✨princessmary✨ - Today at 1:58 PM
I feel sort of attached sort of not
Zen - Today at 1:58 PM
you have have a friendly separation
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 1:58 PM
Ya
I can try- idk
It feels wrong rn
Ahhhh I need therapy
And meds
And people irl who understand
And that is not meant to go against you or the haven at all
Zen - Today at 1:59 PM
no i know, it's different
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 1:59 PM
Ya
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:00 PM
I feel disconnected rn
Zen - Today at 2:00 PM
i have therapists and a husband, friends and family here, it's diff
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:00 PM
Ya
I miss my fam
Zen - Today at 2:00 PM
but you were going to look into seeing how much a therapist was going to be yeah? did you end up doing that?
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:00 PM
No
I called to try to get meds again
They said they’d call back but haven’t
Need to call again
Zen - Today at 2:01 PM
maybe call again, yeah
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:01 PM
Ya on break
Zen - Today at 2:01 PM
cool, good idea
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:01 PM
I just only have 30 mins
How do I find a you?
Where?
Zen - Today at 2:02 PM
Well, you start by having the me, me first so you can get comfortable opening up to otheres
then you can try stuff like dating again, dating apps and such, or like meetup.com gatherings or whatever
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:02 PM
But idk if this is like real- like rn I can’t believe you actually like me
Zen - Today at 2:02 PM
also you could see if anyone here was sort of local to you
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:03 PM
Dating site ppl want sex
And want me based off of looks
Can’t believe why you’d like me I guess
Zen - Today at 2:04 PM
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
i just do
idk
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:04 PM
I don’t understand
But that’s okay
I can’t understand everything
I think it’s okay
Zen - Today at 2:06 PM
it's one of those radical acceptance things
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:06 PM
Sounds scary eek
Zen - Today at 2:07 PM
i still don't understand why anyone likes me, but i accept that they do
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:07 PM
But you have more facts I think
Sometimes I think I like facts
Facts are clear and facts don’t have feelings. Feelings are hard
I sound like a child
Zen - Today at 2:08 PM
you mean i have more facts about myself?
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:08 PM
Uh
More facts that you’ve done
Why people would like
In my mind
Which is twisted and idk your actual whole life
I know what I see and I form things,
I know what I see and I form things,
And I decide things sometimes when they aren’t true because idk
Like I assume moony pretty much hates me
And Alicia- and that Charlie is like okay I try to be nice
And that you think I’m kinda annoying
These are how I perceive my relationships
Zen - Today at 2:11 PM
aw hon
:heart: #1 I know for a fact that moony doesn't hate you
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:11 PM
I don’t really want hearts and pet names rn
If that’s okay?
Zen - Today at 2:11 PM
i can try, it's just habit for me
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:12 PM
Okay
Sorry
Zen - Today at 2:12 PM
nbd
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:12 PM
I do it too
Rn this is just a lot
Moony doesn’t like me i don’t think we get along
We clash?
Zen - Today at 2:12 PM
the others aren't just "trying to be nice"
she does like you
like i actually know she does
and i wouldn't just say that
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:13 PM
I don’t feel so
I feel disliked-
But that is just my feeling
Zen - Today at 2:13 PM
i think she's given you space bc she thought you wanted it
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:13 PM
Facts are harder
No
I like to shut people out
And punish ppl
But it feels good to have someone reach out and show they care
Like it is validating in some ways idk
But I also don’t want to ask for it/ so it’s like idk- I reached out to you
Zen - Today at 2:14 PM
yea i get that
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:15 PM
I think I punish myself a lot
To hurt myself
Zen - Today at 2:15 PM
it sounds like it
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:19 PM
Uh idk if that makes sense
I think I deflect with humor a lot and lovey dovey and sarcasm
To pretend I’m okay