[21:51] Shino: it was your fault, you were so passive...
[21:51] Shino: it's cutting me up to this day..
[21:51] Shino: all of this...
[21:51] Ain: :c
[21:51] Shino: i can't sleep because of this...
[21:51] Shino: anotehr thing i had to ditch and try to forget...
[21:51] Shino: ANOTHER THING...
[21:51] Shino: now YET ANOTHER ONE...
[21:52] Shino: after everything that already ahppened before...
[21:52] Shino: sobbing
[21:52] Ain: rubs back ;-;
[21:52] Shino: and it's gonna LITERALLY start cutting me too...
[21:53] Shino: don't give me this fake compassion...i tried and wanted so hard...you were just so passive and laid back about it all...
[21:53] Shino: i kept trying but it never ufcking mattered...
[21:53] Shino: and now you're collecting everything and letting in people who don't do fucking jack shit but "he's good at managment"...
[21:53] Shino: FUCK YOU ALL FOR RUINING THIS FOR ME! FUCK YOU ALL FOR RUINING ANOTHER ONE OF MY DREAMS!
[21:53] Shino: sobbing
[21:57] Ain: It’s helping me to not keep it self contained and just letting it be a “let people do what they want”. I don’t want to do it? You can, or someone else can. Two guys crunched excel formulas. I can’t even do that shit lol. They’re fine with me just being the PR guy, they still see me as leader and all that... I almost left myself, believe me, I didn’t want to just be useless. I still think you had the wrong ideas about the team. Good at management? Fuck yes he is. He’s half the reason we have a database. And also the second of three people to make me not feel like shit yesterday. I can only console so much, this is just being mean at this point... I’m sorry...
[21:57] Shino: I could have done all of that ages ago...
[21:57] Shino: we could have had fucking EVERYTHING...
[21:58] Shino: i'm also good...
[21:58] Shino: but ou never got to see my talents...
[21:58] Shino: beacuse "I had a wrong idea"...
[21:58] Shino: despite us talking over it NONSTOP...
[21:58] Shino: so many times...
[21:58] Shino: we talked it over...
[21:58] Shino: andi t's still somehow my fualt...
[21:58] Shino: sobbing, covering eyes
[21:58] Ain: And meanwhile it’s still somehow mine...
[21:59] Ain: Sorry if it became the blame game...
[21:59] Ain: It just...
[21:59] Shino: it's everyone's...I never asked for any of this...
[21:59] Shino: it's anotehr of my dreams ruined...
[21:59] Shino: i kept second, trple and four guessing myself about readding you because you being here keeps reminding me of that...
[21:59] Shino: and it makes me unable to sleep..
[21:59] Ain: Didn’t work. You weren’t stable. I wasn’t active enough for your standards. Reading you?
[22:00] Shino: to this day it feels as bad as on the first day...
[22:00] Shino: re-adding you..
[22:00] Shino: i'm ready to go fucking cut myself right now...this is too much pressure on me...
[22:00] Ain: I don’t know what to tell you.
[22:00] Shino: i cna't take this...i can't take all of this..
[22:00] Shino: why does everything go wrong for me..
[22:00] Shino: why do all my efforts go in vain..
[22:00] Shino: why...