Blue (2018)

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<i> I'm trying to remember the first
time I ever thought about killing myself.</i>

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<i>I was young. Maybe five or six.</i>

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<i>And at first it was just
a harmless idea.</i>

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<i>What if I wasn't here anymore?</i>

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<i>By the time I hit puberty, it
became like, an infatuation.</i>

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<i>like an imaginary friend that
would comfort me when I was alone.</i>

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<i>I knew they weren't normal feelings,
but I also knew that I wasn't normal.</i>

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Hello? Helen Daniels.

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And we have three package options for you,
and... Yes, including airfare.

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Yes, Mrs. Parker,
I have been working on those options for you.

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I... Well, I can speak
with him again.

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So, for the first one, I can get you down
to four ninety-nine including airfare

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and then also
your hotel discount.

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Hello?

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Mrs. Parker?

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Hello?

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Hey, Helen.

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- Hey.
- Hey.

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So, I think that I'm going to be feeling
a little under the weather tomorrow,

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if you know what I mean,

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so I just wanted to make sure that you
kinda had me covered if I'm not here.

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Hey, Helen.

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Wow, that dress is perfect. 'Cause you're in it.

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- Thanks.
- Hey, Mark, do you mind if I talk with you a little bit?

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I just haven't been feeling really well,
and I was wondering if you might...

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Hey, guys.

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Hi, Grams.

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Whatcha looking at?

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Oh, check.

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Check, check, check,
check, check.

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Uh, I'm not gonna get paid
until Friday, so if you can...

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Don't cash till then. Right.

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Yes. Okay, sorry about that.

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Thank you.

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Oh, by the way, she
hasn't eaten dinner yet.

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Be right back, Grams.

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Okay. Almost done, Grams.

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Hi, Mark.

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I know. I am so sorry. I will
be there as soon as I can.

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Yeah, well it should have
been a couple hours ago.

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I'm really sorry.
Okay, thanks. Bye.

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- Oh, my God, where were you?
- Bus.

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- The bus was two hours late?
- It happens.

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Okay.

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I already washed and fed her,
so if you could just...

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- Be here.
- Got it.

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Okay. Bye, Grams.

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Helen. Good to see you.

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Hey, Mark.

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I am so sorry that I was late this morning.
I know it's been happening a lot.

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It's just, I'm having...

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Look, I completely understand, okay?
That's what I've been telling everyone.

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I have to let you know.
There's another round of layoffs coming down

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and your name has
been floating around.

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Right, okay. Well, I will do my best
to make sure it doesn't happen again.

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- I swear. And I...
- I know. I got your back, okay?

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Just... just realize that anything you
ever need... I'll be here for you.

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Oh.

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Thanks.

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Thank you. That's...

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- Of course.
- That's really nice.

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So I was thinking,
if you're free tonight,

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maybe you and I go out for
a couple of drinks? On me.

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Um, well, I usually have to get home
pretty fast 'cause my grandmother...

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they are waiting - for me most of the time.
Helen, I'm not gonna take no

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for an answer, okay? Look.

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We're a couple of adults who work hard
and we deserve to have some fun, too.

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Yeah. Sorry, could you
just hang on one second?

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Ms.Daniels, is that
a work call or...?

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- Helen.
- Hello?

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- Yeah, yeah. Is she okay?
- You know we have a no cell phone policy.

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Okay, well, are they
on their way?

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Yes. Yes, I will be right there.
Thank you. Yeah, bye.

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- Excuse me, what was that about?
- I'm sorry. I have to go. It's an emergency.

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- It's an emergency.
- Where do you think you're going?

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Please don't touch me.

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I'm just trying to help you.
I know you want me to help.

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Don't...

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Ms. Daniels, walk
out that door...

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You're fired!

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Damn it!

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Get back to work!

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- What's going on? Is she okay?
- Is she your grandmother?

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Yes, yes. She's my
grandmother. Is she okay?

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Well, the oxygen tank's
main valve was leaking.

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<i>It hasn't been replaced in
months. There was no backups.</i>

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<i>We changed the air filter and the main valve,
of course. The tank is also old.</i>

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<i>I suggest you order it
some backups.</i>

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I will. Okay, I will.

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If I can just get you to sign.

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Yeah, yeah.

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Thank you. Thank you so much for staying.
I really appreciate it.

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- Do you have a minute to talk?
- Yeah. Yeah, what's up?

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Helen, I... I have to quit.

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- You what?
- I'm sorry.

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I need you.

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I think what you do for your
grandma is amazing. Honestly.

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But I have to take care
of my family, too.

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I get it. I get it.

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Just...

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It didn't go through?

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Just... just buy her
the stuff that she needs.

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I can't. I cannot do that.
I can't take this.

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You don't have any
other options, Helen.

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It's fine.

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- Bye, Helen.
- Bye.

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It's okay.

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Aww, Dad was cute.

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Is that Grandpa?

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He smoked a pipe?
You let him smoke a pipe?

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I cannot believe that.

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Hey, hey, hey.
Let's leave that on, okay?

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Okay?

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You know what I bet
we could find?

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Grandpa's favorite.

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<i>♪ If I could have a dream
I wouldn't be so blue ♪</i>

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Mm.

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It's the laundry.

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I will be right back.

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<i>♪ When I go to sleep
I just keep counting sheep ♪</i>

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<i>♪ If I could have a dream ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'd have a dream
Of you, sweetheart ♪</i>

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Grams, you asleep already?

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Grams?

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<i>♪ Every day I see you passing ♪</i>

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<i>- ♪ But you don't notice me ♪</i>
- Grams?

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<i>♪ It makes me want to cry ♪</i>

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- <i>♪ I long to see your face ♪</i>
- Grams? Grandma?

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<i>♪ When I close my eyes ♪</i>

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- Grandma?<i>
- ♪ I wake up in the Morning and sigh ♪</i>

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Grandma.

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Grandma.

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I love you.

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I know,
I can't believe it.

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You know, I didn't see
the granddaughter around.

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Mmm. Surprise, surprise.
I'm sure she's celebrating right now.

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Oh, don't say that!

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Well,

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she doesn't have to take care of a sick
old woman and she gets a free house.

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I wouldn't be surprised if she
suffocated Katharine with a pillow.

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- Oh, you don't really think that?
- Yes, I do.

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<i> Production
is starting soon.</i>

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No.

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- Not answering.
<i>-  Please leave a message after the tone.</i>

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<i>Hey, Helen.
This is Jenna from work.</i>

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<i>I just wanted to say happy birthday,
or happy almost birthday.</i>

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<i>- I know you got fired and everything...
-</i> Oh, shit.

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<i>but your birthday is still
up on the office calendar</i>

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<i>- and you know we grab drinks every Friday.
-</i> No.

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<i>- So if you didn't have any plans...
-</i> I do have plans.

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<i>...you should totally stop by.</i>

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<i>Oh, yeah, Mark won't be there.</i>

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<i>Give me a call if you need the address. I don't
think you've been there with us. Let me know.</i>

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Hello?

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Hey.

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Oh, sorry. So sorry.

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Hey, Jenna.

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- Hey, girl. Happy birthday!
- Oh, thank you.

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I wish you got here
sooner. I'm about to leave.

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You're leaving now?
Where are you going?

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Where do you think I'm going?

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- Hi.
- Oh. Hi.

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But you stay.
You make sure everybody buys you a drink.

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Well, yeah, I'm not really
sure that I know anybody.

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And do not worry 'cause
there are tons of hot guys.

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Tell everybody
that you got super fired.

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They will pity you
and it will be amazing.

168
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Actually, can we get shots?
I would like shots for my friend here.

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Just one for you, and one for you for later.
And I am gonna bring my friend Brian with me.

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Oh, God, isn't that delicious?

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- It's Thomas.
- Hi, Thomas.

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That sounds nothing
like Brian.

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She's crashing.

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Come on, sweetie. Stay with us.

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- Is this her?
- Yeah.

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I heard if she doesn't wake up tomorrow
afternoon they're gonna kill the machine.

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What about her family?

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They couldn't
find anyone.

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See those fake flowers over
there? Donated by the gift shop.

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- That's depressing.
- Yep.

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- You think she can hear us?
- She's in a coma, you moron.

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Come on. We have live
patients to check on.

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I can take
the tube out, okay?

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All right. There you go.

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You're okay. You're okay.

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You're all right.
You're all right.

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I'm gonna give you something
to relax you, okay?

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There you go. There you go.

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Now we're gonna take
the tube out, okay?

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There we go.

191
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Now your throat will be sore for a
few days but you're gonna be fine.

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Morning.

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Oh, I'm so sorry for waking
you up, but how you feeling?

194
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Oh, no. You can't talk yet.

195
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Sorry. Just wanted to check on
you before the end of my shift.

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My name is Tori, and
I'm a psychiatric nurse.

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Also, I work with Dr. Carol.

198
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Now, she will be your primary doctor,
and she'll be around tomorrow.

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Hey.

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Yeah?

201
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Can you untie me?

202
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Oh, yeah. I'm not supposed to.

203
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You gave the other nurses
a really hard time.

204
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Please?

205
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No hittin', no spittin',
no bitin'. Deal?

206
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Promise.

207
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You know,

208
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I just had a feeling
you were gonna make it.

209
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It was touch and
go there for a bit.

210
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I gotcha.

211
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All right, you are free.

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- Oh, thank you.
- Yeah, you're welcome.

213
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I bet you're starving.
Oh, here. Here we go.

214
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Yeah, let's get you some
nourishment. All right.

215
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Here we go. I'm going to
bring you up. Here we go.

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Oopsie daisy.
Yep, it's a fun ride.

217
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Oh, you like puddin'?

218
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I can get you
some extra puddin'.

219
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You know, I can't really get hot stuff 'cause,
you know, it's hard to transport and all,

220
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but puddin', they just keep it in this great
big cabinet and no one's ever around and

221
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you can just grab lots of 'em.

222
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It just hits
the spot, doesn't it?

223
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Would you like some
help, Ms. Daniels?

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- Do I know you?
- Not yet.

225
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I'm Dr. Carol.

226
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Hi, Dr. Carol.

227
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I'll be overseeing your stay with
us while you're in recovery.

228
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Ah, sounds fun.

229
00:21:24,517 --> 00:21:27,818
So I wanna show you your X-rays.

230
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These are your internal organs. Now,
these little white spots. these are holes

231
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from the explosions
inside of your body.

232
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Wait. Explosions?
I have explosions?

233
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Yes, from the rat poison.

234
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Calcium cyanide.
It's been illegal in this country since 1993.

235
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The tiniest of dosage is lethal,
but of course, you knew that.

236
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It must not be that lethal.

237
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Fortunately for you, you didn't turn
off the stove which set off your alarm.

238
00:21:55,648 --> 00:21:58,616
Your neighbors heard it
and called 911.

239
00:22:00,687 --> 00:22:02,053
Well, aren't they sweet?

240
00:22:02,055 --> 00:22:06,457
Look, could we just cut the shit here
and you tell me when I get to go home?

241
00:22:06,459 --> 00:22:08,459
Well, that is entirely
up to you.

242
00:22:08,461 --> 00:22:10,995
My job is to make sure that you
are not only physically healthy

243
00:22:10,997 --> 00:22:15,933
but mentally stable so that you can
go home or to a psychiatric facility.

244
00:22:17,003 --> 00:22:20,771
I'm sorry. Are you talking
about a mental institution?

245
00:22:21,641 --> 00:22:22,907
You can't do that.

246
00:22:23,576 --> 00:22:26,027
Yes, I can.

247
00:22:26,028 --> 00:22:28,479
If I think that you're a danger
to yourself or others. Yeah.

248
00:22:28,481 --> 00:22:30,781
So, you're telling me
I need to impress you?

249
00:22:33,586 --> 00:22:36,854
- Hello?
- No, not... not necessarily.

250
00:22:36,856 --> 00:22:41,092
Okay, then what? Tell me what I need
to do to get the hell outta here.

251
00:22:41,094 --> 00:22:46,630
When you are able to walk on your own,
we'll have a meeting in my office.

252
00:22:47,400 --> 00:22:48,966
You try to have
a good weekend.

253
00:22:50,570 --> 00:22:52,002
Yeah, you too.

254
00:23:02,815 --> 00:23:06,150
Can I get you a walker?
Maybe you can get out and get some fresh air.

255
00:23:18,631 --> 00:23:21,799
Where in the hell
is the fucking cafeteria?

256
00:23:22,635 --> 00:23:26,771
This place can't have any placards to tell
people where to go in this stupid shithole?

257
00:23:30,476 --> 00:23:32,510
I'm sorry, can I help
you with something?

258
00:23:32,979 --> 00:23:35,413
What? No, it's just...

259
00:23:36,883 --> 00:23:39,517
You know you don't have
to use those gowns, right?

260
00:23:40,820 --> 00:23:43,487
- What the fuck are you talking about?
- Never mind.

261
00:23:44,023 --> 00:23:46,703
You're looking for the cafeteria, right?
It's on this floor.

262
00:23:48,728 --> 00:23:51,195
Of course it is. Thanks.

263
00:23:55,468 --> 00:23:58,169
You know, it's
actually that way.

264
00:23:58,704 --> 00:24:01,205
You know, maybe I am just
getting some exercise, okay?

265
00:24:01,207 --> 00:24:03,541
Is it any of your goddamn
business? No.

266
00:24:03,543 --> 00:24:04,575
All right.

267
00:25:08,207 --> 00:25:11,108
Well, this has been
a real wake-up call.

268
00:25:12,578 --> 00:25:16,113
You know, I guess it never occurred
to me that I really might die.

269
00:25:16,782 --> 00:25:19,783
and now that I've seen the
consequences, it's like-

270
00:25:21,053 --> 00:25:24,054
it's like I have a whole
new perspective on my life

271
00:25:24,056 --> 00:25:27,057
and I know that I have
to keep going because

272
00:25:27,760 --> 00:25:29,593
that's what Grams
would have wanted.

273
00:25:30,029 --> 00:25:31,629
That's very impressive.

274
00:25:31,631 --> 00:25:35,966
I just hope you can give the same
enthusiasm to your treatment

275
00:25:35,968 --> 00:25:37,902
as you just gave
that little speech.

276
00:25:40,306 --> 00:25:41,305
Excuse me?

277
00:25:41,307 --> 00:25:44,775
Do you have any idea how
many people try that on me?

278
00:25:45,611 --> 00:25:50,681
Try what? I'm... I'm just telling you.
Like, this was a one-time kinda thing.

279
00:25:51,117 --> 00:25:53,083
I mean, I left the
stove on, for Christ sake.

280
00:25:53,085 --> 00:25:55,152
That's gotta be a cry
for help, right?

281
00:25:55,154 --> 00:25:56,220
A cry for help?

282
00:25:56,222 --> 00:25:59,723
Do you realize since you've been admitted
that you've not had one phone call,

283
00:25:59,725 --> 00:26:01,926
not one visitor and I
just have to wonder

284
00:26:02,228 --> 00:26:04,828
what exactly are you living for?

285
00:26:10,570 --> 00:26:11,769
Does it really matter?

286
00:26:12,838 --> 00:26:14,838
Yes, it matters.
Your life matters.

287
00:26:14,840 --> 00:26:17,775
- No, not my life.
- Does it matter to you,

288
00:26:18,077 --> 00:26:20,945
or to anybody in this hospital
for that matter because

289
00:26:20,947 --> 00:26:23,781
apparently if my coma
lasted a few more hours

290
00:26:23,783 --> 00:26:28,786
you guys were gonna kill the machines and
we would not be having this conversation.

291
00:26:28,788 --> 00:26:31,622
- Who told you that?
- Tell me it's not true.

292
00:26:32,258 --> 00:26:35,125
Well, there's a lot of co-factors
that go into a decision like this.

293
00:26:35,127 --> 00:26:36,744
I'm sure there are.

294
00:26:36,745 --> 00:26:38,362
You know, there's irreversible brain
damage after twenty-four hours.

295
00:26:38,364 --> 00:26:40,798
You know what? Fuck this.

296
00:26:40,799 --> 00:26:43,719
Ms. Daniels, you have experienced
a tremendous amount of trauma.

297
00:26:44,270 --> 00:26:45,836
Trauma?

298
00:26:46,872 --> 00:26:48,872
Are you talking
about the rat poison?

299
00:26:49,875 --> 00:26:54,044
The drooling and the sweating and
the black dots popping in my mouth?

300
00:26:54,046 --> 00:26:58,682
Or me looking for my teeth in my own
vomit because I thought they'd fell out?

301
00:26:59,318 --> 00:27:02,052
You think that was trauma?
Are you fuckin' stupid?

302
00:27:03,623 --> 00:27:06,924
All of that, and I was still having
a better day than the one before.

303
00:27:08,995 --> 00:27:11,261
This is the trauma.

304
00:27:13,899 --> 00:27:17,334
You know, the sooner we do this,
the sooner you get to go home.

305
00:27:19,939 --> 00:27:23,774
Okay, let's talk a little bit
more about your family history.

306
00:27:24,243 --> 00:27:27,878
Are there any medical conditions
in your family that you're aware of?

307
00:27:31,150 --> 00:27:32,182
Ms. Daniels?

308
00:27:33,753 --> 00:27:35,553
I think you forgot
to water your plant.

309
00:27:36,889 --> 00:27:37,888
I may have.

310
00:27:37,890 --> 00:27:41,792
Are there any medical conditions
that you're aware of?

311
00:27:42,228 --> 00:27:44,662
No, not that I'm aware of.

312
00:27:45,865 --> 00:27:48,932
- Your father died in a car accident, correct?
- Yep.

313
00:27:49,802 --> 00:27:52,269
- And your mother?
- Ran away.

314
00:27:52,938 --> 00:27:54,071
Your grandmother?

315
00:27:56,142 --> 00:27:59,810
- You know your clock is wrong, right?
- Your grandmother?

316
00:28:00,813 --> 00:28:05,149
She died of ALS and I'm pretty sure
that you have that information already.

317
00:28:05,151 --> 00:28:06,250
Yes, I do.

318
00:28:08,254 --> 00:28:11,855
Have you reconsidered my suggestion
about you taking medication?

319
00:28:11,857 --> 00:28:14,391
Well, I've been on
antidepressants my whole life

320
00:28:14,393 --> 00:28:16,226
and it doesn't really
feel like they worked.

321
00:28:16,228 --> 00:28:19,096
Well, then let's look at a new dosage,
maybe another medication.

322
00:28:19,098 --> 00:28:21,065
We'll just figure
out what works.

323
00:28:21,767 --> 00:28:22,866
Whatever you want.

324
00:28:26,105 --> 00:28:27,438
All right, let's move on.

325
00:28:27,440 --> 00:28:34,311
On a scale of one to ten, one being
least likely, ten being most likely,

326
00:28:34,313 --> 00:28:37,047
how often do you have
suicidal thoughts?

327
00:28:39,285 --> 00:28:42,920
What about your job? Do you
have other sources of income?

328
00:28:42,922 --> 00:28:45,289
No, but my grandma
left me some money.

329
00:28:45,291 --> 00:28:48,025
Not a lot, but it should cover
me until I get a new job.

330
00:28:50,896 --> 00:28:53,063
- Hey, Helen.
- Hey, Tori.

331
00:28:53,065 --> 00:28:56,867
And what about health insurance?
You were on your grandmother's plan, right?

332
00:28:56,869 --> 00:28:59,737
No, she was on Medicaid.
Why is Tori here?

333
00:28:59,739 --> 00:29:01,238
Do I need two therapists?

334
00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:04,007
- Ms. Daniels...
- Helen.

335
00:29:04,777 --> 00:29:09,446
There's been an issue with your health insurance
and Tori is here to walk you through it.

336
00:29:10,983 --> 00:29:12,082
Okay.

337
00:29:12,084 --> 00:29:17,121
So we've been in contact with your
previous employer's insurance

338
00:29:17,123 --> 00:29:21,425
and when you got fired,
you also lost your medical benefits.

339
00:29:22,928 --> 00:29:24,862
- What?
- As of right now,

340
00:29:24,864 --> 00:29:29,166
you're responsible for all medical
bills incurred at this hospital.

341
00:29:29,168 --> 00:29:34,505
No, no. I had a contract, like...
like pension coverage or something.

342
00:29:34,507 --> 00:29:39,176
But the incident is being listed as a suicide
attempt, which means that your home insurance

343
00:29:39,178 --> 00:29:41,478
is not likely to cover the
damages at the house.

344
00:29:41,981 --> 00:29:43,547
You've had so much
improvement lately.

345
00:29:43,549 --> 00:29:45,449
I know it seems like
a lot right now.

346
00:29:45,451 --> 00:29:49,887
It is not a lot, Tori.
I told you not to coddle her.

347
00:29:49,889 --> 00:29:54,825
Could you excuse me, please?
I... I need some air.

348
00:29:57,396 --> 00:30:00,531
- What is wrong with you, Diane?
- You know my views on coddling patients.

349
00:30:00,533 --> 00:30:03,333
- I know she... she may be a little...
- Rude, insensitive, selfish.

350
00:30:03,335 --> 00:30:04,301
I was gonna say willful.

351
00:30:04,303 --> 00:30:06,103
You have a soft spot for her.

352
00:30:06,438 --> 00:30:09,373
- No, I do not.
- Oh, really? Really?

353
00:30:09,375 --> 00:30:12,409
Because I understand that you've
been smuggling pudding to her.

354
00:30:13,012 --> 00:30:16,146
Just the occasional chocolate.

355
00:30:22,488 --> 00:30:24,454
- Hey, it's gown girl.
- Oh, God!

356
00:30:24,456 --> 00:30:25,923
I didn't mean to scare you.

357
00:30:28,260 --> 00:30:30,460
It's fine. It's fine.

358
00:30:30,462 --> 00:30:34,097
I'm Robert. I pointed you in the
direction of the cafeteria the other day.

359
00:30:35,267 --> 00:30:37,868
- Yeah. Yeah, I remember. I...
- Are you okay?

360
00:30:39,038 --> 00:30:41,505
Hey, come here. Sit...
just sit down for a second.

361
00:30:41,507 --> 00:30:43,240
I'm fine.

362
00:30:43,241 --> 00:30:45,281
- Just for a second.
- I'm fine. I got it, I got it.

363
00:30:45,311 --> 00:30:47,377
- Should I call a doctor?
- Do not call a doctor.

364
00:30:47,379 --> 00:30:54,117
Okay, well then just put your head between
your legs and breathe through your nose.

365
00:30:54,119 --> 00:30:56,320
- Okay, okay.
- Here.

366
00:30:58,224 --> 00:30:59,523
So...

367
00:30:59,525 --> 00:31:01,992
Uh, bad day?

368
00:31:02,361 --> 00:31:04,228
Yeah, I guess
you could say that.

369
00:31:05,631 --> 00:31:08,398
Keep breathing.
You want... you wanna tell me what happened?

370
00:31:09,902 --> 00:31:12,202
Apparently I do
not have insurance

371
00:31:12,204 --> 00:31:15,906
and I cannot afford to stay
at this fucking hospital.

372
00:31:16,242 --> 00:31:17,541
Are you sure
this actually works?

373
00:31:17,543 --> 00:31:19,243
I don't know.
Do you feel any better?

374
00:31:19,578 --> 00:31:23,013
- No. No, not really.
- Just... So

375
00:31:23,015 --> 00:31:26,083
you said apparently you don't have insurance.
What happened there?

376
00:31:26,085 --> 00:31:27,085
Uh...

377
00:31:28,020 --> 00:31:30,020
I got fired from my last job

378
00:31:30,022 --> 00:31:34,258
and now the insurance, I guess, is saying
that I quit so I get no fucking benefits.

379
00:31:34,260 --> 00:31:36,493
My doctor's being
pretty soulless about it.

380
00:31:36,495 --> 00:31:37,561
Who's your doctor?

381
00:31:38,264 --> 00:31:40,898
Her name is Dr. Carol.

382
00:31:40,900 --> 00:31:44,067
She says that I should see
my new debt as a challenge.

383
00:31:44,470 --> 00:31:46,637
- Damn. Wow.
- I know.

384
00:31:46,639 --> 00:31:50,073
Yeah, for a psychiatric professional,
she seems a little out of touch.

385
00:31:50,075 --> 00:31:53,143
- Oh, I'd be so pissed.
- Oh, I am pissed.

386
00:31:53,679 --> 00:31:54,945
This is you pissed?

387
00:31:54,947 --> 00:31:58,682
Yeah, like... like lightheaded
and panicked and yes, pissed.

388
00:31:58,684 --> 00:32:03,020
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Come on, you can do better than that. Get up.

389
00:32:04,390 --> 00:32:07,090
- You just told me to sit down.
- Yeah, I know what I said. Just stand up for a second.

390
00:32:07,092 --> 00:32:09,412
- Get up.
- Okay, all right. All right. All right.

391
00:32:10,396 --> 00:32:12,462
- Try this with me, okay?
- Okay.

392
00:32:15,668 --> 00:32:18,068
Try it. Come on,
come on, come on.

393
00:32:18,069 --> 00:32:20,469
Don't look around. Nobody comes out
here anyway. Just do, don't think.

394
00:32:22,675 --> 00:32:23,675
Yeah!

395
00:32:28,113 --> 00:32:29,513
Yeah, let it out!

396
00:32:34,119 --> 00:32:35,119
All right.

397
00:32:36,155 --> 00:32:37,254
How do you feel?

398
00:32:39,692 --> 00:32:41,491
- Good.
- Yeah, right?

399
00:32:42,494 --> 00:32:45,012
Yelling is good.

400
00:32:45,013 --> 00:32:47,531
Look, I gotta... I gotta run,
but. you gonna be okay?

401
00:32:47,533 --> 00:32:50,701
Yeah, yeah. I think so. Thanks.

402
00:32:52,538 --> 00:32:54,237
I'm Helen, by the way.

403
00:32:55,007 --> 00:32:56,239
I'm Robert.

404
00:32:56,241 --> 00:33:03,241
Hey, look, if you ever decide to like,
actually get insurance, use that.

405
00:33:19,698 --> 00:33:21,365
Answer me.

406
00:33:21,367 --> 00:33:23,200
I think I said no.

407
00:33:23,202 --> 00:33:26,236
Please. Just put
her in my group.

408
00:33:26,238 --> 00:33:29,673
You know, Tori, I love
that you believe in people.

409
00:33:29,675 --> 00:33:34,177
I... I really do, but I don't think
that she's ready to be discharged yet.

410
00:33:34,179 --> 00:33:36,680
Well, how much longer
do you want her to stay?

411
00:33:40,085 --> 00:33:43,653
A week.
- I don't know. - You know she can't afford that.

412
00:33:44,523 --> 00:33:48,191
Her labs are good, her organs are working
better. You said she's been opening up.

413
00:33:48,193 --> 00:33:51,228
She's had one
good session. One.

414
00:33:53,298 --> 00:33:56,600
Put her in my next group,
and we'll keep an eye on her.

415
00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:02,439
Okay.

416
00:34:07,446 --> 00:34:09,963
Here's your paperwork.

417
00:34:09,964 --> 00:34:12,481
- My paperwork?
- You will be meeting with me every Wednesday at 3:00

418
00:34:12,484 --> 00:34:14,584
and group therapy
is Fridays at 5:00.

419
00:34:15,421 --> 00:34:18,188
It's a twenty-week program.
Provided you make progress.

420
00:34:18,190 --> 00:34:20,724
For every session
you miss, I add two.

421
00:34:21,427 --> 00:34:22,592
Is that clear?

422
00:34:23,829 --> 00:34:28,432
Clear. Wait. Are you
telling me that I'm free?

423
00:34:28,434 --> 00:34:30,600
Yes, you're free to leave.

424
00:34:31,303 --> 00:34:32,502
But if you relapse

425
00:34:33,072 --> 00:34:34,337
or I feel that you're at risk,

426
00:34:34,339 --> 00:34:37,808
I will make sure that you get
outside help. You understand?

427
00:34:38,477 --> 00:34:40,210
- You mean from a mental hospital?
- Yes.

428
00:34:40,212 --> 00:34:41,678
Yeah. Yeah, I understand.

429
00:34:42,381 --> 00:34:44,848
Um, thank you.

430
00:34:46,485 --> 00:34:47,784
Good luck, Ms. Daniels.

431
00:34:50,122 --> 00:34:51,621
See you on Wednesday.

432
00:36:27,819 --> 00:36:30,487
I told them I can't make
that kind of payment.

433
00:36:31,823 --> 00:36:35,592
Okay, I... I will. Thank
you. Yeah, bye.

434
00:36:38,197 --> 00:36:40,931
Excuse me, is this the
unemployment center?

435
00:36:43,402 --> 00:36:44,501
Thanks.

436
00:36:53,345 --> 00:36:54,911
This is some horseshit.

437
00:36:56,215 --> 00:36:59,616
Five minutes.
Yeah, right, five minutes!

438
00:37:01,553 --> 00:37:02,819
What are you lookin' at?

439
00:37:04,690 --> 00:37:06,256
It's like I live here.

440
00:37:06,258 --> 00:37:11,394
I'm gonna be dead before I get in there.
My cow will be dead before I get in there.

441
00:37:14,733 --> 00:37:18,401
Someone get me a bed
and squeeze me some OJ!

442
00:37:23,242 --> 00:37:24,841
I think I might even trip you.

443
00:37:34,886 --> 00:37:36,953
About fucking time.

444
00:37:51,970 --> 00:37:53,503
Hey!

445
00:37:53,505 --> 00:37:56,906
I'm sorry, are you
closing for the day?

446
00:37:56,908 --> 00:37:58,942
On Fridays, we close at 2:00.

447
00:37:59,845 --> 00:38:02,396
Did you make an appointment?

448
00:38:02,397 --> 00:38:05,717
No, I didn't even know that I could make
an appointment, but I have a number.

449
00:38:06,852 --> 00:38:08,885
Ma'am, I'm really sorry that
we can't assist you today.

450
00:38:08,887 --> 00:38:11,087
But feel free to take one
of our job listings packets.

451
00:38:14,359 --> 00:38:15,325
Thanks.

452
00:38:15,327 --> 00:38:18,695
And AZT, they increased
their prices again on me.

453
00:38:19,965 --> 00:38:24,668
It has me a little worried. Gotta keep an
eye on my CD-4s, my white blood cells.

454
00:38:25,904 --> 00:38:29,372
you know, because if they come
down a little too low, then

455
00:38:30,475 --> 00:38:33,610
I become a walking
death sentence, AIDS.

456
00:38:34,780 --> 00:38:37,814
It's okay, they're making these
amazing cocktails nowadays.

457
00:38:37,816 --> 00:38:40,750
They just got me
hopeful and grateful

458
00:38:41,787 --> 00:38:42,986
for another moment.

459
00:38:44,956 --> 00:38:50,760
All right. Well, thank you, everybody, so
much for being here. Really glad you made it.

460
00:38:53,365 --> 00:38:54,397
Yeah.

461
00:38:57,035 --> 00:38:58,035
Hey.

462
00:38:58,704 --> 00:38:59,736
Hey.

463
00:38:59,738 --> 00:39:02,606
Is everything okay?

464
00:39:02,607 --> 00:39:05,475
Oh, yeah. I'm just still looking for a job.
I mean, a decent-paying job.

465
00:39:05,477 --> 00:39:07,043
Give yourself a break.

466
00:39:07,546 --> 00:39:10,013
It's only been a couple weeks.
Something's gonna come up.

467
00:39:10,015 --> 00:39:12,749
Yeah, but my bills are probably
gonna come up first.

468
00:39:13,752 --> 00:39:16,820
Well, just try not
to stress too much.

469
00:39:17,923 --> 00:39:20,390
- Are you staying?
- Yeah, yeah. Is that okay?

470
00:39:20,392 --> 00:39:24,427
I just... I wanted to find a couple more
places to drop my resume on the way home.

471
00:39:25,564 --> 00:39:28,965
Yeah, okay. Well, I guess
I'll see you next week then.

472
00:39:28,967 --> 00:39:29,967
Okay.

473
00:39:30,502 --> 00:39:31,935
And call me if you
need anything.

474
00:39:31,937 --> 00:39:32,937
I will.

475
00:39:34,473 --> 00:39:35,939
- Bye.
- Bye, Tori.

476
00:39:58,130 --> 00:40:01,431
Hi, yes, I'm looking for Robert.

477
00:40:01,900 --> 00:40:03,900
Or, oh, Mr. Perkins.

478
00:40:06,171 --> 00:40:07,837
No, probably not.

479
00:40:10,409 --> 00:40:13,042
Okay, well, can I just
leave a message?

480
00:40:14,513 --> 00:40:16,479
Yeah, Helen Daniels.

481
00:40:18,150 --> 00:40:20,583
Wait, don't you need my number?

482
00:40:22,988 --> 00:40:25,722
Yeah, yeah. It's 513...

483
00:41:29,554 --> 00:41:30,554
Hello?

484
00:41:49,207 --> 00:41:51,741
Uh, next Wednesday?
Another meeting?

485
00:41:51,743 --> 00:41:53,676
- Perfect. We'll be there.
- All right, perfect. Okay.

486
00:41:53,678 --> 00:41:54,644
Thank you. Take care.

487
00:41:54,646 --> 00:41:56,045
Well, hello, gown girl.

488
00:41:56,047 --> 00:41:59,616
Well, hello, health
insurance guy.

489
00:42:00,018 --> 00:42:02,352
- Pretty clever, huh?
- Oh, yeah.

490
00:42:02,353 --> 00:42:04,687
Hey, by the way, I'm really sorry I
gotta squeeze you into my lunch break.

491
00:42:04,689 --> 00:42:07,056
Hey, no problem. I'm just
appreciative that you called me back.

492
00:42:07,058 --> 00:42:09,792
No, absolutely. Look, I would have
called sooner, but I was out of town.

493
00:42:09,794 --> 00:42:12,874
Hey, could you do me a favor and
have the car brought around? Thanks.

494
00:42:13,565 --> 00:42:16,766
Wait, are we leaving leaving?
Like the whole building?

495
00:42:19,571 --> 00:42:23,873
Okay, right.
Look, Jeff, just... just listen.

496
00:42:23,875 --> 00:42:27,010
I'm... I'm not going to take anything
less than five million, okay?

497
00:42:27,612 --> 00:42:28,578
Huh?

498
00:42:28,580 --> 00:42:29,679
The sandwich.

499
00:42:29,681 --> 00:42:35,785
Yeah, no. Not you. You tell Skylar
that I am set on a five million,

500
00:42:35,787 --> 00:42:38,221
two-year contract with
two percent royalties.

501
00:42:39,624 --> 00:42:41,157
No. Yes, I'm still here.

502
00:42:42,594 --> 00:42:43,626
Okay.

503
00:42:44,062 --> 00:42:45,795
Yeah. That sounds good.

504
00:42:49,234 --> 00:42:50,150
Okay, well,

505
00:42:50,151 --> 00:42:51,751
just call me back
if you need me.

506
00:42:52,103 --> 00:42:54,170
Perfect. All right. Great.

507
00:42:56,007 --> 00:42:58,341
- Eat it.
- Oh. Okay.

508
00:42:59,644 --> 00:43:03,846
- What was that about?
- Campaign for a new line of nail clippers for pets.

509
00:43:05,317 --> 00:43:07,917
I didn't know that
you guys insured pets.

510
00:43:07,919 --> 00:43:10,620
Well, we like money.
We insure everyone,

511
00:43:11,723 --> 00:43:13,222
including our new employees.

512
00:43:14,092 --> 00:43:16,993
Okay, could you... could
you hold this, please?

513
00:43:16,995 --> 00:43:18,294
Okay, thank you.

514
00:43:18,296 --> 00:43:24,867
I printed off my resume for you and I know I
already warned you that it's not long, but...

515
00:43:24,869 --> 00:43:26,920
Let's see.

516
00:43:26,921 --> 00:43:28,972
I'm a really fast learner and I know
all the basic computer programs.

517
00:43:28,974 --> 00:43:32,141
I'm also a pretty decent typer,
but I don't know much about the paralegal

518
00:43:32,143 --> 00:43:34,021
- stuff you talked about.
- Helen, you have the job.

519
00:43:34,045 --> 00:43:35,144
I'm sorry. What?

520
00:43:35,146 --> 00:43:37,146
It's not that fancy.
Kind of boring.

521
00:43:37,782 --> 00:43:40,862
But there's a lot of room for
promotion and you get your own office.

522
00:43:41,386 --> 00:43:43,686
- Really?
- Really, really.

523
00:43:46,758 --> 00:43:47,957
Are you sure?

524
00:43:48,693 --> 00:43:51,461
Yes, I'm sure.

525
00:43:51,462 --> 00:43:54,230
But I thought we were gonna have
an interview, not a sandwich.

526
00:43:54,232 --> 00:43:55,798
Okay, I have one question.

527
00:43:59,104 --> 00:44:00,670
Look, I'm gonna be honest.

528
00:44:01,306 --> 00:44:03,006
People at that hospital talk.

529
00:44:03,942 --> 00:44:05,908
There's no secret
why you were admitted.

530
00:44:06,978 --> 00:44:07,978
So

531
00:44:08,813 --> 00:44:09,813
interview question.

532
00:44:10,315 --> 00:44:11,315
Okay.

533
00:44:12,717 --> 00:44:13,750
Why'd you do it?

534
00:44:16,955 --> 00:44:19,315
- You mean, like why did I try to...?
- Yeah.

535
00:44:20,759 --> 00:44:21,759
Wow.

536
00:44:22,894 --> 00:44:24,794
Okay, um...

537
00:44:28,900 --> 00:44:31,300
Wow, I did not prepare
that question.

538
00:44:32,270 --> 00:44:33,270
I guess.

539
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:37,907
I just didn't wanna
do life anymore.

540
00:44:39,010 --> 00:44:41,310
But you do now?
You... you wanna do life?

541
00:44:42,681 --> 00:44:43,681
Well, I'm...

542
00:44:44,749 --> 00:44:46,449
I'm here. I'm... I'm trying.

543
00:44:48,353 --> 00:44:49,419
Okay.

544
00:44:49,421 --> 00:44:50,421
Okay?

545
00:44:51,022 --> 00:44:52,755
Simple but solid answer.

546
00:44:53,825 --> 00:44:55,992
You really don't have
much of a filter, do you?

547
00:44:56,928 --> 00:44:59,028
No. You'll get used to that.

548
00:45:00,832 --> 00:45:03,833
Look, I'm not here to judge
you, Helen. I just had to ask.

549
00:45:04,769 --> 00:45:06,202
Well, I didn't have to,
but I wanted to.

550
00:45:06,204 --> 00:45:08,871
Yeah? Yeah, Jeff,
we're on our way back.

551
00:45:08,873 --> 00:45:10,373
Okay, good.

552
00:45:10,375 --> 00:45:11,174
Hey.

553
00:45:11,176 --> 00:45:14,377
- Hey, can I ask you a question?
- Sure.

554
00:45:14,879 --> 00:45:18,281
I mean, it's not that I'm not grateful,
and please don't change your mind, but

555
00:45:18,850 --> 00:45:21,751
- why would you wanna hire someone like me?
- Someone who can type?

556
00:45:21,753 --> 00:45:24,053
No, no, no. Come on,
you know what I mean. Like,

557
00:45:24,055 --> 00:45:27,356
do you exclusively get your
employees from the psych ward?

558
00:45:28,059 --> 00:45:29,125
Not always.

559
00:45:31,062 --> 00:45:32,361
Welcome to your kingdom.

560
00:45:32,363 --> 00:45:36,132
Now look, I've got a meeting in ten.
You have any questions for me?

561
00:45:36,133 --> 00:45:39,902
Uh, yes. Quick recap, if I can.
Uh, okay, I'm doing research on malpractice.

562
00:45:39,904 --> 00:45:42,505
- Yeah.
- And I should start with the old institutions

563
00:45:42,507 --> 00:45:45,441
because they have a paper trail.

564
00:45:45,442 --> 00:45:48,376
And then after I add them to the computer,
then I move on to the new institutions

565
00:45:48,379 --> 00:45:51,781
- which should already be online. Yeah?
- Yes.

566
00:45:51,783 --> 00:45:54,161
- Cool.
- Look, if you have any other questions, just ask Lisa.

567
00:45:54,185 --> 00:45:56,319
- Who's Lisa?
- My pre...

568
00:45:56,921 --> 00:45:58,154
Hold on.

569
00:46:02,160 --> 00:46:05,094
Lisa, Helen. Helen, Lisa.

570
00:46:05,096 --> 00:46:07,497
I gotta run. You two
have fun, okay?

571
00:46:07,499 --> 00:46:08,499
Hi.

572
00:46:10,869 --> 00:46:11,901
Hi.

573
00:46:15,273 --> 00:46:16,305
Cool.

574
00:46:21,079 --> 00:46:23,379
- How are you feeling?
- I'm all right.

575
00:46:24,349 --> 00:46:25,848
Your blood count?

576
00:46:26,284 --> 00:46:27,416
Slightly low.

577
00:46:29,254 --> 00:46:32,989
Is this why you wanted to meet me?
Couldn't we just text this stuff?

578
00:46:33,558 --> 00:46:36,392
I heard that you hired
Helen Daniels.

579
00:46:36,394 --> 00:46:38,161
Oh, yeah. That's right.

580
00:46:38,163 --> 00:46:39,929
You know she's
a patient of mine?

581
00:46:40,265 --> 00:46:42,265
I do. So?

582
00:46:43,134 --> 00:46:46,803
So you're twenty years
older than she is

583
00:46:46,805 --> 00:46:50,206
and just a little while ago she
ate rat poison for breakfast.

584
00:46:51,075 --> 00:46:52,108
Okay.

585
00:46:53,444 --> 00:46:55,278
Well, first of all,

586
00:46:56,915 --> 00:46:59,466
I'm just friends with Helen.

587
00:46:59,467 --> 00:47:02,547
And Diane, you should know me better
than that. Also, you're her doctor.

588
00:47:02,921 --> 00:47:04,854
supposedly wanting
her to succeed,

589
00:47:04,856 --> 00:47:07,924
so why would you have a problem
with me giving her a job?

590
00:47:07,926 --> 00:47:10,459
Yeah, well, yes, you're
right. I want her to succeed.

591
00:47:12,230 --> 00:47:14,831
I don't know. Maybe I've just
been doing this too long.

592
00:47:16,301 --> 00:47:20,336
It's just in the last few months,
she's been making little to no progress.

593
00:47:21,439 --> 00:47:25,041
Little to... She got a job.
That's a big milestone.

594
00:47:26,044 --> 00:47:29,011
Well, Robert, you can't go running
around picking up lost little puppies

595
00:47:29,013 --> 00:47:30,580
every time you want a playmate.

596
00:47:32,217 --> 00:47:34,517
Thank you.
I'm trying to tell you

597
00:47:34,519 --> 00:47:36,919
that I just wanna show her
a little bit of compassion.

598
00:47:36,921 --> 00:47:39,522
It seems like a concept
you might have lost touch with.

599
00:47:41,893 --> 00:47:44,594
Maybe you have been doing
this a bit too long, Diane.

600
00:47:45,563 --> 00:47:47,129
Maybe you're right.

601
00:47:47,131 --> 00:47:53,569
But my advice to you is just
keep this strictly professional.

602
00:47:56,107 --> 00:47:57,440
Thank you, Diane.

603
00:47:58,610 --> 00:48:02,011
I will... I will definitely
keep that in mind.

604
00:48:10,388 --> 00:48:11,388
Hello?

605
00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:16,360
Hello?

606
00:48:17,929 --> 00:48:19,262
Is this working?

607
00:48:20,131 --> 00:48:21,131
Hello?

608
00:48:24,402 --> 00:48:25,167
Hey.

609
00:48:25,169 --> 00:48:29,405
Mr. Perkins asked me to tell you that
when the phone rings, press one.

610
00:48:29,407 --> 00:48:31,574
I... I think I tried that.

611
00:48:32,176 --> 00:48:33,442
Obviously not.

612
00:48:42,520 --> 00:48:44,871
Hello?

613
00:48:44,872 --> 00:48:47,223
<i> Hey, glad you got the message.
I'm done with my meeting.</i>

614
00:48:47,225 --> 00:48:50,693
<i>- You wanna grab some Chinese?</i>
- I love Chinese.

615
00:48:55,500 --> 00:48:57,099
Oh, my God.

616
00:48:57,502 --> 00:49:00,169
- What?
- I don't love Chinese that much.

617
00:49:00,171 --> 00:49:01,170
Excuse me?

618
00:49:01,172 --> 00:49:03,906
What, are you embarrassed
to be dining with me now?

619
00:49:03,907 --> 00:49:06,641
Since you're paying,
I think I'm gonna say no.

620
00:49:06,644 --> 00:49:07,710
Exactly.

621
00:49:07,712 --> 00:49:11,180
- What was your meeting about today?
- Nuh-uh.

622
00:49:11,582 --> 00:49:14,350
No work talk at the table.
That's my mom's rules.

623
00:49:14,352 --> 00:49:15,384
Fair enough.

624
00:49:15,386 --> 00:49:19,989
Can we at least talk about you, though? Because
I feel like you already know too much about me.

625
00:49:21,693 --> 00:49:23,626
Okay. What do you wanna know?

626
00:49:28,399 --> 00:49:32,168
- Really?
- I cannot talk with my mouth full. That is nasty.

627
00:49:34,072 --> 00:49:36,739
- Oh, so now I'm nasty?
- I didn't say you were nasty.

628
00:49:36,741 --> 00:49:38,107
Wait, no, you just
said I was nasty.

629
00:49:38,109 --> 00:49:39,442
...just the act of doing
it. No, I didn't.

630
00:49:39,444 --> 00:49:41,644
No, but you just...
you just said that.

631
00:49:44,615 --> 00:49:47,383
- Do you have any pets?
- Okay, that is...

632
00:49:50,021 --> 00:49:51,021
Allergic.

633
00:49:52,457 --> 00:49:53,622
Okay.

634
00:49:54,659 --> 00:49:55,725
Tattoos?

635
00:49:55,727 --> 00:49:58,327
One. I can't show you.

636
00:49:59,063 --> 00:50:02,098
Scandalous. Okay. Um...

637
00:50:03,067 --> 00:50:05,067
- Are you married?
- Divorced.

638
00:50:06,170 --> 00:50:08,504
- How bad was it?
- Not bad.

639
00:50:09,273 --> 00:50:11,073
Just sad.

640
00:50:12,110 --> 00:50:13,242
Sorry to hear that.

641
00:50:15,446 --> 00:50:17,446
- Oh, thank you so much.
- Thank you.

642
00:50:18,249 --> 00:50:20,016
- All right.
- You first.

643
00:50:26,624 --> 00:50:29,759
"Don't worry about money.
The best things in life are free."

644
00:50:29,761 --> 00:50:31,627
Oh, fuck off.
It does not say that.

645
00:50:32,397 --> 00:50:33,529
- That's what I'm talking about.
- Are you kidding me?

646
00:50:33,531 --> 00:50:34,730
Yeah, look at it.

647
00:50:36,434 --> 00:50:38,768
Oh, my God, of course,
the rich guy gets that cookie.

648
00:50:38,770 --> 00:50:41,437
- What does yours say?
- Okay.

649
00:50:45,143 --> 00:50:46,509
Are you kidding me?

650
00:50:46,511 --> 00:50:48,210
- What?
- Nothing.

651
00:50:48,212 --> 00:50:49,772
- There's no fortune?
- No.

652
00:50:50,481 --> 00:50:52,214
Th... Okay.

653
00:50:52,216 --> 00:50:54,817
- Are you okay?
- No, it's just like

654
00:50:54,819 --> 00:50:56,752
you tried to kill yourself
and now you have no fortune.

655
00:50:56,754 --> 00:50:59,455
Oh, my God.
That is so not funny.

656
00:50:59,457 --> 00:51:03,359
- What is wrong with you?
- That's what you get.

657
00:51:04,796 --> 00:51:09,198
I want to talk about my...
my step-daughter, Chloe.

658
00:51:09,200 --> 00:51:13,702
And when I first met Chloe,
she was fifteen.

659
00:51:13,704 --> 00:51:17,273
And I'm a teacher, and...

660
00:51:17,275 --> 00:51:19,842
So I'm kinda trained
to really look for things

661
00:51:21,579 --> 00:51:25,565
that are concerning.

662
00:51:25,566 --> 00:51:29,552
My mom and my dad had me at a very young age.
My mom was twenty at the time.

663
00:51:30,655 --> 00:51:35,624
My dad was eighteen, so they were very young.
They were kids in the music scene.

664
00:51:37,195 --> 00:51:39,495
And an accident happened,
and that accident was me.

665
00:51:40,531 --> 00:51:43,499
To this day, it's so hard
to talk about, but

666
00:51:44,268 --> 00:51:49,472
at twenty-eight, I was... I was diagnosed
as... back then, it was manic depression.

667
00:51:49,474 --> 00:51:53,676
Diagnosed me with major depressive
disorder and gave me some pills, but

668
00:51:54,278 --> 00:51:57,279
even with the pills I didn't
feel like I was being better.

669
00:51:57,582 --> 00:52:01,183
And then there was this
one day that I felt like

670
00:52:01,686 --> 00:52:03,152
there was no tomorrow.

671
00:52:03,154 --> 00:52:07,656
It's hard to explain,
but I just didn't feel like

672
00:52:09,861 --> 00:52:11,360
there was a future.

673
00:52:11,362 --> 00:52:16,532
Hit with bamboo sticks.
I was hit with the belt buckles.

674
00:52:16,534 --> 00:52:20,703
I used to try to hide
those things from school.

675
00:52:21,772 --> 00:52:27,376
Um. I hid them for a long time from everyone.
My family knew a little bit about it.

676
00:52:29,347 --> 00:52:32,915
but a lot of them kinda looked the other way
or they don't really know how to intervene.

677
00:52:32,917 --> 00:52:36,752
Gradually, by the time she was
eighteen, nineteen, she was...

678
00:52:36,754 --> 00:52:39,722
she was doing some harder stuff.
She started doing meth, and...

679
00:52:41,893 --> 00:52:44,894
coke, and eventually heroin.

680
00:52:45,730 --> 00:52:47,763
I've spent many nights

681
00:52:48,533 --> 00:52:49,932
in a... in a closet,

682
00:52:50,601 --> 00:52:53,869
either with a gun in my
mouth or making a noose, or

683
00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:56,939
whatever, but

684
00:52:59,644 --> 00:53:02,711
it still is part
of me every day.

685
00:53:03,548 --> 00:53:07,683
It's kinda bad that I look
for the highs after the lows

686
00:53:08,352 --> 00:53:12,321
because they can last two weeks,
but you're just waiting to get that high back

687
00:53:12,323 --> 00:53:14,356
so you can accomplish things.

688
00:53:14,358 --> 00:53:17,643
There's only two ways
I'm gonna take

689
00:53:17,644 --> 00:53:21,204
all these pills and either I'm gonna feel
better or I'm not going to be alive anymore.

690
00:53:21,532 --> 00:53:24,500
I tried to kill myself when
I was like eight years old.

691
00:53:24,502 --> 00:53:29,705
I just tied my neck with like,
an ironing board and tried to use the cord,

692
00:53:29,707 --> 00:53:31,674
and I couldn't figure
out how to do it.

693
00:53:31,676 --> 00:53:34,743
And I passed out and they
found me in the laundry room.

694
00:53:35,813 --> 00:53:41,817
Hanging out of her bedroom window
with a sheet tied around her neck

695
00:53:42,386 --> 00:53:43,519
and

696
00:53:43,521 --> 00:53:49,391
she was... she was dying.
She was choking, killing herself.

697
00:53:49,760 --> 00:53:54,897
And I pulled her in, and I was able
to unwrap it, and you know, call-

698
00:53:54,899 --> 00:53:59,335
call for the squad to come and I just
rocked her and rocked her and rocked her.

699
00:53:59,337 --> 00:54:03,806
And she said, "I don't wanna
die, but I don't wanna live.

700
00:54:03,808 --> 00:54:05,841
I need to find
a place in between."

701
00:54:05,843 --> 00:54:11,313
I had just this horrible pain in
my stomach and I didn't know at the time

702
00:54:11,315 --> 00:54:14,016
if it was from the drugs
that I took

703
00:54:14,018 --> 00:54:18,354
or if it was just the regret that
I was feeling and the pain in my-

704
00:54:18,356 --> 00:54:23,659
that I was still feeling inside of me
because I still felt like I needed to die.

705
00:54:24,662 --> 00:54:28,931
It's an evil little thing,
manic depression because it's always there.

706
00:54:28,933 --> 00:54:32,501
You know it's there but you never
know when it's gonna come up on you.

707
00:54:32,503 --> 00:54:36,505
We sent her to a treatment
center for six weeks.

708
00:54:36,507 --> 00:54:39,675
We thought everything
was gonna be really good,

709
00:54:39,677 --> 00:54:43,545
and three days after she...

710
00:54:44,015 --> 00:54:48,751
she was released, her and her
boyfriend overdosed together.

711
00:54:48,753 --> 00:54:53,355
There's always someone out there
that can relate to your issues

712
00:54:53,357 --> 00:54:59,628
and that no matter what you think, your life
always matters and you can help someone else,

713
00:54:59,630 --> 00:55:01,897
too and maybe that's a good
reason for you to keep going

714
00:55:01,899 --> 00:55:03,899
and maybe that's a good
reason to have purpose.

715
00:55:16,747 --> 00:55:17,747
Thanks.

716
00:55:21,852 --> 00:55:23,532
You know, this used
to be a closet.

717
00:55:25,356 --> 00:55:26,722
That's why there's no windows.

718
00:55:27,892 --> 00:55:28,892
Fun fact.

719
00:55:29,093 --> 00:55:30,559
It's Haley, right?

720
00:55:31,062 --> 00:55:33,996
Okay, I know that
you know my name.

721
00:55:33,998 --> 00:55:37,433
I'm sure you've realized that
Robert is a very busy man.

722
00:55:38,035 --> 00:55:42,838
So, to make it easier on him and you,
if there's anything you need at all,

723
00:55:42,840 --> 00:55:44,406
it's better if you
just come to me first.

724
00:55:44,408 --> 00:55:46,342
And why is that exactly?

725
00:55:47,912 --> 00:55:51,847
I'm Robert's executive secretary.
I've been here for two years.

726
00:55:51,849 --> 00:55:54,450
I work very hard. I know
when he's stressed out.

727
00:55:54,452 --> 00:55:58,654
I know how he takes his coffee. I know where
his extra ties are in case he spills food,

728
00:55:58,656 --> 00:55:59,922
which he does all the time.

729
00:55:59,924 --> 00:56:02,424
Okay, so you're like his nanny?

730
00:56:03,394 --> 00:56:04,394
Cute.

731
00:56:06,097 --> 00:56:09,698
Look, I fully support Robert's
charitable pet projects.

732
00:56:09,700 --> 00:56:10,833
I really do.

733
00:56:12,503 --> 00:56:13,769
But he's an executive

734
00:56:14,772 --> 00:56:16,105
and you have a GED.

735
00:56:18,109 --> 00:56:20,743
You get what I'm saying?
Is this making sense?

736
00:56:20,745 --> 00:56:23,011
Oh, yeah, yeah. I see
what you're saying.

737
00:56:23,781 --> 00:56:27,483
And you know what? You're
actually right. I do have a GED.

738
00:56:29,520 --> 00:56:32,388
And isn't it funny how we ended
up in the same place anyway?

739
00:56:32,757 --> 00:56:33,655
Hm.

740
00:56:33,657 --> 00:56:38,093
Look, it's been really great chatting
with you and everything, but

741
00:56:38,095 --> 00:56:41,797
I think I'm gonna have to ask
you to step out of my closet.

742
00:56:42,700 --> 00:56:43,700
Thanks.

743
00:56:47,071 --> 00:56:48,604
Have fun with this.

744
00:57:09,894 --> 00:57:12,060
Oh, man.

745
00:57:12,062 --> 00:57:13,695
- Oh, hey.
- Hey.

746
00:57:13,697 --> 00:57:15,831
- What's all this?
- My job.

747
00:57:17,902 --> 00:57:20,702
- Is something wrong?
- What? No.

748
00:57:20,704 --> 00:57:25,040
No, all those institutions, they had
or have issues with money laundering,

749
00:57:25,042 --> 00:57:28,877
abuse of authority, sudden deaths,
shock therapy. List goes on.

750
00:57:28,879 --> 00:57:33,048
Nice work. I'll take 'em down
to legal later. Thanks.

751
00:57:33,050 --> 00:57:34,016
Welcome.

752
00:57:34,018 --> 00:57:38,003
Oh, I have been having trouble getting
in touch with one of the facilities,

753
00:57:38,004 --> 00:57:41,989
so if you don't need me I was thinking I
would just stop by there on my way home.

754
00:57:41,992 --> 00:57:44,560
Yeah, sure. Of course.
Which facility was it?

755
00:57:45,196 --> 00:57:47,095
The MIFF or something.

756
00:57:47,097 --> 00:57:49,498
Isn't that like
three hours away?

757
00:57:49,500 --> 00:57:51,900
Well, yeah. That's why
I would need to leave now.

758
00:57:52,536 --> 00:57:55,537
Okay. Why are you
acting so weird?

759
00:57:55,539 --> 00:57:56,104
I'm not.

760
00:57:56,106 --> 00:57:59,341
You know, it's not part of
your job. Why are you goin'?

761
00:57:59,342 --> 00:58:02,577
Well, you're not the only one who needs
to get out of the office sometimes.

762
00:58:02,580 --> 00:58:06,482
- MIFF? A mental institution?
- Yeah, why not?

763
00:58:06,484 --> 00:58:07,649
I'll fit in well.

764
00:58:07,651 --> 00:58:12,855
All right. All right. Well, let
me... let me know how it goes.

765
00:58:12,857 --> 00:58:13,857
Will do.

766
00:58:30,908 --> 00:58:35,911
Well, I've been here for the past twenty
years and I remember every single patient.

767
00:58:36,747 --> 00:58:41,717
- Even those from way back when?
- To some degree or another.

768
00:58:42,686 --> 00:58:44,366
What exactly is it
you want to know?

769
00:58:45,089 --> 00:58:48,790
Well, it's not me.
It's, uh, AHCPN,

770
00:58:48,792 --> 00:58:51,860
and they would like to know any
information you have on a former patient.

771
00:58:51,862 --> 00:58:55,097
Well, I'm afraid I'm not allowed to
disclose that kind of information.

772
00:58:55,866 --> 00:58:56,865
Um...

773
00:58:56,867 --> 00:59:03,867
Look, you should know that this institution
is currently under investigation

774
00:59:03,941 --> 00:59:07,075
for malpractice
and insurance fraud

775
00:59:07,077 --> 00:59:10,045
and there is a lot
that we at AHCPN can do

776
00:59:10,047 --> 00:59:12,614
in order to prevent
any more incidents.

777
00:59:13,117 --> 00:59:17,286
I'm sure you wouldn't want news crews
crawling all around your facility.

778
00:59:17,888 --> 00:59:19,888
Let me explain something
to you, young lady.

779
00:59:20,691 --> 00:59:25,827
This facility was under
investigation decades ago

780
00:59:26,230 --> 00:59:29,698
and those administrators
were charged and prosecuted.

781
00:59:30,100 --> 00:59:35,137
Since I've taken over, malpractice is
not something this institution condones.

782
00:59:36,240 --> 00:59:37,240
Now

783
00:59:38,342 --> 00:59:40,609
what is it you really
want to know?

784
00:59:42,313 --> 00:59:43,946
I would like to know

785
00:59:45,082 --> 00:59:48,317
about a patient named
Margaret Daniels.

786
00:59:49,753 --> 00:59:52,354
- What did you say your name was?
- Helen.

787
00:59:54,625 --> 00:59:55,891
Helen Daniels.

788
00:59:58,929 --> 01:00:02,698
Do you mind if I see
some credentials, ID?

789
01:00:03,100 --> 01:00:04,967
Oh, yeah, sure.

790
01:00:12,242 --> 01:00:13,709
You look just like her.

791
01:00:38,936 --> 01:00:40,869
Daniels, Margaret.

792
01:00:40,871 --> 01:00:41,970
Your mom?

793
01:00:42,706 --> 01:00:43,706
Yeah.

794
01:00:44,174 --> 01:00:47,342
She was admitted in 1997.

795
01:00:48,245 --> 01:00:54,149
The previous board believed she was suffering
from schizophrenia and paranoid delusions.

796
01:00:54,718 --> 01:00:58,253
Wait, they believed she was?
I mean, was she?

797
01:00:58,255 --> 01:00:59,821
I honestly don't know.

798
01:00:59,823 --> 01:01:03,258
With all due respect and
everything, shouldn't you know?

799
01:01:03,260 --> 01:01:07,262
- I mean, you said you were one of her doctors, right?
- I was an intern at the time.

800
01:01:07,264 --> 01:01:09,231
I didn't get to evaluate her.

801
01:01:09,767 --> 01:01:12,000
And truthfully, by
the time I met her,

802
01:01:12,302 --> 01:01:15,737
a clear diagnosis would
have been difficult.

803
01:01:15,739 --> 01:01:16,739
Why?

804
01:01:19,076 --> 01:01:21,977
Unfortunately, your mother
was one of several patients

805
01:01:21,979 --> 01:01:25,180
who received regular
shock therapy in 1997.

806
01:01:25,182 --> 01:01:28,884
<i>By the time she passed...
Schizophrenia and paranoid delusion.</i>

807
01:01:28,886 --> 01:01:32,721
<i>She was barely coherent.
Daniels, Margaret. Your mom?</i>

808
01:01:45,903 --> 01:01:48,103
Yeah, no. It was pretty
much just a waste of time.

809
01:01:49,440 --> 01:01:51,406
Well, no there was
nothing to find out really.

810
01:01:52,910 --> 01:01:56,912
I'm fine. Look, I'm opening a bottle of wine.
That's how fine I am.

811
01:01:58,115 --> 01:02:03,952
No, I told you that I wasn't... Oh, shit!
Oh, shit. Oh, shit.

812
01:02:03,954 --> 01:02:09,124
No, no, I'm... I'm good. I just broke one
of the only fancy glasses that I own.

813
01:02:09,793 --> 01:02:11,460
No, it's okay. It's okay.

814
01:02:16,800 --> 01:02:19,935
Shouldn't we like,
pray or something?

815
01:02:21,772 --> 01:02:23,772
You already made it a cross.

816
01:02:24,208 --> 01:02:27,142
Well, yeah. I mean, he deserves
to be buried with dignity.

817
01:02:27,978 --> 01:02:31,012
It's just a dead rat.

818
01:02:31,982 --> 01:02:33,949
Yeah, but he has a family

819
01:02:34,351 --> 01:02:36,918
and it's my fault that
they lost their rat dad

820
01:02:36,920 --> 01:02:40,889
or their rat uncle or their
rat son or whatever.

821
01:02:42,326 --> 01:02:46,361
I mean, you know... you know you did the right
thing? I mean, rats carry, like, diseases and...

822
01:02:46,363 --> 01:02:51,867
God, so what? So does that mean that he has
no feelings and no soul and no purpose?

823
01:02:52,903 --> 01:02:55,070
Okay. Well, maybe we should...
should name the rat.

824
01:02:55,072 --> 01:02:58,306
I mean, you seem
very attached to him.

825
01:03:06,884 --> 01:03:09,451
Hey, hey, hey.
Hey, hey, hey.

826
01:03:13,924 --> 01:03:17,225
Don't let this get inside your
head. Genetics are not a curse.

827
01:03:17,227 --> 01:03:19,461
Your mother's life does
not have to dictate yours.

828
01:03:19,463 --> 01:03:21,897
Well, yeah, but
they can factor in.

829
01:03:22,900 --> 01:03:27,869
No, they do factor in and I just wanna know
what level of crazy I inherited. You know?

830
01:03:27,871 --> 01:03:30,305
That's kind of difficult
to assess.

831
01:03:32,876 --> 01:03:35,243
So, aside from genetics

832
01:03:35,245 --> 01:03:38,847
how does it feel to be more or less
reconnecting with your mother?

833
01:03:38,849 --> 01:03:43,251
Well, I'd like to say that it's
giving me some kind of closure, but

834
01:03:44,988 --> 01:03:48,123
I don't know. I just have
more questions. Like,

835
01:03:49,026 --> 01:03:52,894
like how did she get there and
where did she go when she left us?

836
01:03:53,263 --> 01:03:56,463
And was she actually crazy or did
they just fry the life out of her?

837
01:03:58,202 --> 01:03:59,367
How did she die?

838
01:03:59,369 --> 01:04:02,838
Well, you can ask to have
her records released to you.

839
01:04:02,840 --> 01:04:04,506
You are her next of kin.

840
01:04:04,508 --> 01:04:07,042
Oh, yeah. I guess I am.

841
01:04:09,246 --> 01:04:13,148
- Hey, you replaced your plant.
- Nope, I just watered it.

842
01:04:17,321 --> 01:04:18,987
How's your medication doing?

843
01:04:19,957 --> 01:04:21,289
Oh, about the same.

844
01:04:21,291 --> 01:04:24,926
Some days I'm fine.
Some days I wanna rip my skin off.

845
01:04:25,362 --> 01:04:26,294
You know.

846
01:04:26,296 --> 01:04:30,065
Yeah, well, it takes a little while
for the antidepressants to kick in.

847
01:04:30,067 --> 01:04:32,667
- Let's just give it a few more weeks.
- You got it.

848
01:04:33,537 --> 01:04:35,337
All right, that's our time.

849
01:04:35,873 --> 01:04:37,172
You're making great progress.

850
01:04:37,174 --> 01:04:38,607
- I am?
- Mm-hmm.

851
01:04:38,609 --> 01:04:40,289
I'm gonna remember
you said that.

852
01:04:40,544 --> 01:04:41,509
I'll see you next week.

853
01:04:41,511 --> 01:04:47,983
Yes, you will. And the week after that and
the week after that, and the week after that.

854
01:04:49,253 --> 01:04:50,385
Thank you.

855
01:04:52,456 --> 01:04:53,955
Shouldn't you be at work?

856
01:04:54,491 --> 01:04:55,891
I'm the boss.

857
01:04:57,127 --> 01:04:58,426
What are you doin' here?

858
01:04:58,428 --> 01:05:02,330
I wanna go do something fun,
but I don't want to go by myself.

859
01:05:02,666 --> 01:05:04,165
Ah.

860
01:05:08,105 --> 01:05:09,271
What is this? A date?

861
01:05:09,273 --> 01:05:12,073
- You wish.
- Oh, please.

862
01:05:15,646 --> 01:05:18,380
Please.

863
01:05:18,381 --> 01:05:21,115
Oh, my God. Really,
you brought me here?

864
01:05:21,118 --> 01:05:23,551
What, are you...
are you allergic to fun?

865
01:05:24,354 --> 01:05:26,021
- Probably.
- Okay.

866
01:05:27,491 --> 01:05:29,624
- No, no, I am not doing...
- Come on. Let's go.

867
01:05:29,626 --> 01:05:32,494
- Ah! Whoops!
- Oh, God!

868
01:05:33,363 --> 01:05:34,396
Whoa!

869
01:05:34,397 --> 01:05:36,117
- Are we on the same team?
- Yes.

870
01:05:37,401 --> 01:05:40,335
Oh! Oh! Oh, I'm out of balls.

871
01:05:41,038 --> 01:05:43,605
- There!
- Yeah, there. Okay, so we gotta get the green guys.

872
01:05:43,607 --> 01:05:46,708
- I thought you said you were good at this?
- No, I lied actually.

873
01:05:47,945 --> 01:05:49,044
Oh, shit!

874
01:06:07,431 --> 01:06:09,064
My God, I love this place.

875
01:06:09,066 --> 01:06:10,031
- Right?
- Oh...

876
01:06:10,033 --> 01:06:11,166
- Oh!
- You!

877
01:06:11,168 --> 01:06:12,300
I got it, I got it, I got it.

878
01:06:12,302 --> 01:06:13,742
- No, I got him!
- I got him!

879
01:06:14,972 --> 01:06:17,238
- Whew, yeah!
- I'm not gonna lie.

880
01:06:17,240 --> 01:06:19,007
- I told you.
- It was pretty cool.

881
01:06:19,543 --> 01:06:20,709
Oh, my God.

882
01:06:21,278 --> 01:06:22,444
Oh, damn.

883
01:06:22,446 --> 01:06:24,245
- You got it?
- Yeah, thanks.

884
01:06:25,315 --> 01:06:31,987
Hey, I know that you've been goin'
through a lot lately and so

885
01:06:32,723 --> 01:06:37,559
with that in mind I decided
to bring you a little

886
01:06:38,362 --> 01:06:39,394
a little present.

887
01:06:41,398 --> 01:06:42,664
- Drugs?
- Yeah.

888
01:06:42,666 --> 01:06:45,100
You brought me drugs?

889
01:06:45,101 --> 01:06:47,535
- Oh, my God, how old are you?
- What do you mean, drugs? This is pot.

890
01:06:47,537 --> 01:06:49,304
- This is medical marijuana.
- Oh, it's pot.

891
01:06:49,306 --> 01:06:52,173
- Seriously, don't you have friends?
- Do I have...?

892
01:06:52,175 --> 01:06:53,608
Is this an Afterschool Special?

893
01:06:54,311 --> 01:06:56,945
God, shut up.

894
01:06:56,946 --> 01:06:59,580
Hey, just because I've never smoked pot
doesn't mean that I don't have friends.

895
01:06:59,583 --> 01:07:03,084
Well. you've never smoked pot.

896
01:07:03,453 --> 01:07:07,288
You've never been to an arcade.
It's like basically you're a hermit.

897
01:07:07,290 --> 01:07:08,456
I'm not a hermit.

898
01:07:11,495 --> 01:07:13,194
Okay, maybe a little bit.

899
01:07:13,497 --> 01:07:16,064
- You know, I did have friends.
- Mm-hmm.

900
01:07:16,666 --> 01:07:21,336
Then Grams got sick and I wound up going
full-time with my shitty after-school job.

901
01:07:22,339 --> 01:07:26,041
Well, after your grandma died,
did you try to reconnect with any of them?

902
01:07:26,043 --> 01:07:27,275
Oh, God, no.

903
01:07:27,277 --> 01:07:30,512
It's been such a long time,
it would be like talking to strangers.

904
01:07:34,518 --> 01:07:36,351
Whoa, whoa, whoa.

905
01:07:40,123 --> 01:07:41,356
Oh, that's gross.

906
01:07:41,358 --> 01:07:43,825
Yeah. Give it a second.

907
01:07:46,163 --> 01:07:48,396
- Hey, can I ask you a question?
- Yeah.

908
01:07:50,834 --> 01:07:55,737
Earlier when you took your jacket off,
I couldn't help but...

909
01:07:57,808 --> 01:08:03,611
I saw your scars and I just wanna...
I wanna make sure that you're, you know.

910
01:08:05,615 --> 01:08:06,615
Okay.

911
01:08:07,551 --> 01:08:10,285
No, I... I get it.

912
01:08:10,287 --> 01:08:14,389
You watched me take my jacket off.

913
01:08:17,561 --> 01:08:18,760
Wait, what are you doing?

914
01:08:19,696 --> 01:08:22,430
I don't know.
I just wanted to touch you.

915
01:08:23,233 --> 01:08:26,367
Okay, I think that
you're already high.

916
01:08:26,369 --> 01:08:31,473
Oh, come on. All this time and you
never thought about fucking me?

917
01:08:36,113 --> 01:08:37,679
No, honestly. No, I haven't.

918
01:08:41,251 --> 01:08:42,251
What?

919
01:08:45,222 --> 01:08:46,862
Do you have a
girlfriend or something?

920
01:08:50,427 --> 01:08:51,427
Boyfriend?

921
01:08:55,732 --> 01:08:57,432
I told you I was divorced.

922
01:08:57,801 --> 01:09:00,268
So that means that
you have to be celibate?

923
01:09:01,571 --> 01:09:04,772
Why is it so hard for you to believe
that I just wanna be friends?

924
01:09:04,774 --> 01:09:06,875
Do you think
that little of yourself?

925
01:09:07,677 --> 01:09:09,777
Look, I know you don't
see me like that, so...

926
01:09:09,779 --> 01:09:14,249
Geez, I mean, if you don't wanna talk about your
scars, we don't have to talk about your scars,

927
01:09:14,251 --> 01:09:16,651
but just say that. All right?

928
01:09:19,689 --> 01:09:20,755
I'm...

929
01:09:20,757 --> 01:09:25,293
I'm not trying to kill myself,
if that's what you think.

930
01:09:25,295 --> 01:09:26,628
That's good.

931
01:09:27,597 --> 01:09:28,863
Okay, um.

932
01:09:29,633 --> 01:09:32,267
I'm just gonna tell you
what happened. Cool?

933
01:09:33,170 --> 01:09:34,170
Yeah.

934
01:09:37,374 --> 01:09:41,276
After I came back from
the hospital, I couldn't...

935
01:09:44,514 --> 01:09:48,249
I was in the shower and I cut
myself shaving by accident

936
01:09:50,854 --> 01:09:53,354
and it felt good.

937
01:09:53,957 --> 01:09:56,658
It does. It feels great.

938
01:09:57,427 --> 01:10:01,729
It's like for those five minutes,
the world just stops and it's quiet

939
01:10:01,731 --> 01:10:05,300
and I'm in control, and
I feel like I can breathe.

940
01:10:06,836 --> 01:10:08,803
Have you told
Dr. Carol about this?

941
01:10:10,540 --> 01:10:12,674
Yeah, I did.
We are working on it.

942
01:10:13,543 --> 01:10:15,877
Okay, that's good.

943
01:10:16,446 --> 01:10:19,714
I mean, you know that I'm here for you,
right? Like emotionally?

944
01:10:24,321 --> 01:10:26,138
Thank you.

945
01:10:26,139 --> 01:10:27,956
I am so sorry about
the, um, touching.

946
01:10:27,958 --> 01:10:29,857
You freaked me out
a little there with that.

947
01:10:29,859 --> 01:10:31,492
Yeah, sorry.

948
01:10:31,494 --> 01:10:32,494
Yeah.

949
01:10:33,697 --> 01:10:37,398
Would you wanna go get
some totally platonic nachos?

950
01:10:37,734 --> 01:10:38,734
Totally.

951
01:10:41,738 --> 01:10:42,937
Do you think they're fucking?

952
01:10:43,773 --> 01:10:46,107
God, I hope not.

953
01:10:46,108 --> 01:10:48,821
You know I'm a born again virgin.
I'm totally saving myself for him.

954
01:10:48,845 --> 01:10:50,545
Get in line, sister.

955
01:10:50,547 --> 01:10:51,579
Please.

956
01:10:54,684 --> 01:10:57,885
- I'm prettier than she is, right?
- Of course.

957
01:11:00,924 --> 01:11:03,524
You know, he does seem happier.

958
01:11:04,928 --> 01:11:06,628
I'm bored. What time is it?

959
01:11:06,630 --> 01:11:08,997
What the hell are they doing
in there? It's taking forever.

960
01:11:08,999 --> 01:11:11,249
Oh, do you want
to go for a kiki?

961
01:11:11,250 --> 01:11:13,500
Look, if anything, just do
this as a personal favor.

962
01:11:13,503 --> 01:11:15,370
<i>Robert, I would love to.</i>

963
01:11:15,372 --> 01:11:17,405
But?

964
01:11:17,406 --> 01:11:19,785
<i> She wasn't in any government program.
She quit her job.</i>

965
01:11:19,809 --> 01:11:22,644
No, no. Fired.
Tell him I got fired.

966
01:11:22,646 --> 01:11:26,514
Look, I promise you, this is the last
time I'll ask you for anything. I swear.

967
01:11:28,018 --> 01:11:32,553
<i> You're killing me here, Robert,
but let me see what I can do.</i>

968
01:11:33,556 --> 01:11:35,523
Okay, what do you think?
What do you think?

969
01:11:35,525 --> 01:11:37,992
You know, forty-eight months,

970
01:11:37,994 --> 01:11:41,629
two percent APR. I mean,
that's if he's in a bad mood, which means...

971
01:11:41,631 --> 01:11:42,797
<i>- Robert?</i>
- Yeah?

972
01:11:42,799 --> 01:11:46,567
<i>Listen, all her expenses
after you hired her</i>

973
01:11:46,569 --> 01:11:50,004
<i>are covered through
the company's healthcare,</i>

974
01:11:50,005 --> 01:11:53,440
<i>but the rest, I think I can get her
seventy-two months with a 2. 2 percent APR.</i>

975
01:11:53,443 --> 01:11:55,810
<i>And if I could legally
do more, I would've.</i>

976
01:11:55,812 --> 01:11:57,512
Thank you so much.

977
01:11:57,514 --> 01:11:59,130
<i> No problem.</i>

978
01:11:59,131 --> 01:12:00,747
Babe, you know I have
to wait until they're done.

979
01:12:00,750 --> 01:12:02,350
Well, let's just
pretend they're done.

980
01:12:02,352 --> 01:12:03,352
Shut up.

981
01:12:05,722 --> 01:12:06,754
Hi.

982
01:12:06,756 --> 01:12:09,257
Hello.

983
01:12:09,258 --> 01:12:11,759
Oh, thank you. Nice package.
Smells just like you.

984
01:12:15,832 --> 01:12:17,098
I like balls.

985
01:12:19,402 --> 01:12:21,903
Oh, this one is so much bigger.

986
01:12:21,905 --> 01:12:27,975
Shut up! Seventy-two months! Oh, my God.
Oh, my God! Thank you, thank you, thank you.

987
01:12:27,977 --> 01:12:29,744
You're welcome.

988
01:12:31,781 --> 01:12:33,548
Do you have a fever
or something?

989
01:12:34,050 --> 01:12:36,084
- Uh?
- You're sweaty.

990
01:12:36,086 --> 01:12:38,786
No, I don't. I mean, I think
it's a little hot in here.

991
01:12:38,788 --> 01:12:41,788
No, you're sweaty and you look like shit.

992
01:12:42,459 --> 01:12:44,792
- Sorry if I'm interrupting something.
- You're not.

993
01:12:44,794 --> 01:12:46,461
Helen, this came for you.

994
01:12:46,463 --> 01:12:47,463
Thank you.

995
01:13:20,997 --> 01:13:25,500
The only reason you're here is because
your son didn't want you to be alone.

996
01:13:25,502 --> 01:13:28,803
You were his charity
case. This is my house!

997
01:13:28,805 --> 01:13:31,172
He wanted me here because he
could never trust you with Helen.

998
01:13:31,174 --> 01:13:32,940
You're a pathological liar.

999
01:13:32,942 --> 01:13:35,259
You ruined my son's life!

1000
01:13:35,260 --> 01:13:37,577
He died in a car accident,
Katharine! It's nobody's fault!

1001
01:13:37,580 --> 01:13:39,447
He was drunk
and you know it.

1002
01:13:39,449 --> 01:13:42,133
Don't...

1003
01:13:42,134 --> 01:13:44,818
You lay around in bed all day,
every day. You are afraid to leave the house!

1004
01:13:44,821 --> 01:13:47,806
- I'm grieving!
- You're insane.

1005
01:13:47,807 --> 01:13:50,792
I will not let Helen grow up like this.
God forbid she turned out like you!

1006
01:13:50,794 --> 01:13:52,627
Get out
of my house, Katharine.

1007
01:13:52,628 --> 01:13:54,461
Oh, I will. But I'm
taking Helen with me.

1008
01:13:56,566 --> 01:13:58,433
I dare you, bitch.

1009
01:13:59,068 --> 01:14:00,601
I'm calling the police.

1010
01:14:15,585 --> 01:14:17,618
Helen? Helen.

1011
01:14:18,688 --> 01:14:20,305
Hey.

1012
01:14:20,306 --> 01:14:21,923
- Oh, my God, are you deaf?
- Sorry.

1013
01:14:21,925 --> 01:14:24,592
I didn't get much sleep last
night. I'm kind of out of it.

1014
01:14:24,594 --> 01:14:26,661
- Whatever. Have you seen Robert?
- No, why?

1015
01:14:26,663 --> 01:14:28,663
He hasn't been here
since Thursday.

1016
01:14:28,665 --> 01:14:33,501
- Really? Did you call his apartment?
- Uh-huh.

1017
01:14:33,503 --> 01:14:36,737
- And the company's driver?
- Yes. Nothing.

1018
01:14:37,073 --> 01:14:39,740
Okay, well, did you
try his cell phone?

1019
01:14:40,610 --> 01:14:43,478
Are you serious? Don't you think that
would be like, the first thing I'd try?

1020
01:14:43,480 --> 01:14:45,913
- Well, you never know.
- God, we are so fucked. I can't do this.

1021
01:14:45,915 --> 01:14:48,816
- Do what?
- We're drowning here.

1022
01:14:49,752 --> 01:14:52,153
At least when he disappears,
he usually answers his fucking phone.

1023
01:14:52,155 --> 01:14:53,621
I don't know what
to tell these people.

1024
01:14:53,622 --> 01:14:55,088
Okay, just relax.
We're gonna find him.

1025
01:14:55,091 --> 01:14:56,591
Have you seen Robert?

1026
01:14:56,593 --> 01:14:57,926
No.

1027
01:14:57,927 --> 01:14:59,367
- Oh, fuck. Fuck!
- What?

1028
01:15:00,029 --> 01:15:01,762
- What is going on?
- What? Who is it?

1029
01:15:01,764 --> 01:15:03,764
It's Skylar. Fuck me.

1030
01:15:03,765 --> 01:15:05,765
Okay, okay, all right.
You have to answer the phone.

1031
01:15:05,768 --> 01:15:08,002
And say what?

1032
01:15:08,003 --> 01:15:11,083
- So you haven't seen Robert?
- Shut up, Jeff. Answer the phone.

1033
01:15:12,208 --> 01:15:13,908
Hi, Skylar.

1034
01:15:14,878 --> 01:15:16,844
- Yes, uh-huh.
- He isn't feeling well.

1035
01:15:16,846 --> 01:15:18,830
The assessment is done.

1036
01:15:18,831 --> 01:15:20,815
Robert isn't feeling well,
but the assessment is done.

1037
01:15:20,817 --> 01:15:22,917
Final calculations
give us a stipend of 1.2.

1038
01:15:22,919 --> 01:15:27,121
Our final calculations give
us a stipend of 1. 2 million.

1039
01:15:27,123 --> 01:15:28,789
Uh-huh. Oh, what's that?

1040
01:15:29,726 --> 01:15:31,759
Oh, one second.

1041
01:15:31,760 --> 01:15:33,793
- What are you doing?
- She's saying something about a contract for...

1042
01:15:33,796 --> 01:15:35,413
Contracts for?

1043
01:15:35,414 --> 01:15:37,031
- What contracts? What contracts?
- I don't know! I don't know!

1044
01:15:37,033 --> 01:15:38,165
Bahamas.

1045
01:15:38,167 --> 01:15:40,134
- Something about Bahamas.
- Oh, yeah.

1046
01:15:40,135 --> 01:15:42,102
She said she was going to the
Bahamas. I love the Bahamas.

1047
01:15:42,105 --> 01:15:43,204
Okay, okay, the contracts.
Go, go, go.

1048
01:15:43,206 --> 01:15:46,140
Shut up, Jeff.
Okay, okay, go, go.

1049
01:15:46,142 --> 01:15:47,675
Robert has signed the contracts.

1050
01:15:47,677 --> 01:15:49,727
Robert has
signed the contracts.

1051
01:15:49,728 --> 01:15:51,778
And our prediction is for eight months
until we reach our goal for this year.

1052
01:15:51,781 --> 01:15:54,781
- Eight months until we reach our goal for this year.
- Yes!

1053
01:15:56,152 --> 01:16:00,021
Okay, don't worry about a thing.
I will let Robert know that you called.

1054
01:16:00,023 --> 01:16:01,956
You just have a great
vacation in the Bahamas.

1055
01:16:01,958 --> 01:16:04,091
- Ooh, have so much fun! I love it out there.
- Shut up, Jeff!

1056
01:16:04,093 --> 01:16:06,861
Okay, thanks. She already
hung up, asshole.

1057
01:16:06,863 --> 01:16:08,563
Rude.

1058
01:16:11,234 --> 01:16:12,567
How'd you do that?

1059
01:16:12,569 --> 01:16:17,271
Do you guys ever pay attention to
anything that's going on in here?

1060
01:16:17,273 --> 01:16:19,157
Yeah.

1061
01:16:19,158 --> 01:16:21,042
This is the only deal we've been
talking about for two months.

1062
01:16:21,044 --> 01:16:24,211
- Yes. That was heroic.
- Okay, never mind. Thank you, Jeff.

1063
01:16:24,213 --> 01:16:27,281
Best thing I've seen since
sliced bread. Golf clap for you.

1064
01:16:27,283 --> 01:16:29,884
Okay, I'm gonna find Robert.

1065
01:16:29,886 --> 01:16:31,819
You thirsty? I'm thirsty.

1066
01:16:31,821 --> 01:16:34,155
- Margaritas?
- Absolutely. Let's go.

1067
01:16:34,157 --> 01:16:35,157
Helen?

1068
01:16:38,761 --> 01:16:39,560
Yeah?

1069
01:16:39,561 --> 01:16:41,281
Do you have
anything to share?

1070
01:16:41,931 --> 01:16:43,764
Uh, no.

1071
01:16:44,601 --> 01:16:45,800
No, not really.

1072
01:16:45,802 --> 01:16:50,338
- You sure?
- Yeah, yeah. It's been kind of a slow week for me.

1073
01:16:51,341 --> 01:16:54,041
Thanks, everybody.
Have a great weekend.

1074
01:16:57,880 --> 01:17:00,381
Hey, Helen, can I talk
to you for a sec?

1075
01:17:01,084 --> 01:17:02,084
Yeah.

1076
01:17:03,686 --> 01:17:07,121
- Yeah, what's up?
- Is everything okay?

1077
01:17:07,123 --> 01:17:08,856
I don't know,
you seem a little...

1078
01:17:09,759 --> 01:17:10,891
I don't know.

1079
01:17:10,893 --> 01:17:13,194
Yeah. I mean, everything's fine.

1080
01:17:16,633 --> 01:17:21,302
Well, it's just that I can't find...
well, nobody can find Robert.

1081
01:17:22,839 --> 01:17:24,338
- Your boss?
- Yeah.

1082
01:17:24,340 --> 01:17:26,741
I mean, he disappears
all of the time, but

1083
01:17:27,677 --> 01:17:29,143
it's been a week, so.

1084
01:17:29,145 --> 01:17:32,647
Oh. I mean, have you thought
about calling the police?

1085
01:17:32,649 --> 01:17:35,983
No, no. I'm sure he'll
show up soon. Just...

1086
01:17:36,819 --> 01:17:37,819
you know.

1087
01:17:38,788 --> 01:17:40,605
I'll see you later.

1088
01:17:40,606 --> 01:17:42,686
You know, actually I have
something to tell you.

1089
01:17:43,359 --> 01:17:44,359
Oh, no.

1090
01:17:46,863 --> 01:17:48,129
You look serious.

1091
01:17:48,131 --> 01:17:54,201
Well, it's... it's just, you know,
you've been a little disconnected lately.

1092
01:17:55,038 --> 01:17:56,804
You've missed a few sessions.

1093
01:17:56,806 --> 01:17:58,939
Well, I mean, I've been working.

1094
01:17:58,941 --> 01:18:01,008
Of course, of course. But...

1095
01:18:02,011 --> 01:18:07,982
but Dr. Carol and I have decided
to extend your therapy.

1096
01:18:10,420 --> 01:18:15,990
Look, I'm so sorry. I know that you were
supposed to be done next week, but I...

1097
01:18:15,992 --> 01:18:17,958
Have a good weekend, Tori.

1098
01:18:19,195 --> 01:18:21,028
Wait. Helen.

1099
01:18:59,135 --> 01:19:01,068
- Hello?
- Helen, it's me.

1100
01:19:01,070 --> 01:19:03,170
Tori? Why are you whispering?

1101
01:19:03,172 --> 01:19:05,506
'Cause I think I found Robert.

1102
01:19:06,375 --> 01:19:08,442
You did? Where?

1103
01:19:12,448 --> 01:19:13,380
<i>Tori!</i>

1104
01:19:13,382 --> 01:19:17,184
Okay, sorry. I was waiting.
Somebody got really close.

1105
01:19:17,186 --> 01:19:20,855
I'm not supposed to be talking on the main
line phone without it being an emergency,

1106
01:19:20,857 --> 01:19:22,089
- but then I thought...
- Tori!

1107
01:19:22,091 --> 01:19:23,991
<i>Okay, okay.</i>

1108
01:19:23,992 --> 01:19:25,892
<i>Oh, yeah, Robert.
He's here at the hospital.</i>

1109
01:19:25,895 --> 01:19:28,362
Wait, he's... he's at the
hospital? Are you sure?

1110
01:19:28,364 --> 01:19:31,232
Yes, yeah. He was
admitted last weekend.

1111
01:19:31,234 --> 01:19:33,134
<i>Wait a minute, he's a patient?</i>

1112
01:19:36,439 --> 01:19:40,541
- Oh, my God. Oh, you son of a bitch.
- What are you doing here?

1113
01:19:40,543 --> 01:19:42,877
- Are you okay?
- Why are you here?

1114
01:19:42,879 --> 01:19:45,946
What do you mean why am I here?
Everybody's looking for you.

1115
01:19:45,948 --> 01:19:47,481
Well, I'm fine. I'm here.

1116
01:19:48,251 --> 01:19:50,284
And I think you should leave.

1117
01:19:50,285 --> 01:19:52,318
You don't look fine. Seriously, stop
messing around. Everybody is freaking out.

1118
01:19:52,321 --> 01:19:54,041
Seriously, I didn't
ask you to come.

1119
01:19:54,190 --> 01:19:55,523
Why are you acting like this?

1120
01:19:55,525 --> 01:19:57,858
Look, it's my room
and I want you to leave.

1121
01:19:57,860 --> 01:19:58,893
Rob?

1122
01:20:01,297 --> 01:20:03,130
What is going on?

1123
01:20:03,533 --> 01:20:05,866
It's none of your fucking
business, Helen.

1124
01:20:07,170 --> 01:20:09,436
So would you
please fuckin' leave?

1125
01:20:10,473 --> 01:20:12,039
It's none of my business?

1126
01:20:14,243 --> 01:20:15,910
It's none of my business?

1127
01:20:16,879 --> 01:20:19,446
God, you selfish son of a bitch.

1128
01:20:20,583 --> 01:20:22,983
You realize that you
could have lied, right?

1129
01:20:23,419 --> 01:20:25,986
You could have told everybody
you were on vacation

1130
01:20:25,988 --> 01:20:30,457
but you just let everybody worry about
you and you let me worry about you.

1131
01:20:30,459 --> 01:20:33,294
What the fuck is
wrong with you, Rob?

1132
01:20:33,296 --> 01:20:37,264
Knock, knock. I just need to
take a quick blood sample for a CD-4

1133
01:20:37,266 --> 01:20:39,867
and I will be out of your hair.

1134
01:20:43,873 --> 01:20:44,939
CD-4?

1135
01:20:45,942 --> 01:20:46,942
Like,

1136
01:20:49,378 --> 01:20:52,513
like white cells? Robert,
do... do you have AIDS?

1137
01:20:54,250 --> 01:20:56,951
Rob? Look at me, look at me.

1138
01:20:56,953 --> 01:20:58,619
- Don't comfort me. Don't.
- Do you have AIDS?

1139
01:20:58,621 --> 01:21:02,623
- Rob, do you have AIDS?
- Look, Helen, you may not want the life you have-

1140
01:21:02,625 --> 01:21:05,860
Oh, come on. Fuck you,
Rob. Don't say that.

1141
01:21:05,862 --> 01:21:09,897
I'm fighting for mine.
I just want you to leave me the hell alone.

1142
01:21:09,899 --> 01:21:12,939
- Is there a problem?
- There's no problem. Get out.

1143
01:21:13,436 --> 01:21:14,468
- I can call security.
- She's leaving.

1144
01:21:14,470 --> 01:21:15,603
How could you not tell me?

1145
01:21:15,605 --> 01:21:18,439
- How could you not tell me?
- She's leaving.

1146
01:21:18,441 --> 01:21:21,141
Ma'am, if you don't
leave, I have to call security.

1147
01:21:21,143 --> 01:21:23,244
Rob, look at me.

1148
01:21:23,246 --> 01:21:25,913
Jesus Christ, I'm not your
fucking dad, Helen.

1149
01:21:26,282 --> 01:21:27,581
- Get out. Get out.
- Got it.

1150
01:21:27,583 --> 01:21:28,883
- Heard, got it.
- Get the fuck out.

1151
01:21:28,885 --> 01:21:29,917
Thanks.

1152
01:21:34,123 --> 01:21:37,491
Okay, all right. Okay, okay,
deep breaths for me. Deep breaths.

1153
01:21:37,493 --> 01:21:42,296
Deep breaths. There we go. There we go.
There we go. All right, all right.

1154
01:21:42,298 --> 01:21:43,564
Get Dr. Carol in here now.

1155
01:21:43,566 --> 01:21:45,299
Okay. All right,
okay. All right.

1156
01:21:45,301 --> 01:21:47,268
- Stop and get her in.
- Okay, all right.

1157
01:21:48,070 --> 01:21:52,006
I warned you this would happen.
I told you to leave her alone.

1158
01:21:52,008 --> 01:21:53,374
But I didn't. Okay?

1159
01:21:53,376 --> 01:21:56,210
Sorry, I don't want to live in isolation
the rest of my fuckin' life, Diane.

1160
01:21:56,211 --> 01:21:59,045
Nobody's telling you
to live in isolation, Robert.

1161
01:21:59,048 --> 01:22:01,348
You could have thought
this thing through a little bit.

1162
01:22:01,984 --> 01:22:03,984
I didn't want her
to see me like this.

1163
01:22:03,986 --> 01:22:06,687
I didn't want to scare her.
I don't know, I just...

1164
01:22:08,357 --> 01:22:11,992
I guess I panicked and I didn't...
what... How did she know I was here?

1165
01:22:11,994 --> 01:22:13,127
I don't know.

1166
01:22:13,129 --> 01:22:19,066
The only people who have access to
medical records are employees and...

1167
01:22:21,671 --> 01:22:23,203
Oh, goddamn it.

1168
01:22:23,205 --> 01:22:25,506
What? What is it?

1169
01:23:19,628 --> 01:23:21,628
I didn't know it was a big deal.

1170
01:23:21,630 --> 01:23:24,648
You probably should
have talked to me first.

1171
01:23:24,649 --> 01:23:27,667
I... I mean, they work together.
They're friends. What's wrong?

1172
01:23:27,670 --> 01:23:31,038
"They're friends." What are you,
ten? You broke the law, Tori.

1173
01:23:32,141 --> 01:23:37,044
But I mean, I thought, you know,
Helen's been doing so much better

1174
01:23:37,046 --> 01:23:41,148
until the past couple weeks and it seemed
like Robert was a big part of that.

1175
01:23:41,150 --> 01:23:42,216
Doing better?

1176
01:23:43,119 --> 01:23:44,385
See her scars?

1177
01:23:45,388 --> 01:23:47,421
Her scars? What... what
are you talking about?

1178
01:23:48,624 --> 01:23:51,792
- She didn't tell you, did she?
- Tell me what?

1179
01:23:52,561 --> 01:23:54,695
She's been cutting herself.

1180
01:23:54,697 --> 01:23:57,765
No, she didn't tell me that.

1181
01:23:57,767 --> 01:24:00,567
What? She's been
cutting herself?

1182
01:24:01,203 --> 01:24:03,454
So you knew this

1183
01:24:03,455 --> 01:24:05,706
and you didn't say anything and
essentially told her to fuck off.

1184
01:24:05,708 --> 01:24:06,673
Shit.

1185
01:24:06,675 --> 01:24:09,710
- What is going on?
- I will tell you later.

1186
01:24:09,712 --> 01:24:11,178
It's fine, Diane.

1187
01:24:13,416 --> 01:24:15,115
I have AIDS and

1188
01:24:16,285 --> 01:24:18,085
Helen just found out.

1189
01:24:19,688 --> 01:24:20,688
Okay?

1190
01:24:21,557 --> 01:24:23,424
Oh... I'm...

1191
01:24:24,393 --> 01:24:26,410
I'm sorry.

1192
01:24:26,411 --> 01:24:28,428
Okay, all right. Listen, I'm gonna...
I'm going to go to her house

1193
01:24:28,431 --> 01:24:31,298
and I'm going to send an ambulance,
and you two do nothing.

1194
01:24:31,300 --> 01:24:33,767
- But I want to come with you.
- Absolutely not.

1195
01:26:15,437 --> 01:26:16,436
Hi.

1196
01:26:16,438 --> 01:26:17,671
Hi.

1197
01:26:17,673 --> 01:26:19,339
What's going on here?

1198
01:26:23,712 --> 01:26:24,811
You okay?

1199
01:26:26,815 --> 01:26:28,482
Did you take anything?

1200
01:26:28,918 --> 01:26:30,284
No.

1201
01:26:30,653 --> 01:26:32,486
I flushed it.

1202
01:26:32,488 --> 01:26:33,754
- Good.
- Yeah.

1203
01:26:34,657 --> 01:26:35,722
Good girl.

1204
01:26:37,927 --> 01:26:39,226
She's in here.

1205
01:26:40,863 --> 01:26:43,530
Okay, well, we're gonna
get you up, all right?

1206
01:26:44,300 --> 01:26:45,599
I'm really tired.

1207
01:26:45,601 --> 01:26:46,833
I know you are.

1208
01:26:47,670 --> 01:26:50,470
Yes, you are. I got you.

1209
01:26:52,875 --> 01:26:56,310
Okay, come on.
Good girl. Good girl.

1210
01:26:56,879 --> 01:26:57,879
Come on.

1211
01:28:23,499 --> 01:28:26,000
I appreciate your concern,

1212
01:28:26,001 --> 01:28:29,281
but look, if she doesn't wanna take
the medication, then I'm in agreement.

1213
01:28:30,739 --> 01:28:31,739
Yes.

1214
01:28:33,309 --> 01:28:35,509
No, thank you. Bye.

1215
01:28:40,582 --> 01:28:41,915
I wanna see her.

1216
01:28:43,385 --> 01:28:45,435
I know you do.

1217
01:28:45,436 --> 01:28:47,516
I just think if I apologize,
it would help.

1218
01:28:47,823 --> 01:28:49,723
And who exactly
would that be helping?

1219
01:28:52,094 --> 01:28:55,762
Look, I know you feel guilty,
but she's gotta get through this by herself.

1220
01:28:58,567 --> 01:28:59,633
Is she okay?

1221
01:29:03,739 --> 01:29:06,006
She's gonna get worse
before she gets better.

1222
01:29:20,989 --> 01:29:21,989
Mom?

1223
01:29:26,528 --> 01:29:27,728
Mom.

1224
01:29:29,698 --> 01:29:31,598
I'm so sorry.

1225
01:29:31,600 --> 01:29:32,600
Mom.

1226
01:29:33,669 --> 01:29:36,737
- What are you doing here?
- Oh, baby.

1227
01:29:37,706 --> 01:29:38,706
Mom?

1228
01:29:41,577 --> 01:29:47,381
- No! No! No!
- Mom! Mom! Mom! Mom!

1229
01:29:57,860 --> 01:30:01,595
<i>I'm trying to remember the first time
I ever thought about killing myself.</i>

1230
01:30:02,564 --> 01:30:05,031
<i>I was young, maybe five or six.</i>

1231
01:30:05,801 --> 01:30:08,101
<i>And at first, it was
just a harmless idea.</i>

1232
01:30:08,103 --> 01:30:10,036
<i>What if I wasn't here anymore?</i>

1233
01:30:10,839 --> 01:30:14,174
<i>By the time I hit puberty,
it became like an infatuation.</i>

1234
01:30:15,444 --> 01:30:19,112
<i>like an imaginary friend that
would comfort me when I was alone.</i>

1235
01:30:19,114 --> 01:30:24,484
<i>I knew they weren't normal feelings.
but I also knew that I wasn't normal.</i>

1236
01:30:24,486 --> 01:30:26,186
<i> And find your center</i>

1237
01:30:26,889 --> 01:30:28,722
<i>and breathe.</i>

1238
01:30:29,558 --> 01:30:31,398
- Yeah, I found my center.
- <i>Breathe.</i>

1239
01:30:31,693 --> 01:30:33,193
Big deep breaths.

1240
01:30:33,195 --> 01:30:35,462
<i>- And breathe.</i>
- I am breathing.

1241
01:30:35,464 --> 01:30:37,030
<i>And find your center.</i>

1242
01:30:38,500 --> 01:30:40,233
<i>And breathe.</i>

1243
01:30:40,234 --> 01:30:42,154
Oh, my God! I'm gonna
fucking hyperventilate!

1244
01:30:42,838 --> 01:30:45,505
<i>And breathe.</i>

1245
01:30:46,475 --> 01:30:49,676
<i>And breathe.</i>

1246
01:30:49,677 --> 01:30:53,037
<i>My new doctor thinks I have replaced my
desires for suicide with self-harming,</i>

1247
01:30:53,515 --> 01:30:54,915
<i>which makes sense, I guess.</i>

1248
01:30:54,917 --> 01:30:59,186
<i>When I woke up in the hospital,
it felt like my imaginary friend died,</i>

1249
01:31:00,055 --> 01:31:01,988
<i>and I didn't get to go with him.</i>

1250
01:31:01,990 --> 01:31:06,460
<i>And after that, cutting myself was the
only thing that made me feel alive.</i>

1251
01:31:07,162 --> 01:31:08,161
<i>Ironic, huh?</i>

1252
01:31:08,163 --> 01:31:09,863
Oh, yeah.

1253
01:31:09,865 --> 01:31:11,031
They've got porn.

1254
01:31:12,134 --> 01:31:14,201
- You wanna look with me?
- No, thanks.

1255
01:31:15,204 --> 01:31:19,773
Whatever. I mean,
they have boring stuff for boring people too.

1256
01:31:25,981 --> 01:31:27,047
You're really pretty.

1257
01:31:27,950 --> 01:31:29,015
Thanks.

1258
01:31:30,652 --> 01:31:31,892
Do you think I'm really pretty?

1259
01:31:33,722 --> 01:31:34,722
Sure.

1260
01:31:39,528 --> 01:31:41,828
What are you writing? A novel?

1261
01:31:42,664 --> 01:31:45,599
- No, it's...
- You know I used to write novels?

1262
01:31:45,601 --> 01:31:47,968
I mean, I like, took this English class
junior year of high school and...

1263
01:31:47,970 --> 01:31:50,270
I'm sorry. Could you just...?

1264
01:31:50,271 --> 01:31:52,571
I'm just trying to concentrate.
If you could just...

1265
01:31:53,008 --> 01:31:55,509
- Shhh.
- Yeah, yeah. Shhh.

1266
01:31:55,511 --> 01:31:57,511
Thanks. Thank you.

1267
01:31:58,647 --> 01:32:00,914
Is that what you're writing about?
Feelings? I see the word "feelings."

1268
01:32:00,916 --> 01:32:03,250
- Okay, could you stop looking at this, please?
- I'm sorry. I just-

1269
01:32:03,252 --> 01:32:05,886
I have a lot of feelings.
Love, but I'm also feeling like

1270
01:32:05,888 --> 01:32:10,724
I don't know, like a little bit manic, but kind
of like, happy but like, also like, really sad.

1271
01:32:10,726 --> 01:32:12,626
Like really sad because
I miss my family.

1272
01:32:13,996 --> 01:32:15,161
Do you miss your family?

1273
01:32:16,999 --> 01:32:18,231
Yeah. Yeah, I do.

1274
01:32:18,233 --> 01:32:22,669
But then again, I like, love it here.
Like, it's like, the most amazing place.

1275
01:32:22,671 --> 01:32:24,871
Like, I own this place.
Like, I am like,

1276
01:32:25,574 --> 01:32:27,541
- one with everyone here. Like, we're all just one.
- Wait a minute,

1277
01:32:27,543 --> 01:32:31,077
- wait a minute. You love this place?
- Yeah, I love it.

1278
01:32:31,079 --> 01:32:34,180
- Seriously?
- Yeah, it's like a bunch of people like me. And it's like,

1279
01:32:34,182 --> 01:32:37,284
- I don't know, like...
- You don't feel like, more crazy being here?

1280
01:32:37,286 --> 01:32:41,788
No, I feel like myself. Like I feel like I can
express myself and like do what I wanna do.

1281
01:32:43,091 --> 01:32:44,091
That's fair.

1282
01:32:47,296 --> 01:32:48,962
All right, show me the porn.

1283
01:32:51,300 --> 01:32:54,334
I think this one's my favorite.
I've seen this magazine like five times.

1284
01:32:54,336 --> 01:32:58,071
<i> I'm learning all these new
techniques to control my urges</i>

1285
01:32:58,073 --> 01:33:00,106
<i>but if I'm being
honest with myself,</i>

1286
01:33:00,108 --> 01:33:02,876
<i>I don't think these feelings
are just gonna go away.</i>

1287
01:33:04,246 --> 01:33:05,745
<i>Maybe that's not the point.</i>

1288
01:33:06,648 --> 01:33:08,348
Figs are fascinating.

1289
01:33:09,685 --> 01:33:11,385
I bet you didn't know

1290
01:33:11,386 --> 01:33:13,086
that California produces a hundred
percent of the nation's dried figs

1291
01:33:13,088 --> 01:33:15,856
and ninety-eight percent
of the fresh ones.

1292
01:33:15,857 --> 01:33:19,003
California can't survive without figs,
and that's a fact, and facts matter.

1293
01:33:19,027 --> 01:33:20,794
Mm-hmm.

1294
01:33:20,796 --> 01:33:25,732
And they're good for you, too. I mean,
they're low in calories, high in vitamins.

1295
01:33:25,734 --> 01:33:32,005
And you know, what we think the fruit of the
fig is, is actually a bunch of tiny flowers.

1296
01:33:32,007 --> 01:33:34,274
The real fruit is the seed.

1297
01:33:35,243 --> 01:33:36,309
Hi.

1298
01:33:38,213 --> 01:33:39,779
You're sexy.

1299
01:33:46,288 --> 01:33:48,321
I'm Ruby, like the jewel.

1300
01:33:49,324 --> 01:33:52,292
That's a beautiful name, Ruby.

1301
01:33:53,261 --> 01:33:54,361
Thanks.

1302
01:33:54,363 --> 01:33:55,996
So you know about figs, too?

1303
01:33:57,733 --> 01:34:01,134
Ruby, can I have a minute
with the hot man, please?

1304
01:34:01,136 --> 01:34:03,703
Ugh. Fine. I guess.

1305
01:34:04,373 --> 01:34:06,873
I'm in room seventeen.

1306
01:34:07,943 --> 01:34:09,376
I'll be waiting.

1307
01:34:09,378 --> 01:34:10,844
Nice to meet you, Ruby.

1308
01:34:10,846 --> 01:34:12,979
Nice to meet you, too, sexy man.

1309
01:34:15,083 --> 01:34:16,282
I see you're making friends.

1310
01:34:16,284 --> 01:34:21,821
Yeah, we call her Crazy
Ruby. She's, uh, interesting.

1311
01:34:21,823 --> 01:34:22,956
Yeah, I noticed.

1312
01:34:26,228 --> 01:34:27,260
Hi.

1313
01:34:27,262 --> 01:34:28,262
Hi.

1314
01:34:30,298 --> 01:34:35,235
First of all, I... I... I brought you
something. It's called a Better Basket.

1315
01:34:35,237 --> 01:34:39,973
It's... well, patent pending.
It's... it's all the things you need

1316
01:34:39,975 --> 01:34:43,943
to get better in any circumstance.
There's tea and cookies.

1317
01:34:43,945 --> 01:34:47,347
Oh, and there's the little cactus,
which is better than flowers

1318
01:34:47,349 --> 01:34:51,418
because you don't have to water
it. Candles, they're flame-less.

1319
01:34:51,420 --> 01:34:54,954
And... and a couple chick
flicks with happy endings.

1320
01:34:56,124 --> 01:34:59,225
And Tori said I should
put in some pudding.

1321
01:34:59,227 --> 01:35:01,828
Thanks. This is really nice.

1322
01:35:09,738 --> 01:35:11,137
I'm sorry I hurt you.

1323
01:35:13,442 --> 01:35:16,943
I'm sorry I didn't tell
you. I meant to. That was...

1324
01:35:16,945 --> 01:35:20,213
That was my plan eventually and then you
just showed up at the hospital and...

1325
01:35:20,215 --> 01:35:21,481
and I panicked.

1326
01:35:21,483 --> 01:35:27,020
Oh, that was panic. See, it kind
of felt like a big "Fuck You".

1327
01:35:27,022 --> 01:35:28,154
Right, I know.

1328
01:35:29,725 --> 01:35:31,491
You came along
at a pivotal time.

1329
01:35:33,195 --> 01:35:37,097
I met you the day I found
out about my cell count.

1330
01:35:38,400 --> 01:35:41,901
You mean, like, the white
cells and that you were...?

1331
01:35:41,903 --> 01:35:43,336
Yeah, yeah.

1332
01:35:43,338 --> 01:35:44,338
Oh.

1333
01:35:47,142 --> 01:35:50,276
You remember that day we
were screaming on the balcony?

1334
01:35:50,979 --> 01:35:51,878
Yes.

1335
01:35:51,880 --> 01:35:55,315
The day I found out I was
that much closer to death

1336
01:35:57,385 --> 01:36:01,521
was the same day I met
this really special girl

1337
01:36:02,124 --> 01:36:04,991
that wanted to die so badly.

1338
01:36:05,894 --> 01:36:07,427
I thought I was helping you

1339
01:36:10,198 --> 01:36:12,499
but I was leaning on you.

1340
01:36:15,270 --> 01:36:20,473
You know, just generally you should
probably try to lean on more stable people.

1341
01:36:24,980 --> 01:36:27,080
Is there anything else
you wanna know about it?

1342
01:36:28,450 --> 01:36:29,883
Uh...

1343
01:36:30,786 --> 01:36:31,786
How?

1344
01:36:32,053 --> 01:36:33,053
When?

1345
01:36:33,522 --> 01:36:35,288
Is your wife real?

1346
01:36:36,158 --> 01:36:38,091
And does anybody
at the office know?

1347
01:36:38,093 --> 01:36:41,327
Okay. How, blood transfusion.

1348
01:36:41,863 --> 01:36:44,998
When, 1999. I was in the Army.

1349
01:36:46,301 --> 01:36:47,500
Wife real.

1350
01:36:48,570 --> 01:36:51,137
But when I found out,
I got pretty low.

1351
01:36:53,575 --> 01:36:56,109
She couldn't handle that.
And I couldn't handle it.

1352
01:36:56,511 --> 01:37:01,514
I got in a real dark place for a few
years there, and I just... I mean it...

1353
01:37:01,516 --> 01:37:04,150
I made it easy for her
to leave is what I did.

1354
01:37:07,088 --> 01:37:08,888
What was the other question?

1355
01:37:10,091 --> 01:37:11,324
Oh, the office.

1356
01:37:11,326 --> 01:37:13,026
Does anybody at
the office know?

1357
01:37:13,028 --> 01:37:15,595
No. No one at work knows.

1358
01:37:17,365 --> 01:37:20,567
Well, not that it's any
of my business, but

1359
01:37:21,069 --> 01:37:23,536
- it kinda seems like...
- Oopsie, I forgot my figs.

1360
01:37:25,941 --> 01:37:27,240
How you guys doin'?

1361
01:37:28,043 --> 01:37:29,043
- Good.
- Good.

1362
01:37:48,563 --> 01:37:50,563
- Come in.
- Hey, doc.

1363
01:37:50,565 --> 01:37:52,031
Hey, Helen.

1364
01:37:52,033 --> 01:37:53,600
Uh, I have a question.

1365
01:37:53,602 --> 01:37:56,620
Yes?

1366
01:37:56,621 --> 01:38:00,141
So I'm supposed to be released on Monday
but my birthday is actually this Friday.

1367
01:38:00,542 --> 01:38:04,377
Well, if you want, I could redo your
paperwork and let you go Thursday.

1368
01:38:04,379 --> 01:38:06,379
That way you can enjoy
your birthday at home.

1369
01:38:07,082 --> 01:38:10,083
Well, actually, I was gonna ask
if I could have my party here.

1370
01:38:10,085 --> 01:38:14,654
If that's okay? I... I was just thinking
some friends, some cake. Nothing big.

1371
01:38:14,656 --> 01:38:17,924
Okay, if you're sure
that's what you want.

1372
01:38:17,926 --> 01:38:20,994
- Yes.
- Give me a list of your guests and I'll get 'em to security.

1373
01:38:20,996 --> 01:38:22,262
Okay, great. Thank you.

1374
01:38:22,264 --> 01:38:24,264
No problem.

1375
01:38:24,265 --> 01:38:26,265
Oh, would it be crazy
to ask for decorations?

1376
01:38:26,268 --> 01:38:29,535
We don't exactly throw
a lot of parties here. Sorry.

1377
01:38:29,537 --> 01:38:33,406
Right. That's okay. I'll think
of something. Thank you.

1378
01:38:33,909 --> 01:38:35,008
Happy to help.

1379
01:38:37,545 --> 01:38:42,015
- Hey.
- Happy birthday!

1380
01:38:42,017 --> 01:38:45,285
Aw, thank you.
Hey, I told you not to bring presents.

1381
01:38:45,287 --> 01:38:47,921
- You weren't supposed to do that.
- But it's your birthday.

1382
01:38:47,923 --> 01:38:50,456
- Hi.
- Hi. Oh!

1383
01:38:51,192 --> 01:38:53,927
Oh, Robert, take it easy.
You're not supposed to be walking.

1384
01:38:53,929 --> 01:38:55,295
I'm not walking. I'm standing.

1385
01:38:55,297 --> 01:38:57,481
- Hi.
- Oh, hi.

1386
01:38:57,482 --> 01:38:59,666
Okay, all I have to do is finish my
hair really quick, and then we go.

1387
01:38:59,668 --> 01:39:02,491
You look perfect.

1388
01:39:02,492 --> 01:39:05,315
- Oh, please. I look crazy.
- What is this? A diary?

1389
01:39:05,316 --> 01:39:08,139
No, that is not a diary.
That is a prescribed journal for my feelings.

1390
01:39:08,143 --> 01:39:10,610
Where do I come in?
Hey, don't read that!

1391
01:39:10,612 --> 01:39:13,663
Those are her private thoughts.

1392
01:39:13,664 --> 01:39:16,744
Oh, hey. Speaking of my private thoughts,
I've been doing a little thinking

1393
01:39:17,419 --> 01:39:21,120
and I have decided I wanna
sell my grandma's house.

1394
01:39:21,122 --> 01:39:23,222
- Oh.
- Wow.

1395
01:39:23,224 --> 01:39:25,842
- You should. It's cursed.
- Whoa, are you sure?

1396
01:39:25,843 --> 01:39:28,461
It's definitely cursed, and I think I could
take the money, get my own apartment,

1397
01:39:28,463 --> 01:39:31,331
- and then maybe travel.
- Yeah. Ooh.

1398
01:39:31,333 --> 01:39:34,100
- Travel, really?
- Yeah, I've never been anywhere.

1399
01:39:34,569 --> 01:39:36,736
Well, I'm in.
Where are we going?

1400
01:39:36,738 --> 01:39:39,005
You know, I've always
wanted to go to Madrid.

1401
01:39:39,007 --> 01:39:40,673
Whoa, you guys are not invited.

1402
01:39:41,242 --> 01:39:43,710
This is something
I wanna do just me.

1403
01:39:43,712 --> 01:39:47,513
Well, wait. I want... I need a vacation too.
I'm dying, remember?

1404
01:39:47,515 --> 01:39:48,448
Hey.

1405
01:39:48,450 --> 01:39:53,686
Okay, look.
I will be here for the whole pre-dying thing.

1406
01:39:53,688 --> 01:39:55,688
This is just...
this is for after.

1407
01:39:56,291 --> 01:39:59,125
All right, all right. No more
saying the word "dying."

1408
01:39:59,127 --> 01:40:01,461
- This is a birthday party. We've gotta set it up.
- Okay, she's right.

1409
01:40:01,463 --> 01:40:03,563
She's right, she's
right. Let's go.

1410
01:40:03,564 --> 01:40:05,664
- In the chair. Come on.
- Okay, all right. Hold on.

1411
01:40:05,667 --> 01:40:07,767
Okay, get in there. Whoa,
whoa. Let Helen drive.

1412
01:40:07,769 --> 01:40:11,104
You make it feel like I'm on a
damn rollercoaster all the time.

1413
01:40:11,106 --> 01:40:12,739
- I got it, I got it.
- What's wrong with rollercoasters?

1414
01:40:12,741 --> 01:40:14,474
Yeah, they make me sick.

1415
01:40:14,476 --> 01:40:17,210
- All right! Come on, hands up!
- Okay.

1416
01:40:17,212 --> 01:40:18,344
All right, all right, all right.

1417
01:40:18,346 --> 01:40:20,146
Whoo!

1418
01:40:21,583 --> 01:40:23,516
Oh, I got the presents!

1419
01:40:28,590 --> 01:40:31,691
Happy
birthday, Helen.

1420
01:40:31,692 --> 01:40:35,212
Oh, I'm sorry. I think you have me mistaken
for someone else. My name is Ms. Daniels.

1421
01:40:37,065 --> 01:40:40,633
You surprised me. It's been a long
time since I've been surprised

1422
01:40:40,635 --> 01:40:44,270
but you surprised me
and thank you.

1423
01:40:44,773 --> 01:40:47,273
Thank you for everything.

1424
01:40:48,510 --> 01:40:51,577
All right, have some snacks.
Have some punch. I made it myself.

1425
01:40:51,579 --> 01:40:53,479
- Ooh.
- Don't be scared.

1426
01:40:54,416 --> 01:40:58,284
- Hi!
- Hey, guys. Thanks for coming.

1427
01:40:58,286 --> 01:41:01,387
We have never been
to a mental hospital before.

1428
01:41:01,389 --> 01:41:04,824
- Oh, really?
- Kind of expected it to be a little bit more depressing.

1429
01:41:04,826 --> 01:41:06,543
- Oh, my God.
- No, it's not bad.

1430
01:41:06,544 --> 01:41:08,261
- Did they restrain you in those things?
- No, no. They didn't.

1431
01:41:08,263 --> 01:41:09,829
Oh, oh, oh. Were you in
one of those padded rooms?

1432
01:41:09,831 --> 01:41:12,065
- Oh, my God!
- I don't even think that they have those.

1433
01:41:12,067 --> 01:41:15,301
- Oh, my God!
- No, no, guys, I'm really okay.

1434
01:41:15,303 --> 01:41:17,570
- Hey, Helen, could you help me with some of the balloons?
- Yes. Yes, I can.

1435
01:41:17,572 --> 01:41:19,472
He can blow 'em up
on his own. He's fine.

1436
01:41:19,474 --> 01:41:20,807
No, no. He really can't
with his lung capacity.

1437
01:41:20,809 --> 01:41:23,176
Oh, no. He... he was just
talking like, off the rope-

1438
01:41:23,178 --> 01:41:24,310
Oh, look. A cute nurse!
What? Where?

1439
01:41:24,312 --> 01:41:25,478
- Run!
- No!

1440
01:41:25,480 --> 01:41:27,080
I don't see no one there.

1441
01:41:27,082 --> 01:41:28,347
Got you, bitch.

1442
01:41:28,349 --> 01:41:30,349
Let's go find a hot doctor.

1443
01:41:30,351 --> 01:41:32,151
You are welcome.

1444
01:41:32,153 --> 01:41:34,620
- Was it my idea to invite them?
- Oh, yeah.

1445
01:41:34,622 --> 01:41:35,588
God.

1446
01:41:35,590 --> 01:41:42,328
So I was thinking, before you go I want
you to train as a junior executive.

1447
01:41:43,264 --> 01:41:47,533
When you're done training, you can take
a vacation, see the world, whatever.

1448
01:41:47,535 --> 01:41:49,669
No, no. Rob, you
don't have to do this.

1449
01:41:49,671 --> 01:41:54,474
Lisa told me about the phone call
with Skylar. You are gonna be great.

1450
01:41:54,476 --> 01:41:55,476
Thank you.

1451
01:41:56,377 --> 01:41:57,810
I spiked the punch.

1452
01:41:58,446 --> 01:41:59,679
Oh, God.

1453
01:42:04,486 --> 01:42:08,821
<i>♪ Happy birthday to you ♪</i>

1454
01:42:08,823 --> 01:42:12,458
<i>♪ Happy birthday to you ♪</i>

1455
01:42:13,294 --> 01:42:17,396
<i>♪ Happy birthday, dear Helen ♪</i>

1456
01:42:18,366 --> 01:42:23,336
<i>♪ Happy birthday to you ♪</i>

1457
01:42:26,608 --> 01:42:27,874
- Yeah!
- Yay!

1458
01:42:27,876 --> 01:42:30,810
<i>♪ How old are you now ♪</i>

1459
01:42:30,812 --> 01:42:32,145
Oh, don't do that.

1460
01:42:32,580 --> 01:42:34,547
Got the last box.

1461
01:42:34,548 --> 01:42:36,515
Okay, just put it in
the trunk. I'll be right there.

1462
01:42:36,518 --> 01:42:37,884
Copy that.

1463
01:43:23,798 --> 01:43:26,766
- "Rob's Fun-eral."
- I like that.

1464
01:43:26,768 --> 01:43:31,804
Do you want like a theme or something?
Like, circus or Mardi Gras?

1465
01:43:31,806 --> 01:43:32,939
I want it Irish style.

1466
01:43:33,808 --> 01:43:35,675
You're not Irish.

1467
01:43:35,677 --> 01:43:37,777
So? It's my funeral, isn't it?

1468
01:43:39,214 --> 01:43:41,247
- Yep.
- I want shots for everyone.

1469
01:43:42,584 --> 01:43:48,888
Okay, so cremation
and then reception.

1470
01:43:48,890 --> 01:43:51,591
- Is that what they call it?
- I don't know.

1471
01:43:51,960 --> 01:43:56,729
You know what I mean. Like cremation and
then party for everybody. Lots of shots,

1472
01:43:56,731 --> 01:43:59,465
and then what?
Like Celtic music?

1473
01:43:59,467 --> 01:44:02,902
Oh, no, no, no, girl.
Hell no. Mm-mm.

1474
01:44:03,404 --> 01:44:05,504
I want classic rock.

1475
01:44:05,807 --> 01:44:06,906
Okay.

1476
01:44:07,976 --> 01:44:09,342
And whiskey.

1477
01:44:11,479 --> 01:44:12,712
Better be a good one.

1478
01:44:13,715 --> 01:44:14,715
It will.

1479
01:44:16,517 --> 01:44:17,517
Anything else?

1480
01:44:20,688 --> 01:44:22,355
Yeah, is this weird for you?

1481
01:44:25,660 --> 01:44:29,462
Yeah. Well, no, not...
not weird. Just...

1482
01:44:35,670 --> 01:44:37,803
I'm really gonna
miss you, you know?

1483
01:44:39,941 --> 01:44:44,543
But I wanna be here
and I will be here until you...

1484
01:44:44,545 --> 01:44:46,696
Until I kick the bucket.

1485
01:44:46,697 --> 01:44:49,560
God, please stop saying "kick the bucket."
You are not ninety.

1486
01:44:49,584 --> 01:44:51,584
Okay. Till I

1487
01:44:52,820 --> 01:44:54,053
pass away.

1488
01:44:54,055 --> 01:44:55,521
Oh, that's worse.

1489
01:44:57,692 --> 01:45:00,793
- Are you okay?
- Yeah.

1490
01:45:04,432 --> 01:45:07,533
- Hey, hey. What can I do?
- I'm okay. I'm good. I'm okay.

1491
01:45:15,543 --> 01:45:16,709
I need a joint.

1492
01:45:17,378 --> 01:45:18,944
You smoke too much.

1493
01:45:19,447 --> 01:45:22,848
It helps with the pain and the
nausea and the panic attacks.

1494
01:45:25,320 --> 01:45:27,019
And shit, plus it's fun.

1495
01:45:29,023 --> 01:45:31,724
Okay. Then we smoke.

1496
01:45:36,664 --> 01:45:38,431
Hey, gown girl.

1497
01:45:39,100 --> 01:45:40,100
Hey, Rob.

1498
01:45:42,904 --> 01:45:44,070
I love you.

1499
01:45:47,775 --> 01:45:49,041
I love you, too.

1500
01:45:51,979 --> 01:45:57,750
Okay. Um, I'm gonna get
you that joint, as promised.

1501
01:45:59,887 --> 01:46:01,053
Please.

1502
01:46:07,095 --> 01:46:11,764
<i>♪ Lost in the dead of night ♪</i>

1503
01:46:11,766 --> 01:46:15,668
<i>♪ Trying to make it home ♪</i>

1504
01:46:20,007 --> 01:46:22,508
<i>♪ Runnin' way too fast ♪</i>

1505
01:46:23,945 --> 01:46:28,714
<i>♪ This life is short
So you better make it last ♪</i>

1506
01:46:29,150 --> 01:46:35,020
<i>♪ Roll roll roll away ♪</i>

1507
01:47:14,729 --> 01:47:15,729
Helen!

1508
01:47:17,432 --> 01:47:18,731
Wait, wait.

1509
01:47:20,701 --> 01:47:23,903
- You're really not gonna stay?
- What for? Is he comin' back?

1510
01:47:25,573 --> 01:47:26,972
No, just...

1511
01:47:27,875 --> 01:47:30,476
- You sure you're gonna be okay?
- Yeah.

1512
01:47:30,845 --> 01:47:31,911
I'm good.

1513
01:47:31,913 --> 01:47:37,983
My flight leaves in three hours. I gotta make
one quick stop first and then I am out of here.

1514
01:47:39,454 --> 01:47:41,220
I'll miss you so much.

1515
01:47:45,693 --> 01:47:47,326
I'm gonna miss you, too.

1516
01:47:47,327 --> 01:47:49,540
- I love you. You know that?
- I love you.

1517
01:47:49,564 --> 01:47:51,797
All right, okay. Don't
make me cry. Come on.

1518
01:47:51,799 --> 01:47:53,032
Okay.

1519
01:47:53,701 --> 01:47:55,067
- Bye.
- Bye, Tori.

1520
01:47:56,737 --> 01:47:57,903
Journey on.

1521
01:47:59,674 --> 01:48:02,107
- Hey, don't forget to call!
- I won't.