AA.RO: Scapegoat

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RO: oh hey Paloma
AA: hello
RO: so
RO: do you blame CIRRIN RUNFAR fall this shit that has happened?
AA: ...
AA: no
RO: ah well thats alright then
RO: because that would be not right
AA: you were barely even involved in the most recent affair
RO: exactly
AA: do you think i blame you
RO: well
RO: if CIRRIN RUNFAR was in your position CIRRIN RUNFAR probably would!
AA: why
RO: because CIRRIN RUNFAR would be a convient scapegoat
RO: that is the CIRRIN RUNFAR that CIRRIN RUNFAR currently is
RO: not the CIRRIN RUNFAR that is you
AA: i
AA: i see
RO: a scapegoat is this thing CIRRIN RUNFAR read about
RO: its this great thing takes all your blame so you dont have to keep it!
AA: ...
AA: you are mistaken
RO: oh
AA: and i do not need a scapegoat
RO: that must be nice
AA: i know where the guilt lies
RO: well as you said its not CIRRIN RUNFAR so erm
AA: what
RO: so where do you think it lies?
AA: ...
AA: it lies with me
RO: why would you say that how does that benefit you taking the blame?
AA: you do not get it do you
AA: it is not about benefit
AA: it is about making things right
AA: i will remember what i did
RO: well hows taking the blame make anything right then?
AA: IT DOES NOT
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AA: but it is a personal reminder
RO: well then your right CIRRIN RUNFAR doesnt get why anyone would want to take blame
AA: to remind me never to do that again
AA: is why
RO: but its a bad feeling isnt that what you want to avoid?
AA: it is not about avoiding anything
AA: it is about facing up to your mistakes
RO: well what about actually doing things about those mistakes instead of feeling bad about them
AA: i fully intend to protect everyone
RO: /everyone/?
AA: everyone i can
AA: my friends
AA: my quadrants
RO: even from your friend and quadrants
AA: ...
AA: i will figure something out
RO: you better some of your friends and quadrants are very dangerous and unstable trolls
AA: i know
RO: and that would be fine
RO: if was just the law of the jungle
RO: kill or be killed
RO: if you werent play happy pally pity party with everyone
RO: *playing
AA: ...
AA: it is not a game
RO: well it is if the jungle laws still apply
AA: no
AA: it is genuine
RO: you mean like CIRRIN RUNFAR was genuinely your friend?
RO: or like you were genuinely Ranigi's friend?
AA: it is not like that
AA: and i
AA: i truly am sorry for what happened to him
RO: that sounds pretty hollow coming from someone whos only plan to prevend that happening again is to figure something out
AA: i need to collect more information before i can make a solid plan
AA: but i will do it
RO: who knew pacifying your moirail would be so hard
RO: but then CIRRIN RUNFAR cant really talk about
AA: ...
AA: i have already said this is my fault
AA: what more do you want from me
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR doesnt actually want to blame you?
RO: but if your going to say your going to protect all your friends that you actually mean it because a lot of people have said they dont want any more maiming and killing and have done nothing but watch
AA: i will find a way
RO: soon because you know very well theres already a solution thats worked for like forever
AA: which is
RO: you know which it is
RO: Amaloc knows which it is
RO: Ranigi knew what it is
AA: ...
AA: i
AA: i cannot do that
RO: well
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR wouldnt blame you for that
RO: you
RO: dont want to think that
AA: no
AA: i do not
RO: its too bad you have so many friends it might be someone you care about who does it
AA: who does what
RO: kills him
RO: or at least badly maims him
AA: ...
RO: hey maybe your thing will work somehow
AA: i
AA: i must end this
RO: there you go with your big talk making it sound like your going to solve anything
AA: do you know cirrin
AA: do you know how to make this stop
RO: no
RO: all CIRRIN RUNFAR sees is this big threat and CIRRIN RUNFARs friends dying or forgetting everything with drugs or standing idly by and the only way CIRRIN RUNFAR could feel safe is removing that threat
AA: ...
AA: i apologise
AA: for everything
RO: that doesnt really mean anything
AA: regardless
RO: do you consider Solena genuinely one your friends?
AA: ...
AA: yes
RO: even after what she did to you and Amaloc?
AA: she had an obligation to protect you
RO: youve said Ranigi was your friend too so CIRRIN RUNFAR doesnt know what to think
AA: i
AA: i was
AA: it is complicated
RO: and that makes it alright
AA: no
AA: it
AA: it does not
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR sees your promise to keep your friends safe as a selfish way of protecting your side while continuing to hurt the other side
RO: which is okay
AA: i
AA: that is not what i
AA: i do not intend to do that
RO: believing youll be kept safe because some silly girl who doesnt understand how the world works says youll be safe is just
RO: well its foolish
AA: ...
AA: i may not understand much
AA: but i will be doing my best
RO: not that CIRRIN RUNFARs your friend anyway
AA: yes
AA: i know
RO: but some of the people you say are your friends are
RO: also people CIRRIN RUNFARs says are friends
AA: well then
AA: you had best hope for my success
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR just cant find any for hope that
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR will beleive it when CIRRIN RUNFAR sees it
AA: do as you will
RO: well
RO: erm
RO: see you around then
AA: goodbye
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