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- I don't know how long it has been. Ages, just an instant...it really doesn't matter anymore.
- They say all your life passes before your eyes when you die. I wish it were true. If I could only stop this suffering and be done with this cursed existence I now have to bear, every day a carbon copy of the previous one.
- Days. A funny way to describe this blurred veil of gray that now swallows all that I was.
- Sometimes they let me look at her. they let me wander the streets I once walked, distracted and buried in problems that now pale in the face of true despair.
- How naive, humans. How clueless, how lost.
- How I wish I could get back.
- I look in through the window. There she is. So beautiful. So perfect. If I still have a face, I guess I'm smiling.
- Grabbing a cup of tea, she sits on our couch and smiles as she looks at nowhere. Then I realize she's just crying in silence.
- I slowly move through the window and stand right in front of her. She's even more beautiful than I remember. Am I starting to forget? Maybe I'm fading. I don't know what happens to us after we're gone.
- Not that I care anymore.
- "I love you. I'm here," I whisper. I raise my hand, or the faint shape that is now my hand, and slightly put it against her face. "I miss you so much..."
- Nothing.
- This pain hurts more than a thousand deaths. The longing to feel her skin. The knowing that it will never happen.
- She raises her head all of a sudden. She's looking right at me.
- "It's me, honey. It's really me." My eyes widen as I reach her hand.
- "No!" She yells. "Stop!"
- Then she gets up and walks right past me, to the other side of the room. She grabs an empty glass right before the cat knocks it over our bookshelf.
- Of course it was the cat.
- I slowly walk out the door and instinctively my hand goes to the doorknob. I chuckle.
- If I still have a face, I sure as hell am crying.
- I won't ever come back. I don't want to suffer like this. The agony is unbearable. Maybe I should just let go, let the Oblivion take me.
- "Let go," I would always tell her, when things didn't go her way.
- But I don't want to let her go. I don't want to forget her face, her smile, how much I loved her.
- "Next time will be better," I kid myself as I fade into the blackness one more time.
- If only I could remember her name.
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