I don’t even remember any of that. It’s really been. So long and I’ve changed so much and I honestly don’t remember that at all. Especially calling you a trap that doesn’t even seem like something id do. I do believe you  though im not saying I don’t. I just don’t remember that at all and could never see myself saying that and I’m really sorry that I did. I used to be really mean to a lot of my friends that I was close to because that’s just how I was most comfortable showing that I was close to someone i guess. I’m not sure how to explain it but I didn’t really see a problem with it until I stopped talking to my closest friend for months and I changed a lot and finally got in contact with them again after a while and realized how much of a dick I actually was. Cause I would look back on it and think wow I was such an asshole like genuinely and I didn’t even notice. And I’m sorry about all of that I really am. It just hurt a bit that we stopped talking because I considered you a good friend even one of my best friends and I just didn’t know I was doing anything wrong and didn’t know why you stopped talking to me and I felt so bad about it like. I would see you around places like first on tumblr and then I moved to vent and saw you were mutuals with a lot of my mutuals there too and now even here and every time I was kinda just sad about it like. Idk. I really had no idea why and now that I know why, you had all the right to stop talking to me and I’m really so so sorry I really am. Like it’s unbelievable how I acted like that and I truly cannot believe that I did and I’m only upset that I didn’t realize it sooner. I’ve changed so much now that I. Honestly can’t believe I acted like that like it makes me so disgusted and I’m so so sorry. Genuinely. I’m really sorry. You didnt deserve that at all. I understand if you still don’t want to talk now but I just. Wanted to know I guess and not stay on bad terms and maybe even be friends again but I completely understand if you don’t want to talk at all. I’m still so sorry.