8:38 PM] Flashy kek: u puttin it now in this light that
[8:38 PM] hana: no
[8:38 PM] hana: i also did wrong
[8:38 PM] hana: i couldve done a lot better
[8:38 PM] Flashy kek: i go out with a feelsgoodman out of this
[8:38 PM] hana: im not a good person
[8:38 PM] hana: no
[8:38 PM] hana: im not saying that
[8:38 PM] Flashy kek: u do
[8:38 PM] hana: i cried a lot
[8:39 PM] hana: i just put a tough front up
[8:39 PM] hana: you know I care
[8:39 PM] hana: and I know you care
[8:39 PM] hana: I'm just saying what I'm thinking
[8:39 PM] Flashy kek: yes and i dont like saying what im thinking
[8:39 PM] hana: there's so much shit happening in my life lately
[8:39 PM] hana: when we met
[8:40 PM] hana: you told me you were always gonna tell me if you dont like something
[8:40 PM] hana: and how you feel
[8:40 PM] hana: that was like one of the first things we talked about
[8:41 PM] Flashy kek: u also wrote now that i write u only cause of my shit
[8:41 PM] Flashy kek: same shit
[8:42 PM] hana: Yes
[8:42 PM] hana: BECAUSE
[8:42 PM] hana: you didnt talk to me
[8:42 PM] hana: before that
[8:42 PM] Flashy kek: i did
[8:42 PM] hana: "wyd"
[8:42 PM] hana: random meme
[8:42 PM] hana: ignores hana for hours
[8:42 PM] hana: hi
[8:42 PM] hana: how are you
[8:42 PM] hana: good you
[8:42 PM] hana: wyd
[8:42 PM] hana: nothing
[8:42 PM] hana: 3 hours later
[8:42 PM] hana: same thing
[8:42 PM] hana: I write you life stories
[8:43 PM] hana: no comment or 1 short sentence
[8:43 PM] hana: nothing agian for ages
[8:43 PM] Flashy kek: cause its maybe better for u
[8:43 PM] Flashy kek: cause u always put so much hope in this or things
[8:43 PM] hana: and that makes it easier for me?
[8:44 PM] Flashy kek: for sure better then i write normal with u
[8:44 PM] Flashy kek: now u care less
[8:44 PM] hana: I dont care less
[8:44 PM] hana: I just dont know what to do
[8:44 PM] hana: and thats why I dont give a fuck
[8:44 PM] hana: you always said you like me being clingy
[8:44 PM] hana: do you know how trash I felt for not writing you anymore
[8:45 PM] hana: because it'd just make me feel trash in the end
[8:45 PM] hana: and I'd rant in my head about it for hours in bed
[8:45 PM] Flashy kek: u wrote 5min ago something other
[8:45 PM] Flashy kek: and i could block u now in peace
[8:45 PM] hana: Yes, because you definitely will I guess
[8:45 PM] Flashy kek: i said u i want distance and not
[8:46 PM] Flashy kek: fuck u up
[8:46 PM] Flashy kek: or whatever
[8:46 PM] Flashy kek: i have no reason to block u
[8:46 PM] hana: I'm fucked up already
[8:46 PM] Flashy kek: and tbh i write with everyone like this
[8:46 PM] Flashy kek: i dont care much about others
[8:46 PM] hana: I wrote lots about you with especially orzechon
[8:46 PM] hana: I know he supports you al ot
[8:46 PM] Flashy kek: i dont care about myself much too
[8:47 PM] Flashy kek: so u know its not like this how i handle it
[8:47 PM] hana: i wanna punch a wall or something rn tbh
[8:47 PM] hana: im gonna be back in 10 min or so
[8:47 PM] hana: keep typing
[8:47 PM] hana: need to calm down
[8:50 PM] Flashy kek: you are pretty like a time bomb tbh
[8:50 PM] Flashy kek: u are selfdestroying as fuck
[8:50 PM] Flashy kek: 1 reason was also these fucking pictures of cutting vains
[8:51 PM] Flashy kek: no fucking one with depressions shows things like this
[8:51 PM] Flashy kek: its the biggest attention scream that u can bring in this situation
[8:51 PM] Flashy kek: and u now it so good that i hate it
[8:52 PM] Flashy kek: and that showed me also very good that u wont change
[8:52 PM] Flashy kek: not that i wanted change u but u know what i mean
[8:53 PM] hana: back
[8:53 PM] hana: yes i am a time bomb
[8:53 PM] hana: because I bottle all my feelings up
[8:53 PM] hana: why self destructive
[8:54 PM] hana: I didnt cut myself for a long time
[8:54 PM] hana: because I felt like it was wrong
[8:54 PM] hana: and it would make you mad
[8:54 PM] hana: yes it is a cry for attention
[8:54 PM] hana: What else would it be
[8:55 PM] hana: you did change me
[8:55 PM] hana: and i'm thankful for that
[8:55 PM] Flashy kek: maybe not in the right way
[8:55 PM] hana: Why not
[8:55 PM] hana: did you want me to keeping hurting myself
[8:55 PM] hana: I havent even talked about cutting myself
[8:55 PM] hana: or hurting myself for ages
[8:56 PM] Flashy kek: no
[8:56 PM] hana: not because I just didnt wanna tell anyone
[8:56 PM] hana: but because I really didnt feel the need to
[8:56 PM] hana: if I feel trash I just go to sleep
[8:56 PM] hana: and hide from my problems
[8:59 PM] Flashy kek: not all about hurting yourself
[9:00 PM] hana: What else then
[9:00 PM] Flashy kek: tbh a good example is faguette
[9:00 PM] Flashy kek: about my trust isuess
[9:00 PM] Flashy kek: u wrote like every fucking day with him
[9:01 PM] Flashy kek: about much privite shit
[9:01 PM] Flashy kek: about much ur shit
[9:01 PM] Flashy kek: about your problems
[9:01 PM] hana: yes because he showed interest in them
[9:01 PM] Flashy kek: yes and then
[9:01 PM] hana: he didnt show interest in me anymore and I didnt show interest in him
[9:02 PM] hana: and we stopped having contact
[9:02 PM] hana: thats then
[9:02 PM] hana: im thankful for the time he spent with me
[9:02 PM] hana: why wouldnt I
[9:02 PM] hana: it feels good to have someone when you need someone
[9:02 PM] hana: and that was exactly in that time when we werent talking really
[9:02 PM] hana: or like
[9:02 PM] hana: at the beginning at least
[9:03 PM] hana: as soon as we started talking more again
[9:03 PM] hana: I completely lost interest in his opinions
[9:05 PM] hana: I just occasionally annoyed him when I was upset because of you
[9:05 PM] hana: when you didnt talk to me for example
[9:05 PM] hana: thats like the only times I wrote him since then
[9:05 PM] hana: same with orzechon
[9:06 PM] hana: only thing me and orzechon do besides writing about my feeling is talking about titkok memes, german whales fucking next door and him sending me pictures of him shitting
[9:08 PM] hana: my whole life was you
[9:09 PM] hana: or at least
[9:09 PM] hana: a BIG part
[9:09 PM] Flashy kek: maybe it was but its not good and tbh its better like this for u
[9:09 PM] hana: i never felt for anyone like I felt for you
[9:09 PM] hana: and
[9:10 PM] hana: i just cant get over the realisation that I lost it now
[9:10 PM] hana: I'm gonna watch the walking dead now
[9:10 PM] Flashy kek: maybe its just better when u hate me
[9:10 PM] hana: no
[9:10 PM] hana: I dont hate yxou
[9:10 PM] hana: i adore you
[9:10 PM] hana: like I said
[9:10 PM] hana: im a crazy bitch
[9:10 PM] hana: thats it
[9:11 PM] Flashy kek: true
[9:11 PM] hana: think like
[9:11 PM] Flashy kek: but
[9:11 PM] hana: its better for you
[9:11 PM] Flashy kek: like i said better for u
[9:11 PM] Flashy kek: thats why i say selfdestroying
[9:12 PM] Flashy kek: i also dont wanna block u or like delete u completly of my life but
[9:12 PM] Flashy kek: how u act to that its maybe the better decision
[9:13 PM] Flashy kek: not healthy for u
[9:13 PM] hana: hm..
[9:13 PM] hana: stop giving good arguments.
[9:14 PM] hana: stop making senes
[9:14 PM] hana: sens
[9:14 PM] hana: ense
[9:14 PM] hana: sense
[9:14 PM] Flashy kek: i didnt wanted go like this
[9:14 PM] Flashy kek: but here we are
[9:15 PM] Flashy kek: ignoring is just easier
[9:15 PM] Flashy kek: nothing against u in person
[9:15 PM] Flashy kek: thats how i roll
[9:15 PM] hana: i dont know what to say sry
[9:15 PM] Flashy kek: and i dont say its good
[9:16 PM] hana: my brain is overloaded
[9:17 PM] Flashy kek: u should block me and not me you
[9:18 PM] Flashy kek: when i write normal with u i think u will feel even worse
[9:18 PM] Flashy kek: better give u a reason to hate me
[9:19 PM] Flashy kek: easier for u