever see him with Ms. Argo
in a venue that surprised you?

1519
01:32:23,478 --> 01:32:25,145
- Well...
- Thank you for coming in.

1520
01:32:25,147 --> 01:32:26,614
We appreciate your honesty.

1521
01:32:26,616 --> 01:32:28,082
Thank you for your courage,
Miss Williams.

1522
01:32:28,084 --> 01:32:30,251
The committee appreciates
your help.

1523
01:32:30,253 --> 01:32:34,488
Could you tell us the reason for Ms.
Argo's visits to the health clinic?

1524
01:32:34,490 --> 01:32:40,026
This one time she came in... Sherrie
Swenson and I were on duty...

1525
01:32:40,028 --> 01:32:43,364
and she said that she had
been having suicidal thoughts.

1526
01:32:43,366 --> 01:32:47,501
She was worried that she'd never
meet a man she could love.

1527
01:32:47,503 --> 01:32:49,035
How did you respond?

1528
01:32:49,037 --> 01:32:53,373
She wanted to know
how we met our husbands.

1529
01:32:53,375 --> 01:32:56,976
So we told her, and it
seemed to give her comfort.

1530
01:32:56,978 --> 01:33:00,449
Well, thank you so much
for coming.

1531
01:33:01,651 --> 01:33:04,988
Okay, Angela.
Do you feel ready?

1532
01:33:14,496 --> 01:33:17,998
Let us start by saying
that everybody understands

1533
01:33:18,000 --> 01:33:20,633
how difficult it has been
for you to do this,

1534
01:33:20,635 --> 01:33:22,703
how brave you are
for helping to make sure

1535
01:33:22,705 --> 01:33:25,375
that this kind of thing
is stopped.

1536
01:33:26,675 --> 01:33:28,374
I want to start
by asking,

1537
01:33:28,376 --> 01:33:32,011
when did you first realize
that Professor Swenson

1538
01:33:32,013 --> 01:33:34,213
was interested
in something beyond

1539
01:33:34,215 --> 01:33:37,152
the ordinary
student-teacher relationship?

1540
01:33:38,286 --> 01:33:41,387
Well, I caught him looking
at me in class a lot.

1541
01:33:41,389 --> 01:33:43,590
And then I found out

1542
01:33:43,592 --> 01:33:46,429
he checked out my book of
poems from the library.

1543
01:33:48,030 --> 01:33:52,032
And, um, I figured
something was going on.

1544
01:33:52,034 --> 01:33:54,034
How did that make you feel?

1545
01:33:54,036 --> 01:33:56,602
It creeped me out,
big time.

1546
01:33:56,604 --> 01:34:00,173
How did things
between you progress?

1547
01:34:00,175 --> 01:34:03,243
I guess it was when I told him
that my computer crashed,

1548
01:34:03,245 --> 01:34:07,047
and he offered to take me down to
Burlington to the computer store.

1549
01:34:07,049 --> 01:34:10,184
Objection, Your Honors.
I did not offer. She asked.

1550
01:34:10,186 --> 01:34:13,186
Ted, you'll get
your chance.

1551
01:34:13,188 --> 01:34:15,055
And this isn't
a court of law.

1552
01:34:15,057 --> 01:34:17,623
Addressing us as "Your
Honors" isn't necessary.

1553
01:34:17,625 --> 01:34:19,092
All right. Okay.

1554
01:34:19,094 --> 01:34:21,361
Then what happened?

1555
01:34:21,363 --> 01:34:23,730
Nothing, at first.

1556
01:34:23,732 --> 01:34:25,399
He seemed
really nervous,

1557
01:34:25,401 --> 01:34:27,601
like he was scared
someone would see us.

1558
01:34:27,603 --> 01:34:29,069
And then?

1559
01:34:29,071 --> 01:34:31,204
When we were
on our way back,

1560
01:34:31,206 --> 01:34:33,440
he started talking about
his editor in New York

1561
01:34:33,442 --> 01:34:39,316
and asked if I would like
the guy to look at my novel.

1562
01:34:40,348 --> 01:34:42,615
And that's when he
put his hand on mine

1563
01:34:42,617 --> 01:34:44,784
and moved it to my leg...

1564
01:34:44,786 --> 01:34:47,421
Oh, my God.
That is bullshit, Angela!

1565
01:34:47,423 --> 01:34:49,655
That is complete
and total bullshit!

1566
01:34:49,657 --> 01:34:51,324
- Ted.
- It's bullshit.

1567
01:34:51,326 --> 01:34:53,092
- You'll get your say.
- It's bullshit.

1568
01:34:53,094 --> 01:34:55,662
- Please.
- Excuse the interruption.

1569
01:34:55,664 --> 01:34:57,133
Please continue.

1570
01:34:58,233 --> 01:35:00,234
Anyway, when we got back
to the dorm,

1571
01:35:00,236 --> 01:35:03,636
he offered to help me carry
the computer up to my room.

1572
01:35:03,638 --> 01:35:06,375
And you told him yes?

1573
01:35:07,410 --> 01:35:10,243
I was just feeling
totally passive,

1574
01:35:10,245 --> 01:35:14,280
like I was totally out of
control of everything.

1575
01:35:14,282 --> 01:35:16,452
And what happened next,
Angela?

1576
01:35:18,653 --> 01:35:22,491
I know this is hard for you,
but we do have to know.

1577
01:35:24,527 --> 01:35:27,564
Well... um...

1578
01:35:30,198 --> 01:35:32,466
Then we sort of
had sex.

1579
01:35:32,468 --> 01:35:36,473
Or we began to,
and then his tooth cracked.

1580
01:35:39,275 --> 01:35:41,574
- And?
- That ended it.

1581
01:35:41,576 --> 01:35:44,078
How did you feel?

1582
01:35:44,080 --> 01:35:46,049
Relieved.

1583
01:35:47,817 --> 01:35:49,749
I shouldn't have done it,

1584
01:35:49,751 --> 01:35:54,187
but I guess what he was offering
in exchange was too tempting.

1585
01:35:54,189 --> 01:35:56,757
Did he keep up his end
of the bargain?

1586
01:35:56,759 --> 01:35:59,193
He lied.

1587
01:35:59,195 --> 01:36:02,162
He said his editor
wasn't interested

1588
01:36:02,164 --> 01:36:05,068
and didn't want to take
a look at my book.

1589
01:36:06,134 --> 01:36:08,101
Go ahead, honey.

1590
01:36:08,103 --> 01:36:09,735
Tell 'em.

1591
01:36:09,737 --> 01:36:12,174
- Tell them the good news.
- Good news?

1592
01:36:12,674 --> 01:36:14,177
Please.

1593
01:36:15,678 --> 01:36:20,279
About a week ago, I got a call
from a guy named Len Currie.

1594
01:36:20,281 --> 01:36:22,615
Professor Swenson's
editor.

1595
01:36:22,617 --> 01:36:25,819
He said he'd found my manuscript on
the chair where they had had lunch,

1596
01:36:25,821 --> 01:36:29,690
and he picked it up and read
it on his way home in a cab,

1597
01:36:29,692 --> 01:36:31,525
and that he...

1598
01:36:31,527 --> 01:36:34,293
he's offered me a contract
to publish it.

1599
01:36:34,295 --> 01:36:36,331
That is wonderful!

1600
01:36:39,300 --> 01:36:42,569
- Am I done?
- Yes, of course. Thank you.

1601
01:36:42,571 --> 01:36:47,207
And, uh, congratulations
on your... on your book.

1602
01:36:47,209 --> 01:36:49,479
Thanks, I guess.

1603
01:36:50,579 --> 01:36:53,215
Now I have to finish it.

1604
01:36:57,719 --> 01:37:03,293
Ted, I imagine there are now some
things that you would want to say.

1605
01:37:11,232 --> 01:37:15,104
First of all, I'd like
to say that I'm sorry.

1606
01:37:19,275 --> 01:37:22,245
Sorrier than you can
even ever imagine.

1607
01:37:25,313 --> 01:37:26,615
I'm sorry that...

1608
01:37:29,250 --> 01:37:32,252
I ruined my marriage.

1609
01:37:32,254 --> 01:37:34,654
Sorry that I ruined my career.

1610
01:37:34,656 --> 01:37:38,824
I'm sorry that I sacrificed
my extraordinary wife

1611
01:37:38,826 --> 01:37:41,396
for an adolescent idea
of romance.

1612
01:37:43,665 --> 01:37:45,932
Sorry that I can't seem
to write a novel

1613
01:37:45,934 --> 01:37:48,401
that's nearly as good
as my first.

1614
01:37:48,403 --> 01:37:50,503
Sorry that my daughter
won't speak to me.

1615
01:37:50,505 --> 01:37:53,840
Sorry that... my father
set himself on fire.

1616
01:37:53,842 --> 01:37:57,211
And I'm sorry that I've spent
the better part of a decade,

1617
01:37:57,213 --> 01:37:58,912
which I will never get back,

1618
01:37:58,914 --> 01:38:01,217
among all of you.

1619
01:38:03,719 --> 01:38:06,189
I admit that my behavior
towards Angela was...

1620
01:38:06,955 --> 01:38:09,625
inappropriate
and unprofessional.

1621
01:38:12,294 --> 01:38:15,198
I regret it.
And I regret it so much.

1622
01:38:16,831 --> 01:38:20,967
But I do not agree with the way
it's been presented here today.

1623
01:38:20,969 --> 01:38:23,470
The truth has been twisted.

1624
01:38:23,472 --> 01:38:26,175
What happened
between Angela and me...

1625
01:38:26,976 --> 01:38:31,244
was personal,
and it was complicated.

1626
01:38:31,246 --> 01:38:36,850
But it was never, ever
a business transaction.

1627
01:38:36,852 --> 01:38:38,555
That's a lie.

1628
01:38:45,728 --> 01:38:47,564
That's it.

1629
01:38:52,768 --> 01:38:55,702
Excellent. Thank you.

1630
01:38:55,704 --> 01:38:57,870
And thank you all.

1631
01:38:57,872 --> 01:39:00,907
The committee will be letting
you know its decision

1632
01:39:00,909 --> 01:39:04,746
within, let's say,
the next two weeks.

1633
01:40:17,353 --> 01:40:20,986
<i>In</i> The Blue Angel,
<i>Professor Rath, mad with grief,</i>

1634
01:40:20,988 --> 01:40:24,891
<i>wanders through the snowy
streets, broken and humiliated,</i>

1635
01:40:24,893 --> 01:40:27,360
<i>the cause of his own undoing.</i>

1636
01:40:27,362 --> 01:40:31,097
<i>He died in his classroom,
alone, forsaken,</i>

1637
01:40:31,099 --> 01:40:34,370
<i>clinging in vain
to a life no longer his.</i>

1638
01:40:35,903 --> 01:40:38,571
<i>But I'm not Professor Rath.</i>

1639
01:40:38,573 --> 01:40:41,708
<i>Yes, we both destroyed
the lives we had,</i>

1640
01:40:41,710 --> 01:40:44,377
<i>were manipulated
by forces unexplored,</i>

1641
01:40:44,379 --> 01:40:47,916
<i>feelings repressed,
ghosts from our past.</i>

1642
01:40:52,821 --> 01:40:55,588
<i>But I destroyed the lives
of others too...</i>

1643
01:40:55,590 --> 01:40:59,458
<i>those I loved the most,
those who trusted me.</i>

1644
01:40:59,460 --> 01:41:02,462
<i>And that is something
I have to live with.</i>

1645
01:41:02,464 --> 01:41:05,832
<i>"Why did I let it happen?"
I still ask myself.</i>

1646
01:41:05,834 --> 01:41:09,836
<i>Did I set myself on fire
to protest my own complacency?</i>

1647
01:41:09,838 --> 01:41:14,708
<i>Was it the only way I could shake off
my inertia and leap into the unknown?</i>

1648
01:41:14,710 --> 01:41:16,142
<i>I don't know.</i>

1649
01:41:16,144 --> 01:41:19,011
<i>All I do know
is that I'm writing again.</i>

1650
01:41:19,013 --> 01:41:20,916
<i>And for the moment,
that is enough.</i>

1651
01:41:35,030 --> 01:41:36,631
Excuse me.

1652
01:41:37,900 --> 01:41:39,501
How is that?

1653
01:41:39,503 --> 01:41:44,503
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