If I Stay (2014)

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MIA: At the age of 26,
Ludwig van Beethoven went deaf,

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R. J. CUTLER:
This is R. J. Cutler, director of If I Stay,

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um, providing kind of an audio guide
through the sound track of If I Stay.

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The first song on our soundtrack is
The Orwells' Who Needs You'?

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We were looking for
actually quite some time

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for a song that would be
the perfect song to play

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when the whole family finds out
that it's a snow day.

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There's cause for celebration
and all plans are thrown up in the air,

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everybody's gonna let loose.

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The Dandy Warhols' Bohemian Like You
had been playing

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when the DJ interrupts to say,
"School is canceled."

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And we knew we needed a tonal shift.

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We tried a lot of different music
from Denny and Kat's era,

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the more kind of punk, grunge,
uh, new wave influence music,

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and we thought that we would want to
find a song from one of those categories.

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But then one day during post-production,

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Keith Henderson, who edited the film said,
"Have you seen this?"

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And he played for me the YouTube clip

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of The On/vells playing Who needs You?
on Late Night with David Letterman,

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and it was unbelievable.

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If you haven't seen it, I encourage you
to check it out on YouTube.

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They blow the place apart.
It's so much so...

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I mean, they're so awesome that
Letterman asks them to do an encore,

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which I don't think
I've ever seen him do before.

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These guys are like, really,
barely out of high school.

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They're 18, 19 years old.

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And Letterman is begging them
to do an encore,

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which of course, they're refusing to do.

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We listened to it, and from the moment
we heard it we were like,

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(CLAPS HANDS) "That's the one,
that's the song."

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And in fact The Orwells kind of
became, in a way, our guiding spirit.

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It's why they lead off the album,

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and, um, we just love this tune so much.

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MAN ON RADIO:
Yes! That means no school, kids.

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Well, ain't that a bitch?

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School's out forever!

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(GRUNTS)

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Did you really just quote Alice Cooper?

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My God, son, have I taught you nothing?

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Let's go make
a snow monster.

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We can try. it looks like it's not really
sticking out there, though.

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You guys are all
playing hooky without me?

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It's not hooky
if it's a snow day.

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So not fair.

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Life isn't fair.
KAT: That is true.

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But sometimes you got to, like,
noodge it a little.

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(couemwe)

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It'd be bad to go to work
with this cough,

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spreading my germs around.

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Let's get some lunch. I am Starvin' Marvin.

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Oh, and, um, by the way,
that Adam rocker dude

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was totally checking you out.

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Adam Wilde saw me geeking out?

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He saw you blissing out and he was into it.

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(SIGHS) No, he isn't "into it," Kim.

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Uh, yeah, he is, Mia.

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He's way into you.

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Do not take his picture, Kim.

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I'm not an amateur.

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You're welcome.

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(SCHOOL BELL RINGING)

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MUN. Over the next couple of weeks

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I noticed Adam hanging around
while I was practicing my cello.

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You're Mia.

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- Yeah.
- Good.

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I just wanted to clear that up.

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There were rumors.

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I'm Adam.

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Ikno... Um...

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Hi.

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Wow. Yo-Yo Ma much?

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Kinda. (CHUCKLES)

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What's the deal with that?

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Is that, like, street or something?
Yo-Yo Mama?

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It's Chinese.

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And don't mock the master.

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- It's blasphemous.
- I'm sorry, my bad.

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Hey, I got some tickets to see a cellist.

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Really?

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Yeah. You interested?

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You're asking me on a date?

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Yeah. Well, a friend of the family
had the tickets and can't go.

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Anyhow, it's this Friday.
I could pick you up.

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What?

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You can't hide
in that rehearsal room forever.

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It's too late.

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I see you.

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KIM: Hey.

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I'm Kim.

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Hi.

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Okay. I'll see you guys later.

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Bye.

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(CHUCKLING) on, my God!

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What?

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I told you he was into you.

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No, no. He just had a question
about classical music and...

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- C)Kay_
-(SIGl-ls)

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KIM: Better be nice to you or else

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- I'll crush him like the bug he is.
-(GIGGLES)

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God, all right, we get it.
You're in love! Go away!

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You got two types of girls
in this world, Mia.

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Girls who have boyfriends in high school...

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And girls like us who wait till college.

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So much happier.

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KAT: I'm totally off the hook.

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What are we doing today, hmm?

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We can go the farm,
visit Henry, Willow and the baby?

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Stop by my folks' place for a late lunch?

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Mia, you gonna come with us?

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I don't know.

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There's this tricky part of
the Beethoven sonata

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that I've really gotta nail,

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and, well,
the letters were mailed on Friday.

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Juilliard.

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The audition was two months ago,
but I can still feel it in my fingers.

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Okay, this is painful to watch. (SIGHS)

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Look, who knows what time
the mail's even gonna be delivered today?

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Come on, you got to come with us.

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Come on, baby.
Pretty soon you're gonna be off to college,

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no matter where you're going.

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How many snow days are
we gonna be able to spend together?

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Are you really playing
the guilt card right now?

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We'll let you pick the music.

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And bribery.

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Honey, guilt and bribery
are the glue that have held

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parents and teenagers
together for generations.

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Don't fight tradition.

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Fine.

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Boom!

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(ROCK MUSIC PLAYING ON STEREO)

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(SINGING) I am a passenger

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And I ride and I ride...

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I thought you said I'd pick the music.

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Oh, yeah. She's right, Teddy.
Fire up the jams, sister.

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- Let's hear something old-school.
-(MUSIC STOPS)

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How 'bout I kick out a few tunes
from our favorite Austrian melody maker,

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Franz Schubert.

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KAT: Not that old-school.

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Iggy Pop! Iggy Pop!

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DENNY:
Teddy, you can listen to Iggy on your iPod.

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But nothing after 1978.

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- You understand me, young man?
-TEDDY: Yes, sir.

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Well, I choose Ludwig van Beethoven.

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TEDDY: Surprise.

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(CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING)

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MIA: I've always wondered
if Mom and Dad were disappointed

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that I didn't turn out more like them.

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I tried to. I mean, Mom and I
went to all of Dad's shows.

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-(ROCK MUSIC PLAYING)
- Dad's band was called Nasty Bruises.

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Embarrassing, I know.

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They were what you might call
"big" in our town.

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And for a while,
everyone thought they might get bigger.

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(MUSIC CONTINUES)

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That was my preschool.

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But then one day in second grade...

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(STRING VIBRATES)

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I wanna play it.

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(PLAYING)

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Cellos are crazy expensive.

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So, I borrowed a crappy one from school.

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Mom and Dad found a student
from a local college to teach me.

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And I rehearsed day and night.

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I couldn't get enough.

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I love her.

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But I'm about ready
to stab my eyeballs out.

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This is exactly why I could never procreate.

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Amen, sister.

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(CONTINUES PLAYING CELLO)

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MIA: I loved the order.

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The structure.

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But what really hooked me
was that feeling I got in my chest.

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It's like my heart was beating
with the cello.

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Dude. (SIGHS)

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She's been at it since this afternoon.

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You want me to tell her
to hang it up for the night?

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No.

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You go in there you'd probably
get clubbed with a bow.

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-(CHUCKLES)
- I wouldn't risk it.

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I wonder where she gets that from.

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Ah.

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Naw, guys play music for two reasons.
To get laid and because they got rage.

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But mostly to get laid.

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Well, that's probably not her motivation.

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No. Exactly.

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She's not doing it to get anything.
She's just doing it out of pure...

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We made that.

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MIA: The next day,
Dad came home with a present.

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A cello of my very own.

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(CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING)

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Isn't it amazing
how life is one thing and then,

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in an instant, it becomes something else?

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Like here I am, Mia.

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The girl who thinks about
the cello and Adam

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and whether a letter
is waiting for me at home.

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And just like that...

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(TIRES SCREECH)

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-(LOUD CRASH)
-(GLASS SHATTERS)

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(GASPS)

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(BREATHING HEAVILY)

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(MAN TALKING INDISTINCTLY)

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(CAR DOOR CLOSES)

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FIREMAN 1: Get some cribbing in there.
Support those columns.

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EMT 1: We need a full spinal
immobilization.

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Hello?

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FIREMAN 2: Our resources
are good right now.

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MIA: Excuse me!

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Sir, excuse me?

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Hello?

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(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

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Mom.

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Teddy!

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Dad! (PANTING)

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CUTLER: The Lucius song,
Until We Get There,

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actually plays at a very critical moment
in If I Stay.

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We've just seen the accident that is
the central, defining moment of the film.

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And as Mia is being driven off
in the ambulance,

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both in body and spirit,

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and as her spirit is looking out through
the rear window of the ambulance

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and seeing the accident site fade away,

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we transition back in time to
the night of her very first date with Adam

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as she's preparing for the date.

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We needed to find a piece of music

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that would help the audience
transition to that moment.

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Uh, it couldn't be too abrupt,
it had to maintain the emotion,

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but it also had to transition us
into another emotional moment

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where Mia's getting ready for what is really
the very first date she's ever been on.

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She's trying to figure out what to wear

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and she's insisting that
she doesn't even want to go,

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and all of that.

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So we needed to find something that
would manage the emotional transition,

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but also would sound like
what Mia's bedroom would sound like.

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Something that Mia would be listening to
as she was getting ready for the date.

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And Until We Get There by Lucius
was the perfect song.

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You Okay?

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No.

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You wanna hit up
my closet?

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Your closet's terrifying.

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I don't even wanna go.

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Come on,
he's just a guy, Mia.

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Yeah, but he's the first guy
I've ever gone on a maybe-date with

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and I don't know whether
to wear date clothes or

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casual clothes or...

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Just wear, you know, something
you feel good in.

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And if this Adam dude doesn't see
how amazing you are,

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then he's a total...

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TEDDY: Shithead.
Yeah.

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(CHUCKLES)
(DOORBELL RINGS)

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Oh, I think
I'm gonna puke.

249
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(SIGHS)

250
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Better before than during.

251
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CUTLER: One of the most enjoyable parts
of making If I Stay

252
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was the process of creating
the sound, the identity,

253
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the playlist for Adam's band,
the songs that he would write

254
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and that the band would perform
when they played out.

255
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What we did was,
music supervisor, Linda Cohen

256
00:17:23,800 --> 00:17:28,442
and composer Heitor Pereira and I
spent many, many, many weeks,

257
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listening to hundreds and hundreds
of songs

258
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that were unrecorded, unreleased songs
that Linda had solicited from songwriters.

259
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We put the word out
that we were looking for music

260
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that combined the different influences
that I felt were integral to who Adam was.

261
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The music would be punk-influenced,
and new wave-influenced,

262
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and grunge-influenced on one hand,

263
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since that's the music that
Adam grew up admiring.

264
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But since it's 2014,
it would also have a pop sensibility

265
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because that's the music
of Adam's own generation

266
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and that was the kind of
the unique alt-indie sound

267
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that we were looking for with Adam.

268
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Of course, it would also be guitar-driven,

269
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and I really wanted to have
a keyboard in there

270
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because I thought it would be cool
for Liz to be Adam's keyboard player.

271
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I think I had this image of Linda McCartney
in my head,

272
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you know, from the Wings days.

273
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And of course we knew it needed
to have a strong male vocal.

274
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That was the idea behind it,
so Linda put the word out.

275
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The one rule we had was that the songs
couldn't have been previously released.

276
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And songs started to come in,

277
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and a couple of times a week
for several weeks

278
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Heitor, Linda and I would get together
in Heitor's studio in Santa Monica,

279
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and we'd order in sushi

280
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and we would spend hours
listening to songs.

281
00:18:45,080 --> 00:18:47,287
The first song we had to decide on

282
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was the song that Adam's band
would be playing in the tiny little club

283
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the first time Mia comes to see him
on their second date.

284
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I pictured it like The Cavern in Liverpool
where the Beatles first played.

285
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One of those tiny, little clubs
you always heard about Nirvana

286
00:19:01,400 --> 00:19:04,404
playing in Seattle
before anybody had ever heard of them.

287
00:19:04,480 --> 00:19:06,448
That's what we wanted
that night to be like,

288
00:19:06,520 --> 00:19:10,491
this electric night in a tiny space
with the low ceiling

289
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where everybody there knew
that they were seeing something special.

290
00:19:14,440 --> 00:19:16,568
The perfect song, the song that we found,

291
00:19:16,640 --> 00:19:19,007
and when we heard it
we knew it was the perfect song,

292
00:19:19,080 --> 00:19:21,606
was Shining Mirrors'
I Want What You Have.

293
00:19:22,200 --> 00:19:24,009
And that's what we wanted.

294
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(PLAYING ROCK MUSIC)

295
00:19:31,800 --> 00:19:33,245
(CROWD CHEERING)

296
00:19:33,920 --> 00:19:35,763
One, two, three, four!

297
00:19:36,800 --> 00:19:38,928
- BOY: Whoo!
-(CROWD CLAPPING ALONG)

298
00:19:43,320 --> 00:19:45,800
(SINGING)
I wasn't Iookin' for something

299
00:19:46,000 --> 00:19:48,810
To sink my teeth into

300
00:19:50,680 --> 00:19:53,684
I didn't know what I wanted

301
00:19:53,960 --> 00:19:56,201
I never do

302
00:19:58,080 --> 00:19:59,923
I want what you have

303
00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:03,163
I want what you have now

304
00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:05,443
Give it to me

305
00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:11,847
Do you make it look so good
'cause you know what's up?

306
00:20:13,120 --> 00:20:20,004
Do you know exactly
what to do?

307
00:20:20,320 --> 00:20:22,084
I want what you have

308
00:20:22,160 --> 00:20:25,323
I want what you have now

309
00:20:25,800 --> 00:20:27,643
Give it to me

310
00:20:27,720 --> 00:20:29,484
I want what you have

311
00:20:29,560 --> 00:20:32,609
I want what you have now

312
00:20:33,160 --> 00:20:36,642
Give it to me

313
00:20:36,880 --> 00:20:38,484
Give it to me

314
00:20:39,320 --> 00:20:40,685
(CROWD CHEERING)

315
00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:42,410
Thank you and good night.

316
00:20:46,840 --> 00:20:48,683
(LAUGHING)

317
00:20:49,160 --> 00:20:51,162
So, what other bands are you into?

318
00:20:51,520 --> 00:20:52,521
Um...

319
00:20:52,600 --> 00:20:54,602
Classical mostly.

320
00:20:54,680 --> 00:20:56,682
Right on. I love classic rock.

321
00:20:56,880 --> 00:20:58,166
(LAUGHING)

322
00:21:06,600 --> 00:21:07,601
Mia!

323
00:21:07,760 --> 00:21:09,762
Hey. Are you okay?

324
00:21:09,920 --> 00:21:12,651
Kinda miscommunicating with people.
The usual.

325
00:21:12,800 --> 00:21:14,882
Yo, Adam. After-party at Darren's.
You comin'?

326
00:21:15,040 --> 00:21:16,451
Yeah. Yeah, we're in. Yeah.

327
00:21:16,520 --> 00:21:18,443
- You in?
- I have my curfew.

328
00:21:18,600 --> 00:21:20,443
- Curfew?
- Yeah.

329
00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:21,521
Okay.

330
00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:24,565
Well, we'll set you loose early.

331
00:21:28,200 --> 00:21:29,725
(PANTING)

332
00:21:32,280 --> 00:21:34,806
Thanks for slummin' it with us tonight.
(INHALES SHARPLY)

333
00:21:34,880 --> 00:21:36,803
Yeah. No problem.

334
00:21:37,560 --> 00:21:40,040
-(TAPPING CAR DOOR)
- Yo, Adam, just kiss her and let's go, man.

335
00:21:41,400 --> 00:21:42,811
-(CHUCKLES)
- Come on.

336
00:21:45,360 --> 00:21:46,930
We're cool, right?

337
00:21:47,000 --> 00:21:48,240
- You and me?
- Yeah.

338
00:21:48,360 --> 00:21:50,044
We're cool.

339
00:21:50,200 --> 00:21:52,521
- Hey, you finally got to meet Liz.
- Yeah.

340
00:21:53,200 --> 00:21:54,725
You two have a lot in common.

341
00:21:55,360 --> 00:21:56,407
You ever, like,

342
00:21:57,080 --> 00:21:58,445
hooked up, or...

343
00:21:58,520 --> 00:22:00,204
Actually, I'm glad you brought that up.

344
00:22:00,360 --> 00:22:01,691
We do have a lot in common.

345
00:22:02,160 --> 00:22:03,889
For instance, we're both

346
00:22:04,040 --> 00:22:05,246
into girls. (CHUCKLES)

347
00:22:06,080 --> 00:22:07,889
She's with Astrid.

348
00:22:09,560 --> 00:22:11,085
MIA: Oh, wow!

349
00:22:11,240 --> 00:22:13,083
Go, Astrid. (CHUCKLES)

350
00:22:13,320 --> 00:22:15,766
And now we've got that out of the way.

351
00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:18,441
(PUFFS)

352
00:22:18,720 --> 00:22:20,609
I'm bummed you can't stay out
with us tonight.

353
00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:22,764
Yeah, I know.

354
00:22:24,760 --> 00:22:26,364
KAT: (WHISPERING)
Mia, just go. Have fun.

355
00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:28,682
- Mom?
- DENNY: Kat! Get away from the window.

356
00:22:28,840 --> 00:22:30,205
MIA: Dad?
KAT: Sorry.

357
00:22:31,360 --> 00:22:32,850
Like, your mom and dad
are cool with you staying out,

358
00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:34,570
but you don't want to, or...

359
00:22:35,800 --> 00:22:37,006
Um...

360
00:22:37,400 --> 00:22:41,291
Look, I think I'm coming down
with something.

361
00:22:43,560 --> 00:22:44,607
Right.

362
00:22:45,240 --> 00:22:49,564
Yeah, well, just give me a shout
when you get over it.

363
00:22:49,720 --> 00:22:50,960
I'll see you around.

364
00:22:51,120 --> 00:22:52,929
- Hey, Adam.
- Mom, get back inside.

365
00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:55,651
We always do these
stragglers' dinners on Sunday.

366
00:22:55,720 --> 00:22:57,210
You should come by some time.

367
00:22:57,360 --> 00:22:58,691
Thanks.

368
00:22:58,760 --> 00:23:00,125
Maybe I'll check it out.

369
00:23:04,120 --> 00:23:07,124
You know, that was wrong
on so many levels.

370
00:23:13,920 --> 00:23:16,241
What? She shouldn't be scared
to hang out with those guys.

371
00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:17,731
They're us.

372
00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:19,165
Exactly.

373
00:23:19,640 --> 00:23:21,642
(SIREN BLARING)

374
00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:26,728
EMT 1: Okay, bring her out.
EMT 3: Behind.

375
00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:30,641
DOCTOR 1: No palpable deformities
at this time.

376
00:23:31,800 --> 00:23:33,086
EMT 1: Go, go, go.

377
00:23:35,320 --> 00:23:37,607
DOCTOR 2: What do we got here?
EMT 3: Collapsed lung, broken ribs.

378
00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:39,762
EMT 1: Looks like three.
EMT 3: Abrasions to the legs, face.

379
00:23:39,840 --> 00:23:42,684
- Brain contusions, full extent unknown.
- EMT 3: And an internal bleed.

380
00:23:42,800 --> 00:23:44,006
Rest of the family's on the way in.

381
00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:46,686
Ultrasound, X-ray, 12-chem,
type and cross-match.

382
00:23:46,800 --> 00:23:48,689
Let's get the RT down here, please.

383
00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:51,371
EMT 3: On my count. One, two, three.

384
00:23:54,840 --> 00:23:57,002
Hey, excuse me,
I need to check on my family.

385
00:23:57,200 --> 00:23:59,601
It's Kathleen Hall, Dennis Hall
and Theodore Hall?

386
00:24:00,840 --> 00:24:02,330
- DOCTOR 2: Good to go.
- Hello?

387
00:24:05,680 --> 00:24:11,403
CUTLER: If there's a central defining idea
behind the soundtrack of If I Stay,

388
00:24:11,480 --> 00:24:15,371
it's that young artist
coming of age right now

389
00:24:15,440 --> 00:24:17,283
like Mia and Adam.

390
00:24:17,360 --> 00:24:19,408
Unlike previous generations,

391
00:24:19,520 --> 00:24:23,650
they have at their immediate disposal
on their telephones,

392
00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:27,691
on their computers,
available to them all day long,

393
00:24:27,760 --> 00:24:30,650
all of the music that's ever been recorded.

394
00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:34,167
Through download services
and streaming services,

395
00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:37,687
and the different kind of radio stations
that are out there,

396
00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:40,286
and the Internet and YouTube,

397
00:24:40,360 --> 00:24:43,842
you can access anything you want
at any moment.

398
00:24:43,960 --> 00:24:46,804
You can even listen to thousands,
tens of thousands,

399
00:24:46,920 --> 00:24:51,801
hundreds of thousands of hours
of live music recorded in concert.

400
00:24:51,880 --> 00:24:56,090
If it's been recorded,
you can hear it right this second.

401
00:24:56,160 --> 00:25:01,246
So, young artists like Mia and Adam
are going to be influenced

402
00:25:01,320 --> 00:25:04,722
as much by the music
of their parents' generation,

403
00:25:04,800 --> 00:25:06,290
as by their own.

404
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:09,210
And even by music
that predates their parents.

405
00:25:09,320 --> 00:25:14,201
So, depending on taste
and what kind of taste they have,

406
00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:17,648
they have an incredible range
of musical influences.

407
00:25:17,720 --> 00:25:21,361
And I really wanted the soundtrack
of this film to demonstrate that,

408
00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:23,408
to include that full range.

409
00:25:23,480 --> 00:25:28,361
From Blondie, and Iggy Pop,
to The Dandy Warhols, and Sonic Youth,

410
00:25:28,440 --> 00:25:32,081
to The Orwells, Lucius, and Beck.

411
00:25:32,160 --> 00:25:35,164
And I wanted that combination
of influences to play out

412
00:25:35,240 --> 00:25:37,766
as much as possible in Mia's home.

413
00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:39,763
So, for the stragglers' dinner,

414
00:25:39,840 --> 00:25:44,243
we begin the scene with Buzzcocks'
Everybody's Happy Nowadays,

415
00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:47,802
but I wanted to follow up
with something that was brand new,

416
00:25:47,880 --> 00:25:50,645
and the Tanlines'
All Of Me was that perfect match.

417
00:25:50,720 --> 00:25:53,087
Of course, the songs had to
fit together beautifully.

418
00:25:53,160 --> 00:25:55,128
The new song had to
fit together with a song

419
00:25:55,240 --> 00:25:58,050
that was 15, 20 years older than it.

420
00:25:58,160 --> 00:26:02,722
And indeed, the Tanlines song was
a perfect match for the Buzzcocks song.

421
00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:04,165
And that's how we ended up using it.

422
00:26:04,240 --> 00:26:06,163
(ROCK MUSIC PLAYING)

423
00:26:14,800 --> 00:26:17,121
Okay, so who is it?
Bobby Schayer from Bad Religion.

424
00:26:17,280 --> 00:26:19,328
- HENRY: Tim Leitch from FEAR.
- Tim Leitch from FEAR.

425
00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:21,130
- The guy from Dead Moon.
- Andrew Loomis.

426
00:26:21,280 --> 00:26:23,851
And the guy from The Wipers, Sam Henry.

427
00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:25,646
So if you think about it,

428
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:29,167
Portland's kind of like a haven for
legendary punk drummers, right?

429
00:26:29,320 --> 00:26:30,401
DENNY: That's a good point.

430
00:26:30,520 --> 00:26:32,841
Mia, your man knows his punk rock history.

431
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:34,126
Thanks.

432
00:26:35,720 --> 00:26:38,530
Ow! Oh, my God!
Oh, God, something just stung me.

433
00:26:38,680 --> 00:26:40,284
(G ROANS) Who does that?

434
00:26:40,360 --> 00:26:41,407
A bee?

435
00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:43,323
- Babe, are you sure it's a bee?
- ADAM: Oh, yeah.

436
00:26:43,400 --> 00:26:45,607
- We got to get the stinger out.
- No, we're not doing that.

437
00:26:45,680 --> 00:26:47,887
Trust me, this is this only thing
I learned in Boy Scouts.

438
00:26:57,120 --> 00:26:58,281
Got it.

439
00:26:58,760 --> 00:27:00,524
(ONLOOKERS APPLAUDING)

440
00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:03,530
Way hotter than tweezers.

441
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:06,251
Stand down, woman.
You're already knocked up.

442
00:27:06,360 --> 00:27:08,601
You know,
you should get stung more often.

443
00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:12,721
I'm sorry to say that's the furthest
we've gotten since our first date.

444
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:17,282
Yeah. Maybe we should
do something about that.

445
00:27:18,240 --> 00:27:20,527
I like where your head's at, Hall.

446
00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:29,291
(CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING)

447
00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:34,010
(CELL PHONE BUZZING)

448
00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:51,927
Adam?

449
00:27:52,080 --> 00:27:53,081
(WHISPERING) I'm coming up.

450
00:27:53,560 --> 00:27:55,085
No, you cannot come up.

451
00:27:55,240 --> 00:27:56,844
I have something to tell you.

452
00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,082
Besides, it's too late. I'm already climbing.

453
00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:02,090
Oh, God.

454
00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:08,647
(MUSIC STOPS)

455
00:28:08,760 --> 00:28:09,886
Okay. Um...

456
00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:11,966
(SIGHS DEEPLY)

457
00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:14,530
Oh! Schroeder.

458
00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:15,641
Um...

459
00:28:21,440 --> 00:28:22,441
(DOOR OPENS)

460
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:25,121
Hey-

461
00:28:26,960 --> 00:28:27,961
Hey-

462
00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:30,849
I thought you went home.

463
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:32,291
I got lost.

464
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:34,286
(NERVOUS CHUCKLE)

465
00:28:36,120 --> 00:28:39,408
Did you actually learn that
bee sting thing from the Boy Scouts?

466
00:28:39,560 --> 00:28:40,800
No, I totally made it up.

467
00:28:42,960 --> 00:28:46,043
CUTLER: Ben Howard's Promise is the song
that plays over the section of the film

468
00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:47,844
we call "the love montage."

469
00:28:47,920 --> 00:28:51,083
The point at which Adam and Mia
are really falling in love.

470
00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:52,400
This was a moment in the film

471
00:28:52,480 --> 00:28:55,245
that we always knew
we were gonna shoot and set to music.

472
00:28:55,320 --> 00:28:58,847
But during production, it was something
that always got pushed off.

473
00:28:58,920 --> 00:29:02,322
For one reason or another,
we never got around to filming it.

474
00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:05,722
Well, one day, late in production,
it was a rainy day

475
00:29:05,800 --> 00:29:09,771
and we were between locations
and we only had about 20 minutes,

476
00:29:09,840 --> 00:29:14,243
and I was like, "We just got to get it.
Let's just get out there in the rain,

477
00:29:14,320 --> 00:29:17,449
"grab the camera, shoot the love montage,

478
00:29:17,520 --> 00:29:20,922
"do it hand-held,
and do it as quickly as we need to."

479
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:22,286
Jamie and Chloé were awesome.

480
00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:24,931
They were like,
"What are we doing in this scene?"

481
00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:28,288
It was raining and I had written it and...

482
00:29:28,360 --> 00:29:30,601
But all the script said was something like,

483
00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:33,286
"They're skateboarding
and it starts to rain."

484
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:36,523
And I was like, "You're skateboarding
and it starts to rain."

485
00:29:36,600 --> 00:29:38,090
And they were like, "Okay, cool."

486
00:29:38,160 --> 00:29:41,004
And I said, "And you're falling in love."

487
00:29:41,080 --> 00:29:43,128
They improvised, and we shot,

488
00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:46,522
and it really ended up being one of
the most beautiful parts of the film, I think.

489
00:29:46,600 --> 00:29:50,127
What really made it land of course
was Ben Howard's Promise.

490
00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:53,807
Which is the very first song
we put over it during the edit process.

491
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:57,043
It's really rare for the first song
you use to be the one that sticks through

492
00:29:57,120 --> 00:30:00,203
the entire post-production process
and ends up in the film,

493
00:30:00,280 --> 00:30:03,602
but Promise was such a perfect song
that we never changed it.

494
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:05,728
There was never any reason to.

495
00:30:07,960 --> 00:30:09,883
(BALLAD PLAYING)

496
00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:15,565
(SINGING) And meet

497
00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:18,685
Me there

498
00:30:19,440 --> 00:30:24,207
Bundles of flowers
We wait through the hours of cold

499
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:31,848
Winter shall howl at the walls

500
00:30:31,920 --> 00:30:35,129
Tearing down doors of time

501
00:30:39,440 --> 00:30:45,891
Shelter as we go...

502
00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:50,686
DOCTOR 4: ls there enough room?
DOCTOR 2: A little more underneath, please.

503
00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:52,888
DOCTOR 4: Suture.
DOCTOR 2: There we go.

504
00:30:56,440 --> 00:30:59,842
MIA: The surgery's been going on for hours,
and they're nowhere near done.

505
00:31:05,960 --> 00:31:07,200
I need to find my family.

506
00:31:13,520 --> 00:31:14,567
Kim?

507
00:31:14,720 --> 00:31:15,960
Kim, wait!

508
00:31:16,360 --> 00:31:17,930
(PANTING)

509
00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:22,404
KIM: I came here as soon as I could.
What happened?

510
00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:23,766
- Is everyone okay?
- GRAN: We don't know.

511
00:31:24,120 --> 00:31:25,406
Gran. Stamps.

512
00:31:25,560 --> 00:31:27,801
GRAMPS: We need to find out
what the hell's going on here.

513
00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:33,166
GRAN: Excuse me, my name is Estelle Hall.

514
00:31:33,320 --> 00:31:35,129
GRAMPS: Our son, Denny Hall,

515
00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:37,407
his wife, Kathleen,
and their two kids got in a car accident

516
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:39,881
this morning and we'd like to find out
how they're doing.

517
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:41,730
NURSE: Yes, of course.
LIDDY: Mr. and Mrs. Hall?

518
00:31:41,920 --> 00:31:44,764
I'm Liddy. I'm your social worker.
I've just been assigned your case.

519
00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:47,162
I am so sorry for what's happened.

520
00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:50,005
Now, I haven't been able
to speak to anyone's doctors yet,

521
00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:53,164
but I do know that Mia and Dennis
are still in surgery.

522
00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:55,922
Most likely they'll be heading to the ICU.

523
00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:59,004
There is no information on Kathleen
in the system yet.

524
00:31:59,160 --> 00:32:00,491
But Theodore...

525
00:32:00,640 --> 00:32:02,449
- Teddy?
- Yes, Teddy.

526
00:32:02,600 --> 00:32:04,250
- He was conscious when he arrived.
-(SIGHS)

527
00:32:04,320 --> 00:32:05,845
LIDDY: He's getting a CAT scan now.

528
00:32:06,000 --> 00:32:08,367
Why don't you make yourselves
as comfortable as you can

529
00:32:08,520 --> 00:32:11,444
and I will come and get you the second
I have any new information. Okay?

530
00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:12,847
GRAMPS: Thank you.

531
00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:15,170
Hey, Henry and Willow are on their way.

532
00:32:15,320 --> 00:32:17,288
And I tried calling Adam
and left a couple messages,

533
00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:19,044
but I haven't heard anything yet.

534
00:32:19,200 --> 00:32:21,123
MIA: There are two types of people
in this world, Kim.

535
00:32:21,280 --> 00:32:22,850
Those who like real coffee,

536
00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:25,770
and those who like froufrou drinks
with ridiculous names.

537
00:32:26,040 --> 00:32:28,691
Um, wow. You know, I'm not ashamed to be
a cinnamon-spice chai latte lover.

538
00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:29,801
Thank you very much.

539
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:32,167
Yeah, well, it kind of smells like
Christmas threw up in your mug.

540
00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:34,006
Fine by me.

541
00:32:34,360 --> 00:32:36,010
So, Adam.

542
00:32:36,440 --> 00:32:37,680
Is it awesome?

543
00:32:37,840 --> 00:32:39,365
It feels big.

544
00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:42,723
It's crazy. I can't eat, I can't sleep.

545
00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:44,166
But...

546
00:32:44,320 --> 00:32:46,891
For starters, I hate going to his shows.

547
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:49,520
- Do you not like his music, or...
- No, I love his music.

548
00:32:49,680 --> 00:32:52,331
He writes these amazing songs, and...

549
00:32:52,560 --> 00:32:57,566
I don't know, when he comes off stage
I just wanna, like, lick the side of his face.

550
00:32:57,800 --> 00:32:59,245
On, baby.

551
00:32:59,720 --> 00:33:01,484
But when I hang outwith his crowd,

552
00:33:01,560 --> 00:33:02,721
I just feel like...

553
00:33:02,880 --> 00:33:04,325
Like a fish out of water?

554
00:33:06,240 --> 00:33:08,004
CUTLER: One of the questions
I get asked a lot

555
00:33:08,080 --> 00:33:10,651
when talking about If I Stay is about

556
00:33:10,720 --> 00:33:14,361
how important it was that
the actors playing Adam and Mia

557
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:16,488
had a definite chemistry.

558
00:33:16,560 --> 00:33:19,325
And of course it was incredibly important.

559
00:33:19,400 --> 00:33:21,801
Having cast Chloé Moretz
in the lead role of Mia,

560
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:25,771
when we met Jamie Blackley,
and when Chloe met Jamie Blackley,

561
00:33:25,840 --> 00:33:28,571
and when they worked together
in the audition room,

562
00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:32,690
we knew that the two of them
would be fantastic onscreen

563
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:35,286
because they had definite chemistry.

564
00:33:35,360 --> 00:33:39,604
What doesn't get asked that often,
but is really, equally important,

565
00:33:39,680 --> 00:33:43,730
are questions about the chemistry
of Adam's band, Willamette Stone.

566
00:33:44,040 --> 00:33:46,930
Because those guys had to have
a definitive chemistry

567
00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:49,241
that really worked onscreen as well.

568
00:33:49,360 --> 00:33:50,361
They were a band.

569
00:33:50,440 --> 00:33:53,603
They were Adam's soulmates
until he met Mia.

570
00:33:53,680 --> 00:33:55,364
And they were his closest friends,

571
00:33:55,440 --> 00:34:01,607
his comrades in art and music
and facing the world, and being himself.

572
00:34:01,680 --> 00:34:04,684
So we held auditions in the conference
room of our production office

573
00:34:04,760 --> 00:34:06,808
and all these bands came through.

574
00:34:06,880 --> 00:34:08,882
And they'd play and we'd talk to them,

575
00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:12,521
and one of the bands that came in
were only these two guys.

576
00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:14,568
And we were like,
"Where's the rest of the band?"

577
00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:17,723
There was no drummer,
there was only a guitarist named Ben

578
00:34:17,800 --> 00:34:19,245
and a bassist named Tom.

579
00:34:19,320 --> 00:34:23,325
And they said, "Well, it's weird,
we had a car accident."

580
00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:25,368
And we were like, "What?"

581
00:34:25,440 --> 00:34:29,445
And they said, "Yeah and the other
band member, he was in a coma."

582
00:34:29,520 --> 00:34:31,249
And we were like, "What?"

583
00:34:31,320 --> 00:34:35,041
And they said, "Yeah, he's out
of the coma now and he's getting better,

584
00:34:35,120 --> 00:34:36,087
"but he can't play yet.

585
00:34:36,160 --> 00:34:39,004
"So, we're just kind of hanging out,
waiting for him to get all better."

586
00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:43,165
And we were like, "What? Do you know
what the story of this film is?"

587
00:34:43,240 --> 00:34:45,891
And they said,
"Yeah, it's kind of the same story."

588
00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:49,806
So, we offered Tom and Ben the gig
right then and there.

589
00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:52,929
I was like, "Okay,
you're Adam's guitarist, and bassist."

590
00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:54,843
And then later, there was a band

591
00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:58,720
and there was this super cute redhead
named Ali Milner playing keyboards

592
00:34:58,800 --> 00:35:00,643
and I was like, "Are you an actress?"

593
00:35:00,720 --> 00:35:02,643
And she said, "Not really, but I'd like to be."

594
00:35:02,720 --> 00:35:04,563
So, she became Liz

595
00:35:04,640 --> 00:35:06,927
and her drummer Ryan
became the drummer.

596
00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:09,930
And that was Adam's band,
Willamette Stone.

597
00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:12,571
And we crossed our fingers
when we put the band together,

598
00:35:12,640 --> 00:35:15,564
that they would have this chemistry
that they needed.

599
00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:19,201
And they'd have like real chemistry
with each other and with Jamie.

600
00:35:19,280 --> 00:35:21,009
But we also helped the process along

601
00:35:21,080 --> 00:35:23,128
by giving them rehearsal time
and studio time.

602
00:35:23,200 --> 00:35:26,329
A good full two weeks
before we started filming.

603
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:29,244
So, for two weeks before
the movie started shooting,

604
00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:31,687
they were all together
hanging out in a studio,

605
00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:35,685
hanging out in their spare time,
jamming, recording, playing,

606
00:35:35,760 --> 00:35:39,242
and developing the very chemistry
that you see onscreen.

607
00:35:39,680 --> 00:35:41,921
Fortunately, it all really worked.

608
00:35:42,920 --> 00:35:44,410
ADAM". Happy Halloween.

609
00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:45,801
GIRL; Whoo!

610
00:35:46,760 --> 00:35:48,330
- Are you coming?
-(MOUTHING)

611
00:35:48,640 --> 00:35:50,290
(PLAYING ROCK MUSIC)

612
00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:06,084
(SINGING) I've gotta say I'm feelin'
better than I should

613
00:36:06,600 --> 00:36:10,810
Don't got a lot,
but I know life is always good

614
00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:12,810
Oh, come on over

615
00:36:12,880 --> 00:36:15,451
Bring some friends
who have the time...

616
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:16,766
Mia, you have to come.

617
00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:17,921
Wait.

618
00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:20,244
I'm feeling fine...

619
00:36:22,320 --> 00:36:23,606
Hey-

620
00:36:23,720 --> 00:36:25,529
'Scuse me. Move it.

621
00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:30,129
So tell me now,
are you in or are you not?

622
00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:34,928
I don't want to move the world
I just wanna sit on top

623
00:36:35,240 --> 00:36:36,526
Let's raise a glass

624
00:36:36,600 --> 00:36:39,968
Here's to the best
and to the worst

625
00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:44,409
Here's to the feelings that
you just can't put to words

626
00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:47,530
(CROWD CHEERING)

627
00:36:54,440 --> 00:36:58,843
We got tonight
We got tonight

628
00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:01,607
For the years

629
00:37:01,680 --> 00:37:03,762
For the night

630
00:37:03,840 --> 00:37:06,081
I'm feelin' good

631
00:37:06,320 --> 00:37:08,527
I'm feeling high

632
00:37:08,680 --> 00:37:12,366
I'm feelin' like
I've never felt

633
00:37:13,440 --> 00:37:17,968
We got tonight
We got tonight

634
00:37:18,360 --> 00:37:21,921
For the years
For tonight...

635
00:37:23,720 --> 00:37:25,404
LIZ: Bye, Adam. Bye, Rocker Mia.

636
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:26,641
ASTRID: Bye, you guys.

637
00:37:26,800 --> 00:37:27,847
Bye.

638
00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:32,041
So...

639
00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:35,368
Do you like me like this?

640
00:37:35,520 --> 00:37:37,249
- At last, you finally figured it out.
-(CHUCKLES)

641
00:37:37,440 --> 00:37:38,930
No, come on.

642
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:42,689
I mean, do you like me how I am tonight?

643
00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:44,046
You know what I liked?

644
00:37:44,160 --> 00:37:45,571
I liked how into the show you were.

645
00:37:45,880 --> 00:37:49,646
How you actually wanted to dance
and hang out with us riffraff afterwards.

646
00:37:49,720 --> 00:37:51,165
That was cool.

647
00:37:51,240 --> 00:37:53,846
Yeah, but do you like me better,

648
00:37:54,520 --> 00:37:55,851
you know,

649
00:37:56,760 --> 00:37:58,888
-like this?
- Better than what?

650
00:37:59,040 --> 00:38:00,565
Better than the normal Mia.

651
00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:04,845
You know, with the hair and the makeup
and the clothing.

652
00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:08,926
-(GROWLS PLAYFULLY)
- Mia, I don't give a shit about your clothes.

653
00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:11,285
Don't you get it?

654
00:38:11,440 --> 00:38:14,922
The you you are now is the same you
I was in love with yesterday.

655
00:38:15,080 --> 00:38:17,287
The same you I'll be in love with tomorrow.

656
00:38:18,440 --> 00:38:21,444
CUTLER: When we were editing the movie,
I got this email from Chloé

657
00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:23,841
and she said,
"Check out this awesome album."

658
00:38:23,920 --> 00:38:26,526
And it had a link to
an artist named Linnea Olsson,

659
00:38:26,600 --> 00:38:30,605
who was this Swedish cellist
who had just released her first album.

660
00:38:30,680 --> 00:38:34,924
It was pop music, turned out to be
improvisations that she wrote lyrics to.

661
00:38:35,040 --> 00:38:37,008
And it was awesome.

662
00:38:37,080 --> 00:38:40,004
And Chloé wrote, "I think
Mia would love this album."

663
00:38:40,080 --> 00:38:43,084
I asked her how she found it
and she said she was listening to NPR.

664
00:38:43,160 --> 00:38:44,446
Anyway, a few months later

665
00:38:44,520 --> 00:38:46,409
we were looking for a song
to play over the scene

666
00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:48,767
where Mia and Adam
make love for the first time,

667
00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:51,446
after Adam's Halloween concert.

668
00:38:51,520 --> 00:38:53,568
And it was John Glickman from MGM

669
00:38:53,640 --> 00:38:56,689
who told us that Linnea Olsson
had done a cover

670
00:38:56,760 --> 00:38:59,684
with Ane Brun,
the Norwegian singer/songwriter,

671
00:38:59,760 --> 00:39:02,366
of Beyoncé's song Halo.

672
00:39:02,440 --> 00:39:04,886
We put it over the scene
and of course it was magic.

673
00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:06,325
It worked perfectly.

674
00:39:07,880 --> 00:39:09,450
It's perfect.

675
00:39:09,760 --> 00:39:11,250
(BALLAD PLAYING)

676
00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:12,731
So are you.

677
00:39:26,600 --> 00:39:28,090
(WHISPERS) Adam.

678
00:39:28,160 --> 00:39:29,207
Yeah?

679
00:39:30,840 --> 00:39:32,171
I've never...

680
00:39:33,240 --> 00:39:35,561
Just think of it like
we're playing music together.

681
00:39:35,640 --> 00:39:36,801
Adam, that doesn't make any sense.

682
00:39:36,880 --> 00:39:38,564
Yes, it does.

683
00:39:40,560 --> 00:39:42,722
All right, well, take yourjacket off.

684
00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:44,041
Okay.

685
00:39:51,120 --> 00:39:52,281
All right.

686
00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:56,170
So we have four strings.

687
00:39:56,800 --> 00:39:58,768
We have the C string

688
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:00,600
and G,

689
00:40:01,120 --> 00:40:02,326
D

690
00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:04,127
and A.

691
00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:08,407
And if I were to play glissando,

692
00:40:08,480 --> 00:40:10,323
it'd feel like this.

693
00:40:12,160 --> 00:40:15,642
And if I were to play pizzicato,

694
00:40:15,720 --> 00:40:17,051
it'd feel like this.

695
00:40:18,400 --> 00:40:19,890
And if I were to play forte.

696
00:40:20,120 --> 00:40:22,009
I know forte.

697
00:40:22,160 --> 00:40:24,162
(SINGING) I ain't never
gonna shut you out!

698
00:40:25,200 --> 00:40:28,090
Everywhere I'm looking now

699
00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:32,002
I'm surrounded
by your embrace

700
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:35,843
Baby, I can see your halo

701
00:40:36,280 --> 00:40:39,170
You know
you're my saving grace...

702
00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:49,524
MALE NURSE: Intensive Care Unit.

703
00:40:49,880 --> 00:40:51,086
Yeah, she is.

704
00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:57,282
How are we, beautiful?

705
00:40:58,040 --> 00:41:01,089
I told 'em that I don't wanna leave you.

706
00:41:01,160 --> 00:41:03,003
I'm not gonna let you out of my sight.

707
00:41:07,280 --> 00:41:09,726
We have another one from the accident,
Nurse Davis.

708
00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:11,921
(MIA SIGHS)

709
00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:14,241
Dad. Thank God.

710
00:41:16,160 --> 00:41:17,650
WOMAN: Oh, my God, George.

711
00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:19,006
Is he going to be okay?

712
00:41:19,200 --> 00:41:20,645
ORDERLY:
We're updating his chart right now.

713
00:41:20,720 --> 00:41:22,051
The doctor will be in
to speak with you shortly.

714
00:41:22,200 --> 00:41:23,201
Dad?

715
00:41:24,280 --> 00:41:26,408
Where is he? Where'd you guys take him?

716
00:41:26,560 --> 00:41:27,641
SURGEON: I'll just finish writing the orders

717
00:41:27,720 --> 00:41:28,767
and then she's all yours.

718
00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:30,371
NURSE RAMIREZ:
Girl's been through the wringer.

719
00:41:30,520 --> 00:41:33,251
SURGEON: Yeah. And this is the easy part.
Accident like that?

720
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:35,402
Mom was DOA. Dad died on the table.

721
00:41:35,560 --> 00:41:36,846
Poor kid's waking up an orphan.

722
00:41:36,920 --> 00:41:38,001
If she wakes up.

723
00:41:40,240 --> 00:41:42,288
-(SIREN BLARING)
- MIA: Mom.

724
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:44,086
Dad! (PANTING)

725
00:41:44,280 --> 00:41:45,930
(PANTING)

726
00:41:46,000 --> 00:41:47,525
(SIREN BLARING)

727
00:41:58,720 --> 00:42:00,802
KAT". I'm getting you!

728
00:42:01,920 --> 00:42:03,445
(DENNY LAUGHING)

729
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:07,851
Whoo!

730
00:42:10,920 --> 00:42:12,410
KAT". I love you.

731
00:42:12,880 --> 00:42:14,325
(SOBBING)

732
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:25,367
Teddy.

733
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:39,801
(GIGGLING)

734
00:42:43,320 --> 00:42:44,810
(SOFTLY) 1814...

735
00:42:54,920 --> 00:42:55,921
Teddy.

736
00:42:59,960 --> 00:43:02,247
WILLOW: Hey, little man.
Look at this room.

737
00:43:02,400 --> 00:43:04,084
-(MONITOR BEEPING)
- You got the best place in the joint.

738
00:43:04,160 --> 00:43:06,049
(WHISPERING) Are you okay?

739
00:43:06,120 --> 00:43:09,602
That's right. You just get some rest.

740
00:43:09,680 --> 00:43:11,444
I'm not going anywhere.

741
00:43:12,520 --> 00:43:14,887
Gran. Hey, I just got here.

742
00:43:15,040 --> 00:43:16,929
They're saying he's through the worst of it.

743
00:43:17,240 --> 00:43:18,924
They were assigning his room,
so, I thought I'd come here

744
00:43:19,000 --> 00:43:21,480
before I checked in on Kat and Den...

745
00:43:21,560 --> 00:43:22,925
They didn't...(SOBBING)

746
00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:25,651
Oh, my God!

747
00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:28,560
Excuse me.

748
00:43:37,240 --> 00:43:39,891
(WHISPERING) You're mine now, Teddy.

749
00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:43,527
And no matter what, I will never leave you.

750
00:43:45,040 --> 00:43:46,610
We're gonna make it.

751
00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:53,929
Listen, I need to do something.

752
00:43:56,080 --> 00:43:57,889
But I promise you, Teddy.

753
00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:08,402
(PANTING)

754
00:44:12,040 --> 00:44:13,565
Adam.

755
00:44:13,680 --> 00:44:15,205
You came.

756
00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:31,885
Listen. You can't let Teddy
grow up without a family.

757
00:44:32,360 --> 00:44:33,964
You have got to fight.

758
00:44:34,120 --> 00:44:36,566
You can do this. You have to do this.

759
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:37,961
Mia!

760
00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:39,531
NURSE DAVIS: Excuse me.
ORDERLYI Sir!

761
00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:41,364
- ADAM: Mia!
- Adam.

762
00:44:41,440 --> 00:44:42,441
ADAM: Mia!

763
00:44:42,560 --> 00:44:43,561
Mia!

764
00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:52,251
(MIA PLAYING CLASSICAL MUSIC)

765
00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:55,324
MIA: Being with Adam
was like learning to fly.

766
00:44:56,920 --> 00:45:00,811
It was exciting and scary,
all at the same time.

767
00:45:03,280 --> 00:45:06,727
That spring was a magical time.

768
00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:12,284
Adam's band was playing bigger clubs
and festivals in different cities.

769
00:45:12,480 --> 00:45:16,121
Once he graduated,
they started getting booked even more.

770
00:45:16,520 --> 00:45:19,171
By the fall,
record labels were taking notice.

771
00:45:20,640 --> 00:45:23,644
People were taking notice of me too.

772
00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:26,485
I was the first high school student
ever invited

773
00:45:26,560 --> 00:45:29,564
to perform solo at the college's fall recital.

774
00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:35,401
And even though Adam was away a lot,

775
00:45:35,560 --> 00:45:38,848
when he was in town,
we spent all of our time together.

776
00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:41,571
I can't believe I'm stuck at school
for another year.

777
00:45:41,640 --> 00:45:43,563
It'll go by fast.

778
00:45:43,640 --> 00:45:46,120
You still thinking of applying to
Lewis & Clark?

779
00:45:46,200 --> 00:45:49,488
Yeah, of course.
I mean, they have a great music program.

780
00:45:49,680 --> 00:45:51,808
I need someplace with financial aid.

781
00:45:51,960 --> 00:45:54,964
Maybe we can live around the corner
from each other.

782
00:45:55,160 --> 00:45:59,051
Or we could shorten the commute
and get a place together.

783
00:45:59,960 --> 00:46:01,086
Really?

784
00:46:03,440 --> 00:46:05,886
That actually sounds kinda perfect.

785
00:46:17,920 --> 00:46:19,365
(AUDIENCE APPLAUDS)

786
00:46:26,120 --> 00:46:27,565
- Kid's good.
- Whoo!

787
00:46:31,840 --> 00:46:33,080
ORDERLY: Sir, I told you
you can't go in there.

788
00:46:33,240 --> 00:46:35,083
What do you mean I can't go in there?
This is bullshit.

789
00:46:35,240 --> 00:46:36,651
ORDERLY: Sir, you can't be in there.

790
00:46:36,800 --> 00:46:38,325
NURSE DAVIS: You need to calm down.

791
00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:39,726
ICU visitations are restricted

792
00:46:39,800 --> 00:46:42,644
to immediate family only. Are you family?

793
00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:44,609
All right, you got me. I'm not family.

794
00:46:44,760 --> 00:46:46,091
Come on, just let him in!

795
00:46:46,280 --> 00:46:47,566
NURSE DAVIS: Do I need to call security?

796
00:46:48,320 --> 00:46:49,401
Adam.

797
00:46:59,400 --> 00:47:00,731
Juilliard?

798
00:47:00,920 --> 00:47:05,050
Just look on the computer like you do
and see what it takes to get in there.

799
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:07,123
They say it's the best there is.

800
00:47:07,280 --> 00:47:10,045
Of course it is, but it's across the country.

801
00:47:10,200 --> 00:47:13,921
You know, and Lewis & Clark has
an amazing performance studies program.

802
00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:17,889
Besides, my whole life is here.

803
00:47:22,000 --> 00:47:24,048
(SIGHS)

804
00:47:25,360 --> 00:47:27,362
(ROCK MUSIC PLAYING ON STEREO)

805
00:47:31,200 --> 00:47:32,201
(LOWERS VOLUME)

806
00:47:33,720 --> 00:47:34,960
Dad, can I ask you a question?

807
00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:36,366
Always.

808
00:47:36,520 --> 00:47:38,045
Do you ever miss being in your band?

809
00:47:39,400 --> 00:47:41,129
What brought this on?

810
00:47:41,280 --> 00:47:45,171
You always say that you left your band
to become a better dad.

811
00:47:45,440 --> 00:47:48,125
But you were a great dad
when you were in the band.

812
00:47:48,200 --> 00:47:51,090
You didn't have to give up
something you loved so much just for us.

813
00:47:51,160 --> 00:47:54,164
No, baby, I didn't give anything up.
(SIGHS)

814
00:47:54,280 --> 00:47:55,566
I played that adventure out,

815
00:47:55,640 --> 00:47:58,086
and then it was time for
a new adventure with you guys.

816
00:47:58,240 --> 00:48:03,565
And sometimes you make choices in life,
and sometimes choices make you.

817
00:48:04,720 --> 00:48:06,131
Does that make any sense?

818
00:48:06,640 --> 00:48:08,722
Yeah. I mean,

819
00:48:08,920 --> 00:48:11,321
I think that the cello was a choice
that made me.

820
00:48:11,440 --> 00:48:12,726
There you go.

821
00:48:16,360 --> 00:48:17,771
-(SIGHS)
-(INCREASES VOLUME)

822
00:48:28,960 --> 00:48:32,123
Do you think the band would ever relocate?

823
00:48:32,240 --> 00:48:33,287
No. Why?

824
00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:34,680
I don't know.

825
00:48:34,760 --> 00:48:36,967
To see someplace new.

826
00:48:37,040 --> 00:48:38,166
Maybe New York.

827
00:48:39,280 --> 00:48:41,203
I can't imagine.
Portland's where we're from, you know?

828
00:48:44,120 --> 00:48:45,167
Oh, yeah.

829
00:48:51,360 --> 00:48:52,566
I gotta tell you something.

830
00:48:53,040 --> 00:48:55,202
I have to listen to what you have to tell me.

831
00:48:58,200 --> 00:49:01,568
I'm going to buy all of these albums.

832
00:49:02,640 --> 00:49:04,961
Whoa. The whole three bucks?

833
00:49:05,080 --> 00:49:06,809
Slow down, big spender.

834
00:49:08,040 --> 00:49:11,442
(MIA PLAYING CLASSICAL MUSIC)

835
00:49:27,080 --> 00:49:28,161
KAT: Whoo!

836
00:49:28,560 --> 00:49:31,882
Whoa, Mom. Seriously,
that just makes me more nervous.

837
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:33,644
Sorry. Just ignore me.

838
00:49:33,720 --> 00:49:35,290
Yeah. Just pretend we're not here.

839
00:49:35,400 --> 00:49:37,528
Dad, honestly, how was that one?

840
00:49:37,600 --> 00:49:39,011
I thought it was fantastic, Mia.

841
00:49:39,200 --> 00:49:40,486
You say that about everything.

842
00:49:42,640 --> 00:49:45,803
CUTLER: I Will Be There
is one of those songs we heard and loved

843
00:49:45,920 --> 00:49:48,321
and decided to put in the film right away.

844
00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:50,164
And it's...

845
00:49:50,240 --> 00:49:54,006
What's interesting about it
is that its use in the film

846
00:49:54,080 --> 00:49:56,845
kind of changed the more we listened to it.

847
00:49:56,920 --> 00:49:59,685
Originally, it was just
supposed to be a transition

848
00:49:59,760 --> 00:50:02,843
that took us from the very end of the scene

849
00:50:02,920 --> 00:50:06,129
where Mia and Adam say goodbye
before he goes off to Austin,

850
00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:09,841
to the very beginning of the scene
where Mia and Kim are in the coffee shop

851
00:50:09,920 --> 00:50:13,561
and Mia's bumming out because
she hasn't heard from Adam in a few days.

852
00:50:13,640 --> 00:50:16,928
But the more we heard the song,
the more of it we wanted in the film.

853
00:50:17,000 --> 00:50:21,847
So, we kept on moving back its start point
and moving back its end point.

854
00:50:21,920 --> 00:50:24,048
And in the final version of the movie,

855
00:50:24,120 --> 00:50:28,045
the song actually now plays
over the entire scene

856
00:50:28,120 --> 00:50:29,804
where Mia and Adam are saying goodbye.

857
00:50:29,920 --> 00:50:33,527
And then plays under
almost all of the scene

858
00:50:33,600 --> 00:50:36,171
where Mia and Kim are in the coffee shop.

859
00:50:36,240 --> 00:50:38,925
And that's just what happens.
Some songs just do that to you.

860
00:50:39,000 --> 00:50:40,490
Maybe more.

861
00:50:40,680 --> 00:50:44,446
Well, I know you guys
are gonna kill it at City Limits.

862
00:50:44,640 --> 00:50:45,687
ADAM: Are you sure you can't come?

863
00:50:45,760 --> 00:50:47,888
I'm pretty sure I can fit you
in my guitar case.

864
00:50:47,960 --> 00:50:49,086
(BOTH CHUCKLE)

865
00:50:49,160 --> 00:50:51,731
- MIA: I would, but I got school.
-(SCHOOL BELL RINGING)

866
00:50:52,600 --> 00:50:53,601
Wow.

867
00:50:53,680 --> 00:50:55,091
Never thought I'd hear that again.

868
00:50:55,160 --> 00:50:56,446
BANDMATE 1: Come on, man,
we gotta hit the road.

869
00:50:56,520 --> 00:50:57,601
Okay.

870
00:50:57,760 --> 00:50:59,524
(ENGINE STARTS)

871
00:51:03,360 --> 00:51:05,362
- I'll be back before you know it.
- Okay.

872
00:51:05,880 --> 00:51:06,881
LIZ: Come on. We gotta go.

873
00:51:07,000 --> 00:51:08,081
BANDMATE 2: We're bringing him back,
all right?

874
00:51:08,160 --> 00:51:10,242
- Bye.
- Have fun.

875
00:51:10,320 --> 00:51:11,446
ADAM: We roll.

876
00:51:20,120 --> 00:51:23,044
KIM: So what's the whatty-what
from Austin? Hear from Adam?

877
00:51:23,200 --> 00:51:25,328
MIA: No. I called him,
but I haven't heard back.

878
00:51:25,480 --> 00:51:26,606
(POP MUSIC PLAYING)

879
00:51:26,680 --> 00:51:28,523
It's fine. I mean, he's slammed.

880
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:30,887
Yeah, life on the road.

881
00:51:31,160 --> 00:51:33,208
- Don't give me that face.
-(CELL PHONE BUZZING)

882
00:51:33,280 --> 00:51:34,327
Mmm!

883
00:51:34,840 --> 00:51:36,205
Speaking of the devil.

884
00:51:36,840 --> 00:51:37,762
Hello?

885
00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:38,967
- Hey, babe.
-(CROWD CLAMORING)

886
00:51:39,040 --> 00:51:41,486
- MIA: So, you all rich and famous now?
- Not yet.

887
00:51:41,560 --> 00:51:43,369
But Merge Records
made an offer to sign us.

888
00:51:43,440 --> 00:51:44,726
- It's been crazy.
-(LAUGHS)

889
00:51:44,880 --> 00:51:47,247
Shut up. That's amazing, Adam.

890
00:51:47,360 --> 00:51:49,328
Yeah, they're throwing us a party
right now.

891
00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:50,930
Well, I miss you.

892
00:51:51,200 --> 00:51:52,770
-(ALL CHEERING)
- Dude! You got champagne

893
00:51:52,880 --> 00:51:55,167
-all over my phone!
-(LINE DISCONNECTS)

894
00:51:55,920 --> 00:51:57,081
Hello?

895
00:52:11,880 --> 00:52:13,530
(BREATHING HEAVILY)

896
00:52:37,080 --> 00:52:38,286
(CHUCKLES)

897
00:52:48,240 --> 00:52:50,720
(BAND PLAYING ROCK MUSIC)

898
00:52:52,240 --> 00:52:54,925
ADAM: (SINGING)
Waiting for the rejection

899
00:52:55,120 --> 00:52:58,090
It comes in waves
and it feels like a throb

900
00:52:58,240 --> 00:53:01,005
You wanted only the ending

901
00:53:01,360 --> 00:53:03,761
But what you got
was much too long

902
00:53:05,760 --> 00:53:07,922
CUTLER: Production design
can help so much

903
00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:11,049
in telling the story of the film

904
00:53:11,120 --> 00:53:13,282
and in illuminating

905
00:53:13,360 --> 00:53:18,002
where on the journey the characters are.

906
00:53:18,080 --> 00:53:19,969
Check out the first scene of If I stay

907
00:53:20,040 --> 00:53:23,169
where Adam's band is playing
in that tiny little club.

908
00:53:23,240 --> 00:53:25,607
Even though the audience
is loving every second of it,

909
00:53:25,720 --> 00:53:28,530
they're clearly a band
that's just beginning to get noticed.

910
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:32,201
And the production design,
the tiny club, the low ceiling,

911
00:53:32,280 --> 00:53:34,647
the bed sheet with the name of the band
scrawled on it.

912
00:53:34,720 --> 00:53:38,167
All of those things tell that story.

913
00:53:38,240 --> 00:53:42,165
Then the next time you see Adam's band,
it's Halloween and they're in a bigger club.

914
00:53:42,280 --> 00:53:45,966
There's some lighting cues,
and the stage is bigger,

915
00:53:46,040 --> 00:53:49,681
and there are more people,
and there's a bar and...

916
00:53:49,760 --> 00:53:51,285
You know, there's a little side area.

917
00:53:51,360 --> 00:53:54,967
You can't help but feel that the band
is starting to really develop a following,

918
00:53:55,040 --> 00:53:59,648
and is gaining notice, and is bigger
than the last time you saw them.

919
00:53:59,720 --> 00:54:03,008
The third time you see the band play,
they'd been signed to a label,

920
00:54:03,080 --> 00:54:07,130
and as Mia says, "Adam is becoming
a full-fledged rock star."

921
00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:08,804
And you see it in the club.

922
00:54:08,880 --> 00:54:11,008
There's a marquee
announcing them out front.

923
00:54:11,080 --> 00:54:16,211
The gigantic sign behind them.
No bed sheets for these guys anymore.

924
00:54:16,280 --> 00:54:19,124
There's a full lighting rig
with lots of fancy cues,

925
00:54:19,200 --> 00:54:22,727
a big stage with an area to the side
for friends and family.

926
00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:24,689
And of course we shot it with a jib,

927
00:54:24,760 --> 00:54:27,684
so there's swooping shots
all over the place.

928
00:54:27,760 --> 00:54:30,445
Willamette Stone has clearly arrived.

929
00:54:30,520 --> 00:54:32,682
And that's where they play Mind.

930
00:54:34,080 --> 00:54:36,321
(BAND PLAYING ROCK MUSIC)

931
00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:52,208
(SINGING) I can't get you
out of my mind

932
00:54:52,520 --> 00:54:57,811
I can't get you
out of my mind

933
00:54:58,080 --> 00:54:59,241
(YELLS)

934
00:54:59,560 --> 00:55:01,801
MIA: The homecoming concert
was different

935
00:55:01,880 --> 00:55:03,723
than any show the band had played.

936
00:55:03,880 --> 00:55:07,726
They were tighter, better,
more confident than ever before.

937
00:55:11,400 --> 00:55:12,561
And Adam seemed,

938
00:55:12,720 --> 00:55:15,405
well, like he was becoming
a full-blown star.

939
00:55:29,400 --> 00:55:35,282
I can't get you out of my mind

940
00:55:35,360 --> 00:55:36,361
(some ENDS)

941
00:55:36,880 --> 00:55:38,405
(CROWD CHEERING)

942
00:55:42,480 --> 00:55:44,608
They're really good.
I've been following them.

943
00:55:44,760 --> 00:55:46,444
ADAM: Thanks. Thanks for coming.

944
00:55:46,600 --> 00:55:47,647
Did you like the show?

945
00:55:48,120 --> 00:55:49,360
Good.

946
00:55:51,600 --> 00:55:53,045
- Thanks, guys.
- GIRLS: Aw!

947
00:55:53,160 --> 00:55:54,161
Hey-

948
00:55:54,240 --> 00:55:56,811
You guys were insanely good up there.

949
00:55:56,880 --> 00:55:58,245
Yeah, well, I'm glad you could make it.

950
00:55:58,720 --> 00:56:00,484
Of course I made it.

951
00:56:00,640 --> 00:56:01,971
- BOY: A-bomb.
- Hey, man!

952
00:56:02,080 --> 00:56:03,525
- I can't believe you came!
- BOY: What's goin' on, bro?

953
00:56:03,600 --> 00:56:05,602
- Tight set tonight.
- GIRL: Could I get your autograph?

954
00:56:05,760 --> 00:56:06,807
ADAM: Yeah, sure.

955
00:56:07,400 --> 00:56:08,765
Oh, wow. Okay.

956
00:56:09,600 --> 00:56:10,601
It says Willamette Stone.

957
00:56:10,720 --> 00:56:12,927
ADAM: Yeah. I can see that.

958
00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:14,684
There you go. This is cool.

959
00:56:24,480 --> 00:56:25,970
If you're so bored you have to read,

960
00:56:26,040 --> 00:56:28,805
-maybe you should've just stayed home.
-(SIGHS)

961
00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:32,049
I'm just trying to get
some homework done.

962
00:56:32,120 --> 00:56:36,125
And researching what phrase
I'm gonna have tattooed over my left boob.

963
00:56:38,840 --> 00:56:39,921
What's all this?

964
00:56:40,040 --> 00:56:42,168
We got booked last-minute to do
a string of shows in Seattle.

965
00:56:42,600 --> 00:56:44,523
We gotta leave tonight, so...

966
00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:47,201
For how long?

967
00:56:47,360 --> 00:56:49,601
I don't know. Like a week? Ten days?

968
00:56:49,800 --> 00:56:51,006
It's hard to say.

969
00:56:51,440 --> 00:56:53,522
Yeah, but we had plans.

970
00:56:53,600 --> 00:56:55,284
Remember? For my birthday dinner?

971
00:56:55,360 --> 00:56:57,203
Oh, right. Shit. Sorry.

972
00:56:57,880 --> 00:57:00,326
Well, it's fine.
I just wish you would've told me.

973
00:57:00,520 --> 00:57:02,010
What, like you told me about Juilliard?

974
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:05,250
And for the record,
I didn't even hear about the tour

975
00:57:05,320 --> 00:57:07,163
until tonight right before the show, so...

976
00:57:07,680 --> 00:57:09,409
So that's what
"Glad you could make it" was all about?

977
00:57:09,520 --> 00:57:10,885
That's why you're so pissed at me?

978
00:57:11,000 --> 00:57:13,207
Why would I be pissed about
you going to a school 3,000 miles away?

979
00:57:13,360 --> 00:57:16,842
I'm not going there, Adam.
It's just an audition.

980
00:57:17,000 --> 00:57:19,367
Which you didn't even tell me about, Mia!

981
00:57:19,520 --> 00:57:21,204
And besides, this isn't about Juilliard.

982
00:57:21,360 --> 00:57:24,284
This is about you ditching on our plans.
You're a liar.

983
00:57:24,360 --> 00:57:28,365
Whoa! Screw you, Adam!
I haven't ditched out on anything.

984
00:57:28,520 --> 00:57:30,329
Am I crazy, or did you say that

985
00:57:30,400 --> 00:57:32,528
us getting a place together
would be perfect? Huh?

986
00:57:33,200 --> 00:57:35,089
-It's...
- No, you know what?

987
00:57:35,240 --> 00:57:36,480
It's fine.

988
00:57:37,560 --> 00:57:38,721
Whatever.

989
00:57:38,840 --> 00:57:39,966
What? You get to follow your dreams,

990
00:57:42,320 --> 00:57:45,210
CUTLER: One of the most challenging songs
to find for If I Stay

991
00:57:45,280 --> 00:57:48,363
was the song that covers
the montage between

992
00:57:48,440 --> 00:57:50,602
Adam and Mia's big fight outside the club

993
00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:53,411
and the scene
where Adam comes to Mia's house

994
00:57:53,480 --> 00:57:55,448
to apologize and make up with her.

995
00:57:55,520 --> 00:57:58,808
It's such a tricky sequence because it starts
with the end of the fight

996
00:57:58,880 --> 00:58:02,566
as Adam drives away in the van
and Mia is walking off.

997
00:58:02,640 --> 00:58:07,248
And then it involves scenes in the hospital,
and Mia's high school,

998
00:58:07,320 --> 00:58:11,689
before it transitions to a long sequence
where Mia rides her bike home

999
00:58:11,800 --> 00:58:13,928
and climbs up the steps to her house.

1000
00:58:14,200 --> 00:58:16,726
The song needs to capture
the mood of the moment,

1001
00:58:16,800 --> 00:58:20,691
a certain mournfulness that's evocative
of teenage breakups,

1002
00:58:20,760 --> 00:58:23,604
while also covering the sequence
in the hospital

1003
00:58:23,680 --> 00:58:27,241
where Mia's family is told that
how she does in the next several hours

1004
00:58:27,320 --> 00:58:29,607
is likely to determine her fate.

1005
00:58:30,080 --> 00:58:31,684
We tried so many songs here,

1006
00:58:31,760 --> 00:58:36,766
but then one day my friend John Silva,
who runs Silva Artist Management, called.

1007
00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:41,164
He represents Beck, and was wondering
if I wanted to hear the new album

1008
00:58:41,240 --> 00:58:43,846
which was still about a month away
from being released.

1009
00:58:43,920 --> 00:58:46,241
I put it on and the second song
was Morning.

1010
00:58:46,320 --> 00:58:50,120
We tried it over the montage
and that was that.

1011
00:58:51,200 --> 00:58:53,282
(BALLAD PLAYING)

1012
00:59:20,520 --> 00:59:21,681
LIDDY: Mr. and Mrs. Hall?

1013
00:59:21,840 --> 00:59:22,841
GRAMPSI Yes.

1014
00:59:24,640 --> 00:59:26,642
So, Mia's still unconscious.

1015
00:59:26,800 --> 00:59:29,167
The respiratory therapists
are going to run some tests

1016
00:59:29,240 --> 00:59:32,323
to see when they can wean
her off the ventilator.

1017
00:59:32,400 --> 00:59:34,129
So, that's good news.

1018
00:59:34,200 --> 00:59:36,282
If she can breathe on her own.

1019
00:59:36,360 --> 00:59:39,728
With comatose patients,
the first 24 hours are critical.

1020
00:59:39,800 --> 00:59:41,484
If she shows any signs of awareness...

1021
00:59:41,560 --> 00:59:43,449
- KIM: Adam.
- I'm sorry. I gotta go.

1022
00:59:43,520 --> 00:59:45,010
(BALLAD PLAYING)

1023
00:59:51,440 --> 00:59:54,808
(SINGING) Woke up this morning...

1024
00:59:55,680 --> 00:59:58,001
(TEACHER TALKING INDISTINCTLY)

1025
01:00:08,360 --> 01:00:12,046
Looked up this morning

1026
01:00:13,600 --> 01:00:18,891
Saw the roses full of thorns...

1027
01:00:25,880 --> 01:00:29,043
The food was good
but the service is a little, you know...

1028
01:00:29,160 --> 01:00:31,367
Well, I'm sorry. It's just the way things are.

1029
01:00:31,480 --> 01:00:33,403
GRAN: That's not necessary.

1030
01:00:34,040 --> 01:00:35,724
When are we gonna open presents?

1031
01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:37,211
- Mia?
- KAT: That's gonna be fun!

1032
01:00:37,400 --> 01:00:39,880
- Yeah, you wanna do that?
- Yeah, sure.

1033
01:00:42,320 --> 01:00:46,564
I've gone all around

1034
01:00:47,440 --> 01:00:53,129
Till there's nothing left to say

1035
01:00:58,960 --> 01:01:03,568
Wrote it all down

1036
01:01:04,400 --> 01:01:10,169
Into something that couldn't be said

1037
01:01:24,280 --> 01:01:27,170
I thought you were supposed to be, uh,

1038
01:01:27,240 --> 01:01:28,924
in Seattle.

1039
01:01:29,120 --> 01:01:32,806
No show tonight so I just thought
I'd drive down for the day.

1040
01:01:42,320 --> 01:01:43,606
MIA: What's that?

1041
01:01:44,120 --> 01:01:45,167
ADAM: It's a replica.

1042
01:01:45,320 --> 01:01:47,800
Of Jolari Hall in San Francisco.

1043
01:01:47,880 --> 01:01:49,484
Where you'll be auditioning for Juilliard.

1044
01:01:50,080 --> 01:01:51,844
That's the ceiling.

1045
01:01:52,000 --> 01:01:54,002
I put it up there.

1046
01:01:54,080 --> 01:01:55,206
MIA: It's intense.

1047
01:01:55,680 --> 01:01:58,968
Yeah. I figured,
you know, if you look at it every night

1048
01:01:59,120 --> 01:02:01,441
it wouldn't seem so scary
when you get there.

1049
01:02:04,800 --> 01:02:06,609
What do you want, Adam?

1050
01:02:08,320 --> 01:02:09,367
Mia, I'm sorry.

1051
01:02:09,520 --> 01:02:12,171
- I know, I suck.
- No, no.

1052
01:02:12,320 --> 01:02:14,607
You can't just disappear
from my life like that

1053
01:02:14,760 --> 01:02:16,524
and pop back into it
whenever you feel like it.

1054
01:02:16,680 --> 01:02:18,489
I know. It's just,

1055
01:02:18,640 --> 01:02:21,883
the people in my life
have a habit of disappearing on me

1056
01:02:22,040 --> 01:02:23,485
and when you started making plans...

1057
01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:25,642
You're not gonna lose me.

1058
01:02:27,880 --> 01:02:29,723
Adam, I love you.

1059
01:02:31,680 --> 01:02:33,523
But these last few days

1060
01:02:34,360 --> 01:02:36,124
have been brutal.

1061
01:02:36,320 --> 01:02:37,845
I know.

1062
01:02:37,960 --> 01:02:39,485
I know. For me too.

1063
01:02:48,160 --> 01:02:49,491
Happy birthday.

1064
01:02:52,080 --> 01:02:53,605
Well, at least I know the wrapping's yours.

1065
01:02:53,680 --> 01:02:55,045
Shut up. And just open it. Come on.

1066
01:03:02,000 --> 01:03:04,207
It's a cello and a guitar.

1067
01:03:04,880 --> 01:03:06,405
Do you get it?

1068
01:03:28,440 --> 01:03:30,681
(SIGHS) God, I hate you.

1069
01:03:46,920 --> 01:03:49,400
When did you know you were good
at playing music?

1070
01:03:50,200 --> 01:03:51,850
Oh, I dunno.

1071
01:03:51,920 --> 01:03:53,046
Come on.

1072
01:03:53,120 --> 01:03:55,088
What was, like, the moment?

1073
01:03:56,920 --> 01:03:58,763
Actually, there was one night.

1074
01:03:59,840 --> 01:04:01,968
When we first started playing out.

1075
01:04:03,600 --> 01:04:06,251
Right before the show,
Liz talked me into going to the liquor store

1076
01:04:06,360 --> 01:04:08,328
and getting her a Red Bull.

1077
01:04:10,680 --> 01:04:12,284
Solgo in

1078
01:04:13,440 --> 01:04:16,364
and there's this drunk dude
buying a bottle of Jack.

1079
01:04:19,040 --> 01:04:20,963
And I realize it's him.

1080
01:04:22,520 --> 01:04:24,249
It's my old man.

1081
01:04:26,120 --> 01:04:27,531
And I just

1082
01:04:27,800 --> 01:04:29,325
stop cold.

1083
01:04:31,840 --> 01:04:33,888
And he just looks right at me

1084
01:04:34,480 --> 01:04:36,005
and walks out.

1085
01:04:37,040 --> 01:04:38,804
No idea who I was.

1086
01:04:41,640 --> 01:04:43,005
Shit, Adam.

1087
01:04:44,120 --> 01:04:47,727
Then that night, I played like I was on fire.

1088
01:04:47,800 --> 01:04:50,644
I don't know if I thought I was good.

1089
01:04:50,720 --> 01:04:53,326
I just knew that nothing else mattered.

1090
01:04:54,720 --> 01:04:56,449
Till now.

1091
01:04:56,520 --> 01:04:57,931
Till you.

1092
01:05:01,800 --> 01:05:03,723
(BREATH ES DEEPLY)

1093
01:05:09,560 --> 01:05:11,085
When I play,

1094
01:05:13,200 --> 01:05:16,886
I kind of picture myself inside the cello.

1095
01:05:19,200 --> 01:05:21,680
-It's like my little house.
- Really?

1096
01:05:25,680 --> 01:05:28,889
Actually, no.
I'm totallyjust in it for the guys.

1097
01:05:29,120 --> 01:05:30,360
Oh.

1098
01:05:32,720 --> 01:05:34,688
- I got you, didn't I?
- Yeah.

1099
01:05:34,840 --> 01:05:35,841
Yeah.

1100
01:05:43,560 --> 01:05:45,164
(MACHINE BEEPING)

1101
01:06:00,440 --> 01:06:03,364
MIA: How am I supposed to
find the strength to stay?

1102
01:06:04,720 --> 01:06:07,405
What would it feel like
to wake up an orphan?

1103
01:06:08,600 --> 01:06:11,490
To never smell Dad cooking pancakes?

1104
01:06:11,880 --> 01:06:15,726
To never stand next to Mom
quietly talking as we do the dishes?

1105
01:06:17,680 --> 01:06:19,409
But how could I go?

1106
01:06:22,600 --> 01:06:25,206
The nurse said I control this whole thing.

1107
01:06:25,280 --> 01:06:27,965
If I live, if I die.

1108
01:06:28,080 --> 01:06:29,570
It's all up to me.

1109
01:06:31,080 --> 01:06:33,845
And that terrifies me
more than anything else.

1110
01:06:39,240 --> 01:06:40,480
MAN: Mia Hall.

1111
01:06:41,280 --> 01:06:42,611
Good luck.

1112
01:06:49,640 --> 01:06:53,247
CUTLER: Towards the beginning of If I Stay,
Adam and Mia meet for the first time

1113
01:06:53,360 --> 01:06:55,249
and he asks her out on a date.

1114
01:06:55,320 --> 01:06:59,609
When she resists, he persuades her
by saying, "it's too late. I see you."

1115
01:06:59,680 --> 01:07:03,810
What he might've said is, "it's too late.
I've seen you play the cello."

1116
01:07:03,880 --> 01:07:06,201
For what really ties
Adam and Mia together,

1117
01:07:06,280 --> 01:07:10,285
what forms the foundation
of their great love, is music.

1118
01:07:10,960 --> 01:07:13,611
When Adam watches Mia practice
Bach's Prelude,

1119
01:07:13,680 --> 01:07:17,730
when Mia watches Adam perform
I Want What You've Got with his band,

1120
01:07:17,800 --> 01:07:20,167
they see each other, know each other,

1121
01:07:20,240 --> 01:07:23,961
connect with each other in ways
that neither has ever experienced before.

1122
01:07:24,480 --> 01:07:28,724
These two teenagers who, on the surface,
couldn't be more different,

1123
01:07:28,800 --> 01:07:32,805
are in fact deeply similar
because of their love for music.

1124
01:07:33,480 --> 01:07:35,926
(PLAYING CLASSICAL MUSIC)

1125
01:08:46,160 --> 01:08:47,161
(some ENDS)

1126
01:08:48,000 --> 01:08:48,808
(PANTING)

1127
01:09:07,280 --> 01:09:09,681
Thanks for driving me, Gramps.

1128
01:09:09,800 --> 01:09:11,325
I mean, that was...

1129
01:09:12,560 --> 01:09:13,766
(EXHALES)

1130
01:09:14,400 --> 01:09:15,401
Thank you.

1131
01:09:16,200 --> 01:09:17,281
Mia.

1132
01:09:19,960 --> 01:09:21,962
CUTLER:
We originally thought Adam would play

1133
01:09:22,040 --> 01:09:24,168
I Never Wanted To Go on electric guitar.

1134
01:09:24,240 --> 01:09:27,483
In fact, we recorded it in the studio
on electric guitar.

1135
01:09:28,200 --> 01:09:30,601
But when we got to set
and were preparing to shoot,

1136
01:09:30,680 --> 01:09:34,127
Jamie picked up the acoustic guitar
and started fiddling around.

1137
01:09:34,200 --> 01:09:36,487
Playing the song and singing it.

1138
01:09:36,560 --> 01:09:38,801
And I loved how it sounded so much.

1139
01:09:38,880 --> 01:09:42,521
It was so different than
anything we had heard him do,

1140
01:09:42,600 --> 01:09:46,924
that we decided then and there
to change it to acoustic guitar.

1141
01:09:47,000 --> 01:09:49,924
It's really one of my favorite
musical moments in the film.

1142
01:09:50,000 --> 01:09:54,005
And it's so beautiful how Mia looks at him
while he's performing it.

1143
01:09:54,080 --> 01:09:58,244
Loving what a brilliant artist he is,
even as she is realizing that

1144
01:09:58,320 --> 01:10:00,891
things might never be the same
between them again.

1145
01:10:00,960 --> 01:10:03,884
We loved Jamie's performance
of the song so much

1146
01:10:03,960 --> 01:10:05,962
that we ended up using
I Never Wanted To Go

1147
01:10:06,040 --> 01:10:08,122
as the second song in the closing credits.

1148
01:10:10,200 --> 01:10:12,407
(GUITAR PLAYING BALLAD)

1149
01:10:18,800 --> 01:10:21,485
ADAM: (SINGING)
I spend these hollow nights

1150
01:10:22,320 --> 01:10:24,800
All alone

1151
01:10:29,160 --> 01:10:31,640
Safe from the looking glass

1152
01:10:32,440 --> 01:10:35,364
Which you kept home

1153
01:10:39,440 --> 01:10:42,046
I saw the sea and knew

1154
01:10:42,280 --> 01:10:46,080
It was a mirage

1155
01:10:49,680 --> 01:10:52,001
It wasn't even so

1156
01:10:52,840 --> 01:10:55,650
I played the odds

1157
01:10:58,440 --> 01:11:00,681
I never wanted to go

1158
01:11:01,000 --> 01:11:03,367
And now I'm letting you know

1159
01:11:03,440 --> 01:11:05,807
I just wanted to feel

1160
01:11:06,000 --> 01:11:09,527
The life in me

1161
01:11:09,960 --> 01:11:11,371
(some ENDS)

1162
01:11:12,640 --> 01:11:13,641
(MIA CLAPPING)

1163
01:11:15,200 --> 01:11:17,043
Oh, hey! You're back.

1164
01:11:17,120 --> 01:11:19,487
That was a really beautiful song, Adam.

1165
01:11:19,680 --> 01:11:21,205
It's gettin' there.

1166
01:11:22,520 --> 01:11:23,567
How'd it go?

1167
01:11:23,640 --> 01:11:25,324
Did you kill the audition?

1168
01:11:25,400 --> 01:11:26,970
Are they gonna let you in
on a full scholarship?

1169
01:11:27,040 --> 01:11:28,041
(MIA LAUGHS)

1170
01:11:28,200 --> 01:11:30,487
I did all right, I guess.

1171
01:11:30,560 --> 01:11:32,164
But it's kinda like

1172
01:11:32,240 --> 01:11:33,651
playing to statues.

1173
01:11:33,720 --> 01:11:36,041
Oh, come on.
I bet you did better than you think.

1174
01:11:36,120 --> 01:11:37,485
And if not...

1175
01:11:39,800 --> 01:11:41,609
Actually...

1176
01:11:41,760 --> 01:11:45,606
Adam, I played better than
I have in my entire life.

1177
01:11:47,040 --> 01:11:51,284
It was like I was possessed and the music,
it just...

1178
01:11:51,360 --> 01:11:53,522
It poured out of me.

1179
01:11:54,440 --> 01:11:57,887
God. I've never felt
anything like that before.

1180
01:11:59,640 --> 01:12:00,641
Wow.

1181
01:12:01,760 --> 01:12:03,603
I wish I could've seen that.

1182
01:12:04,840 --> 01:12:06,330
Yeah, me too.

1183
01:12:08,320 --> 01:12:11,005
You know, for once, I actually felt

1184
01:12:11,760 --> 01:12:13,569
like I could do this.

1185
01:12:15,760 --> 01:12:19,481
Why didn't you call me
after the audition to brag?

1186
01:12:19,640 --> 01:12:22,325
I know I should have, but...

1187
01:12:24,200 --> 01:12:26,601
- I don't wanna fight, okay?
- I know. I don't wanna fight.

1188
01:12:28,280 --> 01:12:29,566
(SIGHS)

1189
01:12:30,440 --> 01:12:32,920
Okay, well, you played better
than you have in your entire life.

1190
01:12:33,000 --> 01:12:34,490
We should celebrate.

1191
01:12:35,840 --> 01:12:37,763
(BALLAD PLAYING)

1192
01:12:44,440 --> 01:12:47,284
So how come you've never
written a song for me?

1193
01:12:47,440 --> 01:12:50,842
I don't know, I'm no good at writing
about things that make me happy.

1194
01:12:50,960 --> 01:12:53,486
If you want a song, you're gonna have to,
like, cheat on me or something.

1195
01:12:53,600 --> 01:12:55,204
What do I have to do for a whole album?

1196
01:12:55,280 --> 01:12:57,044
Come on. Don't get greedy.

1197
01:12:57,440 --> 01:12:58,601
(LAUGHS)

1198
01:13:01,520 --> 01:13:03,124
You know, I don't think I'll even get in.

1199
01:13:03,280 --> 01:13:07,808
There were like 100 other kids there.
Then I don't have to choose, right?

1200
01:13:07,960 --> 01:13:11,521
But if you do get in,
the choice is already made, isn't it?

1201
01:13:11,640 --> 01:13:13,881
Mia, come on.
I'm not gonna be that asshole

1202
01:13:13,960 --> 01:13:16,361
that stops you from going to Juilliard.

1203
01:13:16,440 --> 01:13:19,125
If it was me, you'd let me go.

1204
01:13:19,200 --> 01:13:21,646
Yeah, but in a way, I already have.

1205
01:13:22,360 --> 01:13:24,283
You know,
you're going to your own Juilliard.

1206
01:13:24,640 --> 01:13:25,926
Yeah, I know.

1207
01:13:26,960 --> 01:13:28,485
But I'm still here.

1208
01:13:29,880 --> 01:13:32,645
Okay? And I'm still crazy in love with you.

1209
01:13:34,680 --> 01:13:36,409
Yeah, me too.

1210
01:13:55,840 --> 01:13:57,444
There you are.

1211
01:13:57,840 --> 01:13:59,842
Been looking everywhere for you.

1212
01:14:02,520 --> 01:14:05,364
Guess your big show got canceled, huh?

1213
01:14:05,520 --> 01:14:07,170
Like I give a shit.

1214
01:14:08,640 --> 01:14:10,608
- Oh, I'm sorry. I'm just...
- No, it's fine.

1215
01:14:10,680 --> 01:14:11,920
I get it.

1216
01:14:17,440 --> 01:14:19,329
The first day, man.

1217
01:14:20,880 --> 01:14:25,727
The first day I walked past that room
and saw her playing, that was it.

1218
01:14:30,560 --> 01:14:32,130
God, I'm such an asshole.

1219
01:14:32,200 --> 01:14:34,043
No, Adam. Don't.

1220
01:14:39,320 --> 01:14:41,971
She get in? To Juilliard?

1221
01:14:43,840 --> 01:14:45,046
I don't know.

1222
01:14:45,720 --> 01:14:48,007
Letters sent out Friday.

1223
01:14:48,160 --> 01:14:50,367
I think she was supposed to hear today.

1224
01:14:51,840 --> 01:14:53,205
I can't.

1225
01:14:53,360 --> 01:14:55,249
I can't lose her again.

1226
01:14:57,920 --> 01:14:59,081
Let's go.

1227
01:15:05,760 --> 01:15:07,091
(MACHINE BEEPING)

1228
01:15:20,440 --> 01:15:21,441
What now?

1229
01:15:22,600 --> 01:15:24,443
ADAM: Well, I gotta get in there.
I gotta see her.

1230
01:15:31,600 --> 01:15:32,601
Excuse me.

1231
01:15:32,760 --> 01:15:37,209
Hi, there's this girl and she's having a baby
in the bathroom on the third floor.

1232
01:15:37,360 --> 01:15:38,850
And she's down there
and she's just grunting

1233
01:15:38,960 --> 01:15:40,644
and screaming
and there's blood everywhere!

1234
01:15:40,800 --> 01:15:42,006
And it's really unsanitary,

1235
01:15:42,080 --> 01:15:43,491
and we really need
someone down there right now.

1236
01:15:43,640 --> 01:15:44,641
Okay...

1237
01:15:44,760 --> 01:15:47,240
We really need someone
down there right now!

1238
01:15:47,400 --> 01:15:48,731
- Shi't!
-(WHISPERS) Go!

1239
01:15:54,880 --> 01:15:57,087
Excuse me, young man,
I've told you you can't be here.

1240
01:15:57,560 --> 01:16:00,131
- Security, get me Security. Right now.
- Mia Hall?

1241
01:16:02,040 --> 01:16:04,407
Please, I just wanna feel you touch me.

1242
01:16:04,560 --> 01:16:06,164
- Mia.
- Please.

1243
01:16:07,320 --> 01:16:09,084
GUARD 1: Hands off.
GUARD 2: Come on.

1244
01:16:09,560 --> 01:16:11,244
ADAM: What are you doing? Get off me!

1245
01:16:11,400 --> 01:16:13,323
You can't do this to him!

1246
01:16:14,080 --> 01:16:16,287
You know, I tried to do this the nice way.

1247
01:16:16,440 --> 01:16:18,249
You wouldn't know nice
if it bit you in the ass, lady.

1248
01:16:18,560 --> 01:16:20,085
Hey. Knock it off.

1249
01:16:20,760 --> 01:16:22,410
ADAM: Willow?
MIA: Willow?

1250
01:16:22,560 --> 01:16:25,166
- What the hell is going on?
- They were trying to break into the ICU.

1251
01:16:25,320 --> 01:16:28,085
Yeah, 'cause Jabba the Nurse
wouldn't let us in to see Mia.

1252
01:16:28,160 --> 01:16:30,640
WILLOW: Well, I know these kids
personally, so, why don't you just let me

1253
01:16:30,720 --> 01:16:32,245
handle it from here.

1254
01:16:33,840 --> 01:16:36,810
Fine. Then just keep them in
the waiting room.

1255
01:16:41,200 --> 01:16:42,850
What the hell were you guys thinking?

1256
01:16:43,000 --> 01:16:44,650
ADAM: I need to see Mia.

1257
01:16:46,960 --> 01:16:49,361
Well, she's gonna need you now
more than ever.

1258
01:16:52,080 --> 01:16:53,570
Hey, what's going on?

1259
01:16:54,640 --> 01:16:56,449
Willow, what's happening?

1260
01:16:58,200 --> 01:16:59,690
Willow, why aren't you with Teddy?

1261
01:17:00,760 --> 01:17:01,807
Willow.

1262
01:17:03,200 --> 01:17:04,645
Oh, shit.

1263
01:17:05,200 --> 01:17:06,326
Teddy!

1264
01:17:12,840 --> 01:17:14,285
Mr. and Mrs. Hall.

1265
01:17:15,280 --> 01:17:17,203
- Teddy.
- DR. DEVENNE: I'm Dr. DeVenne.

1266
01:17:18,200 --> 01:17:19,964
- Teddy?
- DR. DEVENNE: lam so sorry.

1267
01:17:20,400 --> 01:17:21,561
MIA: Where is he?

1268
01:17:21,720 --> 01:17:24,166
He had an epidural hemorrhage
in the brain.

1269
01:17:24,240 --> 01:17:26,049
We did everything we could to save him.

1270
01:17:26,560 --> 01:17:27,846
No!

1271
01:17:32,240 --> 01:17:35,642
MIA: He will never graduate
from T-ball to baseball.

1272
01:17:35,800 --> 01:17:37,643
And never learn to drive.

1273
01:17:38,480 --> 01:17:39,641
Never kiss a girl.

1274
01:17:39,840 --> 01:17:41,080
TEDDY". You can't catch me!

1275
01:17:41,240 --> 01:17:42,571
MIA: Never fall in love.

1276
01:17:48,240 --> 01:17:49,605
(CRYING) God!

1277
01:17:52,320 --> 01:17:54,368
I don't wanna... I don't wanna...

1278
01:17:56,320 --> 01:17:57,890
God, I don't wanna...

1279
01:17:58,040 --> 01:18:01,567
I don't wanna do this anymore.
I want this to be over!

1280
01:18:02,320 --> 01:18:04,084
(MACHINE BEEPING RAPIDLY)

1281
01:18:16,040 --> 01:18:17,041
DOCTOR 42 Give me the chart.

1282
01:18:17,120 --> 01:18:18,281
NURSE RAMIREZ: Abdomen's rigid.
Full of fluid.

1283
01:18:18,440 --> 01:18:21,364
DOCTOR 4: Jesus. Splenectomy,
brain contusions, collapsed lung.

1284
01:18:21,520 --> 01:18:22,521
We gotta run.

1285
01:18:22,600 --> 01:18:24,090
NURSE DAVIS:
BP and pulse ox are dropping.

1286
01:18:24,240 --> 01:18:26,368
Okay, let's get her back in surgery.
Let's go, come on.

1287
01:18:26,520 --> 01:18:28,568
Get out of the way. Swipe the door, please.

1288
01:18:28,760 --> 01:18:30,808
DOCTOR 4: Get that elevator.
MAN: Out of the way!

1289
01:18:32,240 --> 01:18:33,765
They know we're coming?

1290
01:18:35,640 --> 01:18:38,484
All right, sweetheart.
We can only carry you so far.

1291
01:18:38,640 --> 01:18:40,483
After that, it's all you.

1292
01:18:44,320 --> 01:18:45,606
ADAM: Oh, my God. Mia.

1293
01:18:49,440 --> 01:18:50,930
- Oh, my God.
- Adam.

1294
01:18:52,240 --> 01:18:53,765
Goodbye, Adam.

1295
01:18:54,840 --> 01:18:56,888
(ROCK MUSIC PLAYING)

1296
01:18:57,040 --> 01:18:59,202
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

1297
01:19:01,920 --> 01:19:05,003
-it's almost time. It's almost time.
- I'll take some of that. Yeah.

1298
01:19:05,560 --> 01:19:07,005
- Do not!
- Thank you!

1299
01:19:08,160 --> 01:19:09,491
Cheers.

1300
01:19:11,400 --> 01:19:12,970
ALL: Nine, eight, seven, six...

1301
01:19:13,120 --> 01:19:15,122
- ADAM: There you are!
- Here I am!

1302
01:19:15,280 --> 01:19:17,123
ALL: ...five, four...

1303
01:19:17,280 --> 01:19:19,681
...three, two, one.

1304
01:19:19,840 --> 01:19:21,842
Happy New Year!

1305
01:19:21,920 --> 01:19:23,570
(ALL CHEERING)

1306
01:19:25,160 --> 01:19:28,767
"Even when they were just wasting time

1307
01:19:28,840 --> 01:19:30,729
"they weren't wasting time.

1308
01:19:30,800 --> 01:19:33,963
"It was as if no time they spent together
could ever be wasted."

1309
01:19:34,760 --> 01:19:37,445
- Who said that?
-(LAUGHING) Some guy in some book.

1310
01:19:37,600 --> 01:19:38,886
And what was he talking about?

1311
01:19:39,000 --> 01:19:40,764
Some couple in some movie.

1312
01:19:40,960 --> 01:19:43,122
- My point is...
- Yes, maestro?

1313
01:19:43,280 --> 01:19:46,966
My point is he could have been
talking about us.

1314
01:19:47,120 --> 01:19:49,009
- That he could.
-(BOTH LAUGH)

1315
01:20:02,280 --> 01:20:03,441
Promise me.

1316
01:20:03,520 --> 01:20:04,885
I promise you.

1317
01:20:05,400 --> 01:20:06,811
Wait, what am I promising?

1318
01:20:08,040 --> 01:20:10,361
That we'll spend next New Year's together.

1319
01:20:12,720 --> 01:20:15,166
CUTLER: Sonic Youth
is one of the many bands

1320
01:20:15,240 --> 01:20:18,323
referenced in Gayle Forman's book,
If I Stay.

1321
01:20:18,400 --> 01:20:22,530
And Karen Revisited is, in fact,
the only song we ever considered using

1322
01:20:22,600 --> 01:20:26,969
over the scene where Mia and Kat
talk about love and heartbreak

1323
01:20:27,040 --> 01:20:29,486
while doing the dishes on New Year's Day.

1324
01:20:29,560 --> 01:20:32,484
When I first read Gayle's book,
this was my very favorite scene.

1325
01:20:32,560 --> 01:20:36,610
I was just so moved by the honesty
between mother and daughter

1326
01:20:36,680 --> 01:20:40,162
and by the fact that
Kat can't solve Mia's problems,

1327
01:20:40,240 --> 01:20:43,801
but she can promise her
unconditional support and love.

1328
01:20:44,200 --> 01:20:48,569
It's a great scene, beautifully performed by
Mireille Enos and Chloe Moretz

1329
01:20:48,640 --> 01:20:51,405
and it's a great song
beautifully performed by Sonic Youth.

1330
01:20:51,840 --> 01:20:53,604
KAT AND WILLOW: (SINGING)
The old thing

1331
01:20:53,760 --> 01:20:55,125
DENNY: All right.
H EN RY: Delicious!

1332
01:20:55,280 --> 01:20:56,930
- DENNY: What are you looking at?
-(LAUGHTER)

1333
01:20:57,120 --> 01:20:59,361
KAT: Because we're fascinated.

1334
01:20:59,520 --> 01:21:00,521
HENRY: You!
WILLOW: Fascinating.

1335
01:21:00,680 --> 01:21:03,160
- HENRY: You're a spatula man now.
-(DRUMMING ON TABLE)

1336
01:21:03,280 --> 01:21:05,248
KAT: Look it, a drummer.
WILLOW: He's totally drumming with it.

1337
01:21:05,400 --> 01:21:07,289
DENNY: Come on, give me your plate.
All right, get ready.

1338
01:21:07,440 --> 01:21:08,930
Hey! There she is.

1339
01:21:09,000 --> 01:21:10,047
Hey!

1340
01:21:10,120 --> 01:21:11,645
KAT: Happy New Year!

1341
01:21:11,760 --> 01:21:13,205
DENNY: If you're still drunk,
you're totally grounded.

1342
01:21:13,280 --> 01:21:14,930
If not, I'm gonna let it slide.

1343
01:21:15,080 --> 01:21:16,241
I'm definitely not drunk.

1344
01:21:16,400 --> 01:21:18,801
Well, you were still out all night
so come on. Spill.

1345
01:21:18,960 --> 01:21:20,086
How was the party?

1346
01:21:20,280 --> 01:21:21,486
Fine.

1347
01:21:21,640 --> 01:21:23,051
KAT: How was Adam?

1348
01:21:27,960 --> 01:21:30,804
Okay, everybody.
Let's move this party to another room.

1349
01:21:31,240 --> 01:21:32,446
Let's go.

1350
01:21:32,600 --> 01:21:34,489
Take your mimosas.

1351
01:21:34,640 --> 01:21:36,404
DENNY: We'll go watch the Rose Parade.

1352
01:21:37,480 --> 01:21:39,642
WILLOW: (WHISPERS)
Come on. Let's go.

1353
01:21:41,520 --> 01:21:43,204
(MIA SOBBING)

1354
01:21:49,320 --> 01:21:50,810
I'm sorry.

1355
01:21:50,960 --> 01:21:52,325
Oh, God, it's gross.

1356
01:21:52,480 --> 01:21:53,970
It's not gross.

1357
01:21:55,000 --> 01:21:56,411
Oh, God.

1358
01:21:57,280 --> 01:21:59,601
- You wash, I'll dry.
- Yeah.

1359
01:21:59,760 --> 01:22:01,285
Make us feel better.

1360
01:22:01,440 --> 01:22:03,329
Warm water, soap.

1361
01:22:05,920 --> 01:22:07,126
Oh, God.

1362
01:22:07,320 --> 01:22:09,527
I'm such a mess.

1363
01:22:09,800 --> 01:22:14,169
You know, we had this perfect
year and a half together.

1364
01:22:16,920 --> 01:22:21,721
And now,
we're just moving in different directions.

1365
01:22:21,840 --> 01:22:23,205
Is it over?

1366
01:22:24,360 --> 01:22:25,521
Yeah.

1367
01:22:30,040 --> 01:22:31,804
You're supposed to break up with someone

1368
01:22:31,880 --> 01:22:33,325
because you're not in love with them.

1369
01:22:33,400 --> 01:22:35,448
Not because you're completely
in love with them.

1370
01:22:39,720 --> 01:22:41,449
But what do I know, right?

1371
01:22:41,800 --> 01:22:43,882
You know plenty.

1372
01:22:44,000 --> 01:22:46,731
It's just very inconvenient
to fall in love at your age.

1373
01:22:47,040 --> 01:22:48,530
Especially if it's the real thing.

1374
01:22:48,600 --> 01:22:51,524
You know, if we weren't musicians,
we could just...

1375
01:22:51,600 --> 01:22:54,206
We could just go to college together.

1376
01:22:54,360 --> 01:22:55,964
You know, like normal people do.

1377
01:22:56,080 --> 01:22:57,684
There's no such thing as normal, Mia.

1378
01:22:57,760 --> 01:22:59,967
Every relationship is rough.
I don't have to tell you that.

1379
01:23:00,040 --> 01:23:02,168
- Yeah, I know.
- Don't blame it on music.

1380
01:23:02,320 --> 01:23:04,243
Yeah, but music's the reason
we're breaking up.

1381
01:23:05,720 --> 01:23:08,564
That is bullshit, Mia. You know that.

1382
01:23:08,760 --> 01:23:10,569
What am I gonna do?

1383
01:23:11,760 --> 01:23:14,286
I am being completely torn in half.

1384
01:23:16,240 --> 01:23:19,403
You're going to go to Juilliard
and play the hell out of your cello.

1385
01:23:20,760 --> 01:23:22,603
Or you're not.

1386
01:23:23,680 --> 01:23:27,321
You're gonna stay with Adam
and have lots of amazing adventures.

1387
01:23:27,520 --> 01:23:29,090
Or you're not.

1388
01:23:29,240 --> 01:23:32,130
Or maybe tomorrow,
the Earth's gonna smash into a meteor.

1389
01:23:32,280 --> 01:23:33,645
Or it's not.

1390
01:23:34,360 --> 01:23:37,682
Life is this big fat gigantic stinking mess.

1391
01:23:37,840 --> 01:23:39,968
But that's the beauty of it too.

1392
01:23:41,600 --> 01:23:43,762
Whatever you do, I support you.

1393
01:23:43,960 --> 01:23:45,246
Either way, you win.

1394
01:23:46,600 --> 01:23:49,046
And also either way
there's something that you lose.

1395
01:23:51,440 --> 01:23:53,283
What can I say, baby?

1396
01:23:54,200 --> 01:23:56,282
True love's a bitch.

1397
01:24:06,760 --> 01:24:08,683
(MACHINE BEEPING)

1398
01:24:56,040 --> 01:24:57,201
Stamps.

1399
01:24:59,520 --> 01:25:01,204
Gramps, what do I do?

1400
01:25:08,240 --> 01:25:10,561
I've been trying to think

1401
01:25:10,720 --> 01:25:14,691
of what Denny
would want me to say to you.

1402
01:25:15,520 --> 01:25:17,204
The kid was a helluva of dad, wasn't he?

1403
01:25:18,440 --> 01:25:20,442
He sure had me beat.

1404
01:25:21,600 --> 01:25:26,049
I remember the day that he quit the band.

1405
01:25:27,760 --> 01:25:30,411
He just up and said,

1406
01:25:30,560 --> 01:25:33,291
"That's it. The time has come."

1407
01:25:35,040 --> 01:25:37,042
I was surprised.

1408
01:25:38,720 --> 01:25:41,929
I never really liked
the way the band sounded,

1409
01:25:43,080 --> 01:25:45,048
but I knew how important it was to him.

1410
01:25:45,240 --> 01:25:48,642
And so I asked him, I said,
"Why are you quitting?"

1411
01:25:49,560 --> 01:25:51,847
And he said,

1412
01:25:51,920 --> 01:25:55,527
"You make sacrifices for your kids.

1413
01:25:55,600 --> 01:25:57,364
"For your kids."

1414
01:25:58,720 --> 01:26:00,529
He said that without even blinking.

1415
01:26:00,600 --> 01:26:02,568
That's why he quit the band.

1416
01:26:02,760 --> 01:26:04,171
For Teddy.

1417
01:26:04,320 --> 01:26:05,560
For you.

1418
01:26:06,760 --> 01:26:09,843
It was when he heard you play so well.

1419
01:26:10,000 --> 01:26:12,401
I think that's when it clicked for him.

1420
01:26:13,640 --> 01:26:16,246
Your incredible talent, it...

1421
01:26:16,800 --> 01:26:20,407
He just couldn't believe it.

1422
01:26:20,520 --> 01:26:24,411
And all he wanted to do
was to give you more.

1423
01:26:24,760 --> 01:26:26,808
So, he quit the band,

1424
01:26:26,920 --> 01:26:28,684
he sold his drum kit

1425
01:26:29,800 --> 01:26:31,450
and he bought you that cello.

1426
01:26:33,440 --> 01:26:34,965
Sacrifice.

1427
01:26:35,840 --> 01:26:38,491
That's what we do
for the people that we love.

1428
01:26:40,680 --> 01:26:42,603
And here's mine, Mia.

1429
01:26:43,520 --> 01:26:45,284
I want you to live.

1430
01:26:45,960 --> 01:26:48,281
I want that more than anything
in this world.

1431
01:26:48,440 --> 01:26:51,967
I want you to fight like hell to stay with us.

1432
01:26:53,320 --> 01:26:56,290
But, with everybody else gone,

1433
01:26:56,480 --> 01:26:58,482
I know it might not be what you want.

1434
01:26:58,640 --> 01:27:02,804
It might be too hard for you
to keep fighting, so...

1435
01:27:05,800 --> 01:27:07,529
If you wanna go,

1436
01:27:08,960 --> 01:27:11,167
(VOICE BREAKING)
I want you to know it's okay.

1437
01:27:12,200 --> 01:27:13,565
It's okay.

1438
01:27:17,160 --> 01:27:19,003
I understand.

1439
01:27:30,520 --> 01:27:32,010
Thank you.

1440
01:27:40,040 --> 01:27:41,166
Gramps?

1441
01:27:50,320 --> 01:27:51,526
(INAUDIBLE)

1442
01:28:35,400 --> 01:28:36,561
Hey-

1443
01:28:38,880 --> 01:28:40,120
Hey-

1444
01:28:44,840 --> 01:28:49,129
So many people have come to see you
I've lost count of them all.

1445
01:28:50,440 --> 01:28:54,206
There are like 30 people

1446
01:28:54,280 --> 01:28:55,805
in that waiting room.

1447
01:28:59,240 --> 01:29:02,164
Some are related to you and some aren't,

1448
01:29:03,680 --> 01:29:05,523
but we're your family.

1449
01:29:08,080 --> 01:29:10,845
You still have a family, Mia.

1450
01:29:20,240 --> 01:29:21,480
(CHUCKLES)

1451
01:29:23,000 --> 01:29:24,331
Look. (SNIFFLES)

1452
01:29:26,160 --> 01:29:28,606
This is my favorite picture of you.

1453
01:29:28,800 --> 01:29:29,801
Even

1454
01:29:32,120 --> 01:29:33,610
You were so happy that day.

1455
01:29:38,000 --> 01:29:39,764
And no matter what,

1456
01:29:40,640 --> 01:29:43,325
that's the way
I'm always gonna remember you.

1457
01:29:51,800 --> 01:29:55,805
MIA: The best day of my life
was one I never even saw coming.

1458
01:29:56,040 --> 01:29:57,246
It was Labor Day,

1459
01:29:57,320 --> 01:30:00,529
early this fall before things
started to go bad with Adam.

1460
01:30:01,160 --> 01:30:04,562
In some ways,
it was just like a usual potluck dinner.

1461
01:30:05,520 --> 01:30:07,727
But there was a special feel to it.

1462
01:30:10,080 --> 01:30:12,128
CUTLER: We were struggling
to find the song that

1463
01:30:12,200 --> 01:30:13,884
Adam and Mia perform with everyone

1464
01:30:13,960 --> 01:30:15,246
at the Labor Day bonfire,

1465
01:30:15,320 --> 01:30:19,370
when one day, a couple of weeks
before we had to shoot the scene,

1466
01:30:19,440 --> 01:30:22,603
Alison Greenspan, our producer
sent around a YouTube clip

1467
01:30:22,680 --> 01:30:25,160
of The Smashing Pumpkins' song Today.

1468
01:30:26,160 --> 01:30:29,801
It really seemed to be perfect
right off the bat.

1469
01:30:29,880 --> 01:30:31,848
Beautiful, heartbreaking,

1470
01:30:31,920 --> 01:30:37,086
and something that would sound awesome
performed by acoustic guitar and cello.

1471
01:30:37,200 --> 01:30:40,090
The biggest problem was
figuring out a way to afford it.

1472
01:30:40,160 --> 01:30:43,403
A song like Today
could be prohibitively expensive.

1473
01:30:43,480 --> 01:30:46,290
And also we were shooting it really soon

1474
01:30:46,360 --> 01:30:50,684
and getting approval from Billy Corgan,
the song's writer, could take too long.

1475
01:30:50,760 --> 01:30:54,890
But we decided to put in the request
and cross our fingers,

1476
01:30:54,960 --> 01:30:57,201
and seriously, within hours,

1477
01:30:57,280 --> 01:31:00,250
we heard back that Billy Corgan
had approved our use

1478
01:31:00,320 --> 01:31:01,970
at the amount we had in the budget.

1479
01:31:02,040 --> 01:31:04,122
We were told he loved If I Stay.

1480
01:31:04,200 --> 01:31:05,770
And he believed in it.

1481
01:31:05,840 --> 01:31:08,047
And he was happy to have us
using the song.

1482
01:31:08,160 --> 01:31:10,049
(PLAYING UPBEAT SONG)

1483
01:31:19,560 --> 01:31:20,891
(PLAYING ALONG)

1484
01:31:21,800 --> 01:31:24,883
MIA: I've always thought of the cello
as a solo instrument.

1485
01:31:25,240 --> 01:31:28,164
It's probably why
it's always made me so comfortable.

1486
01:31:28,320 --> 01:31:29,810
Just me and my cello.

1487
01:31:31,600 --> 01:31:36,561
But that night, sitting around the bonfire,
jamming with Adam and everyone else,

1488
01:31:36,760 --> 01:31:38,410
I realized I was wrong.

1489
01:31:38,560 --> 01:31:41,166
The cello isn't a solo instrument.

1490
01:31:41,600 --> 01:31:43,364
It's part of something bigger.

1491
01:31:43,440 --> 01:31:46,762
(SINGING) Today is the greatest

1492
01:31:47,080 --> 01:31:49,082
Day I've ever known

1493
01:31:49,240 --> 01:31:52,562
Can't live for tomorrow

1494
01:31:52,640 --> 01:31:54,688
Tomorrow's much too long

1495
01:31:55,080 --> 01:31:58,846
I'll burn my eyes out

1496
01:32:00,840 --> 01:32:05,289
Before I get out

1497
01:32:06,520 --> 01:32:09,569
I wanted more

1498
01:32:12,400 --> 01:32:17,440
Than life could ever grant me

1499
01:32:18,120 --> 01:32:21,249
Bored by the chore

1500
01:32:24,000 --> 01:32:26,890
Of saving face

1501
01:32:29,520 --> 01:32:32,842
ALL: (SINGING)
Today is the greatest

1502
01:32:33,280 --> 01:32:35,408
Day I've never known

1503
01:32:35,560 --> 01:32:38,848
Can't wait for tomorrow

1504
01:32:38,960 --> 01:32:40,962
I might not have that long

1505
01:32:41,320 --> 01:32:45,166
I'll tear my heart out

1506
01:32:47,160 --> 01:32:51,449
Before I get out

1507
01:33:00,080 --> 01:33:03,163
MIA: The thing is,
Mom and Dad always had their scene.

1508
01:33:03,320 --> 01:33:04,924
And Adam had his.

1509
01:33:05,120 --> 01:33:08,647
And I was always jealous
because I didn't have mine.

1510
01:33:08,760 --> 01:33:10,842
Until the night of the bonfire.

1511
01:33:11,520 --> 01:33:13,170
That was my scene.

1512
01:33:13,920 --> 01:33:15,365
That was where I belonged.

1513
01:33:16,040 --> 01:33:18,566
(ALL CONTINUE SINGING)

1514
01:33:19,520 --> 01:33:21,682
That's what happiness felt like.

1515
01:33:24,840 --> 01:33:27,002
But that could never exist again.

1516
01:33:37,720 --> 01:33:39,688
(MACHINE BEEPING)

1517
01:35:10,120 --> 01:35:12,361
(CHUCKLING SOFTLY)

1518
01:35:19,600 --> 01:35:23,650
(CELLO PLAYING
CLASSICAL MUSIC)

1519
01:35:29,160 --> 01:35:31,401
Just after this piece.

1520
01:36:06,680 --> 01:36:09,490
(SONG CONTINUES ON HEADPHONES)

1521
01:36:16,400 --> 01:36:17,526
Adam.

1522
01:36:33,320 --> 01:36:34,685
Mia.

1523
01:36:34,760 --> 01:36:35,807
Don't.

1524
01:36:35,880 --> 01:36:37,211
Sta)'-

1525
01:36:39,840 --> 01:36:42,969
I know a huge part of your life
is forever ruined

1526
01:36:43,040 --> 01:36:45,805
because of what happened today.

1527
01:36:45,880 --> 01:36:48,531
I'm not dumb enough
to think that I can fix it.

1528
01:36:48,600 --> 01:36:50,090
You can't.

1529
01:36:51,240 --> 01:36:52,969
But I went to your house.

1530
01:36:54,240 --> 01:36:57,562
And I had to climb up the balcony
to get in like I used to.

1531
01:36:59,680 --> 01:37:01,967
And I found this in your mail slot.
(SNIFFLES)

1532
01:37:04,120 --> 01:37:06,248
I totally broke and entered
and stole your mail,

1533
01:37:06,320 --> 01:37:08,243
so the Feds might be comin' after me.

1534
01:37:20,960 --> 01:37:22,246
"Dear Mia,

1535
01:37:22,600 --> 01:37:24,887
"it gives me tremendous pleasure..."

1536
01:37:28,600 --> 01:37:30,329
Mia, you got in.

1537
01:37:31,920 --> 01:37:33,922
To Juilliard. Mia, you did it.

1538
01:37:35,280 --> 01:37:36,645
I got in.

1539
01:37:39,600 --> 01:37:41,602
And if you want me to come with you,
I will.

1540
01:37:43,120 --> 01:37:44,963
Okay, I'll move to New York.

1541
01:39:09,280 --> 01:39:14,889
CUTLER: The end credit song for If I Stay
has to help the audience transition

1542
01:39:14,960 --> 01:39:18,442
from the intensity of the final moments
of the film,

1543
01:39:18,520 --> 01:39:23,321
while also resonating lyrically
and tonally with the story.

1544
01:39:23,400 --> 01:39:26,609
For weeks, we listened to songs
trying to find the right one.

1545
01:39:26,680 --> 01:39:30,651
We had almost given up
when our awesome music department,

1546
01:39:30,720 --> 01:39:34,202
Linda Cohen, our Music Supervisor,
Darren Higman from Warner Bros,

1547
01:39:34,320 --> 01:39:38,325
Erin Scully from New Line,
and Lori Silfen from MGM,

1548
01:39:38,400 --> 01:39:41,483
came to the edit bay one day
with a bunch of new options.

1549
01:39:41,560 --> 01:39:45,645
And this was something that we would do
every couple of days.

1550
01:39:45,720 --> 01:39:50,203
They would come in with 30 or 40 songs
and we'd listen to them,

1551
01:39:50,280 --> 01:39:52,089
and it was always,

1552
01:39:52,160 --> 01:39:55,642
"No. Nope. Not right.
No. Sorry. Nope, nope, nope, nope."

1553
01:39:55,920 --> 01:39:57,081
There was...

1554
01:39:57,160 --> 01:40:01,529
We'd listen, but it didn't work.
And it didn't work. And it didn't work.

1555
01:40:01,640 --> 01:40:05,247
And then we put on Tom Odell's Heal.

1556
01:40:06,600 --> 01:40:09,331
I mean, it was so perfect,
I couldn't believe it.

1557
01:40:09,440 --> 01:40:12,808
Later that night, I went home
and put it on the stereo at my house

1558
01:40:12,920 --> 01:40:15,924
and I sat outside, there's speakers outside,

1559
01:40:16,000 --> 01:40:21,530
and I just sat there
and listened to it over, and over, and over

1560
01:40:21,600 --> 01:40:23,284
for two hours.

1561
01:40:23,360 --> 01:40:25,249
We had found our end credit song.

1562
01:40:25,320 --> 01:40:27,482
(BALLAD PLAYING)

1563
01:40:33,960 --> 01:40:38,124
(SINGING) Take my mind
and take my pain

1564
01:40:41,280 --> 01:40:45,763
Like an empty bottle
takes the rain

1565
01:40:49,080 --> 01:40:54,166
And heal, heal

1566
01:40:54,880 --> 01:40:57,008
Heal, heal

1567
01:41:00,720 --> 01:41:05,408
Take my past
and take my sins

1568
01:41:08,320 --> 01:41:13,008
Like an empty sail
takes the wind

1569
01:41:16,040 --> 01:41:20,887
And heal, heal

1570
01:41:21,760 --> 01:41:24,047
Heal, heal

1571
01:41:27,440 --> 01:41:34,449
And tell me some things last

1572
01:41:36,880 --> 01:41:43,490
And tell me some things last

1573
01:42:01,680 --> 01:42:05,924
Take my heart
and take my hand

1574
01:42:08,360 --> 01:42:12,763
Like an ocean takes
the dirty sands

1575
01:42:15,840 --> 01:42:20,607
And heal, heal

1576
01:42:20,880 --> 01:42:23,247
Heal, heal

1577
01:42:25,920 --> 01:42:30,244
Take my mind
and take my pain

1578
01:42:33,240 --> 01:42:37,290
Like an empty bottle
takes the rain

1579
01:42:40,240 --> 01:42:44,928
And heal, heal

1580
01:42:45,240 --> 01:42:47,720
Heal, heal

1581
01:42:49,600 --> 01:42:55,960
And tell me some things last

1582
01:42:58,280 --> 01:43:04,561
And tell me some things last

1583
01:43:07,000 --> 01:43:13,451
And tell me some things last

1584
01:43:15,840 --> 01:43:22,371
And tell me some things last

1585
01:43:26,400 --> 01:43:28,129
(BALLAD PLAYING)

1586
01:43:36,760 --> 01:43:39,491
ADAM: (SINGING)
I spend these hollow nights

1587
01:43:40,280 --> 01:43:42,681
All alone

1588
01:43:46,840 --> 01:43:49,605
Safe from the looking glass

1589
01:43:50,240 --> 01:43:53,449
That you kept home

1590
01:43:56,440 --> 01:43:58,169
Let's go

1591
01:44:02,360 --> 01:44:05,091
I saw the sea and knew

1592
01:44:05,280 --> 01:44:09,251
It was a mirage

1593
01:44:12,480 --> 01:44:15,404
It wasn't even so

1594
01:44:15,840 --> 01:44:19,049
I played the odds

1595
01:44:23,480 --> 01:44:26,086
Full of black and blues

1596
01:44:28,600 --> 01:44:31,206
From all the nights with you

1597
01:44:31,360 --> 01:44:33,647
I never wanted to go

1598
01:44:34,000 --> 01:44:35,889
I don't want you anymore

1599
01:44:36,680 --> 01:44:41,561
I don't want you
to feel the same as me

1600
01:44:41,720 --> 01:44:44,041
I never wanted to go

1601
01:44:44,240 --> 01:44:46,481
But now I'm letting you know

1602
01:44:46,680 --> 01:44:48,967
I just wanted to feel

1603
01:44:49,200 --> 01:44:53,728
The life in me

1604
01:44:58,600 --> 01:45:01,444
I went from solid steel

1605
01:45:01,720 --> 01:45:05,008
To broken glass

1606
01:45:08,840 --> 01:45:11,571
The darkest side in me

1607
01:45:11,960 --> 01:45:14,725
You brought out fast

1608
01:45:19,640 --> 01:45:22,610
The things I said were true

1609
01:45:24,720 --> 01:45:27,405
I'm taking them back from you

1610
01:45:27,640 --> 01:45:30,041
I never wanted to go

1611
01:45:30,320 --> 01:45:32,322
I don't want you anymore

1612
01:45:32,960 --> 01:45:37,807
I don't want you
to feel the same as me

1613
01:45:37,880 --> 01:45:40,201
I never wanted to go

1614
01:45:40,560 --> 01:45:42,927
But now I'm letting you know

1615
01:45:43,120 --> 01:45:44,963
I just wanted to feel

1616
01:45:45,040 --> 01:45:48,886
The life in me

1617
01:45:50,040 --> 01:45:52,281
I miss you

1618
01:45:52,520 --> 01:45:54,682
I wish you

1619
01:45:55,880 --> 01:45:57,848
Will let me be

1620
01:46:00,240 --> 01:46:02,402
Just leave it

1621
01:46:02,640 --> 01:46:04,529
We stopped breathing

1622
01:46:04,600 --> 01:46:07,570
I need to be free

1623
01:46:08,480 --> 01:46:10,881
I never wanted to go

1624
01:46:11,120 --> 01:46:13,248
But now I'm letting you know

1625
01:46:13,600 --> 01:46:15,204
I just wanted to feel

1626
01:46:15,560 --> 01:46:21,329
The life in me