just how bitter

*went to college
*field requires BA for entry level
*school cancels program before associates
*school lets us finish that level only
*only transferable school is online or other side of country
*found out during associates i don't have life together enough to do online courses
*too broke to be able to move across country
*stuck with half what i need to get a job in the field, and no way to finish it
*plus the massive student loan bill
*end up with surgery on back due to severely herniated disk (aka most physical jobs aren't even a choice now)
*put off paying it back by going to community college for other subject i'm interested in
*previous school gets shut down by gov for fraud
*still stuck with massive debt and have had no luck finding a job
*only have small hope for some kind of job though a startup me and some friends are starting
*if it works, great, if not i'm just screwed.
*not even depressed, but a good tall bridge looks like the easiest way out of this shit storm.