Let's start with what happened in early 2011.

I've always been a lonely kid growing up. I only had a couple of friends
in elementary school, but I always played video games. Life was ok and well
for the most part, until 8th grade.

At the time, I was bullied in 8th grade due to a serious of fights. I was afraid
to go to school because of my safety. I didn't know how to fight as much. My
parents eventually found out that I was missing out in school. They got really
angry with me, up to the point where it strained our relationship because they
thought I was lying. I eventually snitched, but that destroyed my reputation
with everyone in school. My friends stopped hanging out with me, and I had the
reputation of a loner. I had serious anxiety everyday at school and was careful
about what I said because I was scared that it was going to turn into a fight.

After school, I went into online fourms like Youtube and video games to vent out
any anger I had as a loner. I had a low image of myself, and I remember having suicidal thoughts. The panic attacks were too much, but eventually the guy moved away, and
I wasn't as scared anymore, but this low self esteem went into high school. In 9th grade
I didn't want to sit with the people I used to hang out with because they would
remind me of the fights from last year. "Haha you got your ass whooped" they would say.
I couldn't do anything but just take in, but it affected me because I felt so alone
in that situation. My parents didn't understand me and were mad because I missed days in
school. I just wanted someone to understand me.

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