[3/15/14 8:53:34 PM] Mimi: i really didn't want to be on your team
[3/15/14 8:53:37 PM] Mimi: please calm down you don't
[3/15/14 8:53:38 PM] Mimi: owe me anything
[3/15/14 8:53:42 PM] Mimi: or owe being on my team next time
[3/15/14 8:53:43 PM] Mimi: i don't care
[3/15/14 8:54:04 PM] Mimi: i know that was put in a really harsh way but you need to
[3/15/14 8:54:07 PM] Mimi: stop guilt tripping yourself
[3/15/14 8:54:10 PM] Mimi: over what isnothing alice
[3/15/14 8:56:50 PM] Mimi: and ionly didn't want to be on your team because you never invited me in the first place i had to ask if it was okay for me to play
[3/15/14 8:56:54 PM] Mimi: so of course i expected for you to have
[3/15/14 8:56:58 PM] Mimi: set up teams already with your other friends
[3/15/14 8:57:23 PM] Mimi: i am perfectly fine with playing with strangers do you know how much mafia i play :/ i play with strangers all the time having just one friend on my team is already good enough for me that's why i invited anne
[3/15/14 8:57:29 PM] Mimi: and i thought it was gonna be teams of 2 which is why we're a ship
[3/15/14 8:57:38 PM] Mimi: otherwise i would have gone for something more open ended like saionji or something
[3/15/14 9:01:19 PM] Alice: oooo ok
[3/15/14 9:01:24 PM] Mimi: sorry just.
[3/15/14 9:01:28 PM] Mimi: i need to go
[3/15/14 9:01:29 PM] Mimi: take a breath
[3/15/14 9:02:20 PM] Alice: okay...
[3/15/14 9:03:46 PM] Mimi: im sorry for being harsh
[3/15/14 9:03:50 PM] Mimi: and for creating a misunderstanding
[3/15/14 9:03:57 PM] Mimi: and for being insensitive and taking action without your permission
[3/15/14 9:04:01 PM] Mimi: i misinterpreted your desires
[3/15/14 9:04:06 PM] Mimi: and that was wrong of me
[3/15/14 9:04:22 PM] Mimi: but you don't owe me anything and when you insist that you do it stresses me out
[3/15/14 9:04:49 PM] Mimi: because you completely misunderstood why i did and said what i did and it feels rotten to be interpreted as that sort of selfish person
[3/15/14 9:04:54 PM] Mimi: i'm sure you understand the feeling, don't you?
[3/15/14 9:05:14 PM] Alice: i'm not trying to owe you anything though...
[3/15/14 9:05:25 PM] Mimi: you said like
[3/15/14 9:05:30 PM] Mimi: we'll be on the same team next time i promise
[3/15/14 9:05:32 PM] Mimi: or whatever
[3/15/14 9:05:35 PM] Alice: yeah, that's
[3/15/14 9:05:47 PM] Mimi: because you think i wanted to be on the same team as you?
[3/15/14 9:05:52 PM] Mimi: I'm not that blind to the situation around me alice
[3/15/14 9:06:02 PM] Mimi: i know when it's fine to ask for things and when it's not, or so i'd like to think
[3/15/14 9:08:01 PM] Alice: but it is fine to ask for that?
[3/15/14 9:08:12 PM] Alice: and you didn't do anything wrong
[3/15/14 9:08:13 PM] Mimi: did you
[3/15/14 9:08:32 PM] Mimi: ...
[3/15/14 9:08:42 PM] Mimi: It wasn't fine because
[3/15/14 9:09:12 PM] Mimi: 1. you never invited me explicitly. so you didn't explicitly want me there. You set up this game for the primary purpose of playing with your other group of friends.
[3/15/14 9:09:38 PM] Mimi: It is FINE for me to be but that does not equal you WANTED me to be there. Although that also does not mean that you did NOT want me there nor does it mean that you are upset that I am there.
[3/15/14 9:10:20 PM] Mimi: 2. Because you already had an established group of friends to play with, it was clear that you must have a team set up. When I saw Komaeda and Kamukura in the pool, I knew that you probably already had a team set up. Even if it did not include Naegi, I had Anne to think about.
[3/15/14 9:11:06 PM] Mimi: I am not going to ask to be on your team when the situation is like that nor would I WANT to be on your team when the situation is like that because as much as I like to play with you and be on your team and work together with you, I like being troublesome and a bother even less -- especially to you.
[3/15/14 9:11:09 PM] Mimi: Do you understand?
[3/15/14 9:14:40 PM] Alice: 1. after you said you could get anne to join, i said that anyone could join.

2. kamukura just happened to ask me first and i didn't know that i knew them. and you're not a bother, you're my friend. so asking is just fine and nothing out of the ordinary.
[3/15/14 9:15:08 PM] Mimi: Either way, I went in there without the desire to be on your team.
[3/15/14 9:15:30 PM] Mimi: So, when it seemed like you assumed that I did want to be on your team and that somehow I would be disappointed that I did not make it onto your team, it...
[3/15/14 9:16:00 PM] Mimi: It doesn't feel very good to me that you assumed that I would be so selfish.
[3/15/14 9:16:57 PM] Alice: but... it's not selfish at all... that's the thing. it's not selfish at all to want to be on someone's team during a game.
[3/15/14 9:17:15 PM] Mimi: aklsjd;kfjalskjdf;lkajf.
[3/15/14 9:17:29 PM] Mimi: i give up for now.
[3/15/14 9:17:37 PM] Mimi: you should look in the game
[3/15/14 9:17:39 PM] Mimi: ishimaru got booted
[3/15/14 9:17:44 PM] Mimi: and so now people are wondering if we should restart
[3/15/14 9:17:48 PM] Mimi: i just don't
[3/15/14 9:17:50 PM] Mimi: want you to feel guilty.
[3/15/14 9:17:59 PM] Mimi: my own desires and wants are so far down my priority ladder
[3/15/14 9:18:02 PM] Mimi: it makes me feel worse
[3/15/14 9:18:05 PM] Mimi: that you feel bad because of some
[3/15/14 9:18:09 PM] Mimi: perceived want you thought i had
[3/15/14 9:18:17 PM] Mimi: than it does that i did not get something i literally didn't even assume i would get
[3/15/14 9:18:31 PM] Mimi: if it was like a regular 4p game with 2 total strangers i MIGHT be a tiny bit hurt if you didn't want to be on the same team
[3/15/14 9:18:34 PM] Mimi: but in a situta
[3/15/14 9:35:08 PM] Alice: oof. alright, i think i settled everything on that front for now.
[3/15/14 9:35:19 PM] Mimi: which one
[3/15/14 9:35:50 PM] Alice: the game. i just had to get everyone settled in again. so it's all good, i think.
[3/15/14 9:37:57 PM] Alice: anyway, it's a game. and it's alright to ask those kinds of things or want to join and team up. i don't mind at all and it's no trouble or bother or anything out of the ordinary.
[3/15/14 9:38:22 PM] Alice: but i guess i'm just being silly. i don't know...
[3/15/14 9:38:44 PM] Mimi: im tired of
[3/15/14 9:38:48 PM] Mimi: explaining myself
[3/15/14 9:38:49 PM] Mimi: right now
[3/15/14 9:38:55 PM] Mimi: you're still misinterpreting me but i'll just deal with it
[3/15/14 9:40:34 PM] Alice: okay sorry