For a 17 years. i've always been thinking of emptiness exist. even though in this world i never believed that i could be saved out of this cruel burden. in my life. staring at the sky at the night was making me tear up and fall in emotions inside my heart as i think of my existence. as darkness kept appearing over and over.. i never believed in having a great life.. after what happened... i didn't abandon my past yet.. but the destiny keeps rejecting me, for a second i feel like unwanted and i wanna.. go out.. abandon everything, just go and sit by myself in empty place. seeing nothing but emptiness, i wasn't even aware of my future.. all what was in my heart is something.. that wants to break it down... i always try to find happiness. smile with people and get happy.. but as i was left for a second. i'm fully emotional. spent days on my bed crying by myself and thinking of why should i live if it's like that... but.. you can't.. there are people that want you, you have to change but i couldn't change.. i was smiling everyday but what was hidden inside my heart was something that people never knew about. but after living in this world for such a long time with bizarre experience and stuff.. destiny has decided.. to make me feel free.. as all i could see is emptiness and darkness.. but one day.. some person came.. and replaced me.. made me reborn.. i don't know if it's destiny or not.. but that person came... showed me the world.. and how kind.. they are.. i was stunned.. happy.. and everything.. my days were completely changed.. i was really clinging on her.. she was everything for me.. i couldn't bring myself to leave her.. she was the only one in my eyes... my deepest darkness and emptiness.. in this world was replaced.. i was all the way.. everyday falling more and more in depression as i could even die.. but that person came and dragged me out... she held me.. took me.. made my heart beat and all lovely for her. yet destiny keeps rejecting me. but... she showed me what life is.. and what should i do.. and what i shouldn't.. i was told what is love.. and what is feelings, i'll never forget that person.. even if the days of the humanity has ended.. even if gods descended on the world. she'll remain in my heart.. even if we departed.. even if there is no longer sky and earth.. she'll remain in my heart.. in heavens.. in hell.. everywhere, i held strong love towards her.. something not imaginable.. like un explainable.