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- please please if you care about the
- future of this channel
- as well as my twitch please i beg of you
- please watch this video in its entirety
- i wanted to record an unscripted
- likely unedited video well there's gonna
- be
- gd gameplay in the background but
- unedited unscripted
- recording about my inactivity on youtube
- as well as streaming because i know
- that it's been a very long time since
- i've been
- active on youtube on twitch and most
- importantly
- in geometry dash so i wanted to address
- everything
- and basically just tell you where i'm at
- um i guess it can simply be put as
- uh the fact that i just have not been
- interested in geometry dash
- in a very long time i think the last
- time i was genuinely interested
- was when i was verifying ocular miracle
- and that was back in mid-june
- which is i'd say i think it was four
- months ago
- four and a half months ago something
- like that um
- i really just have not had the same
- drive to
- play the game as i once did i mean the
- last time i beat
- an extreme demon that wasn't a
- verification was spectrum cyclone which
- was three and a half months ago or
- something like that
- and i guess you could pin the blame on
- multiple things i
- basically i think the main thing you can
- blame
- is my growing interest in a little game
- called mario kart 8 deluxe
- and as some of you may know i
- have been time trialling a bunch of
- tracks mainly rainbow road
- where i got the world record four times
- in total
- and it's just been a really enjoyable
- thing for me to do just time trialling
- all the tracks in that game
- has been something i've truly enjoyed
- for
- months and months now and honestly
- i just it's kind of made me forget about
- gd a little bit
- and in all honesty that's kind of sad
- because
- i used to love this game more than
- anything
- and it this game has given me so much
- in life and it's helped me especially
- with the people that i've met
- and just playing the game in general has
- helped me as a human being
- and i really wish i could find that same
- enjoyment in playing extreme demons
- again
- as well as even recording content like i
- can't i can barely think of ideas
- i can barely bring myself to stream
- content i'll get to that in just a
- second
- but overall my interest in gd has just
- kind of died almost entirely at this
- point
- that's not to say i'm quitting because
- i'm not i don't
- ever want to just quit unless something
- actually happens but right now
- i just am not interested in the game in
- any like to any capacity
- i hope that sometime soon this changes
- and i start doing things again
- but i can't promise you anything
- about um my lack of interest to stream
- and make content has just simply been
- because my personal life has changed
- drastically in the last
- month or so um i talked about this
- in the extreme demons at faster speeds
- video
- um very briefly but not all that often
- or not all that much i should say
- um it's just simply because of the fact
- that my personal life has changed
- um i have moved several times in the
- last
- year it's taken a huge toll on me
- physically
- mentally and emotionally um
- i got into another relationship in
- august late august um i
- really really want to put time into this
- one um
- i mean that's not to say i didn't want
- to put time into the other ones i had
- but i feel like i need to treat
- the one that i'm with with you know
- enough
- respect um to where our relationship can
- actually
- thrive and exist pretty much
- i really want to focus just on my
- personal life that's one of them
- uh school work i want to focus on i have
- made the decision that i will likely be
- going to college
- this coming august september um i wasn't
- sure before but
- i've decided that i'm probably going to
- be applying and trying to get into
- college
- for 2021
- and it's just kind of been on my mind a
- lot i've been
- focusing a lot more on school work so
- it's that's also taking a lot of time
- away
- um i've been trying to figure out
- like where i'm actually applying because
- i need to do that soon
- i'm taking sats pretty soon as well just
- a bunch of personal life things that
- don't even give me that much time to
- play
- games at all anymore and this just came
- up a
- few weeks ago not even that recently
- well it's pretty recent but
- not even that long ago this has come up
- but
- it's the reason why i literally went
- three weeks in between uploads between
- trying the challenge list as well as
- extreme dooms at faster speeds there
- were three weeks in between those and
- it's now been a week and a half since
- that video
- and yeah i don't have content i mean i
- have content i have a video finished
- that will be up sometime next week
- so you can look forward to that however
- after that i don't have anything
- and this brings me to my next point
- um don't be surprised if i upload non-gd
- content because again
- i really have not been enjoying gd all
- too much
- as of late so don't be surprised if you
- see
- content from many other games i have a
- lot of games that i want to create
- content on
- it's just a matter of thinking of ideas
- and executing them
- and getting them edited into a video
- some games you can see content on are
- mario kart
- obviously i said that before among us is
- pretty big i find that game pretty fun
- you could see some on that despite its
- decline
- fall guys is another game that i could
- return to and enjoy
- and make content on and yeah
- just all i ask of you if you genuinely
- care
- please please please give these streams
- and these videos
- a shot even if you're subbed to me just
- for gd i beg of you please at least
- attempt to give them a shot
- and honestly this is for
- a couple reasons for one um i genuinely
- enjoy
- streaming i really do um even
- despite everything i've said in this
- video i genuinely enjoy streaming
- and making content and doing youtube i
- really really do enjoy it
- um but
- it would just hurt to just kind of see a
- huge decline because i
- unfortunately lost interest in a certain
- game that i played for
- that i've been playing for years and
- years now since 2014 pretty much
- and uh it would it would just hurt to
- see things just take a
- just take a massive toll on my growth as
- a streamer and a youtuber
- uh without gd videos i mean you'll still
- see gd videos and streams
- obviously like i i said before that i'm
- not quitting
- like at all i far from it probably but
- just don't be surprised if there are a
- lot of
- uh non-gd uploads and streams on twitch
- um in the coming weeks months maybe even
- years we'll see about that um
- there are a couple of things i want to
- talk about um one of them
- has to do they they both have to do with
- me personally like as a human being
- and what i'm going through and what i've
- been like um the first thing i want to
- talk about is
- uh my current financial state
- and this is a hard thing for me to talk
- about
- um so
- recently um to accommodate for my mom's
- job as well as my schooling
- we moved back to where we were before we
- moved in june
- about an hour away from where we
- currently are and were
- the issue with this is that our current
- place our current apartment costs more
- than what we were
- living in uh for the summer and this
- puts us in
- a very very very very very tricky
- situation financially
- my mom does not currently make enough to
- support the bills as well as the
- apartment
- so i am stepping in and using
- a lot of the money that i make from
- twitch and on youtube
- to help support us and keep us
- financially stable
- and this is what has concerned me the
- most about going inactive
- because going inactive means i don't
- make revenue i don't make money
- which means it's going to be a lot
- harder to keep us stable
- so it's been really concerning for me um
- to uh be going inactive and you know
- needing to help out with keeping us
- stable
- and i feel like there's more i want to
- say about that but i feel like that's
- just the gist of it i don't really need
- to go any further
- it's just we're struggling financially
- and without my youtube and streaming
- revenue
- we would not be living in our current
- place
- um the other one i want to talk about is
- my
- uh increasingly bad
- mental and emotional state as of late
- um this has been for so many reasons
- um a lot of it has to do with
- self-confidence in myself
- um now i might be making a mistake
- sharing this information on the internet
- but i want to be open with you guys and
- i want you to know what i'm going
- through
- as a human being outside of youtube and
- streaming and what you see
- on your screens i've been struggling
- mentally and emotionally as of late and
- it's main it's a lot of it's due to my
- self-confidence but there's a lot of
- other tiny things that just all bottle
- up into one
- giant mental and emotional blockage
- for me and it's kept me from doing so
- much that i want to do
- especially online and
- that i feel like that's a big reason why
- i just don't have any drive to do
- anything
- i now this being said
- i will do my absolute
- best and i promise you i will try
- my best to make a better effort
- to stream and put content out
- i really really will for you guys and
- honestly i know this sounds super
- selfish but also for myself so i can
- keep my family stable
- uh financially um but
- i really really really will try to
- pick my activity up and keep things
- going
- because i really really don't want to
- lose what i have and what we have
- as a community
- however do not be surprised if i do go
- on several day to week bouts of
- inactivity either on twitch
- and or on youtube do just don't be
- surprised because
- this will happen again if i do end up
- picking up my tip
- picking my activity back up this will
- end up happening again
- at some point so uh
- i think that's all i had to say um
- again just inactivity because of mental
- state
- uh financially struggling focusing on
- personal life
- and just an overall uninterest
- in geometry dash that i
- am trying to pick back up and
- uh help my i'm trying to help myself
- uh with everything so um if you did
- watch this video and its entirety
- i really really do appreciate it i
- really really do appreciate you taking
- the time
- to um listen to everything i had to say
- even though this was unscripted i may
- have gone
- all over the place but if you really did
- watch this entire video i really really
- really really really appreciate you
- uh at least giving enough of a to
- listen to me ramble about uh
- everything that's been going on um
- anyway
- thanks for watching thanks for listening
- uh
- i love you guys i will see you in the
- next video or stream
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