Ehhh I was gonna wait until the morning to reply to this but I can't sleep so uhhh I guess you're just gonna have to deal with my thoughts being hella unorganized lmao

Ok so like it's natural for you to be feeling weird right now because you're going through a major transitional period in your life and that shit's mega fucking scary. I was in a similar boat a few years ago when I graduated. Just a couple weeks before I got out of school there was a pretty big fight in my group of friends at school that ended up with the entire group breaking up and going our separate ways and that combined with me moving literally days after I got my diploma meant I went from having a large friend group to having totally no one in just the span of a couple weeks, so trust me when I say I can totally relate to what you're going though, it's hard but you just gotta push through and if you think you need it, talk to your family about getting help.

You're more than plenty smart dude, and you have literally negative reasons to feel inadequate  or like we can't connect on an intellectual level. We sit around playing Pokemon all day, you don't need much of an IQ to do that lol. I know I used to talk shit about the AP tests and shit not too long ago and I wouldn't have done it if I had known it was seriously upsetting you, I really meant it as nothing more than a joke. And I think that might be a bit indicative of what the bigger problem at play here might be. I know you've been complaining a lot about my ego lately and I think that might be because of how I've conditioned myself to act, if that makes any sense, basically what I'm trying to get at is that I've had some pretty big self esteem and confidence issues pretty much my whole life, and to counteract that, when I'm online, I take on a bit of persona where I try to act like I'm perfect and I try to play it up for comedic effect but I can see how if that's the side I'm always showing then there's really no way to tell where the joke starts and ends, so I realize now that that's something I'm going to have to work on.

That was a lot of word vomit so I hope that made some semblance on sense but moving on, I think you're being a bit self-flagellating here, everything definitely has not been all your fault, I think it's just natural that we but heads a lot, we're both loud, opinionated and argumentative it's only natural that we'd fight. And this whole time I've just been coming to accept that, we have a disagreement, we fight, we call each other retards for half an hour and then the next day we're boys again. I've always just thought that was how we worked and I was ok with it but in hindsight that's not a really healthy way to interact, but I do want you know that while you frustrate the shit out of me sometimes, I never mean you any ill will ya feel? I mean, I'll fight with you all fucking day about how bad Crawdaunt is but at the end of the day, you're still my closest homie.

So yeah I mean ideally I still want to be friends (we can't cut ties until you take a game off my Toon Link) But I think we just need to do a bit of reflection and just be a bit more chill and genuine with each other cuz like neither one of us is perfect and we don't need to try and pretend we are. So uhh let's just pretend I put some more heartfelt gay shit here and cap it all off with a little <3 <3 <3

But yeah we should still be friends cuz I got some big plans for the squad and it's gonna be kinda hot.
Oh and as a show of good will... the Anti Lucha tech is Sticky Barb ;)