Hi y'all
I don't think it's much of a surprise that my mental state has been a bit of a rollercoaster for a while lmao
I don't have an "official" diagnosis at the moment but we've come to a realization through therapy etc that I have BPD, which really has explained a lot of things about myself.
Part of that has helped me at least recognize when I'm having an episode and what my triggers are, which is good, but it's still not really helpful because ideally I'd like to avoid my triggers, which is just kind of impossible in the spaces I inhabit online. I've had a tendency to hold extreme grudges for a lot period of time against people I feel have wronged me or people close to me all my life, and at least the last time I dealt with this kind of trauma I had Gwen to help keep me grounded and help work through it and now I don't.

So the best thing I can think of is to remove myself from uhhh pretty much the whole internet lol
It's really hard to recover from any kind of trauma when it keeps getting picked at, and having it picked at for a year straight has left pretty much 0 room for coping? Healing? Idk. And discord is dogshit at blocking too so that doesn't help. So yeah. I'm muting pretty much every arcade-related discord and putting them at the bottom of my list, I'm changing the passwords on my Facebook and Twitter accounts and hiding them. I personally want as little to do with the wider rhythm game arcade community as I can for the foreseeable future.
So as for the fact that, ya know, I am still planning on continuing imports at the same time as well as doing cons. Conventions aren't changing, that's my bread and butter, and I'm keeping the Snow Phoenix discord active.
I'm also going to be bringing someone in to handle sales because it turns out I'm also just kinda traumatized by everything between 2020-2021 and I've been struggling to even trust myself to fulfill any now (there's no reason for it, everything has been fairly normal since then, we've had at least 3 orders go off without a hitch, still terrified of the idea of anyone trusting me). I think a degree of separation will be good for me to learn how to trust myself again.


Tldr, I'm disappearing, I'll be back eventually.

I'll still keep FB active for messenger reasons, and my discord is @snowyabi if you'd like that.

If you got this far thanks for reading and Merry Christmas~