What actually happened with The Cove and me. (Edit)

You really wanna know what happened those days in The Cove.
Think of this as a systematic destruction of that lying post she made

Starting off we got the part of me rejoining and acting weird.
I was not acting out of my normal behavior, and Sigma can confirm that, he was there that night.
I only got high, and I admit I got high, After I got permission from everyone in that voice chat INCLUDING HER
I also the next day made no changes. The only changes i made were to the FAQ chat. Then i got sick and had to stop for the day.
Nothing she did got undone, the only thing remotely close to that was me changing the warning system. The warning system she changed and replaced when i left because she wasn't attentive enough to pay attention when i was discussing the warning system.

I never stopper her from doing her admin duties, I told her specifically from the beginning when she became an admin (per my request) to not handle two things. 1. She was not allowed to advertise and do PR. Reason being she told me she was too fragile and didn't know enough to do so. 2. She was not allowed to handle muted sessions. While I was gone she constantly talked about how she was upset and doing everything on her own (especially muted sessions which were upsetting her a great deal to quote "I don't have that authority like you do to handle them") when she didn't once ask the current owner Sigma to help her. She took lead on her own, even though Sigma was the owner and basically stole his thunder. She never once asked Sigma if he needed help/needed things to do, she did them all on her own. She claims it was to make her feel "important" but no. I know better than that. The reason she is doing all of this is to get power, you see I won't say what happened to her in the past. That's up to her, but because of her past traumas. She see herself needing to exert that power on other people to feel in control. (I know because I also do this, as well as some other friends said that's what it looks like. I'm guilty of this too) Not to feel important, that's just a cheep ploy to get people to ponder on her side to fuel her Damsel in distress way of thinking to make me look like the villian. She also did this with me and made me kiss up to her and give her all the emparthy to her by constantly talking about her ex who now she claims I am acting like. Ironic, because she will talk about all the things I did wrong, but she won't talk about all the right I did with her to help her through her times of trouble. Same for me, she helped me a lot and I still care about her. After this blatant slander, I will no longer be speaking with her ever again.

Then we come to the point of of me trying to help her. She was freaking out over a support, and then I wanted to DM her about her way of supporting which me and the co-owner/second in command talked about before hand (Sigma being second in command), so I could discuss with her ways on changing support since she was my Head of Support so we could get more efficient supporting sessions. Then she told me she was freaking out, so I told her I'd help her. She already requested in a support room, so I told the supporter I had it so we wouldn't waste resources on someone that was already being taken care of and helped. I told her, I was gonna call her. I said to her plainly, hey I'm going to call you. I also told her I wanted to talk about her ways of coping. Because in the time that I knew her, the episodes she had where getting worse. Granted, that was because of the server and I will get to that in a minute.

I accused her of staling, because I was already angry at someone else which I made abundant in VC when I called her, this not accusing my actions but she told me after i accused her of staling. I didn't know. If she wouldn't have felt comfortable talking to me when I was angry, she should've have told me so. Nothing was said about it. I never said she was asking for help wrong, I was saying the way she was coping wasn't healthy because it wasn't coping and instead in the words of someone I talked to it looked more like "babying the person" (this of course only being the way that the person put it, because he's a not bullshit straight to the point person. He means empathy though) instead of actually dealing with the problem like an adult would. She gets angry at me for telling her this, and I hate how she made it seem like I didn't try to help her at all. I consistently asked her what was wrong. To which she told me I don't wanna say what's wrong. I took it as "I just want more empathy, not help" which I wasn't having any of that. You have to understand, for months now of doing this with her and her not asking for help in the slightest, I wanted to actually help. She didn't want help, she just wanted more empathy instead of actually working on the problem. After that she became distant. I was distant because I was working on the server, and dealing with stress. Me and her already had a few falling outs before hand, which is why I didn't tell her. You may see in what i said to her in the 23rd, I said other wise. However, my DPD was struggling with losing her. I called her my sister, I loved her like one. That I would do anything to keep her. It wasn't till a meaningful discussion with my Father that I realized how toxic and how much she was acting like one of my exs, I know, that's also ironic. Three Staff ended up leaving because Obelisk was complaining about how I was doing my job, and they got mad at me for it and ended up leaving. They also had an issue with how I was doing some things. However, not one person, not a single damned soul came to me and asked me anything/didn't bring up their issues with me at all. Which is very suspicious. I literally for that time, wasn't even moderating because I was sick. (Sigma can vouch for me about the being sick part)

Now we move on to her talking about the moderators coming in on favors. The thing about favors was me telling her, that when she went to other servers and asked them to come moderator specifically because the owner left, it seemed more like it would be for favor, and would end up with people leaving when I returned. Which also happened.

Azusa then came to Obelisk about why I returned and didn't join the MHI. I do not hate the MHI that's just a blatant lie. (Sigma can vouch for me on that too) I was upset at what they did, because they where the reason in the first place that I left. I won't discuss why for privacy reasons, if they're okay with me sharing I'll share. Anyways, I asked Azusa to talk to me because OBELISK TOLD ME THAT AZUSA SAID SHE WAS GONNA BE WATCHING THE SERVER VERY CLOSELY NOW THAT I HAVE RETURNED. - Direct Quote. I flipped shit because Obelisk told me that Azusa was gonna be watching the server, I saw it as I was being told what to do (Obelisk gave me no context on the server situation and them blacklisting it) and that I was being monitored in my own server. She then explained to me that it was for a server that had slandered L&S. I talked to Azusa about it, we came to a peaceful conclusion (Which Obelisk told me she was thankful for me doing it diplomatically) she apologized if she said she said the entire thing about her monitoring my server, which oddly enough for Obelisk, she didn't recall saying that at all in the first place. I told Obelisk something that pissed me off, which was monitoring. Then she explained "imma not be your messenger" i was like "what" then she offered to send a message to her, which i responded with a snarky tone "I thought you weren't gonna be my messenger." then she got aggressive with me and said "Don't fuck with me Jamie" then I discussed with Azusa about everything that happened.

I then DMd Obelisk to clear things up as to why there was a group chat without me knowing, which upset me because I have issues with people talking about me behind my back. With out relationship deteriorating, of course I had some concerns. Weere they justified? No. However, it plays out differently than the way she portrays it. I was then confused, because the way she worded it weirdly. It sounded like she made it so i asked her, "I thought you made the group chat" - Direct Quote. I did believe that part about her not making it, the fact that she said I didn't is also just bullshit lies. Then the talk with Leer, Azusa, and Sigma came in. Which originally was just supposed to be me and the other mental health owners. Not Sigma. I brought him in because I felt safer with him in the group chat, I didn't invite Obelisk for very obvious reasons. My Protective alter comes out so much later, than she makes it out to be. My alter came out after I got done talking with Colten because of some serious trauma that Obelisk made me realized. She accused me of being controlling and abusive. Which broke me, I have serious trauma when it comes to people controlling and being abusive. Again, not something I wanna talk about it's really personal to me. I didn't let Obelisk get involved because she had no idea on what the situation was about in the first place, and had no business doing anything in the situation at hand because she played absolutely not part in it. I told Colt that she wasn't feeling too well because she threatened to leave and said she wasn't okay and needed a break. To which she upvoted with the upvote emoji on the comment i made about her needing a break and not wanting to deal with it.

About the staff leaving. 2/3 of the staff didn't leave. It was more or less the 1/3 that she invited under the pretenses that I was gone and we needed to fill the gap, which is very coincidental. Also, all the people that left were people she invited. None of which I promoted.

Hearing what she said about me about me being toxic and the abuse and me being controlling broke me like I stated above because I have trauma dealing with those topics, very serious trauma. Which is why I broke and I had to have my alter come out. Oh wait, she said why the trauma was bad and what it was about. She said it was my grandfather which she didn't ask me at all for permission to disclose that information to everyone. Which was wrong, I don't like people knowing about my personal life.

I decided on deleting the cove much later because of these reason.
1. Because It wasn't good for my health
2. I didn't wanna give it away because I did that with The Outcasts and it really hurt me, I never got the closure from that and i desperately needed that closure because it was eating at my mental health for months.
3. Because Obelisk kept breaking down because of the server when she considered herself "owner", which is why I didn't give it to her and I told her that in a group chat with Sigma. To which she agreed with. Then she freaked out about losing power, and went to bed after me and her making up for everything I had done in the past, again kissing up to her and agreeing with her because I didn't wanna lose her. Btw, she didn't actually ask to get ownership of it. If she did it was one very minor sentence that I then responded with after she asked "just give it to someone else" I said that no I needed the closure and that It would hurt me way to much to give it away. I then told her she was not stable enough and then no one else could actually take over the server, reason being everyone else was also not mentally well enough, and others didn't want it/didn't know what to do with it. We made sure that the people had a good home though. Other servers to join to be apart of so they're not left serverless. I never regressed on her. I was in a fragile state and started talking like I was fragile, but I was not regressed. Then get this, she goes behind my back, to old drama that I had with some other members of the Outcasts (My old server that i left) dug up the old drama and of course them hating me because of my decisions some of them hating me, some not, they told them their story of why I was a bad person. This was very shady of her to do. I never gaslighted her either, I was always supportive of her and what she was doing for the longest time up until me talking to her about her coping, which i told her wasn't healthy for her and wanted to help her get better coping skills. This is what actually happened those days in The Cove. You can see the power play when she talks about that server being her baby. Despite her not doing shit the entire time I was there other than adding one thing to the rules, and typing up the FAQ which I had to change because she got so much wrong. She changed, which made me change. It all happened whenever I wanted to come back. Something about her just snapped, her entire demeanor changed towards me. Which better reinforces my point on her wanting more and more control.