Child Of Choked Pleas Lyrics

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I carve a hole in the wall to show my broken heart
The trust that I once had tore me apart
The pain I feel is so familial, the guilt they trip me is so surreal
I feel nothing, I am nothing
I've died
Inside

Violations of the soul pile up like a mountain
Words I want to say nearly spill out
A fresh cut again brings me back to Earth
I drown in a sea of my own doubt

This is real, this is real, this is real
Set me free, set me free, from this pain
I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
Of what'll happen to me
If I dare to breathe

I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you, I suppose
Would a bucket of my spilled blood for you put an end to all my woes?
With family like this, who in God's name needs enemies
I know one day I will be free, but for now, I'm a child of choked pleas

Cloudy tears streaming down my face
Words like machetes are said to keep me in my place
I pray to God and Buddha, and then I make a deal with Satan
That someday I'll get out and find myself some haven

Memento mori
In me, there is no glory
Suffocate me with your words and kill me softly
Kill me sweetly
(Kill me sweetly)

I'm losing myself a little more every day
I'm just not sure how much of this nonsense I can continue to take
My head is splitting up like a ragdoll in need of repair
So just know that I do not care when I say "I'm a child of--" Listen NOW!!

"I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you, I suppose
Would a bucket of my spilled blood for you put an end to all my woes?
With family like this, who in God's name needs enemies
I know one day I will be free, but for now, I'm a child of choked pleas"