checkin

	Oh, uh… hi.

	Yeah, it’s… it’s been a while, hasn’t it?

	Yeah, you kinda came at an… awkward time, sorry.

	But you want to come in?

	I guess… okay.

	Yeah, the place is a mess. I’ve been doing double shifts at the diner, & when I get home I barely even have the energy to throw something in the microwave, let alone clean stuff up….

	Oh, yeah, no, uh, I’m going to be cleaning soon, don’t worry.

	Why aren’t I at the diner right now?

	Oh, um. I… I got let go.

	It was totally an accident though, & I’m gonna talk to them about it as soon as possible, just, uh… wanted to take a day or two to collect myself.

	[slightly annoyed]

	Yes, I’m taking my meds. Although I told you, I really don’t like how much of a zombie they make me. I’ve been trying to write again, but it all leaves me… blank.

	[nervous again]

	No, no, I’m still taking it, don’t worry.

	I… I remember what happens when I don’t take them.

	Would you like a glass of water? A cup of coffee?

	Yeah, I know, all of my, uh, all of my cups are in the sink, but it’ll be two minutes to clean it up, just… hold on a sec….

	The… the program sent you?

	Oh.

	Oh, geez.

	Yeah, I guess… I guess my boss at the diner must have called them.

	No, no, I’m fine. I am!

	You want to check my medication levels?

	Well… I mean… okay.

	I’m telling you, though. I’m fine.

	[pill rattling noises, if you want them here]

	You’re… taking out my pills & counting them?

	Urgh, do you HAVE to do that?

	Why can’t you trust me?

	What do you mean, the numbers are wrong?

	You want me to take two pills, RIGHT NOW?

	But… I took my pills last night!


	Do it, or you’ll tell them I’m not taking my meds?

	But you can SEE that I’m taking my meds, that’s not fair… this is gonna throw me off balance, & I’m gonna need to take my pills at a new time now, & when I get my job back it’ll be in the middle of the day….

	… okay, if. You’re right, if.

	I’ll… i’ll take them, hold on….

	[glass being filled sound, then swallowing]

	Urgh - I hate the shape of those things.

	Why am I still in my pajamas?

	Well, it’s still the morning, isn’t it?

	… oh.

	Um.

It’s four? Like, in the afternoon.

Huh.

Yeah, I was, uh… I was really tired. I was… I was kind of upset last night, because of… well, you know what happened at the diner….

	I kinda don’t want to talk about that, if that’s okay?

	… oh. Yeah, I guess you need it for your write up. But, um, I’m sure they told you about it….

	You wanna hear my side of things?

	Well okay.

	[gradually speeding up - you’re agitated]

	So, uh, Jackson, he was… he was insulting me, & he was saying that I was being disrespectful to Gabrielle, one of the ladies who works there, & I said no I wasn’t, & then Jackson said that you can’t trust people like, uh, people like me around women, & then I asked him what he meant by people like me & he said crazy people, only I said I’m not crazy, ‘cause I’m NOT, I’ve just got some problems, & then he called me a loony & said that all loonies are rapist & then I might’ve… gotten into his face &....

	Um.

	Shit.

	Sorry.

	[slurring a bit]

	S-sorry, I’m kinda… you know… I think the pills are, uh… are kicking in, everything is a little bit… yeah.

	I need to… I need to sit down, I’m sorry, it’s all a bit… um.

	Yeah, spinny.

	You’re… you’re checking my pulse now?

	Yeah, it’s… it’s really racing.

	Your hands feel… feel nice on the side of my neck. Yeah, they’re so cool… am I sweating?

	Oh.

	Yeah, I, uh, I overheat at night sometimes. I honestly wasn’t actually… wearing a shirt when I heard you ringing the bell, but then I saw you were a lady, &, you know, you gotta… you gotta cover… cover up.

	I’m sweating through my shirt?

	Oh.

	Oh, sure, you can take it off.

[various cloth rustling noises]

	Oh… my skin is so clammy, isn’t it?

	Yeah… s’the meds.

	You want to… check my eyes?

	Okay… okay, sure.

	Yeah, I’ll look into the… I’ll follow the light.

	My eyes are good?

	Okay.

	[rambling speech - you can ad lib this a bit - you’re being half carried to your bedroom]

	You want me to stand up? It’s… okay… whoa, it’s… it’s all really… dizzy… or is it me? I’m dizzy. Yeah, I’m dizzy, it has to be I’m dizzy, ‘cause, uh… ‘cause…. What was I saying?

	Oh. Right. Dizzy. Dizzy is me. Not… not around me.

	My bedroom? Yeah, this is it.

	We’re here.

	Why are we here?

	I… I don’t know. What did I tell you?

	I told you… I wanted to show you something?

	What did I want to tell you?

	Sorry, show. What did I want to show you?

	Oh, side effects.

	Right.

	It’s… it’s why it’s dark. I have the big… the blackout curtains….

	I’m photo… photowhatsit.

	Synthetic?

	No, I’m not a plant, I’m… sensitive. Photo… sensitive.

	And I’m on the bed now.

	When did I get on the bed?

	I wanted to show you a side effect?

	Yeah, I’m photo… thing.

	Or is it the… teeth. Teeth… thing. Grinding. The grinding teeth. That’s… I need a thing for it. A… knight. Not a night. A bouncer? A mouth… bouncer.

	That wasn’t it?

	You’re… oh! You’re turning the light off, please turn the light off, if I’m lying on my back like this, it’s… it’s right in my eyes, & it… it hurts, it… oh… thank you.

	Thank you for… for getting on the bed, for blocking out the light.

	Can I… do I have to keep eye contact?

	What was the other… the other thing I wanted to talk about. I don’t remember.

	I… oh, my head, it hurts, the light hurts, please, I need to… please….

	Oh.

	You’re… you’re sitting on my legs.

	Your… you’re blocking out the light, thank you, I… thank you.

	Can I… can I still get hard?

	I think so?

	I’ve been so… you know, it’s been so… with the… diner… I haven’t… I don’t really, uh… have any… any… oh!

	It’s… it’s getting hard, yeah, it’s… I’m sorry, that’s inappropriate, but you’re… oh god, when you move like that, you stop blocking the lights.

	But i have to keep eye contact, & you’re… it hurts, but it feels so good, but it… it hurts, it hurts, please, it hurts, it hurts, you’re… oh… you’re… moving up my body? You’re… you’re… covering my eyes, oh, thank you, that’s… that’s so much better, & you’re… oh, you’re… you’re so… you’re grinding against me through my pajama pants, & you’re… reaching over my head, what are you doing?

	[slightly muffled]

	Your… your breasts are in my face, they’re so… soft, please, it’s been so long, but… it… hurts, I can still see the light, & I can’t… you’re my… but… oh…..

	… the light is off.

	You turned the light off, thank you, thank you, & you’re… oh, god, I’m so hard.

	… the light was never on?

	Oh.

	I was… I guess I kinda just… just got a headache, I’m sorry, I”m… I mean, I”m…. oh!

	[sobbing/desperate]

	You’re… you’re sliding down my pajama pants, please don’t, I don’t want you to see that, I don’t want you to see… I’m all… it’s… it’s disrespectful, no, it’s wrong, it’s… no, please… don’t, I… oh god, your hand, it’s so… cool, & it’s so soft, & you’re just… stroking me,

	It’s so… oh… god, you’re… I can… you’ve uncovered my eyes, & it… oh god, it’s dark, but youi’re… you’re just… oh! Oh, fuck, your mouth, your mouth is on me… it’s so… please, it’s.. It’s dirty, it’s gross, I’m not supposed to do this, I can’t do it with you, but you feel so good, I… I want to touch you, please?

	No, I can’t touch you.

	I have to… I have to hold on to the headboard?

	… pretend it’s the restraints?

	I can’t… I don’t like… it’s… it’s… oh, please, please… please… please…. Oh… god, please, no, no, don’t… don’t… I….

	You’re… you’re straddling me, & the room is just… spinning, & I’ve just… got a headache, & it’s… it hurts, but you’re… you’re so beautiful, & you’re not wearing… panties, oh god, you’re so wet, you’re just… rubbing against me… you’re… I can feel the hair, it’s… you’re… it hurts, but it’s… oh… god!

	[she’s sliding down on you slowly]

	No, please, we don’t have a condom, I don’t want to get you pregnant, but you’re just… sliding down on me, you’re just… taking it… all… oh….

	I… what’s happening?

	What’s… why are you… what’s…?

	Are we having sex? We’re… we’re having sex?

	And you feel… you feel so good, & you’re just… rolling your hips, you’re… oh, fuck, you feel so good, but… I shouldn’t, but you… you want it, & if I push you off I’ll be written up for… for violence, & I can’t… I might… they… might… they… oh!

	My head… & your pussy… it’s just… it’s… it… oh… fuck….

	[begging & pleading]

	Please, please, please, please, please… please!

	I… I want… I… I… oh, god, you’re just… and you’re… leaning over me, no ,please, you’re almost off, but you’re… you’re turning the light on again, no, please, but… I can’t… I can’t touch you, I can’t touch you, the light is in my eyes & your pussy is on my cock, & you’re just… riding me, & I’m going to… look in your face, it blocks the light.

	You’re… you’re rubbing your clit, & it’s so… it’s making you tighter, you’re… you’re so wet, it’s drooling down my cock, oh god, you’re… you’re… I… it hurts, but you’re… you’re cumming… it hurts so much, but… please, please, please….

	I’ll keep looking at your face, please… you’re just… moving on my cock, you feel so good, you’re so… oh… fuck, I’m gonna… ‘m gonna cum in you, I’m….

	Oh… fuck!

	[orgasm noises - pained & complicated]

	Oh… it’s.. Oh…I… what happened?

	Why are we… what’s going on?

	Oh… it’s… I fell asleep?

	Oh.

	Yeah, that’d… that’d make sense.

	I’m… oh, crap, I’m… naked. Um.

	I should… I’m sorry, please don’t tell anyone I’m naked, I obviously shouldn’t be naked around you, uh, hold on….

	What?

	I need… I need to take my pills?

	Didn’t I already do that?

	But… well, uh, okay, you’ve got… you’ve got a glass of water & my pills, so… okay.

	[pill taking noises]