WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE

The meaning of life is to see how much pain you can handle, how much pain you can take before you end it. We all go through it every day, every damn day is another day of pain and regret.
And the problem with it is that there is only one way to handle this, it might not be what people wish, but it is what it is. We all know it, we might not show it, but deep down you know that it might end like this.

I wanna die, I don't care how I die, I just know it can't be more painful then what I'm going through every day.
Every day I wake up wishing that i didn't, I put on a fake smile and I walk out my room. people might want me to eat, but I can't, I don't have the energy, I can no longer feel hunger. i stopped feelin anything a long time ago.
I don't care if I die, I don't care what happens after I die, i just dont care anymore. i have never experienced a day where I haven't thought about killing myself, and I want help but I know it won't work.

I think everybody has a meaning in life, mine might not be what I wish it was, but I can't do anything about it. and i know I am the only one that can fix this, but I cant. I haven't found any reason to fix myself.

Sadness, depression, anxiety, loneliness, self-esteem, self-harm. These are only a little part of what we go through every day. And still, people don't notice, people don't notice that you are screaming for help. You are trying so hard to not show your pain, but sometimes you have to let all your pain go away. it might leave a scar but you know it helps you.

All of our pain is something that we hide, we put on a mask, and every once in a while we forget how to smile.
We use all of our energy on something that won't even matter, cause at the end nothing matters. it doesn't matter if everybody hated you if everybody loved you or even if you had everything that you wanted, what really matters at the is what you think of yourself.

even tho what I wrote now is my experience on life.
You're gonna make it, I can't promise that everything will go away. but find something that you can take all your feelings out on, it can be anything, just do what you want and you can get anywhere you want.
you can make it