Update on stuff

Gonna talk a little about speedrun/stream stuff, and a little about personal stuff. I'll do the speedrun stuff first, that way if you wanna skip the personal stuff you can.

Speedrun stuff: Gonna stick in the LttP NMG tourney, and continue working on that in the near future. I PB'd by a minute and a half after not touching the game for a couple weeks, so there's still a lot of time to drop. Probably looking at dropping bottle+net, the only time I used it during my PB was laser bridge because I was trying to do it like super well and screwed up, otherwise I usually don't struggle with health too much with powder. Still gonna shoot for at least a sub 1:40 and take it from there.

Gonna submit All Forts, Warpless, and 100% for SGDQ. Not a huge preference, maybe leaning toward 100%, but honestly I'd just be down to race anybody in any category. I feel like SMB3 will likely make it in in some form or fashion; there's a lot of good runners submitting, just comes down to whether or not they think I'm worthy to race alongside them.

Other than that, I think I'm gonna pump the brakes on speed stuff for a little bit, there's a long backlog of casual games floating around in my head that I wanna play, as well as a bunch of Glibathon 7 incentives to get honored, so I'll try and tackle that stuff so it doesn't sit around forever. Obviously if I'm gonna be running SMB3 at SGDQ, I'll be working on it, but I probably won't go as crazy as I did last year with the relay. Definitely gonna take it a touch easier.

Speaking of SGDQ, I registered, and I'll probably go for at least a portion of it, but probably won't go the whole week. Between wanting to save at least a little of my vacation time and ending up completely socially burnt out after AGDQ, I think going for a shorter period of time will be a better call. I might have just skipped it, but with it only being a 2.5 hour drive away, it's kind of silly not to go. I'll probably come back and wish I had spent the whole week, who knows.

Tbh, I haven't had a ton of speed motivation right now. I usually always want to practice something, but for whatever reason the feeling just isn't there at the moment. So when I do runs of whatever, I feel under practiced (because I am) and just don't enjoy it as much. It comes and goes, I guess, so it'll likely be back sooner rather than later. Still enjoying racing and all that tho, so expect dumb races and blind stuff and all that to still continue.

Ok, now I guess I'll do the personal update so if you don't wanna read all that thanks for reading this far. Cya.

It's been about 2 and a half weeks since I kind of hit rock bottom. Not gonna lie and say things are all great again, or even that they're good, but I guess it's better. Still a lot of things bothering me, a lot of nights feel like there's more questions than answers, but I'm working on it I guess. Either that or I've gotten the strength to just suppress everything again, not sure honestly. Not gonna go into specifics because I just don't want to, just still not where I want to be in life, and it looked like maybe there was a way or two to help make things better than didn't turn out. So I guess I'm looking for something else to get me to a better place, whether that's internal or external, who knows.

I streamed again for the first time last night, and it was nice, but at the same time I could still feel stuff nagging at me. Usually when I stream that sort of stuff disappears, but it didn't happen last night, so I'm scared it won't bring that stress relief it normally does... time will tell. That's kind of another reason I'm gonna try switching up the content a bit, just to see if it makes it easier to forget about the stuff I want to forget about but just can't.

Wanna thank everybody who gave me the kind words of support, showing appreciation/gratitude has always been one of my biggest weaknesses, but it really does mean a lot to me. Special shoutouts to a select few people that have been helping me, you know who you are. If I'm ever being too nagging or whatever please tell me, the last thing I wanna be is a burden to any of you.

I guess that's it. Ty for read.

Glib